Adieu & Farewell to All that.

Royals at court

Having spent several days, thanks to VPN, watching Norwegian TV’s NRK TV coverage of the passing of King Harald V and his funeral, it was really moving to have watched his funeral. This reception of royals paying their respects to the grieving Norwegian royals proved rather telling.

King Harald V
Prince Albert II & Princess Charlene of Monaco

First at court was HSH Prince Albert & Charlene of the Monegasque principality. Their interaction was adroit and fairly brief.

Swedish Royals

Next up, the august HM King Carl XVI Gustaf of Sweden with his always reserved wife, HM Queen Silvia. The Swedish king is now the oldest reigning monarch in Europe. Queen Silvia’s pillbox hat was, of course, reminiscent of Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis chic all nicely pulled off with a single strand pearl necklace.

Crown prince Alexander & crown princess Katherine of Yugoslavia wait to greet Queen Sonja

They were then followed by Crown Prince Alexander of Yugoslavia and his American Greek born wife, Crown Princess Katharine of Serbia. As they are minor royals on the periphery of royal society, they grinned and bow and seemed rather thrilled to have been invited.

Hereditary prince Alois of Liechtenstein

They were then followed by the heir of Liechtenstein Alois and his statuesque wife. They were deferential and reserved. Hereditary Prince Alois and his wife Hereditary Princess Sofie, Duchess of Bavaria were brief in their encounter with the three senior Norwegian royals.

Crown prince Akishino & crown princess Kiko

They were followed by Japanese Crown Prince Akishino and his delicate, serene wife, Crown Princess Kiko who performed the deepest curtsey.

Grand Duke Guillaume & Grand Duchess Stéphanie with Duke Henri of Luxembourg & hereditary Prince Alois & Princess Sophie of Liechtenstein

I was truly stunned at how obese the new Grand Duke Guillaume V of Luxembourg has become. Of course, when recently his father Henri stepped aside in his favour, his two sons appeared for all the world to be very decidedly on the spectrum. Prince Louis was a boisterous child with 5 energy body, these boys were observed sat with legs gathered beneath themselves and parents looking as though they could not wait to return them to their nannies. As ever, they were socially awkward and not the post polished of souls. No wonder, indeed, that the couple were dismissed Queen Mette-Marit with new lungs as absolute bores to Jeffrey Epstein. Henri, Guillaume’s father, and former Grand Duke proved himself a truly suave elder statesman, reaching in and warmly hugging the new King Haakon. Their interaction was both genuine and warm.

Queen Anne-Marie & crown prince Pavlos of Greece

Whist Henri rambled on with Haakon the attendant Greek and Danish royals waited, only to have the supremely handsome Queen Anne-Marie of Greece & Denmark, widow of King Constantine II of Greece sneak behind Haakon to warmly greet her lifelong peer, Dowager Queen Sonja. Her movement was both delightful and betrayed her need to console and be of comfort to the new widow as quickly as possible.

King Carl XVI Gustaf, crown princess Victoria, prince Daniel, princess Sofia & prince Carl Philip of Sweden

Next, Tord Magnuson partner of Danish Princess Maria-Christina steps up to salute King Haakon. However, before Maria-Christina steps up the continent’s most handsome Prince, Danish Prince Carl-Philp steps up and warmly greets Haakon, betraying the closeness of the Nordic royals. After their long chat, next it was Danish Princess Maria-Christina who greeted Haakon, it was next Princess Alexia of Greece, Crown Prince Pavlos’s sister. Crown Princess Marie-Chantal of Greece – the Duty Free Princess – was not present. Alexia performed a deep curtsey to both King Haakon and Dowager Queen Sonja.

Crown prince Pavlos of Greece

She was followed thereafter by Crown Prince Pavlos of Greece who has truly graciously aligned numerology and he certainly acted the part at his father, King Constantine II of Greece’s funeral. The Greek royals were rounded off by Prince Nikolaos who recently changed wives with shrewd callousness; he has the look of a class 1 womaniser so not surprising. If I’m honest, I am certain if the next couple up are Prince Kyril of Preslav and Princess Rosario of Bulgaria. Kyril has, not surprisingly, populated the Epstein Files.

King Frederik X, Queen Mary & crown prince Christian of Denmark

As he is a genuine old soul and such persons do not have time for negative persons and their malicious BS, King Frederik X simply laughs off Prince William and his vicious-looking aunt, Princess Anne, King Haakon VIII’s godmother.

Queen Mary of Denmark

There was a lot of tongue wagging and vicious enjoyed by Frederik X’s wife, Queen Mary of Denmark who like Catherine, William’s wife, is a fifth mature warrior. Fifth mature souls live for gossip and stirring the pod, so naturally she would be all ears for the Windsor gossip which most other royals on the continent have now grown bored of and dismissed the senior royals as the racists they are. Of course, Princess Anne, a 7th mature warrior looks way too much like that vile racist crossdressing man who reeks of male smegma from here to Timbuktu.

King Carl XVI Gustaf of Sweden, King Haakon VIII of Norway & King Frederik X of Denmark

Glad to be rid of the smallminded BS, Frederik goes over warmly hugs his jogging buddy, Haakon VIII and consoles him, both men making warm eye contact and genuinely appreciative of the other’s companionship. Laughing Anne off, Frederik X was clearly happy to be rid of her and William over compensatory prosecution of their vindictive case against Harry & Meghan. Honest to god, it’s a fucking funeral and the world can see what racist boors you’ve been to Harry and his Black wife. Imagine showing up at a funeral to gossip about persons whom you’ve treated like absolute shit all with the help; of your Mafioso henchmen on Fleet Street.

King Frederik X & Queen Mary

Abandoning them, Frederik X takes a breather and it is obvious that Haakon could quite imagine what vile snakes the Windsor equestrian with a string of male lovers partout and the baron’s bastard were on about. Meanwhile, Queen Mary who is adept at Nordic court life moves on from the putrid royals to go have genuine rapport with King Haakon.

Princess Anne, Princess Royal

Up next was Princess Anne, Haakon’s godmother and of course, she talks to excess to cover the gossiping mealymouthed BS she and William engaged with Queen Mary and Frederik X who dismissively laughed them off and walked away from their damn mess – Prince Andrew’s association with Epstein and their racist campaign against Harry & his Black wife. I can just imagine how William winced when the gospel choir began singing at Harald V’s funeral which was a special request of his.

Prince William, Prince of Wales

Overlong, Princess Anne carried on with her prosecution of the Windsor’s case before the continental royals and the onlooking world. Clearly, they know that decent people the world over see them for what they are, and it is not especially flattering. As if she hadn’t sufficiently held up the line along comes William more gesticulation as his guilty conscience prosecuted their version of reality.

Both the Norwegian Queen and crown princess Ingrid Alexander fawned engagement and are condescending in dealing with both Anne and William. They are a family who’ve proven more welcoming of a Black marrying, in the case of Shaman Durek marrying the King’s older sister, princess Martha Louise.

Princess Martha-Louise & Durek Verrett

Though Norwegian media took the stance, much as Fleet Street has, of being suspicious and racially predatory towards Martha-Louise’s second husband, Durek Verrett it was the late King Harald V who called out the media and made it perfectly clear that he would not tolerate his Black son-in–law being subjected to racialised harassment in the media. Understandably, the Norwegian royals were not interested to seeing the racially predatory Britons turning up at court being mealymouthed. There is positively no way that Anne and William would have been gossiping about Prince Andrew; their smallminded chatter would without doubt have been focussed on Harry & Meghan.

Princess Anne & Prince William received by Norwegian royals

Just look at Crown Princess Ingrid-Alexandra’s body language, the lowered chin, the condescending wary look with the whites of the eyes below the iris visible at both Anne and William. Ingrid-Alexandra places her hand on her chest, protecting her heart centre whilst simultaneously not extending them a welcome by touching and embracing either. Her approach to both is formal with no trace of either empathy or trust.

How daft do the Windsors have to be, the Glücksburg dynasty has a history of marital tensions, which was thankfully resolved by the time that Shaman Durek came along. Harald V’s father, Olav V. Olav, of course, was the maternal grandson of HM King Edward VII. Olav did not approve, in the Saxe-Gotha-Coburg tradition, Harald V’s choice of a fiancée, Sonja was stridently opposed because she was a commoner. Nonetheless, Harald persevered against his father, Olav V’s wishes and took Sonja as his wife. In time, Harald V’s second born, Haakon was initially opposed to take divorced mother as his bride; however, Harald V knowing of his own history with his father, gave his blessing to the marriage. Nothing surprisingly then, after his firstborn, Princess Martha-Louise’s husband Ari Behn committed suicide and she found solace with shaman Durek, Harald V was fully, without reservations fully supportive of his daughter and her choice of life partner, Durek. After all, with Ari Behn’s suicide, King Harald V would clearly wish for his daughter, Martha-Louise’s happiness above all else. This is precisely why he strongly instructed the Norwegian press to cease with its racist dog whistle reporting of shaman Durek.

Oslo Cathedral

Not surprisingly, King Harald V would elect to have a Black gospel song, sung at his funeral. This would not have gone unnoticed by Anne and William. Indeed, it could well have been a parting shot of Harald V at the Windsors’ embarrassing racism towards Harry and Meghan. This also goes to show that Queen Elizabeth II and King Charles III could have, at any point, openly issued an official statement about the British media’s relentless open racism towards Harry and Meghan, yet they have done no such thing.

King Philippe & Queen Mathilde of Belgium

Next up, the Belgian King Philippe – with the sexiest royal nose – and Queen Mathilde in a beautiful hat and lovely multiple strand pearls. Not surprisingly, the Belgian King gestures to King Haakon warily as though the disgraced Windsor party was both tiresome and unwelcome. Mathilde, as ever, was most gracious and her brooch was rather lovely. Haakon was clearly only too relieved to embrace the Belgian King and his lovely wife. Notice, too, how King Philippe hung back and waited for Queen Mathilde to finish conversing with crown princess Ingrid-Alexandra rather than advancing ahead and having to interact with the royal boors from the island kingdom.

Queen Maxima King Willem-Alexander & Crown princess Catharina-Amalia, Princess of Orange

Next up, the gathering gets really warm and genuine. The Dutch prince Constantijn, preceded by his wife Laurentien. They were known and their reception congenial. They were followed by the big warm embrace of King Willem-Alexander for his good friend King Haakon VIII. Their interaction was companiable, relaxed and respectful. Both men rests their right hand on the others arm/shoulder and are in agreement and support for the other. Along then comes my favourite royal, Queen Maxima. She is incredibly well-educated, confident, professional and has the sexiest walk going in any royal court. Just look at her walk down the aisle on entering Westminster Abbey at William and Catherine’s beautiful wedding on April 29, 2011, Jacob, 4th Baron Rothschild’s 75th birthday. She chats up Haakon and after having witnessed William and Anne yapping to excess, with a dismissive hand wave, Maxima slapped aside the malodourous presence of William and Anne at court.

Queen Maxima & King Willem-Alexander

Never once was crown princess Ingrid Alexandra recoiling by holding her hand on her heart with King Willem-Alexander. The most beautiful discovery of this gathering of royals at the Norwegian court was crown princess Catharina-Amalia, Princess of Orange. Poised, genuine and possessed of her mother Queen Maxima’s forthrightness, she was a refreshing discovery.

Now look at the interaction of two future Queens; both emotionally intelligent, plus warm and open towards each other – the mutual respect is admirable. They have far more important things to discuss and far more in common than to be focussed on trifling psychodrama consuming the House of Windsor. Why would the two princesses not be so keenly and genuinely engaged with each other.

Dutch & Swedish royals pay homage to Norwegian royals

Both princesses remain holding the other by the upper arm whilst caressing their loving warmth via a thumb massage; all the while, their heads are tilted to the one side whilst looking directly, lovingly into the other’s soul, filling each other up and displaying their trust in each other. After crown princess Catharina-Amalia, Princess of Orange came the diminutive princess Beatrix who abdicated in favour of her son, King Willem-Alexander. These northern European royals are all fairly close and it showed in their warm relaxed interactions.

As though ridding her aura of the stench that was Anne and William and their seedy gossip, Swedish crown princess Victoria, brushed her face before warmly stepping up and giving her beloved Haakon VIII a warm hug, kisses on both cheeks and with a raised chin looked into Haakon’s very soul buoying up his spirits. Then along come Prince Daniel, Victoria’s husband, whom I suspect is an older soul, forthrightly reaching in, gives Haakon a big warm hug, looks into him and grabbing him both both upper arms, shakes and grounds him with sound advice which no other royal, save perhaps Frederik X could have. It was obvious that on Daniel’s persistent, Haakon became grounded and reassured of the Swedish prince’s unwavering support. There is no way that William could have done this, which is all the more reason why their talking to excess and being mealymouthed was totally uncalled for. Prince Daniel then moved on and also gave a bear hug to Queen Sonja.

King Carl XVI Gustaf, crown princess Victoria & prince Daniel

Moving along, Ingrid Alexandra also gets a hug from Daniel. In each instance, he reaches up his right arm inviting his subject to partake in a bear hug. This is another reason why I suspect that he is an older soul. He is like a centuries old Sitka, he wants to radiate and infuse the subject his focussed love, warmth and acceptance. Daniel is rather shamanic.

Crown princess Victoria of Sweden eulogising her godfather King Harald V

Princess Victoria’s dress was rather stunning. Next up, the ever elegant lastborn of King Carl XVI Gustaf’s three children, Princess Madeleine. Her American husband was present and she did wear a pillbox hat and performed a graceful curtsey. Madeleine was then followed by her sister-in-law, princess Sofia who won the day for best hat. Sofia’s hat was a black netted flapper affair, which added to her charm of the delicate Swedish beauty with the sexy gap-toothed smile.

Princess Sofia & prince Carl Philip of Sweden

When Madeleine’s American husband greets the Norwegian King, it is formal and adroit. They are not close and he has married in; however, there is no hauteur on Haakon’s part. The couple who follows Mr. O’Neil I do suspect is Princess Alexandra, daughter of King Frederik X’s aunt, Princess Benedikte and her spouse. Either way, the couple are the last couple to be seen greeting King Haakon VIII.

Queen Philippa of Sweden, Denmark & Norway

What was telling in the close bond between the Nordic royals. This is perfectly understandable, all three countries Sweden, Denmark and Norway previously formed a kingdom. Interesting tidbit, the current UK second in line, Prince George was previously the daughter of both William and Catherine and she went on to be the very competent Queen of Sweden, Denmark and Norway.

King Haakon VIII of Norway

Seeing King Frederik X grab and hug his jogging partner King Haakon VIII was good to have observed. King Willem-Alexander also gave Haakon VIII a big hug; their interaction was warm and sincere.

Missing man formation.
Princess Astrid

Sweet and blissful dreams to the indefatigable Princess Astrid, older brother of King Harald who died two days after her brother’s funeral.

Haakon VIII

Bond, James Bond? No darling, Haakon VIII. Nothing beats that Lincoln Continental convertible any day of the week. And look at Haakon VIII’s swagger. He is the real deal! The King rolling up to take his oath before the Norwegian parliament and people looking like a Boss!

Members of the Glücksburg dynasty at the passing of King Harald V.

Here’s to Life. Shirley Horn North Sea Jazz Festival 1994

A fitting send off to the universally loved, King Harald V of Norway. Sweet and blissful dreams…

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Two rats during the course of eighteen months produce one million offspring. You’ve long transcended being a cultural infestation; you are a fucking plague and Karma, that most vicious of cunts, will yet dispense with you!

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© 2013-2026 Arvin da Brgha.  All Rights Reserved.

Seriously these Goddamn Humans.

Whilst the Moon transited Aquarius and my ninth house, it proved the most hysterically luciferous of dreams.  I would on Monday, September 3, 1990 dream the most insightful of dreams which was the first dream that day.  

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I encountered a gibbon, another animal of some sort and a weasel.  Perhaps, if not a weasel, it was a beaver or a groundhog.  A dark brown-coated animal it was. They were furred animals that could manipulate with their front legs/hand-like paws – all three of these animals.  It was an interesting animal.  I think it may even have been an oversized raccoon.  They were, at night time, on a walled ledge.

When looking at them, the gibbon was on the far right.  This very antsy weasel, or whatever it was, was to the far left. Across the road, from the animal contestants, was a White woman standing who was conducting a test.  It was like a lottery that was being televised. It was really a scam because they would ask questions of the animals.  Needless to say, the poor creatures wouldn’t have a clue. They would just sit there very dumbfounded such that it was all a big joke.

The resultant prize, a rather sizeable jackpot, would go up higher.  It was like a motivational thing – maybe one day when it went up so high then one of the animals would finally blurt out the answer. The question was being posed to the respective furred contestants, “What did all three species have in common?”

I knew that it had nothing to do with the fact that they each had tails or fur.  Too, it was being asked of different people.  Immediately, I knew the answer and got very excited. I also knew that the correct answer was that they were all carnivores.  I even went and was trying to put in for the creatures.  However, as a human it was unfair of me, I couldn’t intervene.

Alas, as soon as the question was asked down off the wall jumped the little weasel character.  It did not even know the goddamn answer but went greedily running up and making faces. It excitedly gesticulated and showed off that it had hands that were not unlike a human’s.  The excitable creature began clapping to prove that he was very humanlike. It was pathetic really.  It was just a greedy, greedy little fucker.

At one point, I looked over my left shoulder back at the gibbon and it rolled its eyes as if to say, ’Really… such a greedy, little fucker.  Why doesn’t he just come back and play dumb like everybody else?’ This was quite the shrewd insight, to have gained, of the animal kingdom’s take on us ofttimes absurdist, fur-depilated bipedal simians. ‘Can’t he see how fucked up humans are?  If we did not realise what a mess humans were we’d already be talking ourselves.’

This gibbon had such a regal face.  Whilst it was deliberately being very telepathic, it knew that I was able to discern its thoughts. That was why I had looked over my shoulder and back in its direction in the first place.  It was so intelligent and so extremely funny. I was telepathically communicating with these animals.  Finally, I was able to psychically connect with this busy-bodied/mind creature.  I told it that the answer was, in fact, carnivore.

As soon as it learnt this, the creature immediately began panting and gritting its teeth in a masticating manner.  It just got so overly excited that it was really too funny. It wanted to be the one to get it right but the poor creature just did not know how to verbally communicate it.  I suggested to it that, perhaps, it could write the answer since it couldn’t speak. So immediately the little pathetic fucker wanted me to teach it how to write… on the spot.  It was so impatient that it began trying to bark – shout – carnivore which just sounded like it was miserably choking on a giant fur ball.

It was so pathetic.  However, this merely proved more entertainment for the humans.  More than that, what was really funny was seeing the way the gibbon was rolling its eyes and being very bored by it all. The gibbon then telepathically imparted to me, ’I don’t know which is worse, these goddamn humans or this pathetic little creature.’

It was very funny.  There was a great connectedness and dialogue between this gibbon and me.

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Bird/Oisseau

9 x 8.5 x 5 Inches

Serpentine

1980 Kenojuak Ashevak

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Two rats during the course of eighteen months produce one million offspring. You’ve long transcended being a cultural infestation; you are a fucking plague and Karma, that most vicious of cunts, will yet dispense with you!

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© 2013-2026 Arvin da Brgha.  All Rights Reserved.

Anointed!

Merlin, Montréal, 1977

As the Moon progressed through the early degrees of Gemini, transiting my first house, I would on taking to bed slip up past the folds of restfulness.  There I would awaken into the most lucid dream experiences had in long ages.

It was Saturday, July 25, 1992 – long after Merlin’s passing.  

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The first dream was set, at night time, in Sandy Point, St. Kitts where I had spent my childhood.  I was playing in the street, well past midnight, with three local youths. All Rastafarians, too, they were all in their twenties.  I was my present age – thirty-one.  They were younger. Everything about them was very real.  There was a direct focussed tenor to their gaze; they looked into you.  I felt very edgy with all this probity. We had been acrobatically playing, in the street in front of the church, in The Alley, Sandy Point, St. Kitts.  Of course, that same church that Harella, my mum, had built twenty-two years prior in the waking state. I tried not to outshine them, with my leaping tumbles, for fear of escalating the tension in the air.  There was an edge to our interactions.  It was a tension born of my having been so long off-island and their being suspicious, I thought, of my outré sexuality.

Just then, I noticed a light streaking across the star-punctured sky.  In a bid to diffuse the tension between us, I drew their attention to it.  However, I soon noticed that its progress was unusual. There was also something distinctly different about this light.  It caused me to recall similar icons in dreams past – each had presaged rather momentous visions. Like all those before it, this streaking light seemed a silent observant probe.  Immediately, I became open to what this comet-like streaking star could later reveal. I began to explain to the youngest Rastafarian who was an impish, sexually-dynamic beauty – he was not the least bit self-conscious of his missing front teeth – that it was no doubt a very high geostationary satellite that had bombed and was now crashing to Earth.

Further, I speculated that it was no doubt an orbiting space shuttle presently reflecting Sol’s intense light.  As I spoke, I knew that I did not really believe either explanation but I thought that the ideas were a good way to ameliorate my position in the dynamic. The ruse failed to have done the trick.  On returning my attention to the group, I was sent bolting – the leader was menacingly lunging through the air towards me, with a raptor’s ease, in eager flight. Soon I also was in flight being chased through the streets of a Sandy Point, St. Kitts which quickly morphed and shifted becoming, more and more populous, like parts of old Havana.  I was not certain which city this was but I was definitely still in the Caribbean.

I managed to escape into a house where I very energetically fought off their advance, securing the locks to the front door, thereby shutting them out.  I climbed up the narrow and steep flight of stairs, in near-darkness, to the safety of the second storey. Winded and more enraged than stunned, at their behaviour, I took the time to gather my breath.  I briefly visited with my aunt Pilar do Aragão and Pandora – the latter whom Merlin favoured the most of my siblings. They were unaware of the tumult that I had just endured.

Merlin & Arvin 1987

I took refuge in the darkened front of the house’s second storey.  Next I found myself, in one of those rare dream moments, actually falling asleep whilst lucidly dreaming. I nodded… on recovering, I found that I had come to in an apartment.  It was one more opulent than the one in which I had just grown suddenly drowsy. On a red antique chaise longue, in the most beautifully dark, wood-panelled, high-ceilinged digs that I had ever seen, I was now seated.  Across the room was an open door that led out to a veranda. A dark awning provided ample shade and allowed just the cool tropical breezes to laze in satiating the spirit.  To have awakened into this new dreamspace had left my awareness more sensitised… more absorbing.

The dream became more lucid and any sense of time dissolved.  This left every moment infused with a sense of mysticism – magic even.  It definitely felt like the West Indies here, perhaps, old-money Haïti or Guadeloupe if not Cuba. Slowly, I drank in every detail of the stately furnished room.  There were, on both walls to my left and right, floor-to-ceiling shelves which were not untidily crammed with old leather-bound volumes – some red, some brown, most were black. Slowly, from where I reclined, I pinpointed my vision to check the titles of some of the books.  Thus I was able to see and read them, as intimately, as if I had gotten up and gone to stand before them closely peering. They were mostly ancient volumes.  However, the script was not vaguely recognisable like any of the innumerable ones on the other, more familiar side of the dreamtime.

My spirit soared, as I felt fully relaxed, in this most bucolic of dreams.  Strangely, though not unusual for the realm of the dreamtime, I felt that for having looked at these laden bookshelves my mind had absorbed the library’s voluminous wealth. Just then there was movement, to my right, across the room.  I saw a cat that looked much like Whoopi.  It appeared from behind one of three sofas, skulking towards another, situated opposite across the room. Each sofa, like the chaise longue on which I reclined, had beside it a small round table.  Each table was covered in either rich, dark earthy damask or actual rugs in deep though muted red.  I was immediately reminded of the round table, across which sat the sibylline woman from Merlin and I, in the dreams of September 4, 1988.

I sat up calling her name, “Whoopi!  Whoopi!” at which moment, the cat shimmered and became Julio – our black cat at 20 Amelia Street in Cabbagetown who, like Whitney before him, was killed in a hit-and-run as he ran across Amelia Street on New Year’s Eve, 1987. As I watched the cat disappear behind one of the three sofas, which accompanied my chaise longue, my mouth froze open in amazement.  Whilst I assimilated that one and thought to myself that this certainly was a most unusual and lucid dream, there was utter stillness. The cat’s metamorphosis had discernibly shifted the vibration of the dream.  Now time seemed considerably measured as compared to its usual frenetic rhythm.

The door in the far right corner then opened… into the room walked Merlin.

*I can’t here relay the rapture I felt on seeing him but the ecstatic descriptive of dream audio-cassette recording, for that day, comes fairly close.  END.

Arvin & Merlin 1987 Reversed

Overwhelmed with emotion, my body quivered throughout.  I tried to rouse from my reclining position.  My arms outstretched to him, I greeted him squealing with delight. He stood, just in the entrance, raising his brows with the left familiarly arched higher.  Staying me with the index and middle fingers of his raised right hand, “No, don’t get up…” I heard Merlin direct me with the quiet familiarity that our intimacy knew. This directive I telepathically experienced as though we were squinging up in bed, in the dark, at 20 Amelia Street in Toronto’s Cabbagetown.  Our souls tickled, at such times, as we listened to some glorious thunderstorm drowning out the dog days of a too-hot-and-humid, Toronto summer.

I obliged, sitting upright on the edge of the plush chaise longue, for the first time placing my feet on the beautifully designed and predominantly red rug.  His face warmed towards me in a smile. At once my mind expanded, simultaneously processing on multiple levels, becoming even more awakened.  Rapture… pure rapture – I was enthralled. Here again, Merlin wore all the evolved energies that he had in that first dream encounter – that dream, of course, set in a Pacific west coast rainforest that was not unlike Vancouver Island’s Cathedral Grove in July 1978.  A dream, of course, which occurred four years before I would physically meet him in the waking state.

Slowly, he walked the short distance of the room towards me.  A breeze coming from the veranda not only cooled the place but it shifted the ambiance and made the place grow dimmer. The dimness highlighted the definite soft yellow glow that girdled his entire form.  I sat there thinking, ‘My god, I can actually see your aura Merlin.’ He smiled and I was reminded that everything that I thought was instantly being telepathically shared.

I was passive… moreover I was ripened as though I had just experienced an Alfred Brendel recital.  I felt so lightheaded that I firmly pressed down both my palms, into the chaise longue’s plush red velvet, bracing myself. Merlin came and stood before me.  He was casually dressed in loose, earthen woollen clothing.  A cloak he wore stylishly draped about his narrow shoulders with its cowl removed. As I looked up into his face, besotted by the beauty of his soul’s magic, he slowly arched his left brow in the way he had always affected when he wanted to be intimate.  Merlin’s magical expression was exactly as it was, that gibbous-Moon October night, when we met in Babylon – which now for him was truly a lifetime removed.

My face liquidly melted away in a smile.  I was warmed by the knowledge that I was dreaming and that here before me was a man, Merlin, with whom I had shared such wonderful fortune. He had shared his grace, along with his beauty and his intellect, in the most magical combination with me.

As we made eye contact, still never having said a word, he slowly knelt into the bay of my open legs.  Enthralled, my eyes slowly and unflinchingly shifted to look down into his as now he knelt before me. He wore his glasses, his beard cropped close, his hair styled in a leonine full-bodied mane. Moreover, I was moved by just how much this pose reflected the last night we had spent together – November 17, 1989.  With an acuity rarely achieved in the waking state, my mind lucidly assimilated this rapturous encounter.

Merlin, 1976

Here before me knelt Merlin.  Merlin was the very embodiment of wholesome health, healing my spirit, releasing me from so much of the pain that I had endured. Like that last night of his life, before dying of AIDS, I was overcome with emotion.  However, owing to the healing that this moment affected, now I wanted to melt in tears of joy. More than that, the moment’s poignancy rose from how uncannily it mirrored our final encounter. About his slender long neck, Merlin wore a necklace of thick, copper-coloured coil that looked not the least bit malleable.  The coil was half an inch in diameter and set with beautiful large crystals of various colours.

The coil moved through each stone’s centre and each stone was deeply etched with golden hieroglyphs.  Although Mayan hieroglyphs bore the closest resemblance, the inscriptions resembled none in this planet’s long history. The effect of the bronze-coloured coil and crystals was grounding.  The crystals gave off a low rumbling hum that was felt.  It was akin to the definite effect of my pyramid, in the waking state, but easily thrice as intense. There were seven crystals in all.  Principally, there was the large, smoky rough-hued quartz set at the bottom of the circular coil. Its design slowly shifted from within but its glow seemingly originating elsewhere.  It was huge and by far the most powerful.

One quarter the way around the circle, which was duplicated on the opposite side, there were three crystals.  The crystal in the middle was like nothing imaginable in the waking state.  It was a coppery-bronzed colour with hints of blue-lapis lazuli dust throughout which actually glistened. With any slight movement, the dust shifted becoming copper-coloured.  When the colour shifted, I experienced a correspondingly subtle shift in the serenity that I felt. The unusual central crystal was flanked by two small and perfectly clear crystals.  They were more radiant and powerful than any multiple-carat diamond yet found in the waking state.

It was actually difficult to sustain my focus on their exquisite beauty overlong.  They were dynamic and seemingly made of the heaviest element imaginable. I was so pleased to see Merlin.  The necklace he wore was like a grounding conductor.  Seemingly, in order to manifest from his dimension to this dimensional dreamspace, he needed the energies of the crystals to join me. He wore an argyle sweater that was not unlike one of the pastel ones I had bought him one Christmas.  This one though was an earthy brown which he had, years earlier, interestingly claimed to have preferred.

He effortlessly removed the crystal necklace placing it at my feet.  The humming abruptly ceased.  The crystals’ effect immediately shifted.  I actually felt a cool energy, from the crystals, buzz through my entire body travelling from my feet to the crown of my head. I watched as he detached the different crystals and made sure to leave the central one on the coil.  Somehow, he was able to remove the six crystals from the coil though the coil remained a perfectly whole circle. As he kept placing the crystals, in different circular formations at my feet, he kept looking up at me with the warmest direct stare.  Each formation affected a different temporal lobe and corresponding area of my body.

I was experiencing crystals with a potency that never before had I known in the waking state.  I felt splayed by the experience. There were times that I felt as though my body and head were being stretched – elastically elongated with an ease nowhere else possible except the astral plane in the dreamtime. I thought then how absolutely incredible this man Merlin was – how truly fortunate I was to have met him, to have known him, to love him. The lights noticeably further dimmed in the room.  Next, the central large crystal grew black changing into the most unusual design.  There had been an incredible energetic drain from me – energy which I suppose was collected in the now-transformed crystal which had remained about the coil.

Merlin, 1988

From his left breast pocket, Merlin retrieved a little black pouch.  As he looked down at it, I said to him, “Oh my god Merlin, you are so beautiful…” I knew that I was dreaming and I was thinking at the time, ‘…I will never be able to meet you, again.  I’ll never see you again.  You’ll never be that perfect mélange of bloodlines that created the magic that was your every idiosyncrasy.’ He looked up and smiled making me again realise that everything, we said without speaking, was so very clearly, readily known to the other.

As he opened the little black pouch, my lips trembled.  I looked at those utterly gentle fingers that, I thought in passing, were now ashes in the earth at Toronto’s Mount Pleasant Cemetery, ‘Oh yes… those fingers, those beautiful delicate fingers. ‘Oh my god, yes…’ I simultaneously thought, ‘…These fingers, I will never see; they’ll never touch me again in the waking state – they’ll never exist again.’

Then, as if to eclipse my melancholy, he gently took my right hand in his.  Merlin’s still-sensual hands purposefully began pouring the little, black pouch’s contents into mine. The touch of him was as intimate and as gentle, an evocative memory, as absent waves heard distantly lapping ashore on the beach in Pump Bay during childhood.  How, as in the still of the night, my mind would race wondering of what new vistas I was yet to dream – when I was a child in St. Kitts. All along, I had restrained the desire to touch him for he seemed so much more evolved.  Truth be told, I was afraid that to physically reach out to touch him would only dissolve the dream.

Naturally, for becoming emotionally overwhelmed, the fear was that I would undoubtedly whiteout.  However, his touch was so real and so very familiar that I let out a heavy familiar sigh. Into my palm spilled a dozen, perhaps more, of the most beautiful tiny crystals that were quite powerful.  The touch of them actually made my mind further expand. My head seemed to contort, once again, with an élan that matched the lightning speed with which I assimilated the intense energies from the clutch of crystals into me. They were more leaden, easily by ten times, than their small size betrayed.  They glowed and they were decidedly hypnotic.  They emitted a sense of music that was more experienced than heard.

In spite of the fact that they glowed, I brushed aside the beauty of them and chose instead the real magic.  I took his free hand with mine and began holding it, rubbing it, squeezing it. Even more intently, I looked overjoyed into his arrestingly soulful eyes.  I began groaning, moaning, I was overcome with intense emotion. This was, by far, the most alive and most lucid dream with Merlin since his passing some three years ago.  I wanted more… I wanted no moment of this great intimacy to stop. I asked him to remove his glasses so that I could really look at his eyes.  He obliged and when he removed them his eyes weren’t their smoky grey-hazel-faded blue.

They were brown, in fact, but they were his eyes and I thought, ‘My god, you’ve got brown eyes,’ to which he slightly blushed. He wore a beard; it was the usual bushy affair.  His lips were so moist, I said, “My darling, kiss me.” Taking the lead, as I had when we met, I held the bottom of his ticklish beard and reached up his face to mine as I bent down.  We kissed each other. It readily became a wonderfully slow and timeless dance high up our entwined greenhouses.  My spirits soared to even greater heights.  It was the greatest pleasure. It was quite simply a sensory whiteout.  We did not use tongue.  We just kissed each other on the mouth.  Throughout, until it was no longer possible, our eyes remained perfectly glued to each other’s.

I turned my head to the right to kiss him, again.  It was a soft lingering kiss; it was a kiss of complete surrender in which was communicated so much. As though he and I were two leviathan creatures swimming together in a sensual medium of liquid blue light, our intimacy was pure movement.  This aqueous light medium was immensely heavy and inhibited our progression to a slow-motioned crawl. Progressing playfully, as though so many nanoseconds were deleted from each time-stretched moment, we effortlessly danced alone.  We were together and enraptured in a universe just for two – Merlin and me. It was such great pleasure that, in its shared intimacy, it reflected the idiosyncrasies that we had known so well.  It was a continuation of the dance we familiarly had always intimately known.

Merlin & Arvin, 1987

It was such incredible intimacy that when the kiss was concluded the dream dissolved… I sighed, on a deep sustained breath, besotted with the beauty of Merlin’s spirit.  This was a most rare dream, a most soulful of dreams, with the dream magus. The sound of my breath was so loud that I actually felt the weight of my high-dreamer self as I crashed back into my body from, being astral-projected, high up the astral plane. I felt fatigued, I felt spent, as is customary with such dream travel.  Whilst remaining still, I kept my lids shut. Focussing on my weary breath, I allowed myself to drift upwards again.  This time, I melted into true sleep where I could rest and recoup my energies.

I awoke, about an hour later, in the nearly dark room of my tiny Queen Street West apartment in Toronto.  Rested, I was truly rejuvenated after all that astral projection in the first sleep cycle. As is customary with reparatory sleep, there were no dreams recalled of the second sleep cycle.  I cried…  I cried for joy. The realness of Merlin was so intense that after crying, for the first time since his passing, I grew aroused after dream contact.  I savoured the beauty of this man, Merlin, my elfin-dream magus. Pulling the black, satin blindfold back over my eyes, I slipped onto my stomach between the red satin bedding.  Tightly holding on to a pillow, my left cheek pressed into it and the bedding drawn up over my head, I withdrew into a sweat lodge where I could continue communing with Merlin’s very soul.

My right knee drawn up, I allowed my rock-hard cock to ride up against the bedding and away from my tummy.  Slowly, kneadingly, I ground my winding pelvis into the luxury of the bedding. Ploughing away, beyond its wet folds, I massaged my lusty thoughts deep and high up into the magical greenhouse.  Whispering his name, my lips, my abs and body quivered. From time to time, I managed my way up onto my toes.  This allowed the exquisite play of cock and bedding to draw out greater pleasure. My abs ached.  Whilst sweat sheened throughout my shivering body, I shuddered as the inside of my thighs violently tremoured.  Merlin still knew how to work his magic on me.

Losing myself, my breath collapsed in repeated noisy, exhausted, shuddered grunts and groans.  I whispered his name proclaiming my love to that point. In no other way could I have celebrated this truly profound astral plane encounter with Merlin in the dreamtime.  As ever, hands-free auto-eroticism resulted in a most profuse and exquisitely pleasurable orgasm. So richly deserving was I to have lost myself this way – beyond the usual daily auto-erotic ritual.  I needed to savour this momentous dream encounter by making a solemn ritual of pleasurable thanksgiving. I had been moved anew by Merlin’s magic.

Arvin & Merlin, 1986

*Regardless your combination, there is no greater gift to receive than the love of another whom one has chosen to completely give of self.  There is no greater validation of love’s superiority than to experience love from another, who has transitioned onto the next octave in that soul’s maturation, in a lucidly awakened dream as this shared between Merlin and me. 

We have all loved and been loved and may you dear dreamer, by opening yourself up, experience your own moments of rapture as I did in this rhapsodic astral plane encounter with the one, the man, the elfin, the fuck-all fabulous, the ganja-smoking, groovy shaman from Babylon, Merlin! 

The mark of a truly great love affair is the soul enriching fruits it bears… dreams. 

Sweet dreams you, I love you more!  END.

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Painting: Merlin,

Oil on canvas

©2025 Tom Croft.

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Jazz Entre Amigos: Carmen McRae & Betty Carter 1991

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Two rats during the course of eighteen months produce one million offspring. You’ve long transcended being a cultural infestation; you are a fucking plague and Karma, that most vicious of cunts, will yet dispense with you!

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© 2013-2026 Arvin da Brgha.  All Rights Reserved.

On Entering Alien Territory.

In early February, 1994 I moved to Vancouver from Toronto; it had always been my intention to do so. Chiefly, I did so because as an art collector, of Inuit and First Nations art, it was easy choice. Unlike Toronto, I could pay less for the same art and attend multiple pow wows in summertime. This exactly is what I did that first summer. Here, then is a suite of dreams had on Friday, February 25, 1994 whilst the Moon then transited Virgo. At the time as my West End apartment was being custom painted, I was staying at the home of Kenneth Baulk and Les Karpinski. The former was the heir of a string of southern Ontario local newspapers, whom I don’t believe ever worked a day in his charmed life – an extraordinarily beautiful human. Les, of course, by his surname was Polish nobility. He was the chief librarian at the University of British Columbia and was prominent in Vancouver choral societies. We loved going to the symphony and opera together.

Animal Kingdom Etching 1967 Kenojuak Ashevak 28/50

Dream one.  I saw a skier in a white suit; he was considerably tall and skeletal.  Off to my right and across the street, there was a ski lift chair behind him.  There was a manmade ski jump mountain behind him, as he stood there holding his skis in both hands. He wore a dark-visored helmet such that one could never directly see his eyes or face.  Instinctively, I knew that one of the reasons for the disguising helmet was the fact that this man was not natively human. 

He was a cool calculating individual.  This man stood there, with a deadly gaze fixed on me.  I knew, too, that his right ski was in fact, a marvellously camouflaged weapon. He was telepathically sizing me up.  There was nothing that one could do to prevent him from entering the mind.  Besides, it made more sense to be submissive rather than allow him to become impatient and possibly violent. 

I kept on moving pretending, by response to his being there, that he was yet another human and not a threat.  Nonetheless, with lightning speed, I instantaneously flashed a ray gun which I carried and shot him with three quick bolts of lightning-blue rays of light. Simultaneously, I made my body pure white light and left the scene thusly without him being able to retaliate.  He was completely stunned.  Tall and angular, he looked of Nordic stock. I knew, though, that beneath that helmet his face was not going to be the most human of faces. 

“No thank you,” I thought, I had no desire to be manipulated or coerced so sought to defend myself – he did after all enter my mind uninvited. 

Eagle Looking at Eagle Serigraph 1992 Robert Davidson 56/64

Dream two.  I would then come across a very badly beaten up, forklift driver, of whom I was passingly acquainted in Toronto – he was a neighbour in the Beaches.  He was outside of red double doors, which had glass panels in them. They led into an industrial plant that was fairly large, seemed more so like a car manufacturing plant, than anything else.  Laying on the floor, he was quite badly beaten up.  He was in a dazed stupor for having been so badly beaten up. 

There were several broken bones in his face.  Black-eyed and bruised, truth be told, he was quite a mess.  He was ungainly trying to get up but was much too winded to have successfully managed it. Sheer survival demanded that he struggle his way to his feet.  On getting to the door before him, I progressed inside, where I saw that there were lots of coat racks, some four feet across from the red double doors. 

These racks, which were to the right of the entrance, had lots of dark, heavy-looking winter coats.  On the left were lots of machinery – mostly computers. Several tracks were on the floor, in this very large place, where motorised carts could take processed goods from one place to another.  To the left, and beyond the machinery, Nathan Milhaus, who is Black, came and stood there, barring my entrance any further. 

Blocking me from progressing any further, his arms were outstretched.  He told me that I was not to go any further and insisted that I go back.  Taking him at his word, I turned back and headed through the red double doors. 

Coming Together Serigraph 2022 Susan Point 22/80

Dream three.  Next, I found myself at nighttime in a high-rise.  It looked due south, towards and beyond the Burrard Inlet towards the West End.  It also looked beyond to Vancouver proper, with Kitsilano, Jericho Beach, Point Grey, and Spanish Bay area clearly in sight. My vantage point was that of being on Sentinel Hill in West Vancouver, right about where Mars Cruickshank’s house sits.  I stood out on a large-enough balcony where it was dark out. 

Here, there was that beautiful grey light, which nourishingly overwhelms.  There was perpetual light rain, which does more to soothe the spirit than not. Below was an immense cruise ship, with its stern closer to my north shore location; I was up on the tenth or more storey of the high-rise.  It was quite a broad ship that was at least eight storeys above the main deck. 

But more than that, the great beauty was Stanley Park, a beacon of enriched negative ions, which simply recharged my energies for looking at it.  It was quite soulful indeed. My perspective was such for being up on Sentinel Hill, that I felt as though hovering in a flying dream. 

Raven in the 20th Century Serigraph 1979 Don Yeomans 68/150

Dream four.  Later on, I’d watch as some speed skaters would get into a scuffle.  They were racing on a short track.  The result of the mix up was that one of the Canadian skaters went crashing into the boards, suffering massive head and spinal injuries; another reason why I never look at episodic television. 

*To the say the least, this bit of dream activity was inspired by the fact that at present the Winter Olympics in Norway, have been part of my recent waking state experiences. I’ve been quite moved by Oksana Bayul’s artistic beauty and her great lyricism.  She’s a real Russian swan; though she could evolve into a real caricature, if she’s not careful. 

Let’s hope though that she doesn’t.  END. 

Defiant Caribou Etching & chine collé 2018 Quvianaqtuk Pudlat 21/50

Dream five.  I was acutely aware that I was laying here in bed at Mars Cruickshank’s Sentinel Hill home, which is where I had slept after dinner and prior to heading into work. Though I tried to sleep, I was being kept in between states, the waking and dream states, by a massively excruciating pressure at both temples. The cosmic hum was excruciatingly amplified, becoming almost nerve-rackingly paralysing.  The crisis for me began as the pitch’s octave began increasing higher and higher, to the point of being arrestingly explosive. 

I felt truly as if I were about to experience a catastrophic aneurysm.  Soon I began experiencing Time itself slowing down.  It simultaneously was the most amazing revelation and experience. My motor control at this point warped to a near grinding halt, as I now experienced everything in perfect slow-motion.  Next, I began slowly experiencing the elongation of my skull in an upwards direction. I felt as though my skull was becoming not unlike that of Akhenaten – the monotheistic heretic pharaoh and, of course, spouse of Nefertiti’s. 

My head became conical; indeed, my head was now egg-shaped.  I had a pointed skull as the cosmic hum’s frequency slowly escalated to greater and greater octaves which, until now in this dream, I had never thought possible. There was no getting around the fact that there was a definite physical intrusion into my skull, which the escalating frequency affected.  One of the other interesting things, too, was that I had no sense of place here. There was a distinct impression of these beings – of presences being about the room.  In place of the wall at the head of the bed, where I slept in Mars Cruickshank’s ground floor, there were definitely three beings. 

Somehow, it seemed that I was simultaneously in another room, where the bed’s head was located some four feet from the wall, unlike in the waking state.  The only way that I can describe what was being done to me was that these three beings were serving as facilitators, as I was being birthed. More to the point, I was being operated on, as my head and spine became warped and slowly elongated.  I was definitely in traction, while my spine was being slowly stretched. This was the most excruciating sensation and, as a matter of fact, I did so feel cetacean-like.  It was as if I lost my sense of humanity, for having had my spine so elongated. 

As it were, I had become as if very serpentine.  In a bid to end the maelstrom, of what I was undergoing, I decided to try and get up; my intention was to, as it were, leave the operating table. I just wanted to move but first, in a bid to make out these beings, I wanted to throw open my lids and look about the room.  Willing myself up and opening my eyes was no light affair.  I did, though, manage it. As I got up, my vision returned with me finding that I was now in a large room alone and on a bed.  There were large stone columns that ran along the length of the bed; the room’s walls were a vibrant yellow. 

The shape of the room was oval; too, there was no discernible break in floor to walls to ceiling and the entire thing was the same invigorating yellow.  This was a most soothing, healing yellow. A most beautiful, radiant, almost Zen manifestation, of what this colour represented, this was.  Quite simply, this was something, which cannot be adequately put into words. Being here, inside this womblike room, was like a little bit of nirvana encapsulated, in which I felt that I was being birthed.  The most interesting thing about the walls was that they were, in some way, alive. They hummed and gave off a most soothing frequency which, after the excruciating pain of what I had come through, was a drink of pure light for the soul itself. 

Then I noticed that there was a splattered glob of pink organic matter on the column which was parallel to the left foot of the bed.  The glob was some 6.5 feet up the column and was about three feet square. As I tried sitting up, all the way, it became obvious that my body was still partially motor-paralysed.  It seemed as if I was trying to pick up a body, which now no longer weighed 130 lbs. but 320 lbs. instead. Still there was an aspect of my awakening; as though I were snaking slowly out of a leaden body, as if a cicada abandoning the shell of its former self. I went to turn around, so that I could get a look at the presences at the head of the bed but was impeded.  Instead, I was forced back down into my leaden body. 

There was no mistaking the fact that they were using their minds to will me back into submission.  Using their combined efforts to overpower me, they were thinking as one.  Quite frankly, I was not supposed to have seen who they were. I did, though, have a sense that they were high beings or extra-humans.  I think in this case, however, what one would assume to be EHs are in fact souls in their discarnate states. So alien is the soul sans body that we’re left to conclude that it is indeed extra-human.  There was a distinct impression that all of this was taking place, as a result of a warping of dimensions, which enabled the astral and physical planes to co-exist. 

With that, my vision of the yellow room was lost and I was left to experience an onflow of the cosmic pitch again.  This time when it began escalating to the point of being unbearable, I awoke almost instantaneously. It was more so as if, I’d been willed awake, that is to say that the three beings in that room elsewhere, had sent me back hurriedly into wakefulness, here in the safety of the physical plane. My willfulness was so taxing on them that they had had to cut short their observation of me, returning me to the safety of my senses.  The yellow-walled room was a massive place, wherein more than 75% of the room lay before me beyond the foot of the bed. 

Mini Pool Party Oil on Canvas 2026 Dorette Pollard

*Interestingly enough, I’ve never slept before in this house – Mars Cruickshank’s.  In addition, there is a large rock, on which much of the house sits, and instinctively on seeing it, I had a strong psychic reaction to it. I had the sense of it that the hidden part of the rock which progressed down into the Earth was easily fifty times larger; in that sense it was much like an iceberg whose below surface mass is infinitely more voluminous.  There was a strong vibrational register to this rock, and I had a sense of it that it contained some life-force, as if it were a camouflage for some sort of life-force which was in an observation mode. 

Alas, why pray tell could this not be the case?  What better way than for EHs to come planet side, remaining camouflaged such that they are rendered imperceptible. What better way to achieve this end, than for them to be ensconced in large rocks, most of which lay buried below the surface and for those which do break the surface, the greater parts of their area being hidden below the surface. 

In any event, I had a strong impression of the rock at Mars Cruickshank’s that it was much larger below the surface of the ground and served as a beacon-cum-conduit. Within the protective shell of this innocent-looking dense medium, were hidden EHs who were here on Earth observing humans in their natural state as opposed to humanity after so-called ‘Contact’. A very intriguing thought, but this was definitely the sense impression that I got of this entire experience.  Too, I’m inclined to believe this, because in the initial dream, the exceptionally tall, helmeted, unusually skinny white-suited skier was clearly not human. 

There was something different about him vibrationally, which his hiding behind the ski helmet only made that much more discernible to an astutely attuned extra-sensitive mind, such as mine. For being awakened in the dreamtime, I was able to completely tune in to what was going on here in Vancouver in the waking state, albeit clandestine.  His cool calculation of me suggested that he’d become aware of my knowing his true identity, which undoubtedly meant that he’d possibly have apprehended or even killed me. 

For that reason, I would strike the first blow, as it were.  Clearly, I’d only have to encounter his kind later on, when I was subjected to this excruciating mind probe, observation. Was the pink glob some matter, which they exorcised from me, it seemed to have been violently expunged from me.  After all, there was no one else remotely human in the room but me. I thought that the exorcised pink glob was from me, as it could not have been something that they’d put there.  Was it something from my corporeal or ethereal body, which they’d detected and removed? 

In that sense, these spiritual beings served as psychic surgeons.  This is not to say that they were necessarily therefore EHs, though one cannot exclusively rule this out.  But I’m definitely inclined to think that they were definitely extra-human in origin. Here was I, a newcomer to this part of the world, where if there are EHs stationed, they’d need to take a look at me, as it were.  Knowing as they do that I can ‘See’ beyond the veil, all the more reason to seek me out and perform some sort of psychic surgery that would render me ignorant of their being ‘there’. 

Of course, if this were indeed the case, that is, were there EHs among us, across whose path I’d crossed, their efforts to wipe the knowledge of the ‘Contact’ free of my recall was unsuccessful. Then too, this could well have been nothing so outré, but rather the experience of being in the company of astral plane-focused high beings, who were performing some form of healing spiritual, cleansing energy work on me. Frankly, the sceptic in me would sooner come down on the side of the most likely, than opting for the fanciful, EHs notwithstanding.  Occam’s razor is the mean in this circumstance. 

I must say though that on awakening here in this room, where I’d never slept before, I was quite surprised to find that its walls were not indeed yellow.  -In addition, I must point out that on awakening all the electrical discomfiture, which has plagued me since moving here to Vancouver was totally, as if evaporated. The purpose of the experience was seemingly to have cleared my energetic body of all blocking, which was symbolised by the massive pink glob that was splattered on one of massive columns in the room. 

All the pain in my neck, through to the left arm, has dissipated.  Naturally, I’ve been concerned as to whether this is cardiovascular in origin but have been repeatedly assured by EKGs that my heart checks out perfectly fine. This is a real acute, stabbing pain, which seems to be triggered by where I am in this city.  I’ve noticed that for going on long walks alone, in Stanley Park the tension becomes completely dissipated. 

There seem though, still some areas of intense electromagnetic tensions, which my finely tuned body innately picks up on.  Adversely, it does have the tendency in this case to be of a wearing nature physically. I’ve never experienced such excruciating pain.  There are, of course, moments of relief, when taking to the pyramid, but then I noticed that shortly thereafter, I become as if totally electrified. These mountains – coastal mountains, I fear, contain a great buildup of electromagnetic tension.  Too, they just might in conjunction with the waters of the Pacific be the location of a giant Extra-Oceanic colony or colonies of extra-humans of one or more species. 

**Indeed, the more that I think about the dreams that I had while living in Vancouver, I’m inclined to believe that this dream was extra-human in origin, rather than being about high astral plane beings. END. 

Rollins, Sonny 7/9/1930<O>25/5/2026

Michael: This fragment was a seventh-level mature artisan –third life thereat and likely last.  Sonny is in the passion mode with a goal of unmitigated growth.  A realist, he is in the moving part of intellectual centre. 

Body type was Venus/Mars. 

Sonny’s primary chief feature is greed fixated on accomplishment and the secondary stubbornness. 

The fragment Sonny is fourth-cast in the fourth cadence; he is a member of greater cadence five.  Sonny’s entity is seven, cadre four, greater cadre 1, pod 129. 

Sonny’s essence twin is an artisan and the task companion is a sage known to him. 

Sonny’s three primary needs are: communion, expression and power. 

Sonny has been a musician in 12 past lives. 

There are 8 past-life associations with Arvin and 14 with Merlin. 

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Two rats during the course of eighteen months produce one million offspring. You’ve long transcended being a cultural infestation; you are a fucking plague and Karma, that most vicious of cunts, will yet dispense with you!

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©2013-2026 Arvin da Brgha.  All Rights Reserved.

Stellar Galactic Museum of Anthropology.

In this the first dream, I was having a very heated argument with a group of Christian fundamentalists.  This concerned the book of Revelations in the New Testament. My point was that there was no longer any need for them to fixate on the nihilism of that book.  There was no need for them to fixate on the actualisation of the Armageddon construct. I was pointing out that much of the suffering in the world was due to the Christian obsession with violence.  For this reason, for the last two millennia, their culture has done nothing but produce men of inordinate violence.

Further, I tried to point out that none of these fatalistic visions were ever prophesied by Christ.  Rather, they were the result of a fearful culture’s way of trying to come to grips with having murdered Christ. The New Testament was simply the Christian Church’s way of manipulating the life of Christ, after his murder, to suit their ends.  For having murdered Christ, they have been karmically fated to being a violent culture. Seeing that it was pointless to be engaged with these blind and lost souls, I chose to move on.  To say the least, the energies between us were tense.

*Then, too, it was best that I moved on.  The longer that I engaged them, it proved fairly obvious that I would have to up my frequency becoming light and thus invisible to the blind. Truth be told, they would shortly start ridding me of my soul.  After all, I clearly was a heretic in full!  END.

The Whitfield Condo, Toronto

An area that seemed like a school, this proved the reality of the third dream, where there were kids who wore navy blue tunics.  They were in their early teens and were going out to a courtyard. We were coming back from a precipice.  Everyone here represented several nationalities.  Some Hispanic kids, who were clearly well-off, attended the private school. Looking down at all these people far below, we were out on a balcony.  I thought to myself at the time that I simply couldn’t afford to go falling over this balcony. In the meanwhile, I energetically waved down to the group below.  I was encouraging them to financially invest in Africa by supporting African industries.

There was nothing in the world that they had to be ashamed of.  They ought to be more proud of their African heritage and their African nations.  Indeed, they needed desperately to wake up to the realisation of just how much that they actually had. Some ten feet away were two white horizontal iron bars that formed a container from the precipice.  Naturally, one was expected to use common sense and not go beyond the two restraining bars. Going to the right of a guy, who did not want to move, I grabbed a hold of the upper bar.  I gymnastically snaked my body through both bars and made it onto the safe side of them again.

One girl was approaching her father, to speak with him, as he was surrounded by people.  Though daytime, it happened also to be overcast.  For being otherwise engaged, her father couldn’t speak to her. To drive away her disappointment, I grabbed her and started dancing which her father appreciated with a warm smile.  She had been quite insistent on speaking to him, however, there was no way that he could have then seen her. I was trying to get her to see that her father’s diplomatic affairs meant that there were times, even to her, when he was simply unavailable.  At the time, he was in the midst of being interviewed by a television crew.

One Delisle Condo, Toronto

I was in a darkened room, at night time, in this the fourth dream.  Somehow, Isha da Braga and other family members were also present.  A man was lying there on a bed and his physique was that of a warrior or even a king soul incarnate. He was a pure white-haired man.  It was the natural hair colour not due to his agedness physically.  He had been across the bed on which I lay.  At the time, I was not the least bit tired. I was supposed to be in repose and there was an implicit order that he not be awakened.  There were several talons – fishing flies, however, they were unlike their waking state counterparts.

Apparently intended for me to keep, they were laid out on my pillow.  Beyond the head of the bed was the lone door to the room.  The look of the door and the room made it seem fairly sepulchral. Meanwhile, another man had entered the room through those doors.  He stood in the centre of the room before me.  He wore a gossamer-looking outfit which fell to just below his calves. It was as if a futuristic version on the chainmail suit of ages past.  Bronze-coloured, it fitted his body pretty much like a wet suit would.  There were some metallic-looking strips that crossed the outfit.

Behind him were the largest wings imaginable.  These were definitely not some theatrical contraptions, they were his.  Adding greater drama to his entrance, they flared out behind him and upwards. To say the least, he was quite the mythic figure.  Sadly though, the intensity of the outfit’s glow obscured the look of his face.  For that reason, it was hard to say whether he was Amerindian, Indian, Asian, Black or White. On remembering that dream of September 4, 1988, I instinctively sat up.  Straight away, I knew that he would approach the bed.  I also knew that whilst standing there at the foot of bed, he would perform some all-important ritual.

Meanwhile, Penina da Braga and Isha were telling me not to get up.  That was because I wasn’t supposed to disturb the man, who lay there, soundly asleep. Frankly, I did not much care about the archetypal king/warrior-souled man soundly asleep on the bed with me.  As I explained to them, I was more concerned with the winged incredibly tall man. I knew that he was there to collect the fishing flies from me.  For that reason, I told them that I was afraid that the winged man may take off, thus making it potentially impossible to get them to him.

Their confusion was distracting; so, with that, I finally got from the bed and left the area.  As I left the sepulchral room, I realised that I had been someone who had been quite revered in a past life. Apparently, this had been in parts of the West Indies – the Virgin Islands and mainland America.  As I walked from the room, I had been told this by a guide. Seemingly, I had been a skilled diplomat which was when I had earlier been out on the balcony.  At the time, I had been looking down to the masses and spurring on their spirits. I was respected and much-loved by the locals.

*The immensely powerful, gossamer-suited, winged and exceptionally tall man was not the Eurocentric angel.  He was not, for that matter, some mythic archetype. He was an extra-human and it was also clear that regardless his packaging, he was clearly a king soul.  There was no getting around that fact. I found that it was quite impactful being in his presence.  I also had a strong sense that he was someone with whom I have been familiar, in the dreamtime, throughout my life. This is one of those rare times that he has manifested in the dreamtime.  I do believe that this is the first time that his manifestation has been recorded in this audio-cassette medium.  END.

In a courtyard area, I found myself in this the fifth dream, on an estate that was close to the sea.  A man was being surrounded by five Italian guys who were being problematic. Clearly, these men were thugs and the henchmen of someone with whom he was acquainted.  Eventually, his mother had shown up wearing this beautiful floral-printed dress.  The dress was a sleeveless design. She was a short study of the babushka archetype.  There was no way to get around the fact that this man was Russian.  I had had to tell his white-haired mother, to stop being emotionally panicked, to leave the scene. She could, by her distress, have proven detrimental to his survival.  Besides, quietly I had told her to go get help by dialling 9-1-1.  Except that when she went to the balcony, she started shining some large spotlights.

Seeing the logic of her actions, I told her that whatever she did, she had to always keep them trained on her son.  In the meantime, the henchmen kept on closing in on him.  The heavies all wore bathing suits. On the order of Charlton Heston, he was a tall majestic-looking man.  A very warrior-spirited, mid-aged man was her son. The house was a papaya-toned, West Indian-orange-into-peach tone, to slight-tangerine-red impressive structure.  Surrounding the house, in the modern style, was a large stone wall. There were marvellous sculptural openings in the wall.  They were lyrically curvaceous and suggested slow aqueous movement.  The style architecturally was really quite timeless. Set some twenty feet from the house, the wall was an impressive complement to it and was some ten-to-eleven feet tall.  The wall was the same colour as the side of the house.

The earthen yard was a roughhewed affair, with exposed roots everywhere, as top soil had long ago been wind-and-rain swept aside.  The wall was in three phases, to accommodate the sloping grade of the property, dropping a couple of feet along the way.  The distance between a drop-off in the wall was roughly ten feet. When one got down to the seashore, there was a van circling in the air overhead.  This van had the same green tonality of most military helicopters.  The look was of that army camouflage gear that is sported the world over. The craft was definitely not a helicopter.  A network of vary-sized antennae shot from all sides of the van-like craft that silently hovered in the air.  Down on the shore, parked next to the sea, were a couple of tractor-trailers. Their being placed so close to the ocean, I thought was dangerous.  Both of them were white with one being silver in the back.  Clearly claimed by the ocean, they had been abandoned there to rust away.

I couldn’t believe the environmental negligence of whoever had done this.  Not realising that the henchmen had landed on the beach and entered the house, a man had come and parked his car down on the beach. Meanwhile, the girl – who had wanted to talk to her diplomatic father – had learnt that these same people had savagely butchered one of her brothers.  They had then disposed of his body at sea. The man being confronted by the murderous henchmen had come down to the sea.  He was there to investigate who they were and why they had landed on his beachfront property. A number of people had seen them come ashore and had yelled out after them.  The concerned were neighbours of the Russian man. These people then took it on themselves to call the authorities.  With that, the murderous henchmen had fled.

By the rising tides, the butchered corpse was slowly beginning to be dragged out to sea.  The murderers had fled, behind the house, to the sheer cliff, rock face where there were several abandoned buildings. These men had split up at once, taking off in divergent directions, to escape being caught together.  Running helter-skelter, they veered off in separate directions when fleeing apprehension. Taking cover myself, I then went indoors; once inside, I immediately looked around when trying to get my bearings.  There, I saw a man lying on the floor who was bent over. Splendidly furnished with an eclectic array of antiques and mementos of a well-travelled life, the interior of this house was busy.  The décor here was in the Santa Fe style and warm it was too.

The man was on the lowest of the three levels, of the split-level house, thus leaving him closer to the sea.  Theatrical, the house was wide-open and inviting.  This layout afforded a commanding view of the wetness of nature’s womb outside. As each of the three levels had its own sitting room area, he was in that level’s sitting room.  The seating was always in the centre of the central hall-like room. There were lots of potted plants that towered up in search of the comfortably far-off ceilings.  They were all big-leafed and, for the most part, succulents. In this one area, it was absolutely beautiful – where the guy was knocked out and on the floor.  Coming closer, I realised that it was my current lover, Gustavo Vadim.  He had been badly beaten up by the marauding, interloping murderers.

Shore Bird on the Tundra, Kenojuak Ashevak

One of the henchmen, wearing a skimpy little bathing suit, went down before the Russian man’s mother and started masturbating in front of her.  As she sat there, on the chair, the henchman air-jacked off though never having taken his hard-on from his tight-fitting spandex. The poor dear was being totally traumatised by his boorish behaviour.  Seated there, she really did want to get a load of that throbbing piece of raw tenderloin.  I found it quite comical to look at her. I, at the time, was up on a ledge that formed part of the structure’s girders.  Just as outside, in the stone walls, the same sculptural schemata were reproduced on the walls inside the house.  There in one of these openings I had comfortably sat. Hiding out of view of them, I had been crouching down.  To my left, from where I perched birdlike, was the central living space in which were the sitting areas.

A really beautiful organic house; it was not unlike that sublime masterpiece which I explored in the dreams on Thursday, February 16, 1989. As one walked down the length of the house, towards the sea, the partition on which I hid was off to the right.  Beyond the central living space, the same sculptural wall was repeated far opposite across the house. Too, that wall had groovy openings in its three-foot-thick frame.  Here too, as outside, the same colour schemata prevailed.  Here in this part of the house, it was dark as there were not many windows in the structure. There were, interestingly enough, no central skylights in this house.  This, I thought, was a design flaw. As they went off to get dressed in casual wear, one of the Italian guys had seen me.  I must say that they were an über-poilu bunch.

The fact that they had been able to inflict a great deal of damage on their target, they openly celebrated.  One of them had gone and gotten the guy, who reminded me of Gustavo, putting him on the gas range. Turning on the gas, they then struck a match on his genitals and arse.  I couldn’t believe my eyes.  Both his anterior and posterior sexes were on fire.  Rushing to his aid, I snapped at them telling them to layoff persecuting him. Grabbing his body, I pulled him off the range and covered his singeing sexes.  I then reached over and put out the glowing blue-flamed gas range. The Italian guy, it turned out, drank a lot of whiskey then he violently spat out the liquor at me.  With lightning ease, I caught it in my mouth and rapidly spat it back at him. He had followed the liquor with a spurt of flame which, of course, was meant to set me alight.  The stunt had failed as intended.  I had no intentions of being burned as he had intended.

The way in which I blew the breath out had amazed me.  The sound of my breath was a thunderous quake.  The process was empowering and felt as though a wind tunnel had opened up.  Out of my body, there blew all this warm air. Though I had feared that he would throw a match at me, setting my breath and self on fire, it never did happen.  In the same position, as a frog’s limbs, Gustavo was crumpled on the floor. Crouched forwards, I turned him back, attempting to right his body.  Gustavo, however, remained on his knees.  His spread arse cut quite the impressive inviting image. Finally, on seeing his face, I could see a semblance of Gustavo’s face.  More importantly, this reincarnationally was the amalgamated face of his soul over the ages.  The nostrils were more flared than Gustavo’s.

Though not dead, he was as if in a deep comatose state.  Nonetheless, he was sexually inviting, expansive and to the point of being submissive. Furious, I shrieked at the henchmen and ordered them to instantly get the fuck out of the house.  They were very rebellious though. Getting outside, I rushed after them and made sure that they were taking their leave of the property.  When the authorities pulled up, tires screeching, they had gone down into their car. Tearing from their cars, they abandoned them fleeing on foot.  Before the house, there was a sheer rock cliff which was some eight feet high.  Where the millennia of water runoff had created deep cracks in it, there were deep fissures in the rock face.

This is what had caused the earth, in the yard, to become so eroded leaving a bare rocklike surface.  Whilst I hid out down in a dugout, I saw the arrival of backups.  They arrived in futuristic, EHV(extra-human vehicle)-like machinery. As if made from malleable chrome alloy, they were silver.  In that sense, they appeared as if animated machinery effortlessly floating through the air. Removing myself from the chaos, I went off on an exploratory tour inside a large complex that seemed like a museum.  There, I saw several strange-looking persons who seemed not wholly human. I couldn’t though quite fathom what it was about them that made them, as it were, not quite homo sapiens.  Finally, nothing on display made precious sense to me.  With that, I took my leave of the complex.

In the Garden, Shawn Hunt

The persons there were also openly making fun of Blacks though not necessarily me.  Since I did not appreciate this, I took off.  I was then in this area with a guy whom I initially thought was Black. He energetically seemed Black.  I had been too distracted, by the goings-on outside, to have paid him much attention.  There was considerable fighting taking place outside the dugout. The Italian henchmen were caught in a stakeout with persons who were obviously extra-human.  They seemed more so like sentinels – automatons, if you like, rather than humanoids. With a large pylon slab in it, the dugout was metallic and less than six feet deep.  On the other side of the pylon was a doorway.  The guy was always on my right as we hid out. Soon it became apparent that the EH sentinels were aware of our being in hiding.  What’s more, they were actually protecting us from being overwhelmed by the Italian henchmen.

When they appeared to do battle with the sentinels, the Italian-looking guys had the most incredibly large guns.  A woman in army fatigues had jumped back away from a bullet. With ferocious skill she had grabbed a bullet, ripping through space, from the air then violently tossed it down into the dugout where we were.  Eventually, she had managed to shoot one of the sentinels. Soon enough, they received backup from the army fatigue-coloured crafts that had appeared as if out of nowhere.  At the time, for the first time, the guy that I was with pointed out the sentinels to me. Not until they had come close enough did I realise that they were as different to us, indeed, as were we to them.  They had spindly arachnidan legs.  Their bodies were round squat and robotic-looking whilst their heads were small as compared to their rotund bodies.

However, these were not mere machinery, they were unmistakably sentient.  They could fight and were rather immune to battle fire.  Seemingly, in composition, their bodies were made of material that was fairly close to steel. Long-limbed, their legs were frightfully skinny.  Terminating in a spear-like or pin-like sharp point, their arms were sticklike and long.  A bipedal race they were whose locomotion was rather nimble. Their legs were in three sections with no discernible feet.  They moved as if their extended feet were perpetually en pointe.  The henchmen were tossing out these round pellets which seemed some new sort of anti-personnel grenade. The sentinel would quickly grab a hold of the grenades and instantaneously diffuse them.  They managed to throw one down at us and, at that point, the guy got up and made to leave the dugout.

I was uncertain whether or not he had been shot.  When he was crawling from the dugout, I could tell from the shortness of his legs – as compared to the length of his back – that he was White rather than Black. This man was, in fact, Gustavo and I called after him and asked him not to leave the dugout.  Reassuringly, he told me that he would be back.  Nonetheless, I did not like being left alone without his grounding company. When he started coming back, his face was now different.  He wore a green mask which had a large diamond-shaped, quartz crystal in it.  Another person also came from the hall that went down into the earth. Whilst he was walking there, he and the others all looked like cartoon or animated figures.  What they were, in fact, were astral entities that we were witnessing.  This creature then came out to do battle with the sentinels.

The creature wore all-black flowing garments that independently billowed in the non-extant wind.  A plaque on the slab read ‘Minerva’ or some such ancient name.  This woman represented yet another mythological archetype. I went, beyond the courtyard, to explore the inside of the structure.  There, I saw an exhibit of species of sentient beings.  They were, some of them, humanoid. Some were Black but these species were, for the most part, not members of our own homo sapiens species.  As it was an anthropological exhibition, at the time, there were several other persons there taking in the exhibit. With some of the other humans about marvelling aloud at the vast array of sentient life forms, it was all very revelatory.  They were all alien to anything that one could fathom evolving here on Gaia.

I had not stayed very long in ‘the hall of species’ which is what it was called.  In a soothing blue-walled salon, one hall was adorned with beautiful tapestries. The designs here were most unusual.  They sprung from vastly different aesthetic sensibilities than those to which the human experience has given expression. One guy who was there, an older man, was talking aloud of the exhibit.  He was White and from time to time kept on looking back at me whilst throwing shade. Here was this asinine human, identifying with EHs, when he hadn’t even been able to accomplish the same with his own kind.  He was also Gay and, for greater impact, doing an affected lisp.

He was a tour guide.  He was speciously trying to show how these alien cultures also had connections to ancient Greece.  This monologue of his was so much bullshit and, yet again, another example of racist absurdities. Dismissing him and his ilk, I moved on picking up the pace of my walk.  The entire place was a series of stairs that went up, and then down, sometimes even winding but along them the exhibits were visible.

*The sense of the winding stair-interiored museum was not unlike the layout of the Guggenheim Museum on New York City’s Fifth Avenue.  END.

Owls on Parade, Kenojuak Ashevak

As in the waking state, this undoubtedly was not the conventional approach to museum exhibits.  The beautiful courtyard was littered with chairs that were of a pinkish-red-toned iron. They faced up towards the courtyard’s piece de resistance which was a lovely stand of the most unusual-looking trees.  The sunlight here could best be described as starlight because its intensity suggested that this was not being illumined by Sol. After having seen it earlier, now I was seeing it in greater detail.  They were preparing to serve a meal there.  At that point, I did not get too involved.  The mythic woman/creature Minerva was also there in the museum of alien anthropology. The other species aesthetically were simply fantastical.  The chromium stick-limbed sentinels were also represented in the exhibit.  I had taken cover in the museum, which was completely underground, to escape becoming caught up in the fighting aboveground.

Under no circumstances did I want to have to get involved in warfare.  The man had been spirited away during battle, by one of the hovering vehicles, by the whitish-silver, sentient chrome beings. The craft had circled the property, before touching down in the sea, away from being overrun by the Italian-looking guys on land.  The henchmen had no way of making it out to sea to overwhelm the sentinels’ crafts. There were lots of especially tall coconut trees that ringed the estate of the marvellous split-level dwelling.  The craft had made it ashore, at which point, then morphed into looking like an abandoned car. In that way, its transformed shell served as clever camouflage.  There were several antennae on it as did all the others have antennae.  When they had been in the house, they were in constant communication with their crafts.

This was the point at which I made the realisation that the Italian-looking men, in bathing suits, were extra-human got up in human disguise.  This is why it had made it so confusing to fully discern what was afoot. As they were way bigger and more space-aged, than anything native to Earth, the guns that the Italian-looking extra-humans used were a dead giveaway.  Though they were young-looking, there was something about them that suggested that they did not fit into the ageing process governed by Sol’s unique vibration. Warrior-spirited, they were an adversarial people.  Clearly, they were there to capture humans for their own purposes whether for research or something else.

That something else, whilst I was in the museum of EH anthropology, I thought meant capturing human specimens for sale to museums like the one that I toured. Either way, they were sadistic, extremely unpleasant sentient extra-humans to be around.  Theirs was a young-souled focus that was not unlike the rapacious exploitations that began 500 years ago on this planet – which prevail to this today.

Prismatic Loon, Kenojuak Ashevak

These dreams occurred on Sunday, April 25, 1993 whilst the Moon transited both Gemini and my first house.  Unlike dreams from this date previously shared herein, on February 16, 2013, these dreams, however, were had during the ‘B’ or second sleep cycle that day. They were, to say the least, rather transformative dreams. As per the Minerva mythological woman in this dream, I am beginning to think that she may have been connected to the same mythological female in that dream set on the Moon.  Indeed, this dream may also have been set here on Earth’s Moon. I will also go one further and presume that the dream of the inverted Machu Pichuesque, canyonned civilisation may well have been set on Earth’s Moon.  Who are we to say that this is not the case?  We are a planetary civilisation where ignorance and superstition are the order of the land. 

I think that it makes perfect sense for there to be a museum of anthropology on the Moon.  Said museum would, of course, bear examples of all the species which from time to time frequent or have frequented the planet.  I am sure with each species on display that there would be a history as to its connection to Earth. Were they engaged in deep sea marine studies or mining – aquatic or land-based?  Were they engaged in trade, research, exchanges with some levels of Earthly governments? Again, as with the canyonned Machu Pichuesque civilisation, December 29, 1990. There was the sense of the dugout and that dream of October 6, 1997 wherein the 500-plus-storeyed skyscrapers sat inside portal-like canyons.  I do believe that all three of these dreams are connected and were centred on the Moon. 

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Past-Life Dream Set In Intrigue-Filled Dynastic Egypt.

This dream, set in dynastic Egypt, deftly betrays what a powerfully focussed and strong woman Harella was.  The dream was first that day.  

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Iman still from Michael Jackson video Remember the Time.

I was sat on a wonderful divan in a beautifully opulent place.  Instinctively, I knew that this was in Egypt.  It was during the height of pharaonic Egypt. There were two stout women here with me who were light-skinned.  Hard to tell whether they were Mitanni or light-skinned Blacks.  They were cooks and were fussing over me asking me to eat up.I ate from a plate which had these different shoots on it.  One of them was papyrus shoots, some bamboo shoots and a wild Nile delta mushroom.  It was strictly vegetarian fare.As well, there was a purplish tuber like baby eggplants.  I ate with a fork which was very heavy-looking.  Clearly, I did possess some rank at birth.  I would point out the items I wanted to eat next and would then have it fed to me by either woman.

At one point, I was told by one of the women, “Yes, you even remember what your favourites were last time.”

Catch of the Day. Drawing. 2008 Arnaqu Ashevak

At this point, into the room walked a tall Black woman of Ethiopian features and complexion but who was not too dark.  Definitely, she was from the Upper Nile region. I can’t quite do justice here as to how supremely regal this woman was.  She was quite simply the most regal and powerful creature imaginable. The two eyes that this woman wore were large, brown and soulful.  You felt her soul itself looking out and into you. I did not think of her as having been Merlin in a past life.  However, it is quite possible that this woman’s soul I knew quite recently as Merlin during its last incarnation. When she entered the room, the women looked at each other and one of them said in a sotto voce, “Ah yes, she’s brought him with her.”

The Iconic Iman

There was a Black man, who was a little darker-complected, there with her.  Seemingly a relation or priest, perhaps, he might even have been a eunuch. He remained in an outer room.  She was quite simply the Queen, the Pharaoh’s wife. On entering, she began walking around us and speaking.  She was very stylised in her movements.  She wore a tunic of gold thread and strips of gold filigree. In places, her dress looked metallic.  In its sparse, linear, understated opulence, it seemed not unlike something that Cynthia McFadden would design. The dress throughout was festooned with the designs, all in gold, of open papyrus leaves.  They were very tiny and sat inside of little squares. In one square there would be a papyrus applied, such that it would be very iridescent, whilst on the next square it was very dull with a matte finish look to it.  The resulting effect was one of row after row, square after square, of papyruses. Each square was exactly half an inch square.  The detail on this dress was absolutely golden.  It was supported by half-inch-wide straps which, of course, had the same square papyrus design.

Blue Bird, Drawing 2009 Kenojuak Ashevak

Next to her flawless complexion, she was simply statuesque.  Her neck was easily six to ten inches longer than the infamously long neck of Ann Cokossi, Princess of Togo – the regal lady’s neck was longer than Iman’s.  Iman was clearly descended from the same stock. It was not Iman.  She did have long hair that was finely braided in the fashion of a Maasai male’s.  The hair was swept up off her face and into a very intricate arrangement. There were several beads throughout her stylised hair and some of them were cowrie beads.  There were other shells and some precious stones as well. Her makeup was exquisitely applied and clearly was a several-hour affair.  The eyes, of course, were the most detailed. I really did not get a sense of it being the famous Nefertiti Akhenaten.  However, the man that she was with was undesirable and totally untrustworthy. I got the sense that it was someone related to me, as in myself, in a past life.  Her companion male never did enter the room. Whilst speaking with the woman who sat there on the chair feeding me, the queen kept on slowly gliding about the room.  This woman was like the Queen Mother or, perhaps, the dowager.

Four Eyes and Groovy, Drawing 2025 Michael Massie

Whilst she spoke, I was beginning to become refamiliarised with the palace intrigue. Throughout the salon, where we sat, there were a whole series of spies.  Soon enough, I could discern the holes throughout the walls so that the spies could get a good command of what was going down. There was a great deal of subterfuge here.  There was a whole caste of spies.  There were spies who were in the service of the priesthood.  Spies of the Queen’s and still there were spies of the Pharaoh’s. Still there were spies of the harem among which were a subclass and more powerful caste of spies for the eunuchs.  In addition, all the different levels of the royals had their own battery of spies. All about the room, every one of those holes had a designated spy who reported back to his dynastic figurehead in the hierarchy. This was a very brief dream, I must add here.  However, it was very lucid, real and totally lived-in a dream. I had a sense of being there in time.  It was not just an observer dream.  I was really in the body of that royal child who could have been no more than six years old.

Arctic Assembly, Lithograph 1996 Kenojuak Ashevak

This occurred at nighttime and it was somewhat damp in the room though simultaneously briny from the arid desert air.  The whole language was about intonation and innuendo. As a matter of fact, the whole language was so ritualised and stylised that it was more slow and subtle than is movement in the Noh theatre of Japan.  This was all about gestures and the myriad gestures that could be implied from the relations of one gesture juxtapose to another. It took me awhile to get the knack of it.  However, I became totally lucid as to what was going down. It all came back to me.  Indeed, even at the age of six, I was already quite proficient in the nuances of this very complex court language. As she spoke, the Queen’s arms and other parts of her body would be perpetually in motion.  It was danced – this language.  The whole language was codified and layered beyond anything wildly imaginable in this day and age of superficiality. This was deception on the order of high art.  What was spoken was mere camouflage.  The spoken word was not even an nth of the layered language. Along with it, what her body was doing and the subtlety of movements indicated what was really implied by what was said.  More to the point, it was what was not implied by what was not said.

Birds and Foliage, Stonecut 1970 Kenojuak Ashevak

By comparison, the most sophisticated Parisienne would be considered a primitive communicator. This was all very complex court politics, indeed.  Then, at one point, the Queen went and stood thereby freezing her movement and this is what one had to try and discern. This was because the every placement of every limb and muscle, on her body, carried great impact by way of what was being communicated.  This was very much so an African tongue being spoken here. At times, it was slow whilst at other times dizzyingly sped up and rapid fire.

*It seemed more closely to resemble Jazz vocalesing à la Betty Carter sophistication though, truth be told, even Betty Carter’s skills were primitive by comparison.  I can’t impress enough how truly complex was this language and mode of communicating.  END.

Yet I got the complete picture of what she was communicating.  The Queen was speaking of the child – my six-year-old former self.  I feigned ignorance at the time though it was obvious that I was the subject of discussion. This had to do with the care of the child. “How was the child coming along?” she had inquired. I could very well have been her child.  It was obviously the custom for royal children to be separated, from their mothers at birth, the higher placed they were at birth. I was here in this dream, of a past life experience, in the care of two women who were as if wet-nurses/governesses to me.

Flower Bird, Stonecut 1970 Kenojuak Ashevak

At another point, the Queen had produced this papyrus fan from beneath the delicate folds of the heavy-looking dress. It was a plain fan made of papyrus.  However, it was covered in hieroglyphs.  This was also a very ancient fan which she had inherited. The fan was being strategically used, as part of the deceptive code, to foil the spies all about the room.  When coming closer to us, the Queen had smiled a very bland smile in my direction. This was, of course, so that nothing whatsoever could be read into it by any of the spying factions.  The Queen slowly leaned in to look at the food that I ate. Inspecting it, she offered the gesture of showing her trust in the cooks by taking a piece of shoot from the plate to eat. This was all theatre for as she had slipped the food to her mouth she waved the fan over her mouth whilst saying, in rapid-fire sotto voce, a couple of very strategic sentences.  It was absolutely sublime. It was directed at the dowager Queen Mother who, for being more practised in the art, feigned utter ignorance of anything so paranoid as subterfuge.  It was priceless! This was clearly the height of late young soul to early mature soul intrigue.  Though she could never have been overheard in saying what she had, the fan was placed to prevent the visiting Queen being lip-read. These spies, after all, were very expert.  I do recall one man having been seated across from me earlier.  He was a spy and basically he was visiting to learn the every minutia of my mouth mechanics during speech. It was all very subtle, though very archly shrewd and deadly, the way in which he came to do his job and record my mouth’s every idiosyncrasy during speech. The queen had performed, in that one gesture, such a winning sleight of hand.  She was letting the Queen Mother know that she trusted her by actually tasting the food that she was feeding the child – me, in that past life. It seemed, after all, to be an impromptu visit which means that the food could well have been laced with poison for unsuspecting me.  I suppose that if it were necessary, I could have been eliminated by the dowager Queen Mother or the Queen herself.

A Birthday Bull for John from Bill, 1990 Drawing Bill Reid

When she had directly stood in the centre of the room, earlier, the Queen had picked up her right foot off the floor.  She had very subtly managed not to have shifted her weight or allowed for any movement whatsoever in her upper body. The Queen then began doing what seemed a predecessor of the frappé and began horizontally waving her foot from the ankle.  The movement betrayed a gesture akin to ‘no’.  This, of course, did not in the least betray everything that was going on elsewhere in her body. As there were so many items of furniture about the room, it was obvious that from where the holes were placed in the walls that one could not make out the codified foot movements. This was so mind-bogglingly delicious.  The foot being incorporated, in the language, was a most clever invention. The moment at which she picked up her foot, it was as though I had sat up awake in bed.  It was that vividly recalled from past life experience. ‘Yes!’ I thought to myself and laughed a small breath which the dowager Queen Mother, to my side, immediately stifled with a sharp intake of breath. One clearly did not laugh in the Queen’s presence.  The subtleties of the language here, in this point in dynastic Egypt, were phenomenally stratospheric. This was communication taken to heights unheard of since, in any court life, on this planet. There were times as she slowly moved about the room that the Queen had ritually placed the fan to her beguiling face, to fan herself, whilst letting out little phrases for us to hear.

Electric Raven, Stonecut 2019 Quvianaqtuk Pudlat

On one occasion, her back was to us and her arm in back made a series of quick gestures that were not unlike sign language.  Meanwhile, the fan was to her face giving us a double stream of code to simultaneously decipher. To the point of being frightening, the Queen was very deceptive.  It was hard to ever see her eyes.  The Queen used language such that the eyes could never have been seen. More could be read from her eyes adding to what she was saying.  For this reason, she almost exclusively kept her lids such that it kept her gaze cast out and down to the floor. Her head, of course, was never lowered and the rapid eye movements which she employed were also very strategic.  When she spoke, one was never to make eye contact with her. It would imply too much simply because we were being spied on.  This was indeed a very restrictive existence. There we were, in a fish bowl of sorts, being spied on by sharks who completely surrounded us waiting their turn to hungrily make prey of us.  Since she was the Queen, one could never look at her eyes. However, I was possessed of more than my six-year-old self making me a very probing and curious soul.  The Queen picked up on this and was acutely made uncomfortable by it. It was as though there was now some new development in my maturation which spelt trouble.  Naturally, you just knew that there was any number of long discussions to come as to what to do with this ‘one’ meaning my poor, possessed self. It was as though, for having stepped into my former self’s six-year-old body, I could have spelt his very untimely and not accidental death.  Regardless, this woman and I were deeply connected.

Mother and Cubs, Lithograph 1977 Kananginak Pootoogook

I could sense from her a real familial, maternal even, bond.  The Queen was very much so in tune with me.  There was an element of this communication which was low-level telepathic. Indeed, there were times when she had thusly engaged me.  It was chiefly done for putting me at ease.  It was also how she had to stay bonded to me for having had me taken from her, of custom, at birth. What was really interesting here was that the concept of reincarnation was definitely fully accepted and religiously incorporated in the schemata of dynastic life.  The dowager Queen Mother and governess, too, were both convinced that I was someone in the royal family who had reincarnated. My choice of food favourites were validation enough for them.  I was very much so favoured by the Queen.  She was warm towards me. However, she never physically expressed this.  There was always, however, a very strong psychic fusion between us with most of the energies coming from her to me. She was connected to me – this much was unmistakable.  I never did see the eunuch who had accompanied her, however, he was very powerful an influence in their lives. For this reason, more so than the placement of the spies, the Queen never once was demonstrative of her feelings towards me.  She did let up on reaching towards the plate of food. One had the sense, of the eunuch who had accompanied her, that he was the one person who had connections to all the spying factions within the inner royal circle.  He waited outside in the antechamber and his presence was more closely being paid attention to, than even the Queen’s, at times. There had also been musicians about the room playing music.  This was simply to drown out the conversation being heard by the battery of spies. The musicians were placed along all four walls to really drown out the conversation.  This then precluded conversation from making it to the periphery of the room and the spies just beyond its walls. This was a very palatial suite.  It was dimly lit and sparsely decorated yet in the finest style.  A very comfortable and socially elevated milieu it was.  A most elevated dream experience.

Miriam Gone Home, Oil on Canvas 2002 Dorette Pollard

*As it is the forty-fifth anniversary of Merlin’s birth, I had asked prior to sleep in a lengthy meditation, to become opened up to experiencing aspects of a past life experience between Merlin and me. I asked only that it be of a positive nature and that it be in no way an unpleasant experience.  The last thing that I wanted was to have some dream which mirrored the less pleasant aspects of Merlin’s end-of-life experience. Voilà, there it was – a most vivid, awakened dream experience.  I have no idea which person here could have been Merlin. I fully identified with the six-year-old and, indeed, I was experiencing the dream inside his body and, at times, from a detached perspective.  Then, too, I did identify with the much-feared eunuch outside the door. So I don’t know if he was me or, perhaps, even Merlin.  The very loving energies of the Queen Mother could more easily have been Merlin, in a past life, than the Queen herself.

**The musicians about the room, against the far walls, were all distinctly Nubian.  They were exquisitely beautiful and the quirk that they each had was that they were, for obvious reasons, each of them both blind and deaf. This, of course, did not detract from their stellar musicianship; at times they did sing.  However, for being both blind and deaf they could not be expected to be picking up on any of the codified language and body signals that formed this most layered of spied-on, palace intrigues in dynastic Egypt. I should think, too, that this was at the heights of the Middle Kingdom before the advent of Akhenaten’s ascension.  This sort of intrigue, and frankly rut, is precisely what he was likely sick of and seeking to escape when initiating his monotheistic religion. Of course, with so much centuries-old intrigue, clearly he would have been seen as the ultimate obstruction – a heretic who had to be annihilated at all costs and things righted in his demise.  This, of course, is precisely what did take place. Again, despite the vogue since the nineteenth century to make a truly African civilisation anything but, everyone one and everything here was distinctly African: the music, the looks, the sense of fashion, styles and hair styles. The Queen’s eyes were not only phenomenally powerful but her head had that distinctly African/Black high-foreheaded look.  The Queen’s neck was almost giraffe-like.

She made Iman look no-necked by comparison.  END.

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Jacob Lusk singing Bennie and the Jets.

PBS broadcast of The Gershwin Prize for Popular Song to Sir Elton John and Bernie Taupin. I will pay any money to drink the elixir from this glorious human’s chalice in concert. Fly! This man’s interpretation of this song has trigger more than a few flying dreams. Sang!

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Two rats during the course of eighteen months produce one million offspring. You’ve long transcended being a cultural infestation; you are a fucking plague and Karma, that most vicious of cunts, will yet dispense with you!

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©2013-2026 Arvin da Brgha.  All Rights Reserved.

Blissing Out In a Shower of Crystals!

A Shower of Crystals

Nothing is more healing and empowering than laughter.  Always, whenever in Merlin’s presence, laughter erupted from deep within my very soul.  This next dream marvellously captures the essence of the bond that we shared and how laughter was an energetic bond that we readily indulged and transferred. 

The dream occurred, on Tuesday, October 26, 1993, whilst the Moon transited both Pisces and my tenth house.  The dream occurred during the B or second sleep cycle that day.  

Some three hours after going to sleep, it was the first dream recalled on awakening.  Incidentally, I almost never sleep more than four hours each sleep cycle. 


I was standing on the premises of the Boys’ School in The Alley, Sandy Point, St. Kitts.  A car came down and stopped when out came Isabella da Braga who proceeded to lock it up. On looking like quite the eccentric loon, she carped on about being there to do some business – not that I had asked or cared.  In any event, keenly aware that the persons all around were suspiciously eyeballing me, I went and opened the door. They seemed to have known who I was but they were not, any of them, vaguely familiar.  There was a definite tension in the air which was exacerbated by the fact that the place was caught up in the midst of a heated, election campaign.

Isabella had pulled up in a white car that was fairly stylish-looking. Using my keys, I opened up the old school house that was closer to the road. When going up to the second storey landing, I opened up the windows on the landing that faced due south.  Afterwards, I asked Isabella to wait a while for me to return to the store and get something. I told her that I needed some sort of candy or fruit to eat.  En route there, to the west of the road, I passed the first house that was past the school and right next-door to the school.  This, of course, whilst heading southwards in the direction of Cleverly Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts.

Long abandoned, in the waking state, the old stone building was now turned into a gorgeous workspace for a furniture maker.  On display were several of the beautiful, small round tables that he produced.  They could comfortably seat up to four persons but no more. Since most West Indian dining rooms are not especially large, this made perfect sense.  Much of the furniture was painted a light blue.  He was a local, light-complected man who was not White though of mixed blood from centuries earlier. It was clear that his White part of the family had been on the island for at least two centuries.  The place was quite crowded with some chairs stacked whilst tables and chairs hung from the ceiling.

Love at First Sight @dorettepollardart Oil on Panel

A busy, accomplished artisan he was.  Some round tables, stacked high, had just their central pole and no tops as yet.  All of them had their central leg splayed out into four radial bases that were stylishly detailed. It was very impressive workmanship here. After having taken a while to drink in the sweet bouquet of this artist’s creative expression, I then moved on.  Eventually, I came on a building which I entered.

On the inside was a large display area with tons of antiques.  Lots of things here were from colonial times.  Beautiful lithographs were everywhere harkening back to another age. Over in one corner, there was a group of lithographs exclusively depicting cats.  Others were of several species of dogs.  Still, others were of various clocks with some merely being detailed portions of clocks.  All in all, a unique, intriguing discovery this place was. Every one of these antiques was distinctly West Indian in vibration.  A group of lithographs depicted White women, from families during colonial times, living in the Caribbean.  All these women were very strong-featured persons.

They seemed as if early photographs that were sepia-toned rather than black and white.  When pouring through them, were I to have decorated someone’s house, I thought that some of them could be used to give a sense of history to the space. They seemed as if early photographs that were sepia-toned rather than black and white.  When pouring through them, were I to have decorated someone’s house, I thought that some of them could be used to give a sense of history to the space. The dogs were very European-looking.  Obviously, they had been brought out to the colonies centuries earlier.  However, having long ago become mongrelised, it was clear that precious few of these stocks now existed.

Matchbox with Reflection Drawing George Hawken 1981

There were black and white dogs that looked like Rottweilers.  These were dogs which were all very common to the British Isles and the long tradition there of canine culture. A most strange though pleasant dream experience this was.

I had taken my leave of the place when a gaggle of loud, aggressive, big-boned Whites, with dangerously unhealthy, dark tans, showed up in the store. They proceeded to noisily pick through the store’s contents.  They were truly as if a herd of elephants in a China shop.  Excusing myself from a couple of women, they were both objectionable, I said that I had been looking for prints of cats and since these were of dogs that I would have to go look elsewhere.  With that, I promptly took my leave of the shop. Going into another of the rooms of this complex, left me in a truly spectacular, large, cavernous room.  It had all these wonderful strings hanging down with rock crystals attached to them.  There were also glass-beaded orbs hanging on strings and all of them were transparent and magically reflected the room’s soft light.

On the way into this cavernous room, there was a tiny room off to the right which I opted not to take.  Still there was another room filled with Blacks who were, for the most part, Rastafarians. There were some among them who were distinctively continental Africans; these men made wares which they sold here in the bazaar-like space.  Chiefly goldsmiths, they were expert jewellers whose workmanship was very detailed and of the finest quality… very nice indeed. In the other room were some of the most incredible, vibrationally magnetic crystals.  Here there was a great deal of energy work taking place.

Baby Don’t Go Rod Mireau Photography

Here, too, the place was much too filled with greedy North American Whites; they were racially predatory in behaviour, surveilling my every move, as though I were about to steal something of theirs. Immediately, I turned around taking my leave of the space; I simply couldn’t abide this sort of senseless bullshit.  A truly cavernous room it was and with lots of blue in the ceiling. Coming back from the room, I passed the room in which the Black artisans were displaying their wares.  This time, I warmly greeted them which they absorbed and gratefully repaid in kind.  Then I ventured into another room where I found a little woman.

Too, there were two very dark-skinned, Black men present in the room.  Everything was here kept in heavy-looking, black velvet.  There they made a great deal of jewellery; it seemed to be made of pewter: bracelets, chokers, necklaces, et cetera. In addition, they worked with that sublimely beautiful, blue-green gemstone, turquoise.  Lots of long, cylindrical, turquoise earrings were on display.  Everything here was exceptionally blue. At one point, I was looking at the crystals that the Black men sold in the store which was adjacent to the large display space.  There was a stout White woman working there, she was the salesclerk, whilst both Black men worked in the atelier in back producing the goods to be sold.

It was hard to tell, whether she did the designs or, if they were the artisans responsible for executing her creative ideas.  The guys sold a great array of crystals. One, in particular, really caught my eye.  It was exceptionally beautiful.  It was on sale for in excess of 100$. Another which I had been keenly studying and thought would go for around 40$, however, it was going for 90$.  They were all set out in beautiful, black velvet pouches with their points piercing up and out from the folds of the fabric. They were sensibly kept out of reach of the public being able to walk past and stealthily grab a few.  The energies which these crystals gave off were simply awesome.  This left me feeling completely energised.

There’s Work to Be Done Around Here Rod Mireau Photography

I was zinging with a life force whose vibration was simply sparkling.  I felt greatly elevated to have experienced their potency.  I then returned to where Isabella had been, thinking that it was all rather sad, because there seemed no real reason for Isabella to have been there. I then returned to the place again, this time, who should be there but Merlin?  Laughing aloud for joy, I said, “Oh god, Merlin!  Good to see you!” We greeted each other clasping both hands and shaking rather energetically.  He was very pleased to see me as his eyes beamed whilst they directly looked into me.  I could feel his very soul, even.

Both our hands soon became clasped as we stood there longingly looking into each other.  There was so much energy being bled between us. “You know why she’s here?” Merlin asked whilst looking at Isabella, “…It’s because she’s afraid of ‘de jumbie an dem’…”

*Jumbie is patois for ghost. END.

Under Smoke and Starlight Rod Mireau Photography

I couldn’t believe that Merlin had just spoken in a perfectly authentic, Nevisian accent.  Squeezing his hands, I threw my head back and riotously howled for joy. It was so very good to see Merlin. My goodness, this encounter was so lucid and real.  I could feel his muscles really tensing, as we clasped hands, engaging in some conscious energy transference. He was quite funny, clever, witty and playful.  What a blast it was to have seen him.  Isabella had laughed of embarrassment knowing that he was right.

He was pointing out that the only reason why she had come down from Nevis, to Sandy Point, St. Kitts, was the fact that she was bored stiff being over in Nevis. Said he, she did not want to be living alone where all she ever did was perpetually talk to herself.  She also felt that the house that she was living in, over in Nevis, was haunted. Merlin, however, pointed out that it was not so much that the house was haunted as that Isabella was simply afraid that she was going to become haunted by her own demons – as per her talking to herself.

Merlin here was giving Isabella a psychological overview of where she was at.  There was nothing in the least mean-spirited about any of this. Isabella was being very self-deprecating, sublimating, if only because she was quite lucidly aware that this was Merlin and a very valid, astral plane encounter with him. These two had always gotten along rather well. Their relationship was bested only by that of Merlin and Pandora’s – with regards to my siblings’ relations with Merlin.

While You Wait Rod Mireau Photography

This was a very wonderful experience. I rather liked seeing her and being with Merlin.  Merlin then went and sat to my far right with her to my immediate right. Grounding myself, by being energetically harmonised with his very soul, I looked across at and into Merlin.  There was another guy about who was Black whom I did not recognise. He seemed to have been familiar with Merlin.  Perhaps, he is a trusted old companion – from multiple past life connections – who is currently also on the astral plane between lives.

I don’t think that it was Mel Frazier, Merlin’s teacher friend and ex-lover, who passed of AIDS out in Vancouver in December 1986. That aside, it was so very good to have seen Merlin – to have touched his very soul, yet again.

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Isabella da Braga, my darling sister, recently passed. String band music was her favourite music. She was passionate about her music. There will be string band music at her funeral. Sweet and blissful dreams my darling Isabella. She enjoyed a great relationship with Merlin and they always visited in our back garden as she was never comfortable around cats and we had at one point four cats. Nice to know that they can hang out again.

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Two rats during the course of eighteen months produce one million offspring. You’ve long transcended being a cultural infestation; you are a fucking plague and Karma, that most vicious of cunts, will yet dispense with you!

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©2013-2026 Arvin da Brgha.  All Rights Reserved.

Celebrate! George Hawken 80th Anniversary

George Hawken @ University of Toronto

On this the occasion of 80th anniversary of George Hawken’s birth, February 9, 2026, I share here a blog from a decade earlier in celebration of his life at this passing in December, 2016. I have thoroughly relished each lucid dream encounter with George since his passing. Always and forever, I love you more, George. Every ticklish silent laughter shared about god only knows what. Most especially when listening to Florence Foster Jenkins or Joseph Haydn’s Paris Symphonies. Ever, George, your memory will be a wonderful explosion of joy. I am especially proud to have been muse, which fostered a very productive creative phase.

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This past Friday, December 23, 2016, I went to my doctor’s to get my test results for HIV.  The doctor whom I had not seen in long ages was unusually engaging.  When he finally cut to the chase, never had he announced that my test result was HIV negative with so much pleasure; I thought it odd at the time.  Brushing past all that, I then inquired of him how George Hawken was doing; after all, George years earlier on my return to Toronto had insisted that I have the handsome Sino-Canadian for a GP as well. 

Marta.  Intaglio. ©1974 George Hawken

As he paused, I told him that I could appreciate his patient-client confidentiality considerations; however, forging ahead, I told him that I had sent George an email more than a week earlier and had not heard back from him.  Pressing on, I inquired if George was doing well of late as I had last been in touch a couple of months earlier.  In that way that the good doctor had mastered, he haltingly stammered back that yes, George was doing well…  We then left it at that as clearly he did not want to pursue the matter further – he had actually stood up to conclude our visit.   

Pink Chair (Moi) ©1992 George Hawken

About a week earlier, I was feeling especially uneasy about not having had a reply from George to my last email; he would always answer within 36 hours at the latest.  By then, it had been about a week; we hardly ever spoke by phone on my return from Montréal.  Previously, when we spoke by phone our conversations back in the late 80s and through to mid 90s resulted in an invitation from George to immediately get together where our passionate physicality was intense beyond the norm. 

Gordon and Janet in their Garden.  Lithograph ©2009 George Hawken

To still my worrisome mind, I began playing Joseph Haydn’s Paris symphonies; George favoured the Paris symphonies where I favoured the London Symphonies.  George  had actually introduced me to Haydn’s music; he insisted that I become better acquainted with the 18th century composer’s works.  When first I sat for George in 1986, at his Brock Avenue loft in the Queen Street West neighbourhood, he always played Haydn…  I would always love the way, he would play imaginary keyboard whilst enjoying a cigarette break as I privately sat for him. 

die Verwandlung Kafka (Metamorphosis) 11 Franz Kafka Intaglio ©1982 George Hawken

One of the funniest memories of George is lying in bed with him after passionate play at the Brock Avenue loft and laughing hysterically whilst we listened to CBCFM and a Florence Foster-Jenkins performance.  Afterwards, we indulged another round of Rottweiler style passion that was part Greco-Roman brawn.  On my return to Toronto, George and I never resumed our physical relationship; though, I had at least hoped that I could serve as muse to him again.  Alas, it was not to be. 

Fleur du Mal Intaglio Artist proof ©1974 George Hawken

One morning after work, with Haydn symphonies swirling about my mind as my apartment was sodden heavy with the Paris symphonies, I suddenly made a right whilst coming up Yonge Street and headed along Adelaide Street East.  Then, I went one better and hung a left up Sherbourne Street for the morning ride home; never had I done this.  Riding up Sherbourne, the familiar strains of Haydn’s Symphony No. 85 B flat major ‘La Reine’ spirited me along as I leisurely rode up the moderately icy, dedicated bike lane. 

Fly. Intaglio. ©1976 George Hawken 

Just above Shuter Street, George suddenly fell into my mind and I crouched forward towards the handlebar to best face into the cold winds barrelling down the avenue.  Whilst coasting up the bike lane opposite Allan Gardens Park, my mind as I whistled Haydn’s symphony began recalling moments of passion with George long years earlier.  I thought of those glorious nights of noisy, sweaty passionate play at his McCaul Street loft; I crouched forward even more as my face warmed into a smile at pleasurable memories. 

Beethoven Asleep.  Intaglio ©1975 George Hawken

If only, I still had George’s numbers, I would call him on getting home; it was so unlike him not to have responded to the email that I had sent him on December 13, 2016.  Peddling harder up the tough stretch of bike lane between Carlton and Wellesley Street East, I suddenly began slowing down as a large black hearse slowly negotiated its way from the Rosar-Morrison Funeral Home & Chapel property at 467 Sherbourne Street; it waited in the middle of the bike lane for northerly flowing traffic to ease up. 

Pink Chair (Moi) Lithograph Artist proof I/III ©1990 George Hawken

I rolled up and paused looking squarely into the hearse where a cardboard coffin was bound and en route to the St. James Cemetery and Crematorium over on Parliament Street.  This was the same route that my father’s cadaver had taken after his funeral in August 2008 which George had attended.  I was so appreciative of the fact that he had asked if he could attend my father’s funeral.  After the lovely service, I had approached George and we hugged and he seemed really pleased to have made the outing. 

Woman. Lithograph ©1980 George Hawken

Moments afterwards another of my lovers, Owen Hawksmoor came by to start lecturing me about the importance of having many friends; after all, said he, look at all the people who had turned out to my father’s funeral.  Then said, Owen, as can ever be expected of him, “you should at least have six people who would be prepared to pall bear for you.”  Brushing him and his big sex cockiness aside, I rebutted, “trust you to always make for a bitter after taste.  What’s it to me, I’d be dead; it really wouldn’t matter anymore than it does now.” 

Yonge Street Mask (George). Intaglio Artist proof ©1971 George Hawken

I broke and hopped off the bike and intently looked inside at the brown cardboard coffin; it seemed an eternity waiting for the hearse to finally make it off the bike lane and into traffic.  In those moments, I again thought of George and that was when it suddenly dawned on me that I was never going to hear from George again.  Further, I had the distinct impression that what had prompted me to route-change for the first time, to be humming and whistling one of Haydn’s Paris symphonies: symphony No. 84 in B float major is because George’s corpse lay in the hearse before me en route to St. James Cemetery and Crematorium. 

Myself  (Self-portrait) Intaglio Artist proof ©2008 George Hawken 

Without doubt, this was why I was in this place in this moment before an austere black hearse straddling the northbound bike lane on Sherbourne which I had never used before en route home from work.  With that, as the hearse slowly pulled out onto Sherbourne and then made a right turn onto Wellesley Street East, the traffic in the icy snowy street was sufficiently slow that I rode alongside the hearse along the side of the cardboard coffin and accompanied all the way to the black wrought iron gates of the cemetery on Parliament Street. 

Ascenseur Rodin Intaglio Ed 4/20 ©1978 George Hawken

After I got in, had a shower and had my lovely home infused with Hoju incense, Haydn’s symphony No. 104 in D major ‘London’ played on repeat as I grounded anew.  Though it was not especially windy out, there was a loud noise on my balcony and wrapping up in my lovely woolen pea coat, I took to the balcony to investigate.  The first sight that greeted me was a heavy plume of sooty black smoke from the crematorium’s chimneys as they were being swept southerly in the cold wintry morning air.  I lost a tear and on returning indoors, though my Google search on coming home produced nothing for ‘George Hawken Obituary’ I still felt firmly that there was no coincidence to the sequence of events and synchronicity of the past several days which culminated in the black hearse across the bike lane. 

Larger Matchbox III Intaglio ©1980 George Hawken

As it is always tough to close shut, I gave the door to the balcony a bit of encouragement by heaving my right shoulder into it.  On turning away from the door, I noticed one of George’s gifts to me “Woman” was titled off its hook on the cement wall where moments before taking to the balcony it had sat perfectly aligned.  Yet another sign indeed.  Finally, today at work, as I kept checking the folder which bore all George’s email correspondences, then did a Google search for ‘George Hawken Obituary’ alas there was confirmation.  George had died the day before I had sent him my final email; it was one in which I offered to buy a copy of an illustration which he had done for an anthology of emerging Canadian authors. 

George Hawken 2010s

Again, today after work, I rode up the Sherbourne Street bike lane and it all fell into place.  Almost always when I went to our shared doctor, there would George be.  Finally, when I saw him after a long spell of not having been in touch, he sat birdlike in the doctor’s office and he was just as stunned to have seen me walk in as I was to have seem him looking so gravely ill.  George had said that it was cancer; we there and then made arrangements to get together and did.  I was so pleased that he had finally met my lovely sister, Pandora and it was lovely going to George’s Camden Street penthouse suite for dinner with my lovely sister when she was in town from Ottawa. 

Self-portrait (George) Intaglio Artist proof ©1984 George Hawken

Today, whilst riding up the bike lane on Sherbourne Street, the doctor’s excitable congratulations to my testing HIV negative made so much sense.  Too, his response to my query how George was doing of late and his response that he was doing well, indeed, made perfect sense.  By Friday, December 23, 2016, George was doing well and in a better place no longer suffering from the wear and tear of his end-of-life monadal illness.  Ours was a very private relationship and there were only two persons in George’s life with whom I enjoyed cordial relations: his son and his lover, Colin Campbell.  I rather suspect that Colin is George’s task companion. 

die Verwandlung Kafka (Metamorphosis) 7 Intaglio Ed: 18/35 ©1982 George Hawken

I will ever be proud of having been an inspiring muse to George and for having facilitated the energetic work that he did in the late ‘80s to mid ‘90s.  Our passion fuelled his creativity; what’s more, our passion kept me focussed and grounded in this life as Merlin and his ravaging illness and the hideous ghouls who betrayed him in his illness made life at times more harrowing than already the illness made it.  George and his compassion and support were invaluable for me and Merlin was aware of it and openly and unselfishly encouraged it; he knew that I needed that support as with his passing the vipers in his circle would readily dispense with me.  Alas, all things being mutual, dispense with the ill-evolved lot I gladly did. 

die Verwandlung Kafka (Metamorphosis) Cover Portfolio Ed: 18/35 ©1982 George Hawken

Sweet and blissful dreams my darling ennobled George; I am honoured to have fostered and enabled your creativity to have lotussed into greater flower.  Yours was a most rare and beautiful spirit and yet again our love shall dance and soar to higher octaves.  My heart centre is wide open to facilitate your journey in whatever capacity of our choosing in the dreamtime.  Ever, will I love you more. 

Joseph Haydn Symphony No. 85 La Reine
George Hawken

Hawken, George 9/2/46<O>12/12/2016, Owen Sound

This was a first level old artisan in the observation mode, with a goal of dominance, a spiritualist in the emotional part of intellectual centre.  

George had a Mercury/Venus body type. 

George had a primary chief feature of arrogance and a secondary of stubbornness.  

He was sixth-cast in his cadence and his cadence is second in the greater cadence.  He is a member of entity two, cadre four, greater cadre 7, pod 414.  

He has a discarnate artisan essence twin and a scholar task companion who is alive and they do know each other but have not worked together in this life.  

This fragment is an artisan with priest casting, so his art will always manifest a spiritual component no matter what the medium.  This fragment was a well-known painter of placid rural landscapes in the latter part of the eighteenth century in England, and several of his works hang in noble houses.  

You were once a student of this fragment’s, in a life in Amsterdam in the seventeenth century and you were lovers for a short time in that life also.  

Twice this fragment has illustrated books written by his task companion and he was also an illuminator of manuscripts in the twelfth century of the Common Era.  

He was an architect during the reign of Augustus Caesar and several buildings he designed still stand, although one was rather badly damaged by the volcanic eruption that buried the city of Pompeii in the first century of the Common Era.  

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Two rats during the course of eighteen months produce one million offspring. You’ve long transcended being a cultural infestation; you are a fucking plague and Karma, that most vicious of cunts, will yet dispense with you!

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Art Is Everything…

Kerry James Marshall @ Royal Academy of Arts

Left Toronto Tuesday evening and on arrival Wednesday morning hopped onto the Piccadilly line into Bloomsbury and missed the traffic on the highway into London. Booked all day Tuesday so on arrival on Wednesday January 14, I got straight to my room, showered, grabbed breakfast returned to my room, took a cold shower and sorted wardrobe. Off I went on the number 14 bus along Great Russell Street and hopped off at Burlington House to attend exhibition number one!

Kerry James Marshall at The Royal Academy of Arts

What a dazzlingly brilliant Wednesday morning and infinitely more temperate than frigid Toronto of course. Membership to the RAA meant a quick ride up the glass lift to take in the most wonderful exhibition. A nice quick visit to London to savour all the art and culture my soul craves is just right. I can be away long enough to enjoy myself and not too long that my spouse back at home in Toronto on oxygen gets a break from me as sole caregiver and enough time without feeling alone overlong.

Kerry James Marshall I

This was one of the most gloriously stunning exhibitions that I have attended in London. Quite remarkable.

Kerry James Marshall II
Kerry James Marshall III

What I truly loved about this art exhibition of African American Kerry James Marshall is the artist’s attack, which is unapologetic about blackness. Marshall seems intent on stabbing the middle finger at the gross colorism within Black culture and in particular within Black America. The jaundiced self-loathing colorism of Blacks immediately breeding to ‘improve’ the race on becoming wealthy and successful with others who have proven our most ardent enemy, is unmistakably alluded to in Marshall’s works. The allure and deception of light-skinned offspring as though somehow they in their outréness make anti-Black racism go away or somehow they will escape their Blackness, the artist addresses head on with his choice of portraying Blacks splendidly, unmistakably richly melanated. The arch obsession with being biracial, mixed race and anything but Black speak to the intense anti-Black animus that stifles colorism. Blackness, or is it massa, is a shame that must be eradicated. Humans, truth be told, are seven parts decidedly absurd.

Akram Khan’s Giselle curtain call

One of the greatest discoveries on this short trip to London was a matinee performance of Akram Khan’s Giselle at the London Coliseum. A trip that was supposed to have been in November, 2025 but pushed back owing to considerable work on an art project, I finally decided to drop everything and rush to London to take in the Kerry James Marshall exhibition at the Royal Academy of Arts before it closed on January 18, 2026. Scouring the theatre calendar, I decided to pop into a Friday performance of this modern interpretation of Giselle as I had not been to an English National Ballet performance in ages. I chose not to research Akram Khan’s ballet and as is my wont, wanted to go into it without preparation. I was, if I’m honest, resigned to it possibly being yet another boring modern dance performance as so much of modern ballet is tedious at best as comparably was the case the following evening on taking in the Royal Ballet’s Woolf Works.

Royal Opera House

Boy was I in for a most rapturous awakening. Never before had I seen so revolutionary a work in the age old idiom. Here was a totally new and refreshing aesthetic. Ballet, thanks to Akram Khan’s visionary genius, was reinvented with daring style and spectacularly innovative movement – those hurried contracted rushes across the stage, and a set that was as if sentient and beautifully choreographed into the ballet. There were even elements of contact with extraterrestrial life alluded to as the set swung backwards to reveal seemingly extraterrestrial creatures as if disembarking from their alighted interstellar craft. Most of all, the music was a most soul stirring fusion of Dravidian sensibilities and spirituality. Moreover, the music was so powerful, though not oppressive, that it transcended the stage and pierced through to one’s cellular integrity. I have not been so richly inspired by sheer genius and vision, in the theatre, in long ages. What a towering work of genius!

While it has been a most hellish January winter in long ages, along came the Dior Spring Summer 2026 Haute Couture collection. Here was nature, art and architecture deftly realised as fashion most rare. The second dress, a white affair with bow at the hem, was nothing more than a gloriously inverted calla lily about to burst into bloom. All of blooming nature was architecturally reimagined and sculpted into truly great works of sartorial art. This show was true rapture. All hail Jonathan W. Anderson, creative director at Christian Dior, for being the most elegantly refined of spirit creative genius.

This glorious exhibition at Tate Britain was like becoming awake in the most gloriously sequential lucid dream where each masterful tableaux filled salon was a walk through past life memories. Truly rhapsodic.

Not since the Francis Bacon exhibition at The National Portrait Gallery in 2024 was I so thoroughly besotted by art. Astounding.

Mitsubishi Japanese Galleries The British Museum

Valentino Garavani 11.5.1932 Year of the Monkey 19.1.2026. Sweet and blissful dream staggering titan…

Valentino Specula Mundi

Valentino creative director Alessandro Michele presented one of the most phenomenally ravaging haute couture collections in long years. Masterful tailoring, ingeniously theatrical and wonderfully spirited. Pure genius and an inspired tribute to the recently dearly beloved creative genius, Valentino Garavani. Bravi!

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Two rats during the course of eighteen months produce one million offspring. You’ve long transcended being a cultural infestation; you are a fucking plague and Karma, that most vicious of cunts, will yet dispense with you!

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©2013-2026 Arvin da Brgha. All Rights Reserved.

The Black Prince of Cali!

Doria’s Magic

Prince Harry betrays his Virgoan essence by having made it perfectly clear that he is a most discriminating gourmand. The most revelatory thing about Meghan’s With Love, Meghan Holiday Celebration was this insight to Harry’s true essence. His affinity for gumbo and his ease with Black culture and Blacks betray the fact that like all gap-toothed Caucasians, Harry was Black in his immediate past life.

The Duke & Duchess of Sussex

Harry and Meghan have had a stellar year and I was really proud to have been a part of it by twice heading back to Vancouver where I lived in the 1990s for the opening and closing ceremonies of the Invictus Games 2025. This is a rock solid professional couple who are a great team and are fully focussed on being leaders in their own right, philanthropists and obviously great parents.

Tulips 2017 Dorette Pollard

From Meghan opening up the year with a run to the sea and writing 2025 in the sand, you knew that there was a stellar year ahead. All this when the Fleet Street ghouls were ramping up their projections of the Sussexes being broke, finished in Hollywood and America to being on the cusp of divorce. Focussed on his own initiatives, Harry hung back and allowed Meghan to be centre stage in her With Love, Meghan Netflix series, which was anchor for the launch of As Ever.

Prince Harry in Shanghai

Harry was secured enough in his selfhood and supportive of his incredible wife, knowing as he stated in their November 2017 engagement interview, we are a team. His love and confidence in Meghan meant that Harry could comfortably sit back and allow her to take the reins where and when necessary. And how beautifully, Meghan lived up to the lyrics of the hymn, Let It Shine, as they departed by carriage on May 19, 2018 from St. George’s Chapel, Windsor, as she brilliantly shone in With Love, Meghan.

Un vrai sportif, Prince Harry had time to engage in some fun in Aspen whilst engaging in charity work. He teamed up, yet again, with his true warrior soul brother, Nacho Figueras. The ever engaging Black Prince of Cali had time to do something that would not be possible in his homeland, play snow polo. Meeting up with dear friends, and raising funds for charity how could Prince Harry not have signed up?

The Duke & Duchess of Sussex, Prince Harry & Meghan

Harry, renaissance man, is the most successful Black prince in Cali. Harry is free of the exoskeleton that being healthily melanated engenders in this world, where for being so blessed one is often vilified, socially, financially challenged more so than not. All this connection to his immediate past life as a Black human is validated by his having chosen a Black human to be his lover, wife and mother of his children. For being Diana, Princess of Wales’s beloved son, Harry was seen to have betrayed his tribal heritage by being with the most reviled partner that he could possibly have chosen, a Black woman. Ultimately, none of this matters to a couple who not only have a strong past-life history but they are also entity mates.

Sussex Christmas 2025

The Black prince of Cali has the most beautiful family, a loving father, mother-in-law, wife and two precious offspring, Prince Archie and Princess Lilibet Diana. Here’s to Harry, the Black prince of Cali who is especially enamoured of his beautiful mother-in-law, Doria.

In the Garden, ©2024 Shawn Hunt

It’s been a very long and busy past six weeks, what with auctions and all the intense emotions around the acquisition of art – new and especially coveted. Too, I’ve been very busy working on an exciting project which has meant little time to be focussed on this beloved blog.

Baby Mama! @meghan

Go on Harry, shake you batty! Harry and Meghan celebrating the end of anticipating Princess Lilibet’s arrival was the sweetest private moment. All that was missing from this beautiful scene was a couple of hummingbirds hovering and darting about the delivery room.

Prince Harry Invictus Games Closing Ceremony, Vancouver

The Black prince of Cali, Harry that’s who! Fulfilled, loved and father to two beautiful healthy kids of his and Meghan’s, two grandkids of Charles, Diana & Doria’s and great grandkids of Elizabeth & Philip’s. Finally, the Black prince of Cali has all the love and family he has ever wanted. As ever, here’s to life!

Carmen McRae Live in Tokyo, 1986

Carmen McRae – Piano/Vocal

Pat Coil – Piano, Keyboards

Bob Bowman – Bass

Mark Pulice – Drums

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You are to Jazz what wings are to an ostrich; what the fuck do eagles care that queer, unaware ostriches have wings?

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