On Entering Alien Territory.

In early February, 1994 I moved to Vancouver from Toronto; it had always been my intention to do so. Chiefly, I did so because as an art collector, of Inuit and First Nations art, it was easy choice. Unlike Toronto, I could pay less for the same art and attend multiple pow wows in summertime. This exactly is what I did that first summer. Here, then is a suite of dreams had on Friday, February 25, 1994 whilst the Moon then transited Virgo. At the time as my West End apartment was being custom painted, I was staying at the home of Kenneth Baulk and Les Karpinski. The former was the heir of a string of southern Ontario local newspapers, whom I don’t believe ever worked a day in his charmed life – an extraordinarily beautiful human. Les, of course, by his surname was Polish nobility. He was the chief librarian at the University of British Columbia and was prominent in Vancouver choral societies. We loved going to the symphony and opera together.

Animal Kingdom Etching 1967 Kenojuak Ashevak 28/50

Dream one.  I saw a skier in a white suit; he was considerably tall and skeletal.  Off to my right and across the street, there was a ski lift chair behind him.  There was a manmade ski jump mountain behind him, as he stood there holding his skis in both hands. He wore a dark-visored helmet such that one could never directly see his eyes or face.  Instinctively, I knew that one of the reasons for the disguising helmet was the fact that this man was not natively human. 

He was a cool calculating individual.  This man stood there, with a deadly gaze fixed on me.  I knew, too, that his right ski was in fact, a marvellously camouflaged weapon. He was telepathically sizing me up.  There was nothing that one could do to prevent him from entering the mind.  Besides, it made more sense to be submissive rather than allow him to become impatient and possibly violent. 

I kept on moving pretending, by response to his being there, that he was yet another human and not a threat.  Nonetheless, with lightning speed, I instantaneously flashed a ray gun which I carried and shot him with three quick bolts of lightning-blue rays of light. Simultaneously, I made my body pure white light and left the scene thusly without him being able to retaliate.  He was completely stunned.  Tall and angular, he looked of Nordic stock. I knew, though, that beneath that helmet his face was not going to be the most human of faces. 

“No thank you,” I thought, I had no desire to be manipulated or coerced so sought to defend myself – he did after all enter my mind uninvited. 

Eagle Looking at Eagle Serigraph 1992 Robert Davidson 56/64

Dream two.  I would then come across a very badly beaten up, forklift driver, of whom I was passingly acquainted in Toronto – he was a neighbour in the Beaches.  He was outside of red double doors, which had glass panels in them. They led into an industrial plant that was fairly large, seemed more so like a car manufacturing plant, than anything else.  Laying on the floor, he was quite badly beaten up.  He was in a dazed stupor for having been so badly beaten up. 

There were several broken bones in his face.  Black-eyed and bruised, truth be told, he was quite a mess.  He was ungainly trying to get up but was much too winded to have successfully managed it. Sheer survival demanded that he struggle his way to his feet.  On getting to the door before him, I progressed inside, where I saw that there were lots of coat racks, some four feet across from the red double doors. 

These racks, which were to the right of the entrance, had lots of dark, heavy-looking winter coats.  On the left were lots of machinery – mostly computers. Several tracks were on the floor, in this very large place, where motorised carts could take processed goods from one place to another.  To the left, and beyond the machinery, Nathan Milhaus, who is Black, came and stood there, barring my entrance any further. 

Blocking me from progressing any further, his arms were outstretched.  He told me that I was not to go any further and insisted that I go back.  Taking him at his word, I turned back and headed through the red double doors. 

Coming Together Serigraph 2022 Susan Point 22/80

Dream three.  Next, I found myself at nighttime in a high-rise.  It looked due south, towards and beyond the Burrard Inlet towards the West End.  It also looked beyond to Vancouver proper, with Kitsilano, Jericho Beach, Point Grey, and Spanish Bay area clearly in sight. My vantage point was that of being on Sentinel Hill in West Vancouver, right about where Mars Cruickshank’s house sits.  I stood out on a large-enough balcony where it was dark out. 

Here, there was that beautiful grey light, which nourishingly overwhelms.  There was perpetual light rain, which does more to soothe the spirit than not. Below was an immense cruise ship, with its stern closer to my north shore location; I was up on the tenth or more storey of the high-rise.  It was quite a broad ship that was at least eight storeys above the main deck. 

But more than that, the great beauty was Stanley Park, a beacon of enriched negative ions, which simply recharged my energies for looking at it.  It was quite soulful indeed. My perspective was such for being up on Sentinel Hill, that I felt as though hovering in a flying dream. 

Raven in the 20th Century Serigraph 1979 Don Yeomans 68/150

Dream four.  Later on, I’d watch as some speed skaters would get into a scuffle.  They were racing on a short track.  The result of the mix up was that one of the Canadian skaters went crashing into the boards, suffering massive head and spinal injuries; another reason why I never look at episodic television. 

*To the say the least, this bit of dream activity was inspired by the fact that at present the Winter Olympics in Norway, have been part of my recent waking state experiences. I’ve been quite moved by Oksana Bayul’s artistic beauty and her great lyricism.  She’s a real Russian swan; though she could evolve into a real caricature, if she’s not careful. 

Let’s hope though that she doesn’t.  END. 

Defiant Caribou Etching & chine collé 2018 Quvianaqtuk Pudlat 21/50

Dream five.  I was acutely aware that I was laying here in bed at Mars Cruickshank’s Sentinel Hill home, which is where I had slept after dinner and prior to heading into work. Though I tried to sleep, I was being kept in between states, the waking and dream states, by a massively excruciating pressure at both temples. The cosmic hum was excruciatingly amplified, becoming almost nerve-rackingly paralysing.  The crisis for me began as the pitch’s octave began increasing higher and higher, to the point of being arrestingly explosive. 

I felt truly as if I were about to experience a catastrophic aneurysm.  Soon I began experiencing Time itself slowing down.  It simultaneously was the most amazing revelation and experience. My motor control at this point warped to a near grinding halt, as I now experienced everything in perfect slow-motion.  Next, I began slowly experiencing the elongation of my skull in an upwards direction. I felt as though my skull was becoming not unlike that of Akhenaten – the monotheistic heretic pharaoh and, of course, spouse of Nefertiti’s. 

My head became conical; indeed, my head was now egg-shaped.  I had a pointed skull as the cosmic hum’s frequency slowly escalated to greater and greater octaves which, until now in this dream, I had never thought possible. There was no getting around the fact that there was a definite physical intrusion into my skull, which the escalating frequency affected.  One of the other interesting things, too, was that I had no sense of place here. There was a distinct impression of these beings – of presences being about the room.  In place of the wall at the head of the bed, where I slept in Mars Cruickshank’s ground floor, there were definitely three beings. 

Somehow, it seemed that I was simultaneously in another room, where the bed’s head was located some four feet from the wall, unlike in the waking state.  The only way that I can describe what was being done to me was that these three beings were serving as facilitators, as I was being birthed. More to the point, I was being operated on, as my head and spine became warped and slowly elongated.  I was definitely in traction, while my spine was being slowly stretched. This was the most excruciating sensation and, as a matter of fact, I did so feel cetacean-like.  It was as if I lost my sense of humanity, for having had my spine so elongated. 

As it were, I had become as if very serpentine.  In a bid to end the maelstrom, of what I was undergoing, I decided to try and get up; my intention was to, as it were, leave the operating table. I just wanted to move but first, in a bid to make out these beings, I wanted to throw open my lids and look about the room.  Willing myself up and opening my eyes was no light affair.  I did, though, manage it. As I got up, my vision returned with me finding that I was now in a large room alone and on a bed.  There were large stone columns that ran along the length of the bed; the room’s walls were a vibrant yellow. 

The shape of the room was oval; too, there was no discernible break in floor to walls to ceiling and the entire thing was the same invigorating yellow.  This was a most soothing, healing yellow. A most beautiful, radiant, almost Zen manifestation, of what this colour represented, this was.  Quite simply, this was something, which cannot be adequately put into words. Being here, inside this womblike room, was like a little bit of nirvana encapsulated, in which I felt that I was being birthed.  The most interesting thing about the walls was that they were, in some way, alive. They hummed and gave off a most soothing frequency which, after the excruciating pain of what I had come through, was a drink of pure light for the soul itself. 

Then I noticed that there was a splattered glob of pink organic matter on the column which was parallel to the left foot of the bed.  The glob was some 6.5 feet up the column and was about three feet square. As I tried sitting up, all the way, it became obvious that my body was still partially motor-paralysed.  It seemed as if I was trying to pick up a body, which now no longer weighed 130 lbs. but 320 lbs. instead. Still there was an aspect of my awakening; as though I were snaking slowly out of a leaden body, as if a cicada abandoning the shell of its former self. I went to turn around, so that I could get a look at the presences at the head of the bed but was impeded.  Instead, I was forced back down into my leaden body. 

There was no mistaking the fact that they were using their minds to will me back into submission.  Using their combined efforts to overpower me, they were thinking as one.  Quite frankly, I was not supposed to have seen who they were. I did, though, have a sense that they were high beings or extra-humans.  I think in this case, however, what one would assume to be EHs are in fact souls in their discarnate states. So alien is the soul sans body that we’re left to conclude that it is indeed extra-human.  There was a distinct impression that all of this was taking place, as a result of a warping of dimensions, which enabled the astral and physical planes to co-exist. 

With that, my vision of the yellow room was lost and I was left to experience an onflow of the cosmic pitch again.  This time when it began escalating to the point of being unbearable, I awoke almost instantaneously. It was more so as if, I’d been willed awake, that is to say that the three beings in that room elsewhere, had sent me back hurriedly into wakefulness, here in the safety of the physical plane. My willfulness was so taxing on them that they had had to cut short their observation of me, returning me to the safety of my senses.  The yellow-walled room was a massive place, wherein more than 75% of the room lay before me beyond the foot of the bed. 

Mini Pool Party Oil on Canvas 2026 Dorette Pollard

*Interestingly enough, I’ve never slept before in this house – Mars Cruickshank’s.  In addition, there is a large rock, on which much of the house sits, and instinctively on seeing it, I had a strong psychic reaction to it. I had the sense of it that the hidden part of the rock which progressed down into the Earth was easily fifty times larger; in that sense it was much like an iceberg whose below surface mass is infinitely more voluminous.  There was a strong vibrational register to this rock, and I had a sense of it that it contained some life-force, as if it were a camouflage for some sort of life-force which was in an observation mode. 

Alas, why pray tell could this not be the case?  What better way than for EHs to come planet side, remaining camouflaged such that they are rendered imperceptible. What better way to achieve this end, than for them to be ensconced in large rocks, most of which lay buried below the surface and for those which do break the surface, the greater parts of their area being hidden below the surface. 

In any event, I had a strong impression of the rock at Mars Cruickshank’s that it was much larger below the surface of the ground and served as a beacon-cum-conduit. Within the protective shell of this innocent-looking dense medium, were hidden EHs who were here on Earth observing humans in their natural state as opposed to humanity after so-called ‘Contact’. A very intriguing thought, but this was definitely the sense impression that I got of this entire experience.  Too, I’m inclined to believe this, because in the initial dream, the exceptionally tall, helmeted, unusually skinny white-suited skier was clearly not human. 

There was something different about him vibrationally, which his hiding behind the ski helmet only made that much more discernible to an astutely attuned extra-sensitive mind, such as mine. For being awakened in the dreamtime, I was able to completely tune in to what was going on here in Vancouver in the waking state, albeit clandestine.  His cool calculation of me suggested that he’d become aware of my knowing his true identity, which undoubtedly meant that he’d possibly have apprehended or even killed me. 

For that reason, I would strike the first blow, as it were.  Clearly, I’d only have to encounter his kind later on, when I was subjected to this excruciating mind probe, observation. Was the pink glob some matter, which they exorcised from me, it seemed to have been violently expunged from me.  After all, there was no one else remotely human in the room but me. I thought that the exorcised pink glob was from me, as it could not have been something that they’d put there.  Was it something from my corporeal or ethereal body, which they’d detected and removed? 

In that sense, these spiritual beings served as psychic surgeons.  This is not to say that they were necessarily therefore EHs, though one cannot exclusively rule this out.  But I’m definitely inclined to think that they were definitely extra-human in origin. Here was I, a newcomer to this part of the world, where if there are EHs stationed, they’d need to take a look at me, as it were.  Knowing as they do that I can ‘See’ beyond the veil, all the more reason to seek me out and perform some sort of psychic surgery that would render me ignorant of their being ‘there’. 

Of course, if this were indeed the case, that is, were there EHs among us, across whose path I’d crossed, their efforts to wipe the knowledge of the ‘Contact’ free of my recall was unsuccessful. Then too, this could well have been nothing so outré, but rather the experience of being in the company of astral plane-focused high beings, who were performing some form of healing spiritual, cleansing energy work on me. Frankly, the sceptic in me would sooner come down on the side of the most likely, than opting for the fanciful, EHs notwithstanding.  Occam’s razor is the mean in this circumstance. 

I must say though that on awakening here in this room, where I’d never slept before, I was quite surprised to find that its walls were not indeed yellow.  -In addition, I must point out that on awakening all the electrical discomfiture, which has plagued me since moving here to Vancouver was totally, as if evaporated. The purpose of the experience was seemingly to have cleared my energetic body of all blocking, which was symbolised by the massive pink glob that was splattered on one of massive columns in the room. 

All the pain in my neck, through to the left arm, has dissipated.  Naturally, I’ve been concerned as to whether this is cardiovascular in origin but have been repeatedly assured by EKGs that my heart checks out perfectly fine. This is a real acute, stabbing pain, which seems to be triggered by where I am in this city.  I’ve noticed that for going on long walks alone, in Stanley Park the tension becomes completely dissipated. 

There seem though, still some areas of intense electromagnetic tensions, which my finely tuned body innately picks up on.  Adversely, it does have the tendency in this case to be of a wearing nature physically. I’ve never experienced such excruciating pain.  There are, of course, moments of relief, when taking to the pyramid, but then I noticed that shortly thereafter, I become as if totally electrified. These mountains – coastal mountains, I fear, contain a great buildup of electromagnetic tension.  Too, they just might in conjunction with the waters of the Pacific be the location of a giant Extra-Oceanic colony or colonies of extra-humans of one or more species. 

**Indeed, the more that I think about the dreams that I had while living in Vancouver, I’m inclined to believe that this dream was extra-human in origin, rather than being about high astral plane beings. END. 

Rollins, Sonny 7/9/1930<O>25/5/2026

Michael: This fragment was a seventh-level mature artisan –third life thereat and likely last.  Sonny is in the passion mode with a goal of unmitigated growth.  A realist, he is in the moving part of intellectual centre. 

Body type was Venus/Mars. 

Sonny’s primary chief feature is greed fixated on accomplishment and the secondary stubbornness. 

The fragment Sonny is fourth-cast in the fourth cadence; he is a member of greater cadence five.  Sonny’s entity is seven, cadre four, greater cadre 1, pod 129. 

Sonny’s essence twin is an artisan and the task companion is a sage known to him. 

Sonny’s three primary needs are: communion, expression and power. 

Sonny has been a musician in 12 past lives. 

There are 8 past-life associations with Arvin and 14 with Merlin. 

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Two rats during the course of eighteen months produce one million offspring. You’ve long transcended being a cultural infestation; you are a fucking plague and Karma, that most vicious of cunts, will yet dispense with you!

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Past-Life Dream Set In Intrigue-Filled Dynastic Egypt.

This dream, set in dynastic Egypt, deftly betrays what a powerfully focussed and strong woman Harella was.  The dream was first that day.  

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Iman still from Michael Jackson video Remember the Time.

I was sat on a wonderful divan in a beautifully opulent place.  Instinctively, I knew that this was in Egypt.  It was during the height of pharaonic Egypt. There were two stout women here with me who were light-skinned.  Hard to tell whether they were Mitanni or light-skinned Blacks.  They were cooks and were fussing over me asking me to eat up.I ate from a plate which had these different shoots on it.  One of them was papyrus shoots, some bamboo shoots and a wild Nile delta mushroom.  It was strictly vegetarian fare.As well, there was a purplish tuber like baby eggplants.  I ate with a fork which was very heavy-looking.  Clearly, I did possess some rank at birth.  I would point out the items I wanted to eat next and would then have it fed to me by either woman.

At one point, I was told by one of the women, “Yes, you even remember what your favourites were last time.”

Catch of the Day. Drawing. 2008 Arnaqu Ashevak

At this point, into the room walked a tall Black woman of Ethiopian features and complexion but who was not too dark.  Definitely, she was from the Upper Nile region. I can’t quite do justice here as to how supremely regal this woman was.  She was quite simply the most regal and powerful creature imaginable. The two eyes that this woman wore were large, brown and soulful.  You felt her soul itself looking out and into you. I did not think of her as having been Merlin in a past life.  However, it is quite possible that this woman’s soul I knew quite recently as Merlin during its last incarnation. When she entered the room, the women looked at each other and one of them said in a sotto voce, “Ah yes, she’s brought him with her.”

The Iconic Iman

There was a Black man, who was a little darker-complected, there with her.  Seemingly a relation or priest, perhaps, he might even have been a eunuch. He remained in an outer room.  She was quite simply the Queen, the Pharaoh’s wife. On entering, she began walking around us and speaking.  She was very stylised in her movements.  She wore a tunic of gold thread and strips of gold filigree. In places, her dress looked metallic.  In its sparse, linear, understated opulence, it seemed not unlike something that Cynthia McFadden would design. The dress throughout was festooned with the designs, all in gold, of open papyrus leaves.  They were very tiny and sat inside of little squares. In one square there would be a papyrus applied, such that it would be very iridescent, whilst on the next square it was very dull with a matte finish look to it.  The resulting effect was one of row after row, square after square, of papyruses. Each square was exactly half an inch square.  The detail on this dress was absolutely golden.  It was supported by half-inch-wide straps which, of course, had the same square papyrus design.

Blue Bird, Drawing 2009 Kenojuak Ashevak

Next to her flawless complexion, she was simply statuesque.  Her neck was easily six to ten inches longer than the infamously long neck of Ann Cokossi, Princess of Togo – the regal lady’s neck was longer than Iman’s.  Iman was clearly descended from the same stock. It was not Iman.  She did have long hair that was finely braided in the fashion of a Maasai male’s.  The hair was swept up off her face and into a very intricate arrangement. There were several beads throughout her stylised hair and some of them were cowrie beads.  There were other shells and some precious stones as well. Her makeup was exquisitely applied and clearly was a several-hour affair.  The eyes, of course, were the most detailed. I really did not get a sense of it being the famous Nefertiti Akhenaten.  However, the man that she was with was undesirable and totally untrustworthy. I got the sense that it was someone related to me, as in myself, in a past life.  Her companion male never did enter the room. Whilst speaking with the woman who sat there on the chair feeding me, the queen kept on slowly gliding about the room.  This woman was like the Queen Mother or, perhaps, the dowager.

Four Eyes and Groovy, Drawing 2025 Michael Massie

Whilst she spoke, I was beginning to become refamiliarised with the palace intrigue. Throughout the salon, where we sat, there were a whole series of spies.  Soon enough, I could discern the holes throughout the walls so that the spies could get a good command of what was going down. There was a great deal of subterfuge here.  There was a whole caste of spies.  There were spies who were in the service of the priesthood.  Spies of the Queen’s and still there were spies of the Pharaoh’s. Still there were spies of the harem among which were a subclass and more powerful caste of spies for the eunuchs.  In addition, all the different levels of the royals had their own battery of spies. All about the room, every one of those holes had a designated spy who reported back to his dynastic figurehead in the hierarchy. This was a very brief dream, I must add here.  However, it was very lucid, real and totally lived-in a dream. I had a sense of being there in time.  It was not just an observer dream.  I was really in the body of that royal child who could have been no more than six years old.

Arctic Assembly, Lithograph 1996 Kenojuak Ashevak

This occurred at nighttime and it was somewhat damp in the room though simultaneously briny from the arid desert air.  The whole language was about intonation and innuendo. As a matter of fact, the whole language was so ritualised and stylised that it was more slow and subtle than is movement in the Noh theatre of Japan.  This was all about gestures and the myriad gestures that could be implied from the relations of one gesture juxtapose to another. It took me awhile to get the knack of it.  However, I became totally lucid as to what was going down. It all came back to me.  Indeed, even at the age of six, I was already quite proficient in the nuances of this very complex court language. As she spoke, the Queen’s arms and other parts of her body would be perpetually in motion.  It was danced – this language.  The whole language was codified and layered beyond anything wildly imaginable in this day and age of superficiality. This was deception on the order of high art.  What was spoken was mere camouflage.  The spoken word was not even an nth of the layered language. Along with it, what her body was doing and the subtlety of movements indicated what was really implied by what was said.  More to the point, it was what was not implied by what was not said.

Birds and Foliage, Stonecut 1970 Kenojuak Ashevak

By comparison, the most sophisticated Parisienne would be considered a primitive communicator. This was all very complex court politics, indeed.  Then, at one point, the Queen went and stood thereby freezing her movement and this is what one had to try and discern. This was because the every placement of every limb and muscle, on her body, carried great impact by way of what was being communicated.  This was very much so an African tongue being spoken here. At times, it was slow whilst at other times dizzyingly sped up and rapid fire.

*It seemed more closely to resemble Jazz vocalesing à la Betty Carter sophistication though, truth be told, even Betty Carter’s skills were primitive by comparison.  I can’t impress enough how truly complex was this language and mode of communicating.  END.

Yet I got the complete picture of what she was communicating.  The Queen was speaking of the child – my six-year-old former self.  I feigned ignorance at the time though it was obvious that I was the subject of discussion. This had to do with the care of the child. “How was the child coming along?” she had inquired. I could very well have been her child.  It was obviously the custom for royal children to be separated, from their mothers at birth, the higher placed they were at birth. I was here in this dream, of a past life experience, in the care of two women who were as if wet-nurses/governesses to me.

Flower Bird, Stonecut 1970 Kenojuak Ashevak

At another point, the Queen had produced this papyrus fan from beneath the delicate folds of the heavy-looking dress. It was a plain fan made of papyrus.  However, it was covered in hieroglyphs.  This was also a very ancient fan which she had inherited. The fan was being strategically used, as part of the deceptive code, to foil the spies all about the room.  When coming closer to us, the Queen had smiled a very bland smile in my direction. This was, of course, so that nothing whatsoever could be read into it by any of the spying factions.  The Queen slowly leaned in to look at the food that I ate. Inspecting it, she offered the gesture of showing her trust in the cooks by taking a piece of shoot from the plate to eat. This was all theatre for as she had slipped the food to her mouth she waved the fan over her mouth whilst saying, in rapid-fire sotto voce, a couple of very strategic sentences.  It was absolutely sublime. It was directed at the dowager Queen Mother who, for being more practised in the art, feigned utter ignorance of anything so paranoid as subterfuge.  It was priceless! This was clearly the height of late young soul to early mature soul intrigue.  Though she could never have been overheard in saying what she had, the fan was placed to prevent the visiting Queen being lip-read. These spies, after all, were very expert.  I do recall one man having been seated across from me earlier.  He was a spy and basically he was visiting to learn the every minutia of my mouth mechanics during speech. It was all very subtle, though very archly shrewd and deadly, the way in which he came to do his job and record my mouth’s every idiosyncrasy during speech. The queen had performed, in that one gesture, such a winning sleight of hand.  She was letting the Queen Mother know that she trusted her by actually tasting the food that she was feeding the child – me, in that past life. It seemed, after all, to be an impromptu visit which means that the food could well have been laced with poison for unsuspecting me.  I suppose that if it were necessary, I could have been eliminated by the dowager Queen Mother or the Queen herself.

A Birthday Bull for John from Bill, 1990 Drawing Bill Reid

When she had directly stood in the centre of the room, earlier, the Queen had picked up her right foot off the floor.  She had very subtly managed not to have shifted her weight or allowed for any movement whatsoever in her upper body. The Queen then began doing what seemed a predecessor of the frappé and began horizontally waving her foot from the ankle.  The movement betrayed a gesture akin to ‘no’.  This, of course, did not in the least betray everything that was going on elsewhere in her body. As there were so many items of furniture about the room, it was obvious that from where the holes were placed in the walls that one could not make out the codified foot movements. This was so mind-bogglingly delicious.  The foot being incorporated, in the language, was a most clever invention. The moment at which she picked up her foot, it was as though I had sat up awake in bed.  It was that vividly recalled from past life experience. ‘Yes!’ I thought to myself and laughed a small breath which the dowager Queen Mother, to my side, immediately stifled with a sharp intake of breath. One clearly did not laugh in the Queen’s presence.  The subtleties of the language here, in this point in dynastic Egypt, were phenomenally stratospheric. This was communication taken to heights unheard of since, in any court life, on this planet. There were times as she slowly moved about the room that the Queen had ritually placed the fan to her beguiling face, to fan herself, whilst letting out little phrases for us to hear.

Electric Raven, Stonecut 2019 Quvianaqtuk Pudlat

On one occasion, her back was to us and her arm in back made a series of quick gestures that were not unlike sign language.  Meanwhile, the fan was to her face giving us a double stream of code to simultaneously decipher. To the point of being frightening, the Queen was very deceptive.  It was hard to ever see her eyes.  The Queen used language such that the eyes could never have been seen. More could be read from her eyes adding to what she was saying.  For this reason, she almost exclusively kept her lids such that it kept her gaze cast out and down to the floor. Her head, of course, was never lowered and the rapid eye movements which she employed were also very strategic.  When she spoke, one was never to make eye contact with her. It would imply too much simply because we were being spied on.  This was indeed a very restrictive existence. There we were, in a fish bowl of sorts, being spied on by sharks who completely surrounded us waiting their turn to hungrily make prey of us.  Since she was the Queen, one could never look at her eyes. However, I was possessed of more than my six-year-old self making me a very probing and curious soul.  The Queen picked up on this and was acutely made uncomfortable by it. It was as though there was now some new development in my maturation which spelt trouble.  Naturally, you just knew that there was any number of long discussions to come as to what to do with this ‘one’ meaning my poor, possessed self. It was as though, for having stepped into my former self’s six-year-old body, I could have spelt his very untimely and not accidental death.  Regardless, this woman and I were deeply connected.

Mother and Cubs, Lithograph 1977 Kananginak Pootoogook

I could sense from her a real familial, maternal even, bond.  The Queen was very much so in tune with me.  There was an element of this communication which was low-level telepathic. Indeed, there were times when she had thusly engaged me.  It was chiefly done for putting me at ease.  It was also how she had to stay bonded to me for having had me taken from her, of custom, at birth. What was really interesting here was that the concept of reincarnation was definitely fully accepted and religiously incorporated in the schemata of dynastic life.  The dowager Queen Mother and governess, too, were both convinced that I was someone in the royal family who had reincarnated. My choice of food favourites were validation enough for them.  I was very much so favoured by the Queen.  She was warm towards me. However, she never physically expressed this.  There was always, however, a very strong psychic fusion between us with most of the energies coming from her to me. She was connected to me – this much was unmistakable.  I never did see the eunuch who had accompanied her, however, he was very powerful an influence in their lives. For this reason, more so than the placement of the spies, the Queen never once was demonstrative of her feelings towards me.  She did let up on reaching towards the plate of food. One had the sense, of the eunuch who had accompanied her, that he was the one person who had connections to all the spying factions within the inner royal circle.  He waited outside in the antechamber and his presence was more closely being paid attention to, than even the Queen’s, at times. There had also been musicians about the room playing music.  This was simply to drown out the conversation being heard by the battery of spies. The musicians were placed along all four walls to really drown out the conversation.  This then precluded conversation from making it to the periphery of the room and the spies just beyond its walls. This was a very palatial suite.  It was dimly lit and sparsely decorated yet in the finest style.  A very comfortable and socially elevated milieu it was.  A most elevated dream experience.

Miriam Gone Home, Oil on Canvas 2002 Dorette Pollard

*As it is the forty-fifth anniversary of Merlin’s birth, I had asked prior to sleep in a lengthy meditation, to become opened up to experiencing aspects of a past life experience between Merlin and me. I asked only that it be of a positive nature and that it be in no way an unpleasant experience.  The last thing that I wanted was to have some dream which mirrored the less pleasant aspects of Merlin’s end-of-life experience. Voilà, there it was – a most vivid, awakened dream experience.  I have no idea which person here could have been Merlin. I fully identified with the six-year-old and, indeed, I was experiencing the dream inside his body and, at times, from a detached perspective.  Then, too, I did identify with the much-feared eunuch outside the door. So I don’t know if he was me or, perhaps, even Merlin.  The very loving energies of the Queen Mother could more easily have been Merlin, in a past life, than the Queen herself.

**The musicians about the room, against the far walls, were all distinctly Nubian.  They were exquisitely beautiful and the quirk that they each had was that they were, for obvious reasons, each of them both blind and deaf. This, of course, did not detract from their stellar musicianship; at times they did sing.  However, for being both blind and deaf they could not be expected to be picking up on any of the codified language and body signals that formed this most layered of spied-on, palace intrigues in dynastic Egypt. I should think, too, that this was at the heights of the Middle Kingdom before the advent of Akhenaten’s ascension.  This sort of intrigue, and frankly rut, is precisely what he was likely sick of and seeking to escape when initiating his monotheistic religion. Of course, with so much centuries-old intrigue, clearly he would have been seen as the ultimate obstruction – a heretic who had to be annihilated at all costs and things righted in his demise.  This, of course, is precisely what did take place. Again, despite the vogue since the nineteenth century to make a truly African civilisation anything but, everyone one and everything here was distinctly African: the music, the looks, the sense of fashion, styles and hair styles. The Queen’s eyes were not only phenomenally powerful but her head had that distinctly African/Black high-foreheaded look.  The Queen’s neck was almost giraffe-like.

She made Iman look no-necked by comparison.  END.

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Jacob Lusk singing Bennie and the Jets.

PBS broadcast of The Gershwin Prize for Popular Song to Sir Elton John and Bernie Taupin. I will pay any money to drink the elixir from this glorious human’s chalice in concert. Fly! This man’s interpretation of this song has trigger more than a few flying dreams. Sang!

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Two rats during the course of eighteen months produce one million offspring. You’ve long transcended being a cultural infestation; you are a fucking plague and Karma, that most vicious of cunts, will yet dispense with you!

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