Back to the Moon and All Hail the Tampon King!

One of the most powerful dreams had, whilst living for seven years in Montréal, occurred early during my stay in the lovely city.  This dream was truly momentous.  The travels in consciousness, whilst astral-projected, were energetically facilitated by being in contact with Merlin.

The dreams occurred on Monday, October 6, 1997 whilst the Moon transited both Sagittarius and my seventh house.  I am inclined to believe that this astral-projected experience occurred not on some far-off distant world but here on Earth’s Moon. The dreams were had during the second or ‘B’ sleep cycle that day.  I had been in the meditative state prior to sleep and was also having trouble getting to sleep.

For one, my pyramid was still back in Vancouver and thus I lacked my usual grounding.  For another, I had to endure my ignoramus neighbour’s loudmouth noise pollution.  He did nothing but nightly talk, on his phone, bullshit no end. This was especially infuriating since I was then working the midnight shift.  My sleep was always being ruined when this man came home from his dead-end job and talked nonstop on the phone.  

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*Also am reposting this dream because prior to the last blog post, “Two of a Kind” I had a dream was set in this same otherworldly locale. This time, I encountered a parent and persons who have since become astral plane habitués.

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2865 rue Goyer, Montréal

*Prior to sleep, whilst in the meditative state, I had been lying in bed.  My pyramid has not yet arrived from Vancouver.  Here I was really connected and felt increasingly relaxed and opened up to the light within.

So with that I sought to have a positive connection with my task companion during the dreamtime.  To that end, I opened myself to experience contact with my trusty soul mate.

**By the time that I had relocated to Montréal, I had learnt of my connection to Merlin.  Merlin’s overleaves and mine were, by then, channelled by Mathilde Duchenne who was part of the original Michael group. Merlin, of course, is my task companion.  END.

This experience occurred just after 21:00.

vDream one.  Simultaneously whilst still awake, I experienced a sudden, jolting surge of energy at my solar plexus.  This vibration was very powerful. Then, it was as if I began hugging and flipping from my back onto my right side in the process.  It was as though I were hugging Merlin had he been there in bed with me. I told Merlin that I loved him whilst simultaneously the energy surging through me was akin to raw, electromagnetic energy.  This was quite intense and a bit overpowering.

Too, I began experiencing a zinging, high-pitched tone in my ears.  This was so intense that it seemed as if on the verge of causing an aneurysm – or at least what I assumed an aneurysm would manifest.  It did take me a moment before realising that I was still lying on my back. Indeed, I was astral projecting.

This is what allowed me to be, simultaneously on my right side, in yet another dimension as well.  There, I was on my right side on the astral plane with Merlin.  I was hugging him whilst lying in bed yet spatially aware here in the waking state. As I was lying in embrace with Merlin, I began experiencing a variation in the zinging pitch’s tonality.  Now it began wavering, as if in and out of frequency.

Whilst alternately not so, sometimes it was high-pitched in tone.  Either way, it was most unbearable.  I was afraid that at the end of the experience, I would be rendered deaf – it was that intense.

Next, I began feeling movement behind my back – here on the bed.  It was based close up by the shoulders.  The feeling was akin to back when Merlin and I lived at 20 Amelia Street and either Zora or Whoopi would come up on the pillows during the night to be closer and more affectionate. It really did feel as though a cat had leapt onto the bed – here in my 17-2865 rue Goyer, Montréal apartment.  So to ground the experience, I said aloud, “Well, of course, it’s you Merlin because here comes one of the cats.”

The experience now became elevated to the next level.  With that, I experienced what can only be described as the cap of the top of my head explosively blowing off. My crown chakra had come undone.  I was being realigned.  My chakras and energy were thoroughly reworked by, Merlin, the dream magus himself. Simultaneously as my body rattled away, even more so than before, I began experiencing a two-way flow of the most intense, yellow-gold light energies.

Quite simply, it was as if my head was the exhaust of a space-shuttle at blast off.  As if my poor body were not sufficiently taxed, now I was being touched by Merlin’s soul itself. Even though my lids were closed, I kept them closed not wanting the experience to end anytime soon.  I was hanging on for the ride; I matched its cosmic intensity as best my body could muster. As the experience endured, it became a yellow-white light.  Throughout all this, I heard my noisy Jamaican neighbour talking.

Even though the room was dark, as I was lying there in meditation, spatially I felt it become intensely illumined.  It matched the brilliance of the light energies that I experienced. Even as I was lying there in bed, I could feel the light’s intensity on my face and exposed arms.  Clearly, I was in two planes simultaneously. My soul was lucidly focussed both on the astral plane and the physical plane.  In the latter, I was lying in meditation of a most sublime though intense nature.

Interestingly enough, just as in the fifth dream of July 9, 1993 when I would encounter Merlin on the astral plane, I was sharing energy with him who had been on my right side. When the energy transference session was concluded, which happened for quite some time, a new wave of energy was begun. Encircling my head, starting at just below the ears, a heavy wave of energy moved slowly up my head.  The energy ended at the blown-off crown chakra.  This was a truly phenomenal experience. Quite simply, it did feel as though my skull itself was being warped.  It felt like a rippling succession of waves that moved – always from bottom to top.  As it moved upwards, the sonic waves droned in and out of intensity and pulsated as well.

It was like having a humpback whale singing the same two notes, over and over again, next to one’s ears.  Overwhelming, this was an intensely charged energy experience. For whatever reasons, I decided that I would try to get up.  If my head were towards true north, I thought that it would be much better.  I was keenly aware that I was still lying in bed in my apartment. Too, I was aware that I was definitely not asleep. After all, the neighbour was arguing about whether or not Dennis Rodman was a battyman – Gay. One thing that I peripherally gathered, from their conversation, was that he was talking to a man named Henry.  This man’s conversation was such absolute, mindless bullshit.

To have hugged Merlin was like hugging pure light energy which is why it was so intense.  When it was over, my astral projecting self rolled off my right side and back onto my back. Even though I was returned to my body, I was not fully returned to the shell of my physical body.  I was still astral-projected to being with Merlin on the astral plane. I felt as though I hovered two thirds out and above my reclining body.  My astral self was levitating above my body.  It felt as though my body was a body of water, as it were, it was the ocean. My astral self felt as if floating in the water with just an inch of it above the water’s surface.  It felt as though I were floating in a heavy body of water.

Spurring myself on, I told myself that I could muster the willpower to pick up my body and move.  I said aloud, “Come on, Arvin.  You can do it.  Get up, take the bed and relocate it so that you end up with your head to the north.” Too, I thought passingly of having the light in the room turned on… somewhat.  I was keenly aware that the large crystal was directly behind my head – in the waking state, of course. I desperately wanted, at times, to reach back behind my head and touch the powerful quartz crystal.  None of these things that I wanted to do, I was able to.

Undaunted, I told myself to get it together as it was not as if I were paralysed.  When I tried to move, I got up a bit but it was so sudden that it was almost displacing. Furthermore, the whirring energies about my head intensified becoming more so crushing than before.  Instead of my, legs swinging off the bed to the floor, my body did. I landed face down, with a thud, onto the floor beside the bed.  Oh dear, not quite what I had been expecting.  I guess that I had overshot my mark.  My head was in the same direction as when I had been lying on the bed. Thank goodness, it was not a bunk bed but merely a couple of mattresses on the floor.  Of course, my furniture has yet to arrive here from Vancouver.

Collapsed, my body was crushed against the floor.  I felt more weighted, as if a ragdoll, than before. At least there was softness to the mattress.  The electromagnetic surge was much too intense.  I resolved to rectify, at whatever cost, what seemed an energy imbalance. Still feeling fairly splayed, I struggled to my feet.  I managed to get the table lamp, which the landlord loaned me, and began trying to plug it in.  However, both sockets in the room seemed to be dead. It was as if there was a blown fuse in the house.  I knew that there wasn’t a power blackout because I could hear the neighbour’s TV.  Truth be told, the TV was being drowned out by his loudmouthed phone conversation.

Now I was beginning to be confused.  Perhaps, this fall from the bed and subsequent adventure with the lamp was not taking place on the physical plane.  Indeed, perhaps, it was not centred in my 17-2865 rue Goyer apartment but instead on the astral plane. The tip-off here was the fact that the room was so incredibly dark.  It was like being inside a light vacuum.  At whatever cost, I wanted the lights on.  Now when I tried the overhead light switch, it did not work as well. Here there were two switches, whereas there is only one in my rue Goyer, Montréal apartment.  These two switches were truly bizarre.  They did not work properly and only went up halfway.  Still, they did not produce lighting when I got them all the way up.

I then decided to go out to the bathroom, where the lights were always on in the waking state, to see if the light there did work.  When I got out to the hallway, it was another room entirely.  I then went to the next room which was the bathroom. Here again, the lights did not work.  Becoming more frustrated, I began rushing about the apartment testing all the lights.  This apartment definitely was larger with added rooms too. Feeling pissed off, I called out, “Come on, Merlin!  Stop playing around with the electricity.  Turn back on the lights!”

However, in all of this, I never did see Merlin.  Finally, I made it to another room where, I found another lamp.  This was a most weird-looking lamp.  Making sure that it worked properly, I tried taking it apart. Inspecting it to see that the lamplight was properly screwed in, I had taken off its shade.  It had three prongs which held up the shade.  They were brass-coloured prongs and looked rather rusty. When I was done with the prongs, the shade just did not fit on it at all.  Regardless, I got the damn lamp and returned to the bedroom with it as the light did work.  Perhaps, the fuse there was okay and it would work. Since there was sufficient light coming through the far windows, I could get some of it inside the bedroom.  As soon as I had snapped at Merlin, there was now a flood of light outdoors that shone lots of light indoors.

It seemed as though there were three full Moons, high in the sky, flooding the apartment’s periphery.  Now there was so much light flooding the bedroom that I did not need the lamp anymore. Then I decided to move the bed across the room.  I hadn’t a clue where the energy came from but in one powerful shove, I moved the bed across the room as if by force of will.  The covers, incidentally, were on the bed. Soon, I realised that the bed was improperly lined up.  Now, it was facing due west rather than north.  So then, I tried moving it to the correct north-south alignment. I got it moved then decided that I needed to move the TV.  Obviously this was on the astral plane as I would never have the TV in my bedroom.

I found a long strip of cable wiring which, strangely enough, was transparent.  I did not think that it was going to be long enough to do the trick, so I knew that I had to reroute it. For some strange reason, I decided that I had to have the TV at the foot of the bed – just beyond my feet.  There was a stand there on which it would sit. The cable cord, which ran to the TV, was the cream-coloured one as in the waking state.  There were parts of it, however, that were transparent-looking like an IV tube. Before connecting to the TV, the cable forked into a Y-formation.  So I ripped it from along the floorboards where it ran.  There was a tiny bracket which held the cord in place but it did not, however, look like an oversized staple.

These brackets were shaped like inverted Ls.  White and made of plastic, they were also very pliant.  There was a bit of a hook at the top, up beneath which one would shove the cable cord and thus secure it. After having unhinged the cord from the brackets, I pondered next where to redirect the cable cord.  It was at this point that I noticed that there was another bed in the bedroom. Also, it was much higher than my present bed.  A well-made bed, there were several layers of sheets on it. 

One spread on it was the cover that Isis da Braga absolutely adored – when we lived at Toronto’s 122 Mortimer Avenue. It was a series of blue squares with white in between each square.  There were several floral designs on it.  All in all, it looked pretty much as if a mock quilt.  Instead of being a good quality duvet, it contained synthetics – foam – on the inside. Soon, I realised that I had way too many covers on the bed.  I definitely did not want to have the fully-opened sleeping bag.  It was much too warm for that.  I removed the sleeping bag from the bed and thought to return to bed. All this time, because I could still hear the Jamaican speaking next door, I thought that I was in the waking state.  I then, however, stopped in midstride and thought for a second that this could not be anything other than having astral-projected to a very lucid OBE – Out-of-Body-Experience.

With that, I opened my lids momentarily, only to find myself in the familiar darkened cocoon of my apartment at 17-2865 rue Goyer in Montréal.  Next door, unusually loudly, the neighbour was still blabbing away. What was really interesting was that, when I moved the bed to face its northwards orientation, I sensed a definite shift and realignment in the room’s Chi.  It was, in fact, quite noticeable. What should have triggered my awareness was the fact that there was no door from the bedroom to the balcony.  This, of course, explained why the room was so dark.  Lids closed again, I was returned to the OBE where I stood at the foot of the bed.

Returning to the bed, on the astral plane, I got in with my head due north.  At that moment, the electromagnetic surge which seemed so imbalanced immediately shifted.  Straight away, I was properly aligned.  Suddenly, I felt nothing but peace. This was such sweet surrender that I could simply have died for joy.  It was such release after the harrowing, energetic roller coaster ride that I had been on. At this point, I was then instantaneously slipped into the dreamtime… in earnest.

At once, I was as if violently ejected from my body, on returning to it on the astral plane bed.  The tranquillity that I felt, on taking to bed on the astral plane, was a false alarm.  As this the first dream suddenly began, it had been a mere momentary pause. Straight away, my astral self was projected out of my body again.  This time, it seemed to have been magnetically tugged away by a greater force. On suddenly leaping from my body, I astral-projected and found myself in midstride.  As with the earlier phase of astral projecting when my crown chakra was as if blown off, this was just as explosive.

Just as when the yellow-gold light surged through me, my ejection into this dream was as intense.  Rarely has my awareness been so fluidly and lucidly engaged as at this moment. Too, I had a strong, distinct awareness of Merlin being around me. I walked along a pathway which had an embankment on either side.  The natural earthen path was rather wide.  It was in a large, incredibly-treed, densely forested area that was much like the more lush parts of Vancouver Island. It was like the northern end of Vancouver Island around Cathedral Grove Park.  This was a rainforest during its dry season.  At points, it did so seem as if in Vancouver’s Stanley Park.

What immediately I thought of was that initial dream encounter with Merlin almost twenty years prior in 1978.  The only difference here is that, the trees were close to seven times taller than those at Cathedral Grove Park and Stanley Park.  They were thick-trunked evergreens.  These trees were the most potent energy forms imaginable. Straight away, I was reminded of the arboreal giants who seemed sentient, or at least on the verge thereof, back in that OBE on Boxing Day 1972.  These massive arboreal giants were the energies that had been coming through to me. In concert, these arboreal greats used their harmonised energies to assist with my realignment to the light within.  Utterly healing it was to have experienced this transformation.  Such marvellous validation, it proved, of much that had been learnt in that experience on Boxing Day, 1972.

As I wandered along the pathway, I noticed that there was something wrong.  I could hear the same vibrational whirring but, this time, it was not occurring inside my head and destabilising me.  It was off somewhere. Although I can’t honestly say that I ever did see him, I could also hear Merlin speaking to me.  Merlin then warned me to be careful and watch out.  It was then that I noticed a person getting up. When I looked more closely, I saw that the individual was unusually proportioned.  Though they seemed human enough, they had unusually weird-looking arses. Their arses just did not hang right.  Rather, their arses did not look remotely like a human’s.  The arses here were not dissimilar to the arses on those short elfin Whites, whom I encountered in the ‘Hellsgate Bar’, in the dreams of the November 4, 1989.

Here these people had jet-black, extra-long hair that covered their entire bodies.  They were über-poilu – excessively hirsute – in the extreme. They were, too, quite large-bodied an extra-human species.  This led me to ask Merlin if, indeed, the notion of the Sasquatch was not true.  There were family groupings with parents and children. They began coming down from off the right embankment as I walked past. 

As a matter of fact, they were not running away from me but crossing the street.  They were going to the other embankment, on the left, which was lower. Their behaviour, the way that they got up, suggested that they slept out in the open.  Seemingly, they rose up and simply began going about their daily routine.  From the embankment the land sloped downwards away from the road.

There had been a break-like path, in the embankment, down which they progressed.  Their movement was casual.  They did not, however, interact with me.  Indeed, they did not acknowledge my being there. I counted about seven small family groupings.  More to the point, I did not like the vibration that I was getting from them.  It was about not, as it were, being in familiar territory. Definitely, since this was not Kansas, the plan was to stay out of harm’s way.

So with that, I pushed off and opted for the expediency of flight.  I levitated, going up into the air.  Whilst in flight, I was as if lying on my stomach, face down to the ground, with my arms outstretched directly before me. This is a position in which I can’t recall having flown and, if so, quite rarely.  I did this because I wanted to be able to travel really swiftly.  I was doing this to jettison my way on out of this place.

I wanted to push beyond so that I could go to some new dimension to which I had never ventured before.  Initially, I had not been flying at great speeds and this only left me feeling impatient. I just did not like the feeling of entrapment that, deep within me, such slow flight induced.  So I sought to go beyond, the bounds of, the very dimension in which I was questing. I wanted to experience some grand illuminating, uplifting experience like, in too long, I have not.  Thanks in large measure to the morass, back in Vancouver, through which my life had been dredging. Earlier, when I had snapped at Merlin, it was my way of saying to him that I needed some help.  So that I could go push further beyond, I wanted him to give me a boost.

I desperately wanted, in my spiritual unfoldment, to push beyond the bounds to which I have already quested.  When astral projecting, I was reminded that the transparent cabling represented the astral self’s cord. Even though in an OBE state, when I was lying in the rearranged bed on the astral plane, I was then projected out of my body yet again.  I was about to quest into, a whole other dream realm of, new adventures and dimensional experiences. I had mistakenly been of the impression that when I was lying, with my head due north, that that was the point at which I went to sleep.  Obviously, this was not the case. Soon, I began flying past large ferns – some of which floated lazily in the sky.  They, like every other arboreal life-form here, were especially lush.

They floated, only on the level at which I flew, on either side of the wide earthen path.  They managed to have overhung the pathway by using tree branches to have affected the feat. Even though I flew considerably high up, I was nowhere higher than the trees which were uniformly tall and majestic.  When I came from beyond the growth, where the hirsute beings were, it was now an open space that basked in intense sunlight. The men were about 9 feet tall whilst the women some 7 feet tall; they were possibly taller but for being unfamiliar, with having to gauge such heights, my observations were likely off. They were a brawny, robust people who were clearly extra-human.  There were no distinguishing features to their faces as their long, jet-black hair entirely covered their faces. Though I had not found them frightening, I thought it best to keep a low profile.  After all, I was in their domain.  Since my speed was not picking up, as desired, I grew less impatient.

Intrigued by the environment, I paused to check out a sheer rock face which was all black stone.  The rock was stratified by the thinnest layers conceivable. I had noticed it, off to the left, as I flew back in the direction over the road.  I was flying back along the route, which I had taken, when in a hurry to flee the place.  This was a place truly like no other before experienced. Now I could no longer discern the whirring sounds, of the vibrational energy surge, which had previously played mightily on my ears.  However, I wanted some of that energy to assist me in flying faster.  I just wanted to get beyond, to the next level, to whatever that adventure might be.

Since I had already accomplished much energy work, in the meditative and vision states, there was no need to have gone any faster.  This I had concluded when reasoning with self. I had already been revved up, with more than ample energy, to get me through these experiences.  I was, as ever, my usual impatient self.  I was an amalgam of both ego and soul. When the sheer rock face finished, there was a large opening where there was an incredibly super, mammoth civilisation.  This metropolis dwarfed any that I had, before in the dreamtime, ever encountered.

By far, it was one thousand times larger than that metropolis, which I saw from the hilltop, in the dreams where I would meet Merlin on July 9, 1993. It was more massive, by several thousand times, than the inverted Machu Pichu-like civilisation – to which I had travelled in the dreamtime on December 29, 1990. When I had happened on it, I was in flight and looking down on this most spectacular vista.  Just past the rock face, the civilisation began way below.  It was not only surprising but revolutionary. Too, there were giant holograms in the air.  They featured Blacks in hair care advertisements.  The Blacks in these holographs were very upper middle class-looking and healthy.

They had great skin, teeth and were spectacularly dark-complected.  I had flown off, to the left, to check out the holograms. I then noticed that, way below me, there was a golden, bronze-coloured maze that was made of the smoothest stone.  It can only be called a maze as its complexity defies description. At times, it was hard to tell whether it was actually stone or metal.  The element’s tonality subtly changed throughout.  It was a flat surface which had lots of openings in it. Basically, these were portals at the top of the civilisation.  They were simply tunnels to let the natural light in, as well as, to let off heat and exhaust.  For below its impenetrable shell, this civilisation was teeming with unimaginably large masses.

This was the roof of the civilisation.  Through the gaping portals was revealed windows galore.  Every portal had massive skyscrapers that were easily in excess of five hundred storeys. However, none of these skyscrapers broke above the flat, rock-metallic-looking surface.  When arriving at this super-metropolis, I had first seen the portals. Several of these massive skyscrapers fit into each of the portals.  The rock face encircled the entire civilisation.  The rock face left this super-metropolis neither as distant nor canyoned as that inverted Machu Pichu-like metropolis.

*This, of course, refers to the Machu-Pichu-like civilisation encountered in the dreams of December 29, 1990.  END.

This area was most massive.  There were vats of red light that shot up into the air, on escaping from the portals, as the civilisation’s glowing lights made it from the bowels of the depths. The portals were each hexagonal in shape.  Though all of the portals contained the ultra-modern, five-hundred-storey-plus skyscrapers, they never protruded above their rims. This civilisation on its own must have easily been home to at least 200 billion souls.  This was a truly humbling experience. I felt as if a mere pygmy moth, in flight, traversing across the width of a canyoned, bronze-stoned encased structure.  Truly phenomenal a sight and experience this was.

When looking down and discovering all this, I must have been in flight some three thousand feet in the air.  Prior to having experienced it, one could not have conceived of anything on this scale. A truly densely populated civilisation this was.  Blown away by the massiveness and beauty of this place, I flew across as much of the golden-bronze civilisation’s rooftop as I could. Thank goodness that I had earlier gotten such a boost of energy.  Nothing less could have sustained me, when in flight, across the top of this complex, massive civilisation.  Just for security’s sake, from time to time, I hugged the rock face whilst in flight. Whilst in flight, there was no way that I wanted to run out of my fuel of light energies.  Energies they were which Merlin had shared with me, I was firmly convinced.

I then noticed that, up in one section of the rock face, there was also a built up extension of things.  The same architectural designs were also used. Worked into the intricate structure was the monolithic face of a woman.  Indeed, could this have been a matriarchal civilisation? However, even though a face made of stone, I then noticed that she began speaking.  Clearly, this woman was pretty pissed off, “I’m going to show them.  I’ll get them yet.” Whilst part of a sculpture which looked much like Earth’s Mount Rushmore in the United States of America, she was operating some levers.  The stone, with a seeming mix of metal – in this case gold, was nicely worked into her face.

As she spoke and her features became animated, the play of light on her features was kaleidoscopic.  It seemed that she was out to show the inhabitants, of the portalled civilisation, a thing or two. She announced that she would release a much-feared creature on the civilisation.  A voracious carnivore, it was expected to go into one of the portals where it would feast on a few million citizens. Intrigued, I slowed down and alighted on a ledge in the rock face.  It was around a large outcropping of golden-bronze, metallic stone. Around the corner to my right, beyond the outcropping, was the enraged woman whose face was made of stone or seemingly so.  To my right, on the rock face, towering above the civilisation was the creature’s face.

Its eyes were fairly close to me.  Like a griffin or the mythic dragon, it was a bird creature of some sort.  It was not a very pretty-looking creature and you just knew that it could be a real menacing terror. These were the eyes of an eagle which predatorily flickered, a couple of times, as I looked at it.  Even though worked into the rock face, like its mistress, it seemed simultaneously mechanical though she did not. However, this creature was quite so alive.

Whilst distracted by the griffin, I had failed to have noticed that there was some other creature.  Hungrily snapping up at me, the creature was just below my feet. It was a pet of the dominatrix’s; it was as if a dog though not.  It was covered in a white membrane which was as if a giant sloth with large beaver-like teeth. Definitely not game, I shoved off and levitated higher up the rock face.  Obviously, I sought to get out of its reach.

She, however, was not aware that its yapping was because I was there.  Frankly, I don’t think that she could have cared less. I suspect that she thought that it was greedily anticipating the kill which, shortly, the large griffin-like creature would undertake. With a coiled tail, like a serpent’s or a dragon’s even, this griffin-like creature was more so a bird of prey.  Next, an aperture opened up in the rock face about the creature. In so doing, it revealed that the creature had an immensely long body with a shell on its back.  It really did look much like a turtle’s shell.  Similarly, the white membrane which covered the tiny pet’s body covered the amphibian-looking, predatory, griffin-like creature.

Sure enough, like any bird would, it noisily crowed.  The cry was always a dual-toned affair and noisy at that.  On her signal, the über-griffin came from its lair and leapt from the opening.  It then began effortlessly flying downwards to the civilisation below. Meanwhile, she had used other levers to close almost all the dozens of hexagonal portals in the civilisation’s rooftop.  When she was finished, there was only one portal left open.

Naturally, everyone in the mega-metropolis would be filled with terror.  Clearly, this could only mean that the dreaded monster was upon them. The other portals were closed to prevent anyone’s escape.  She would have none of it.  She ruled the civilisation and clearly she was a god of revenge who used terror to keep her subjects in line. The portal covers fitted so seamlessly that it was hard to discern that previously there had been massive, gaping apertures in the metallic-stone-looking maze.  This surface had no lustre to it; rather, it was a matte finish.

Off to my left, there was a recession in the rock face.  There, I noticed that there was a ledge.  The civilisation did not, however, expand over into that direction.  A paved area it was rather damp. The dominatrix’s pet sloth-like creature went scurrying after something that was over in that direction.  I did not, however, make out what it was. As compared to the white membrane which covered the rest of its body, the griffin-like creature’s shell was rather dark.  One interesting feature about it was that its eyes were, on long pods, like a snail’s eyes. They were capable of moving independent of each other, even though they were such large imposing birdlike eyes. 

These were not the eyes of a turtle or a snake but definitely those of an eagle’s.  Like an eagle, it effortlessly flew through the air. Peripherally, it noticed the pet making for the kill so diverted and swooped down with an eagle’s deadly precision.  Of course, it got ahead of the pet.  It was obvious from its head movements that it had captured the tidbit. The pet sloth-like creature noisily protested being cheated out of a snack.  This was all that I needed to see and said to myself, “Well darlings, whilst you work that out, I’m getting on out of here.”

With that, I took to the air, I flew away from there.  I followed the rock face which encircled some seventy-five per cent of the civilisation.  Definitely, it was more than a semicircle.  The rock face was shaped like the hook at the top of a question mark. I made my way around the rock face and got away from where the sadistic goddess ruler was.  Coming around the large abutment of the rock face, I happened on a massive cabling of root systems.

This was now a very cavernous damp area.  This area was completely unlike the cool built-up civilisation.  Moss covered the massive root systems throughout and made the smell here the most ripe, fecund perfume. Here I happened on two children who stood in amongst the forest of cabling roots.  They were very Oriental-looking but dark-complected.  They were not though like dark-complected Asians – in the waking state. What they seemed to be were an amalgam of all the races.  They were taller than the average, South East Asian, more than six feet tall, even though clearly children.  Also, they were a lovely olive complexion like Hispanics.

They weren’t as dark as say Sri Lankans or Sumatrans.  More than anything else, they were tall and long-limbed as though Maasai children.  I thought that this was what humanity had racially evolved to, sometime in the distant future. With Asians being the dominant tribal grouping on the planet, it did make perfect sense.  Finally, there was truly one human race, no more of this hideous idiocy of divisiveness. They were full-lipped and large almond-eyed with beautifully flared nostrils.  Then I thought about it, a bit, remembering the Blacks in the hair care ads.  Clearly, this suggested that there were still specific tribal groupings around.

Looking as if lost, this boy and girl were just standing there.  There were little creatures on the ground behind them.  Though they looked like crows, they were clearly not.  They were more so like winged squirrels.  They were as nonthreatening as squirrels or, for that matter, crows. As they stood side-by-side the girl was closer to me whilst the creatures were off to their left.  Though kids, they were already six feet whilst I flew in the air at just above six feet. I had come around, in flight, from off their right shoulders.  He was a little older and a tad taller than her.  I flew around them, noticing the white membrane here.  The membrane covered the entire ground here.

It was a strange-looking substance and like nothing in the waking state.  I never did get close enough to the ground, so that I could touch it, to test its consistency. With that I took flight, again, soaring upwards and flying ahead to yet another vista.

*Each time that I would soar higher here, I would be posited into what would be a new dream experience.  However, this was a rather seamless progression from dream to dream. I moved from dream to dream, in what was the same extraordinary, never-before-visited civilisation.  Thus, unless warranted, I will let the dreams flow one into the other.  END.

Kiara Kabukuru

Now as if in the yard of the Crab Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts house, I was posited in the second dream.  Here I noticed lots of twigs which seemed to be from the genip tree.  However, as they had large thorns on them, it would seem that they were from a shaddock tree. Here it was night time out and a very beautiful light illumined the area.  Soon, I noticed a lovely dark-complected woman in the yard who reminded me of Joy Westhammer. However, it was not Joy.  Indeed, this woman was much more beautiful and looked a lot like Naomi Campbell.  As a matter of fact, the look was more like Kiara Kabukuru’s, the model.  She was long-limbed, svelte and wonderful to look at.

She was then, down in the gutter, taking clippings from the trees.  Not that I would mind her doing it but I suggested that there was nothing wrong with her coming by and asking if she could do so. Of course, I would have let her have some.  After all, as it would be propagating the plant, I would gladly have allowed her to.  However, since I was the proprietor, she was socially obliged to have approached me and asked for my permission. This was the only way that civil society could be maintained and not dissolved into anarchy.  As a matter of fact, I would have loved to have counselled her on which parts of the tree to have chosen.

I would have loved to have shown her how best to prune a tree.  As I pointed this out, I was stunned as she became pissed off with me.  From her point of view, I was attacking her. She let me know that she had no intentions of returning them.  Of course, I had no desire to have them returned to me.  Why would I?  They are nature; I could never own them. With that, she started fleeing but I called after her.  I told her that there was no need for that response.  With that, I went chasing after her as she went running around the property.  Here, it was more than the Crab Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts house’s property.

This was now part of a large estate as we went running around to the side which led up to Yvette Morehead’s.  From there, she went running into Max Worsthorne’s yard.  I knew that she definitely was not Elizabeth Westhammer’s daughter. This woman was the classic, beautiful artisan soul.  She was cosmopolitan and upper middle class.  In her flight, she had dropped the twigs which stood upright as if tuning forks.

*Of course, this harkens back to that dream on November 4, 1989.  In said dream, there were the golden-coloured, Y-shaped, yod-like tools which similarly acted when falling to the ground.  END.

Somehow, it seemed as though they were magnetised by an energy flow deep below the surface.  Gathering them up, I tossed them over the fence back into the Crab Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts house’s backyard. When returning to the yard, I stood on the steps from Harella da Braga’s bedroom and looked off into the yard.  Peripherally, I had noticed some movement.  Shocked was I to find that she had returned to pick the twigs. I admonished her and told her that she did not have to be like that.  I told her that there was no need to have fled or even have vilified me.  However, she did need my permission if she were to go on taking the twigs.

Nonetheless, she would have none of it.  She disagreed by yelling at me then stubbornly ran off.  With that, I went to inspect the tree as I wondered if she had only returned just so that she could do deliberate damage to the tree. Obviously, she had taken offence at being counselled by me.  This woman exhibited that stinking ignorance so rife, the world over, amongst much of human society. This is an attitude whereby one would rather hate and kill one another than communicate.  It made no sense to have behaved the way that she had.

Going to the tree, I noticed that there was a dark-haired, White male down in the gutter.  Initially, I thought that he had been taking a piss but he remained motionless for much too long. Soon, I realised that there was obviously more at play here.  I decided to go and discreetly check things out.  Clearing the bushes, I snuck down into the gut where he was standing.  He stood facing that opening in the wall of the Crab Hill Bridge. He stood there at the portal in the bridge’s wall as though keeping a lookout… or so it seemed.  As I grew closer, I noticed that there was a man squatting in front of him who gave him head.

Both were decidedly North American-looking, White Gays.  Each was in his early twenties; they rudely reacted to my coming and blocking them.  I, for one, felt badly for having walked in on them. I thought that he had been alone, at the most, possibly jacking-off.  They were quite pissed off that I had shown up.  Intrigued, I wanted to play voyeur and check out the action. Furious, they abruptly stopped then got up and took off.  Going onto the street, they stood there with their backs against the wall of the bridge.  Where they had been standing on the other side of the bridge’s wall, they were just beside the portal. Waiting for me to get lost, they stood there making snarky remarks about me.  I did not hear and could not have cared less about them and their remarks.

Once indoors, I was now posited in this the third dream.  Readily, much to my horror, I realised that my apartment was not at all that secured.  The door that leads to the inner fire escape – here at my rue Goyer, Montréal apartment – had had its doorknob and the two latches at top and bottom removed. To say the least, I was really pissed off because anyone could easily have entered my apartment.  Looking through, I noticed that there was an apartment next door with two beds. It seemed that there were two White women living there; they were young.  They seemed like classical dancers.  The one on the far bed reminded me of Mindy Asparian.

She was working on a macramé that was likely going to be a Christmas present.  There was a design on it that looked like a little ragdoll.  A most unusual design though it was. A large body, two heads attached, plus two little bodies that fell from beneath either arm.  It was propped up on the bed so that it looked rather garish.  About 18.0 inches tall, it was a thick, Babushka-type doll. I had been peering through the hole, where my doorknob bloody-well ought to have been, when I saw all of this going down.  I wondered how long that the door had been an open invitation. They, or anyone else for that matter, could have come over and spied on me.  Regardless, as soon as possible, I wanted the situation taken care of.

Daytime now found me in a narrow cobblestoned street, here in the fourth dream.  Though wet, it was also bright out in this unfamiliar city. All the buildings here, by several millennia, were rather ancient.  They were, however, in the Gothic style.  Again, this was not in Europe but this strange world to which I had travelled. Were it in Europe, then it would likely have been Germany rather than France.  To be sure, this was in another dimension entirely.

Isis da Braga and her Jamaican friend Dahlia Compton were together.  We were together and Dahlia said that she felt rather tired and wanted to rest for awhile. Meanwhile, I was being complimented for having fluttered my lashes whilst smiling at the beauty of the place.  In this dimension, I Arvin was terribly racy, witty and possessed of a confidence that was supremely sexy. Indeed, I was also an actor by profession and was incredibly charming.  Here, I was greatly loved by everyone.  Obviously, this was a dimension in which I hadn’t Harella da Braga and Pericles da Braga with whom to contend in childhood.

My eyes here were riveting and I was known to possess this beguiling quality when speaking.  My eyes perpetually were flirting, dancing and feverishly darting about. At the time, I had a paper fan with which I covered my mouth whilst speaking.  This, of course, drew more attention to my eyes.  In a mocking fashion, I had been self-consciously covering my mouth. I was being flirtatious whilst pretending to be a woman.  This was a caricature that I did in that dimension.  My teeth were perfectly beautiful when smiling and were for that matter capped and rather large.

However, I was aware that the Arvin of that dimension was not aware of why he felt the need to cover his handsome mouth.  When Arvin of that dimension did his caricature, though it came through from the level of soul, it was intimately connected to all Arvins. In particular, it had been inspired by me in this dimension.  In that sense, he was as if channelling me here though not consciously aware of the roots of his caricature. Here in this dimension, Isis was rather sweet towards me.  I was much favoured by her.  There was no dynamic here of being manipulated within the family by either Harella or Pericles. Eventually turning onto a narrow little street, we had been walking back and forth.  Here, there were some wide stately steps that led up to the buildings.

The steps were very dark as if covered with a dried-up moss.  Being on this street, I was immediately reminded me of a street on which I had been on two previous occasions. The previous times when I was on this street, obviously occurred in the dreamtime, when living in New York City.  The other occasion was much earlier during childhood in St. Kitts. Soon, I saw a Black man coming down the street who looked like a friend in Montréal.  In these parts, I was readily warmed at the reminder of a friend.  I had said that I referred to that Haïtien friend as ‘Belle Tête.’  I explained that it meant ‘beautiful head’ as in the shape of his exquisite skull.

Here in the dreamtime, I had even called the man the same thing.  He too had asked what it meant which I had tempered by being flirtatious.  Dahlia had rather enjoyed my playfulness and sweetly laughed. I was quite amazed at this other aspect of self.  For here, one was being deferred to rather that opposed or rejected.  Truly revolutionary! Whilst we visited, a car came down the street in our direction then pulled up and parked beyond us.  We walked up and past it.  I wanted to go explore some trees that looked like cherry trees; they beautifully overhung the street.

Beautifully pruned, they were not more than nine feet tall… if that much.  As we went down, I noticed that a couple of macaques came out into the street from off the trees.  I thought it the most charming thing imaginable. Right away, I was reminded of the macaques in Japanese snowy mountains or those in Nepal about which Sjaak van der Velde speaks so highly.  However, this particular species had unusually long tails that curled. Dark-furred, their fur was also a bit on the long side.  On closer scrutiny, I realised that there was something off about them.  Sure enough, their eyes were exceptionally large and monochromatic.

Some were black-within-black eyes whilst others were exclusively crimson red-within-crimson red eyes.  If ever there were any doubts as to this not being Kansas, they were certainly then dispelled. As we grew closer, they ran away and scurried into the long stretch of cherry trees.  These trees lined the ancient, moss-covered cobblestone road. The trees soon became noisy from the rustling of the large tribe of monkeys in their crowns.  The inordinately beautiful macaques were exceptionally noisy.  This street ran off one of the many piazzas which, incidentally, stood before one of the many large Gothic structures. Though the look of these structures was cathedral-like, they were though several storeys high.  They were in excess of one hundred storeys each.

Made of pure stone, they were moss and time-blackened office and residential towers.  These fantastic structures were in the Gothic style with flying buttresses and Gothic spires at their far-off crowns. The stone, though seemingly darkened by the wetness which drenched the place, was innately that dark aside from the moss that covered them and everything else. The moisture from the rainfall left the black stone with a glossy finish that was truly spectacular.  With a noisy bevy of macaques on either side of us in the treetops, I said quietly, “I think my dear Isis we ought to turn back now.”

I just did not want to alarm this one.  Many of the macaques were crossing over from one tree to the next, over the middle of the street, in the most acrobatic of flying leaps. Firmly taking Isis’s hand, I told her that whatever happened we simply couldn’t start running.  As a matter of fact, these macaques seemed feral and ready to attack. Next, there was a swarm of what initially I thought to be flies.  They proved, however, to be some furry genus of bees.  They had a symbiotic relationship with the macaques.

In essence, the bees’ role was to eat the very honey-sweet, perpetual mucous from the macaques’ spectacularly monochromatic eyes.  Every now and again, in unison, the bees would simply fly away. For a brief moment, they would take leave of their host macaques.  Interestingly enough, the macaques would never have stirred or brushed away the bees yet they would buzz away for a moment. This was some sort of hive response to some aspect of the macaques’ rhythm.  It was one which clearly still stirred some instinctive fear in them.

At one point, I saw one of the macaque counterparts, of this far-off, never-before-visited-in-the-dreamtime-dimension, in an intimate close-up as I intently studied it. Its eyes were the same intensity of red as what you would find in the red of round, red pieces – which along with black ones – form the basis for a game of checkers.  The others had brown-black rather than jet-black eyes. Clearly, this was some aspect of the astral plane to which I rarely travelled.  As it were, this was not astral terra firma as I am accustomed to experiencing things when on the astral plane.

As we had made our way down the tiny road, a large tribe of the macaques came rushing across the piazza to our left.  With the most amazingly agile ease, they took to the trees before and behind us. They squatted there in the treetops and looked down at us.  There was no getting around the fact that they were intelligent beings. Their posture when squatting suggested that they were as if macaque-man.  Clearly, they were some evolutionary manifestation of ensoulment in simian mammalia. As we walked past them, as if into a well-laid trap, they were facing in the direction from which we had come.  It seemed likely that the couple of macaques which had been standing there, drawing my attention, were part of a well-laid plan.

A ruse whereby the unsuspecting were entrapped and then made a meal of, later on, or what have you.  When we turned around, their backs were now turned on us.  They all faced the same direction and never looked over their shoulders back at us. Again, knowing her only too well, I asked Isis not to freak out regardless of whatever happened.  Rather than running, I told her that we had to appear cool by walking away. Were we to have run, they would be disturbed and the only likely reaction would be fearful.  I added that I did not see how such a reaction could not be inimical. If they were to come after us, I assured her that we did not stand much of a chance against them.  We were, I reminded her, in their territory and did not quite know of their capabilities.  All of this, I telepathically said to Isis.

I firmly reached into her mind and thus stilled her fears.  I had had to initially take her hand, on entering her mind, as she was about to freak out not knowing what was going on. Hand-in-hand, I was able to guide her out of there.  Cautiously, we ventured out from beneath the entrapping tunnel of macaque-filled, riotously blooming, cherry trees.

Here, in this the fifth dream, I was running into several former members of the National Ballet of Canada.  As well, there were some current dancers from the company.  They were all tightly spaced. This again took place in one of the same tightly-spaced, cobblestoned, wet black-stoned streets.  As they were getting ready to go onstage, here it was nighttime.

Some sort of spectacular was about to be staged with these dancers.  Several others were also going to be participating.  I passingly wondered if it meant that Celia Franca had died. Perhaps, too, the National Ballet of Canada was celebrating its 50th or 60th anniversary.  As I moved through the gaggle of dancers, they were all decked out in colourful costumes that were designed unmistakably by Hélène Plotte-de Visage.

Evelyn Hart was not among the dancers here though I did see Karen Kain.  As well, I saw just about every dance luminary from the company’s illustrious past.  They were all so very excited to be reunited.

One dancer, in particular, caught my eye.  He was dark-complected and obviously John Alleyne whom I have never met.  As I passed, he was to my right as we were all tightly packed in the backstage area and I said, “Well hello, Kevin Pugh.”

Of course, it was not Kevin – to whom I was briefly acquainted in the waking state.  Those nearby heard the gaffe and giggled at the idea that I was implying that ‘they all look alike.’  Since I too was Black, especially drôle it seemed to those who had heard my gaffe. I was merely nervous as all hell to have been there and to have met John Alleyne.  These things happen, after all, so why not here in the dreamtime.

About four persons later, I did in fact see Kevin Pugh.  I explained to him what had just occurred.  We briefly, warmly chatted.  To have done what I had, I told him how embarrassing and racially insensitive it was of me. One dancer next to Kevin, undoubtedly it was Owen Montague,  hysterically laughed and threw his head back in the process.  It really was true though and embarrassingly funny.

Kevin gave me a pat on the forearm, whilst smiling, as I walked away.  It was amazing how very real he was.  He was as if before me in the waking state.  I could even smell his very intense, sweat-soaked costume. Here, I was the same racy-personae, other-dimensional Arvin.  I was very much the actor who was recognised.  To everything that I said, everyone hung on to my every word.

I did have quite an alluring quicksilver wit and intellect.  One had to be ‘on’ when listening to me as it created an illuminating high when I spoke.  I was charm personified.  Clearly, my overleaves here in this dimension were different. To my personality’s makeup, there was great sagacity.  I seemed so much more so a sage soul rather than an artisan soul.  Naturally, this was no doubt due to being focussed in an actorly fashion. This would not be so hard to pull off, for being an artisan soul, on the expression axis.  One is, after all, more readily connected to sage soul sensibilities.

As I moved on, I noticed that there were persons who would be performing two roles.  For the specially choreographed piece, to celebrate the event, they were singing and acting roles.  The soprano came rushing backstage declaring, “Oh dear, we suckers have to get lost…” It turned out that who should show up, to narrate and sing, but Maureen Forester and Jessica Tandy.  Jessica Tandy, now discarnate, came walking across the dark-stoned piazza with all the ducal elegance as, Katherine Worsley, Duchess of Kent herself – who does bear a passing resemblance to her.

Jessica Tandy was a little bit ahead and to the right of the great Canadian singer.  Maureen Forester looked refreshed, grounded and utterly approachable. Both women were dressed in beautiful pink robes.  I can’t say enough, how radiant Jessica Tandy looked.  As if it were not obvious when she was incarnate, now her inner light eclipsed us all. Maureen Forester, even though dressed up, looked slightly frumpy but on the verge of winsomeness.  To look at her, I thought right away that this woman was likely a slave soul with very strong sage soul influence.

Perhaps, from her task companion or that the sagely energies were rather marked in her casting.  She just had that slave soul feel about her. She was a real trouper and it showed through and through.  This had been the case, one sensed, for more lifetimes than most.  Full stop. She was honoured to have been asked to participate.  To look at her, you just knew that she would pour her very soul into the task at hand. Serving the common good thus, this was her very raison d’être.  Warmed by this woman’s spirit, I broke into a smile.  Gracious.

To go cross to another part of the location, I left the backstage area.  However, I ended up taking a divergent route which took me around to another area.

Warner Park Stadium, St. Kitts

I was then in a pavilion which reminded me of the one in Sandy Point, St. Kitts.  However, it was definitely not that pavilion.  Whilst I was there, high up in the stands, I looked out to a field and saw Morag O’Hoare. Morag was telepathically speaking to me though it seemed as if we were speaking on headphones.  She was saying that she did not appreciate my trying to contact her. She said that this was the third time that I was doing so and she found it terribly upsetting.  She went on to say that she did not, in the least, appreciate it.  Firmly, she insisted that I not do it again.

Then she became very loud, shouting at me, letting me know that she was not going to take what I had done to her.  Neither was she going to take what I was saying about her.  Livid, she was really pissed.  Before I knew what, she began coming after me. Turning around, I saw a couple of kids who were blond except that there was something odd about them.  Extra blond, they were also very pale. On closer inspection, their lashes were silver and their eyes – I tell you, good people – were pure white.  Slinking down a smooth pylon, I left the upper deck where I had been hanging out.

*Darlings, this is some Kansas, ain’t it?  This was most unusual and about high time that I clicked my high heels.  END.

This one feature is why I had been reminded of the pavilion at the Recreation Grounds, in Sandy Point, St. Kitts.  As I did not want any interaction with Morag, I went running away – not of cowardice but quite simply hers were not energies of a very evolved nature. She wore a cream-coloured, long woollen tunic over long, white stretch pants.  She began coming after me, in a full-throttle rage, not surprisingly from the same rage that informed her telepathic connection.

I had no desire to be corded by this individual, her conscience and its manifested implosion – Parkinson’s disease – is her problem.  Thinking about it, it dawned on me that Morag had likely knitted the woollen tunic.

In any event, I went bolting from the pavilion into a maze of tiny, wet and black, cobblestone streets.  Here, I happened on a large number of entertainers.  Among them were a large number of boys who were in full drag. As the drag queens were waiting to go on, I hid out for a bit and waited to be able to cross the street.  I did not wish to be seen by Morag.  Where I stood, a number of streets had converged with a large public parking area setup there.

In that sense, it did seem terribly European like the old Gothic architecture.  However, this was millennia older than anything in Europe.  As I began crossing the heavily-trafficked, converging streets, I noticed that Morag was down the street and off to my right. She did the most ridiculously bizarre thing.  In a bid not to be seen by me, as she was hot on my trail, she covered her face whilst standing still in the middle of the street.  This was truly hilarious. This just betrayed how spiritually immature she is; it’s a dream, all one has to do is render oneself invisible.

The energies coming from her were rapacious and fiercely determined.  With that, I bolted and fled in earnest yet again.  She was letting me know that I hadn’t any idea how much I had caused her to suffer. I told her to fuck-off and deal with it.  It was not an iota as much as the pain that her betrayal had caused Merlin.  Even though I had been on a different street at the time, I telepathically told her this as we were always in contact this way.

Crimson Dining Room, Alnwick Castle

Fleeing her, I dodged into a complex where I waited inside in the near-dark.  Although I could have sensed their presence, it took me awhile to realise that there were persons here. A long table sat at the centre of the room.  Here, I saw that beautiful woman, Jeanette Giroux.  Here again, I was my usually charming, actorly self. There were lots of people here which, of course, meant that I immediately was ‘on’.  She seemed surprised to see me there and asked what exactly brought me to these parts.

I was about to sit down when she referred to me as ‘Dumbo’ in a snide reference to the waking state – my abysmal French leaves me seeming as if a deaf and dumb, lost soul. As I was anything but ‘Dumbo,’ in these parts where I was so witty, it was seen as a humorous aside.  Turning to my right, I looked at her as though she were mad.  I truly wondered why the hell anyone would think of me as ‘Dumbo’. Ignoring her, I hysterically laughed as though she had just gotten undressed and revealed herself a double-cocked hermaphrodite.  However, my dreamer self was affected by her cutting remark.

If for no other reason, it proved rather an insightful revelation about her.  Throughout these experiences, I was quite lucidly aware that I was dreaming. As a result, I was dual-personae in these dreams.  There was my persona from that dream dimension, plus the lucidity of my waking state persona, the former unaware of the other’s presence – naturally. The table was a narrow wooden affair where there were lots of exciting persons gathered.  The energies here were giddily intellectual.  I felt right at home here. When I joined the table, all the attention became directed my way.  Again, everyone hung on to my every word. 

Meanwhile, we were waiting for a car to come get both Jeanette Giroux and me to take us to a performance. Jeanette got up from the table to go powder her nose.  Whilst she went off, along came an unusually tall man of between 8-9 feet tall who was completely at ease and possessed of his body.  It was natural for him to have been that tall. He wore a dark suit and was there to chauffeur us to the performance.  Going outside, would reveal that he had shown up with the most gorgeous Rolls Royce imaginable. Red, it was truly electrifying and all that I could think of at the time was just how much Isis would love the racy colour – it is her favourite.  A convertible, it was a white, leather-interiored work of art.

Prince

Going outside, I was stylishly charming and simply glowed for living in such fine style.  Just prior to obvious extra-human chauffeur coming inside, to announce that the ride was ready, in had come Prince.  The diminutive performer recently was Scott Joplin, of course, reincarnationally in his immediate past life. He was utterly stunning and held that part of the astral universe in his right breast pocket.  He wore a red suit which rode quite tightly about his sexualised arse.

I really can’t see how this man is not Bisexual.  A white shirt was pinned up to the neck with lots of frills at the neck and sleeves.  Truly stylish, he readily eclipsed me. Just as others had deferred to me so too did I fall into line and deferred to him.  As a witty aside, I commented on his very Mozartian look to the enthralled table. I then added that though Prince would like to think that he was Wolfgang A. Mozart in a past life, the latter’s soul would never emulate his past life persona.

I added that, as a matter of fact, the soul in question would in fact not be interested in its past life as Mozart to the degree that Prince clearly was.  I dismissed Prince as a Mozart impostor. There was then a petition being passed around, prior to Jeanette Giroux having left the table.  As I signed with great flourish, I said, “It is, October the sixth and Luna my friends is in, not Aries but Sagittarius!” They all looked at me as if to say that they had never heard anything so bizarre in all their discriminating, learned years.  To deflect their concern of my being a bit ‘off’ as it were, I pompously added, “Believe me, I know.  It is in Sagittarius.”

I realised as I did this that this was quite a dead giveaway of my not being from that dimension.  Meanwhile, the Arvin of that dimension, whose script was as fluid as mine, thought to himself whilst mildly horrified, “What the devil am I saying?” Indeed, a bleed-through of my waking state persona had nosily barged in and channelled through information which was, in that dimension, at best a non sequitur.  At the most, it was a sign of the old effete losing his marbles.  Dieu!

The reason for this bleed-through was the high that one vicariously experienced for experiencing another Arvin.  As I said that, Jeanette – who was seated at the table next to me – tapped me on the shoulder asking, “What are you talking about, ‘Dumbo’?” One had the sense of her that she was a fellow actor with whom I shared many passionate fucks and good times.  She does so much remind me of Maria di Caspieri, which was why it was ultimately not all that surprising to have found her in these parts.

There were no residues of the ofttimes friendly ridicule which I experience here… in the waking state. The tall man and I then went outside.  There we waited for Jeanette Giroux to stop waiting for the contact cement on her face to dry. What else could have taken her so long, anyway?  Finally, she came out joining us and we got into the swank-interiored car whose roof was not down.  We were then en route to the special performance across town.

As the car tried crossing a street to head into where the main piazza was, there were all these lisping Gays who were in full drag.  They were, in fact, all professional drag queens. They were all dressed up as famous female entertainers whom they could never be in a million lifetimes. 

Barbra Streisand

As we came around the corner, I announced aloud, “And here, of course, we have the genuine article.” Here was Barbra Streisand… about whom I rarely ever dream.  Next to my strong, demonstrative otherly dimensional personality, she was very subdued and earthy. Charming as ever, I was speaking a mile-a-minute which was part of my conversational magnetism.  I spoke with a rapidity that was truly mind-blowing. Whilst speaking, I had slipped into an impersonation of Barbara Streisand.  Touching the back of my hair and pulling on my nose, I did so in an elongating gesture.  Using an arch, nasal accent, I copped a ‘Dolly Levi’ impersonation that was truly hysterical.

Here in this dimension, it seemed that said film, “Hello, Dolly!” had recently been premiered.  I was doing the impersonation in front of her.  Clearly, she was charmed by me as was everyone as she blushed and genuinely smiled. It was not a socially uncomfortable situation for her.  She was genuinely at ease in my presence or at least that of my otherly dimensional Arvin.  She remained seated whilst I regaled her. Again, like both Jessica Tandy and Maureen Forrester, she wore the same pink floral gown.  Barbra Streisand was seated before a makeup mirror getting ready to go on.

All the lisping Gays had gathered around and clung on to everything that I said.  Here, my enunciation was crystal clear.  Too, my speech was not only lyrical but it lilted in flowing cadences that were truly musical. It was basically an art form to have spoken as I did.  It was, however, not affected but utterly of my spirit.  My speech was basically sung.  As such, it was a form of musicality that was most elevated and refined. The ‘everything’ about everything that I said was laced with the raciest double-entendres, all delivered with the greatest of timing.  This was a supremely colourful use of language as revolutionary as Rap is to music as was and continues to be Jazz.

One had to be really ‘with it’ and ‘on’ to have gotten my shrewd intellect.  Of course, it all was part of the winning, stellar charm here in this dimension. Most people just did not get it except, of course, those rare souls who floated about from salon to salon where intellect was prized above even fine wine, food, music and art. What I, dreamer Arvin of the waking state, vicariously loved about it all was how utterly smart everyone in these circles were.  There was a high, zingy vibration to these people. This was especially true at the long narrow table as I had let rip with some of my colourful insights.  Above all else, I was never at any given moment speaking bullshit.

It was all straight-shooting, witty insightfulness on an order that was stratospherically intellectual… revolutionary.  It was also none of it cutting or mean-spirited. Going on, I said to Barbra Streisand, “Darling, there are only three divine divas; the three Supremes.  And, they are, herself (Barbra Streisand) and either Cher or Bette Midler.  And the other one, honey Chile, on this funky-assed, backwater world of a planet, this mother you don’t want to mess with, ‘cause she ah bitch!” The rapidity and coloratura with which these words bloomed from my smiling lips was truly operatic.  As I did so, I slowly leaned in, into the face of Barbra Streisand.  She sat there as if enraptured by my every word.

Even my dreamer self had had to coast along so many nanoseconds behind trying to get it.  She sat there being intoxicated by my bewitching turn as magus palaver extraordinaire. At once witty and funky, yet elevated in its brilliant composition, my use of language was truly impressive.  Even when being profane, I was sublimely colourful.  The whole thing was sheer magic.  Her face became illumined as I spoke.

When I said that last bit, she threw her head back and earthily laughed as there was no denying, from my facial expressions, that one was referring to Diana Ross.  Barbra Streisand was tickled to the very soul. With that I took my leave of her and moved on.  I arrived at an area where I noticed that the narrow streets were becoming more crowded.  Lots of persons were headed for the main piazza where the performance was to have taken place.

*When I awoke and discovered that my head was not facing due north, I was though rather surprised.  More than that, I had not experienced residual fatigue or feelings of being psychically splayed.

Aristarchus Crater

**The portalled city, which I had intuitively deduced was on the Moon, would later be validated by the massive, lit, portal-like structure in the Moon’s Aristarchus Crater which had been photographed during NASA’s Apollo 11 mission to the Moon.  END.

Truly extraordinary an experience these astral-projected dreams were.  In the first dream, when I began walking down the street, the neighbour’s voice here in the waking state dropped off.

Now it was back in its loud, earnest, ignorance – so quintessentially low-life Jamaican.

***There is a definite tie-in between this dream and one dreamt years earlier.  The dream in question occurred on April 4, 1993.  As with that dream’s reference to Minerva – the mythic woman turned to stone – that persona was here animated as the dominatrix made of stone who unleashed the massive deadly creature into the portalled metropolis.

I believe both dreams to have been focussed on Luna, Earth’s Moon.  Though we Gaian humans are given to believe that it is a barren satellite, I rather suspect – from both these two dreams and others – that there are many extra-human civilisations which have been based on Luna for countless millennia many of which are still focussed there at present.  END.

Art Blakey & the Jazz Messengers Live San Remo Jazz Festival 1963

Art Blakey – Drums

Freddie Hubbard – Trumpet

Wayne Shorter – Tenor Saxophone

Cedar Walton – Piano

Curtis Fuller – Trombone

Reggie Workman – Bass

To the Moon & Hell with You – December 2023

Facsimile of Twin Earth City of Lemuria

One of the reasons for sharing the dream of Lemuria set on Twin Earth in January 2024, was that in late 2023, on 10th December, I had had a dream which was set there. In the dream, many of the major players would feature heavily in subsequent weeks. At the time of the dream, Harella, my mum, was present and served in the role of a guide to me as to what was unfolding in the dream. The dream was layered and it triggered dreams from many years earlier, which lay dormant until triggered during the dream. Harella and I were ensconced in a heavily peopled hall where most of whom were world famous persons.

We entered a millennia ancient structured hall, which vaguely resembled the entrance to London’s St. Paul’s Cathedral. This structure, though, was definitely not St. Paul’s Cathedral; it seemed much as if a temple though it was not. A large gathering place, for the most part, 9 of 10 persons recognised here were astral plane habitués. Present were HLM Queen Elizabeth II who was speaking to a man, whom Harella said was a trusted horse breeder associate of hers; clearly, he was Arab and had been rather wealthy when alive, the gold in his softly glowing, pine green kandura actually glimmered in the dimly diffused light of the massively cavernous hall. The Queen looked much as she had in the prophetic dream had of her on the eve of King Charles III’s 73rd birthday in November 2021; once again, The Queen appeared to be in her early 50s – she was neither wearing gloves nor carrying a handbag.

Off to the left, before we turned right on Harella’s direction, through an arch into another wing of the colossal structure, was the diminutive performer, Prince who here looked as regal and arrogant as he did in the above dream encounter from 1997. He stood in deep conversation with none other than the Princess of Wales, to which as an aside Harella whispered, “murdered.” The Princess of Wales wore a red version of the green off-the-shoulder gown that she wore to the state banquet in Jamaica whilst on the Platinum Jubilee royal tour of Jamaica in March, 2022.

Eldritch Library

Once through the arch, we were posited into a giant library where on the small, round café-style table, at which we sat, was a familiar sight which I had first dreamt of long before the turn of the century. That dream instrument, had in the ’90s, would yet be invented and become the familiar e-readers like the Kindle. Here as in the dream when first encountered, the e-readers were globular and looked like a crystal ball; however, they were lightweight rather than the hefty familiarity of a crystal ball that large. These e-readers were interesting and by now familiar to me, it was about five inches in diametre. You simply looked into the crystal ball-like globe and the book would come to life holographically. Though the moving images of the book would be fully animated and perfectly as though a hologram, its contents would never extend beyond the crystal ball’s spherical shell. Thus, whatever you were focussed on would be private to self and its contents imparted audio-visually. In that sense it was much like an audio book whose contents were exclusively shared telepathically with the reader.

As Harella is an astral habituée – she has since reincarnated, male and resides in London, England; however, as is standard, the astral body of any past incarnation endures eternally – she wanted to show me an animated book within the confines of the astral plane crystal ball-like e-reader that was of great importance. Obviously, for being in this massive library setting, we were poring through the Akashic records – though Harella never alluded to this being the case, it was not lost on me that this was so.

St. Paul’s Cathedral

As the animation of the globular e-book began, it readily triggered a dream had over 40 years earlier in November, 1980. I had just spoken to my father by phone to wish him happy birthday. Harella had been dead less than four months and I was concerned how he was doing. I then had the most lucid of dreams, which saw a most unusual bride and groom emerge from an otherworldly St. Paul’s Cathedral.

She wore a black wedding dress with heavy cowl, looking more like a gothic medieval bride rather than not. Her groom wore a golden metallic panoply with a horned helmet. Though a massive, millennia old version of St. Paul’s Cathedral, at the first landing of the stairs from the west front, there was large canal. This astral plane city was as if a mélange of London and Venice.

Santa Maria della Salute on the Grand Canal. Canaletto

As though they were leaving the Santa Maria della Salute on the Grand Canal, the couple entered a royal carriage which here was converted to a water-faring vessel with the usual horses fashioned into wooden white steeds that formed part of the carriage. Soon, they were off down the canal when I awoke, stirred by Devon initiating sexual play.

The book came alive, and showed the scene with which we are all familiar by now; it was that of Prince Charles’ young bride walking alone up the aisle at St. Paul’s to meet him; much as Meghan, the Duchess of Sussex had when first she was unaccompanied as she walked up the aisle at St. George’s Chapel Windsor to meet HRH Prince Charles, the Prince of Wales who escorted her to his son, Prince Harry. Here, Diana’s father, Edward Spencer, 8th Earl Spencer, at no point participated in the nuptials. The ceremony progressed and then Diana was walked further up the alter after her vows and instead of turning right to sign the registry, she and Prince Charles turned left and went through a massive arch which exists only in this colossal version of St. Paul’s Cathedral.

The young couple progressed down into the bowel of the astral plane copy of St. Paul’s Cathedral where here, it was a much deeper basement; this structure was millennia old and easily dwarfed its waking state counterpart by five times. Straight away, the couple were separated and a phalanx of women in flowing white robes took Diana, Princess of Wales away. When we saw her again, Diana was changed from her black wedding gown with cowl and wore a blindfold and was taken into a relatively small copula, for this massive structure, where there, she was disrobed and ritually bathed then taken away.

The globular book further unfolded as Diana then entered into a candlelit chamber where she walked accompanied by a female attended on each side. She now wore a red blindfold, red high heels and wore nothing save a sheer red veil that fell down to just above her ankles, covering her milky hued naked body. Candles encircled the large wooden bed draped in lavender linen; they were beeswax candles at least ten feet tall and looking much like a scene from Stanley Kubrick’s Eyes Wide Shut, from the lavender gothic room’s silhouetted periphery a lone man, wearing black panoply with horned helmet, emerged; his panoply was draped in a black robe. As he approached the Princess of Wales, the gothic room suddenly became flooded by moonlight with trees styled in the most ornate topiary of varying heights all around just beyond the tall gothic windows. Casting aside the robe with it the panoply disappeared, leaving the black horned helmet in place. The naked disguised man, then joined the supine Diana in bed.

Very methodically, he began ritualistically making love to her with great intensity. It was obvious that he had a job to perform. It was also obvious that it was not Prince Charles and that this event occurred within months of their marriage. As he walked away from the bed, where she remained, exhausted, he effortlessly removed the panoply’s horned helmet, revealing an unusually large skull. Still tumescent, he was hung. This man was, though, not readily familiar.

The man was older and taller than Prince Charles that much was certain. As the man retreated, he moved effortlessly through the gothic window pane and into the darkness of the extensive growth of topiary with giant firs and cedars beyond that encircled the bed chamber where the Princess of Wales remained; Diana then gathered the lavender bedding about her naked and ravaged body. The holographic book collapsed within the crystal ball-like e-reader at which Harella gestured for me to get up and simply stated, “Remember, the wedding and a birthday are the keys to everything… your friend was off the mark, nor was it by normal means.” Her words were so stark, the import of what she imparted, posed a riddle that had me immediately awaken in my Toronto apartment when Buster chirped as I came to. He watched me with those soulful eyes of his; little did I know that in less than three months, he would be dead. Indeed, in that short space of time, much would unfold and a riddle reveal itself.

Four Last Songs, Richard Strauss Jessye Norman 1979

*This music played on repeat whilst I slept dreaming in December 2023 in my trusty pyramid which I have used for 40 years now. Throughout the dream, Jessye Norman’s booming voice set the mood as she sang Richard Strauss’ Four Last Songs. It is a touchstone for me and it is always the surest way to have a dream of high spiritual moment on the astral plane. It was also playing on arriving home after an all night shift, before the dreams later that day in October, 1997, and shared earlier. Jessye was an old soul priest soul with the most glorious overleaves. Her mastery of her craft was unparalleled. Quite remarkably, Jessye Norman was a high-priestess who worked magic through music. This music has spirited me to astral plane flying dreams of the greatest lucidity, more so than any other recording. Certainly it kept me aloft on finding myself exquisitely alone in the world on Merlin’s passing. END.

Buster sleeping in pyramid

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On March 22, 2024 about an hour after Catherine, HRH the Princess of Wales announced via a video, which has since been revealed to have been AI generated, I had the most jaw-dropping epiphany. There was Catherine, announcing that she was undergoing chemotherapy for Cancer, after she was seen in that dream in December speaking to musical genius and astral plane habitué, Prince. I put my hand over my mouth, got from the pyramid – from which I never move on awaking, until the dreamtime’s cache are fully recalled – then quickly went to look at my formidable numerology database. Straight away, I yelled, “Bingo!” the riddle that my astral plane habitué mum, Harella, had set me, was finally drawn fully into focus.

“The wedding is the key!” That was what had me going over my discarnate mum’s carefully worded riddle. The wedding was not Charles and Diana’s, which was the focus of the lucid astral plane dream, it was William and Catherine’s. They were wedded on April 29, 2011, which happened to not have been the birthday of the Spanish King; besides, and he was not the man who walked away naked and tumescent from bed, having seeded Diana, Princess of Wales in that dream, in which I looked into the globular crystal ball-like e-book reader. As my mum, Harella, stated at least once a week my entire childhood, “There are no coincidences…” In the dream, Harella had given assurances that other allegations of William’s paternity were incorrect. This then requires that we rigorously review everything that to date we thought that we knew, through the new lens of someone else having played a most pivotal role in the transformation of the House of Windsor.

Richard Strauss Four Last Songs Jessye Norman Gewandhaus Orchester Leipzig Kurt Masur

This comes with the caveat that a review is based on the arcana gleaned in a rather lucid astral plane dream encounter with my departed mum, Harella, in December, 2023. This was an astral plane dream just as arcane and lucid as that which foreshadowed the passing of the The Queen, had on the eve of Prince Charles’ 73rd birthday; interestingly enough, the day of that dream, rather than listening to Jazz, I had intently listened to Jessye Norman, singing Strauss’ Four Last Songs. Without doubt, both totemic dreams were triggered by having listened to the towering artistry of astral plane habituée, Jessye Norman singing Strauss’ Four Last Songs prior to sleep.

William going to Jerusalem in 2018 and the London synagogue days after Thomas Kingston’s violent death, were the definitive clues. In both instances, William’s distinctively large cranium, wearing a kippah was remarkably unlike King Charles III’s. Indeed, could William’s discovery of the news of a death, the day after Thomas Kingston’s murder, have caused him to have pulled out within minutes of King Constantine II of Greece’s royal service of thanksgiving. Clearly, William had more important business to address the day of his late godfather, King Constantine II’s service.

William overcome with a tsunami of emotions: Catherine’s cancer, Thomas Kingston’s murder or suicide who will ever really know, the King’s cancer diagnosis being made public, no wonder he was literally falling apart, swaying on his feet and then dropping the pendant days later at an investiture in early February. William has a unique trait, apart from the large distinctive-looking and uniquely shaped cranium among Windsor men, he favours leaning his head to one side when sat or standing still.

Moreover, weeks before the service of thanksgiving for King Constantine II, there was William issuing a statement about the ongoing grievous slaughter in Gaza, which both shocked the world and caused many to state that it was not his place to get involved. Too, it has been William who has stated that he doesn’t feel himself particularly inclined to become the head of the Church of England in due course, which was quickly condemned by the much-loved late Christopher Hitchens’ brother, Peter Hitchens.

All that has happened before and after the Sussexes moved to America, has been William’s vicious, pernicious, racist, jealous, obsessive, focussed animus directing the House of Windsor campaign against the Sussexes. Funny, too, that a disproportionate number of persons with open animus towards Meghan have and continue to be Jewish; indeed, what do they know?

At the loss of the American colonies in the revolutionary war, and later the Napoleonic War, England was on the brink of bankruptcy. HM King George IV entered into a 200 year agreement. Naturally, as the agreement was coming to an end, it was quite possible for the future king, the then Prince Charles, to have agreed to new terms for that agreement’s continuation.

HM Queen Elizabeth II.

Since having had this dream, it turns out that Diana, Princess of Wales spoke of a key figure in question and was clearly wary of him as she dismissed him as a gossip; however, she also alluded to “the agreement” by emphatically stating that he was a very clever man. That, of course, would be his energy body of 2; very charming and chatty but also utterly deceitful and duplicitous. As much as I love reading, especially biographies, I will notoriously abandon any book before its conclusion if I find its contents making its way into the dreamtime. I quite value my dreams and I want when therein focussed, not to have my dreams corrupted by experiences absorbed from books, films or television. This just makes the dreams seem so inauthentic, so rather than not, I will more readily abandon any book if this occurs. I have pored through books about Diana, Princess of Wales but never finished any specifically for this reason. That is why, I was surprised when a friend shared what Diana had to say about the key figure in all this intrigue, in a biography, which in light of the revelatory dream with Harella makes perfect sense.

Diana was no one’s fool but having to rapidly swim, as she put it, she always fought back; Diana during her Panorama interview with BBC’s Martin Bashir displayed an intellect and shrewdness, which no one had ever attributed to her. She was a virgin bride who was used during renegotiation of an agreement; nonetheless, she was not a damn fool. This is why after the dream which divulged how she was used by Charles and his confidant to sire William and seal an agreement, she dashed herself down flights of stairs in a bid to abort a child that she was carrying to seal a deal.

What I think the deal involved, was Diana being artificially inseminated and possibly she was tricked into this by way of Charles, claiming to want a child but concerned about his inability to perform his duties. Once seeing a specialist about her viability to give birth, it may have been suggested that they try artificial insemination at which point, the subject of the dream rather than Charles’s sperm was used to ‘seed’ Diana. Seeding was the specific word used in the astral plane dream in December, 2023 and Harella then added that it was not by normal means; clearly, that would be either surrogacy or artificial insemination. In the dream wherein Diana was seeded, it was clearly set at Highgrove House, which would have been all too possible without The Queen knowing. A weekend away at Highgrove House, Diana inseminated after seemingly failed attempts without her realising that she was not being seeded by Charles. Obviously, Diana was genuinely pregnant at the time, so that rules out surrogacy.

Sarah Lamb & Steven McRae Romeo & Juliet death scene. Royal Ballet, 2015

In this probable reality, the artificial insemination likely did occur, the agreement was a business one and at that level of society as it was a soft hostile takeover. The artificial insemination option would have been like choosing a prize racehorse, say Secretariat, to sire desired offspring – and quite the stallion he appeared on walking away from the dream bed in which Diana was seeded. This would explain why Prince Harry rather than William looks like both a Spencer and Windsor. Naturally, when Diana made to further hamper the deal, by attempting to marry a Muslim, clearly, she was too naïve to know that could be interpreted as breaking a contract agreed to by Charles. So unacceptable would such a marriage be that someone connected to that agreement would not think twice about doing her in. Diana would clearly have known of the deal and breaking the contract, by starting a Moslem court of Fayed, came with consequences. Incidentally, not only like Diana is Dodi Fayed an artisan soul, he is also an entity mate of Diana’s. Dodi and Diana were more familiar to each other as their spectacular exit was the 27th incarnation where they were known to each other. Dodi and Diana two artisans are in entity 1, cadre 6, greater cadre 48 of pod 380. In that sense, Charles and Diana were relatively unfamiliar; Charles is in pod 404.

God only knows that Meghan entering the House of Windsor, which was gladly approved of by HM Queen Elizabeth II, who was likely only cognisant of Charles’ agreement after William’s birth, would have proven a gross insult to persons in Charles’ confidant’s sphere of influence. Moreover, the very shrewd, canny HM Queen Elizabeth II in affording her consent to the marriage of Harry & Meghan, was a rebuttal shot across the bow for how she was callously disregarded in late August, 1997. In the end, fully cognisant of what a true viper’s nest, where racial animus towards Meghan would never cease, Prince Harry made the right call and cleared out of Dodge. Who gives a rat’s ass about being the first Black, which therefore means that one has to stay there and take it; as time has shown, William & Catherine are two wholly unsavoury, vile racist boors who are not worth the waste of time. They will never change and as he was seeded; interloper William will never cease having a prejudicial view of Meghan and her Black heritage – he has been bred and groomed with certain expectations, which he clearly steadfastly adheres to. To fuck with that.

Princes Philip & Harry, The Queen, Doria, Meghan, the Duchess of Sussex & Prince Archie

As with Dodi and Diana being entity mates, let’s then look at other royals who are both entity and cadre mates. In the preceding photograph, all persons present are cadre mates save Prince Philip; Philip is a 4th mature warrior soul and in pod 408. The Queen, Prince Harry and Meghan are entity mates. There are anywhere from 800 to 1200 souls in an entity and there are seven entities in a cadre. Each entity will be represented by one if not all of the seven soul types, with each soul type corresponding to a number and the qualities associated with that number. The seven roles or soul types are: Slave/One, Artisan/Two, Warrior/Three, Scholar/Four, Sage/Five, Priest/Six and King/Seven. Seven cadres make up a greater cadre and there are 49 greater cadres in a pod. Seven is the highest number in the Michael Overleaves Teachings. The Queen, Harry & Meghan are in entity one or slave entity; this entity is focussed in being of service to the common good and both loyal and enduring. This is why The Queen stated at her start of her reign that she would be devoted, however long her life may be, to be in service as Queen. That she ably did. This too is why Harry/Warrior and Meghan/Artisan have pointedly stated that “Service is Universal.” Again, all three, The Queen, Harry and Meghan are in entity 1 of cadre 6, greater cadre 7, pod 418. The Queen was on her second incarnation as a third-level mature soul Slave. This is Prince Harry’s fourth life as a fifth-level mature Warrior soul. His entity mate and wife, Meghan, is a mid-cycle mature Artisan soul on her third life at mid-cycle, which is the gap between third and fourth-level mature soul – the only time this occurs in the soul cycles. This, incidentally, is the twenty-first incarnation wherein Harry and Meghan’s souls have gotten together. Each pairing they like other souls do not choose to be exclusively man and wife, they could have been parent/child, cousins, siblings, grandparent/grandchild, friends, enemies, business partners et al. Camilla is also living a mid-cycle mature life but she is a scholar soul and not in their pod but pod 129*. All persons in the preceding photograph are mature souls. Of them, Prince Archie is the oldest soul; he is a seventh-level mature priest soul and an entity mate of Prince George’s who is a fourth mature king soul – they are in entity five of cadre 6, greater cadre 7 of pod 418. Also, in the same cadre is Doria a fifth-level mature slave in entity 3 of the same cadre, 6. Your soul type and casting never change from life to life. There is no way that the Queen would not have welcome Meghan into her family. Evidence of that soul bond is gleaned in the Sussexes’ engagement interview when Prince Harry shared that Meghan walked in and The Queen’s corgis were approvingly tail-wagging at Meghan’s feet. Dogs can sense vibrational connections between souls as they can also see auras. The Queen’s corgis would have seen Meghan as a new family member.

Equestrian Portrait of King Charles V of Spain by Titian 1548 Museo Nacional del Prado

*129. Souls in pod 129 are: Queen Elizabeth, the Queen Mother, Shirley MacLaine, Barbra Streisand, Whoopi Goldberg, George Harrison, Queen Camilla, Titian, George Lucas, Georgia O’Keeffe, Stephen Hawking, Mikhail Baryshnikov, Marilyn Monroe, Robert Mapplethorpe, Amadeo Modigliani, Sidney Poitier, Stevie Wonder, Art Tatum, Charlie Parker and lots more. Incidentally, Titian was a seventh-level mature artisan soul, second life at that level and is a member of entity 2, cadre 4, greater cadre 1, pod 129.

Weeks before Diana, Princess of Wales’ contracted demise in Paris, I dreamt the most lucid dream, which was clearly set on the astral plane. Pandora and I were together and were alone in a large bedroom as Prince William, about 12 or thirteen years old in the dream in 1997, was curled up in bed asleep, wearing pyjamas. Diana, Princess of Wales stood with back to large window, alone and looked rather deep in though – as a matter of fact, she looked withdrawn. Absently, more so as an aside to self, rather than to us, Diana said, “I really hope that they don’t do anything to him.” I thought that it was so strange, even long weeks after the dream, I meditated on the meaning of the dream and wondered if it meant that William was a sickly child and as a result would be eliminated as he could never be deemed fit to become sovereign.

Astral Plane Metropolis

Diana then left the darkened bedroom and headed out into the street of the city, which was not remotely familiar, with Pandora and I in tow. I readily knew that this dream was set on the astral plane as the architecture here was vastly more colossal than anything in the waking state and seemed to be more millennia aged as compared to any structure in the waking state. This was a metropolis with a population well in excess of 10 billion, a city – rather than world – so populous a city that it could only mean that one was focussed on the astral plane. Of course, mere weeks later with Diana’s life violently cut short, I realised that the dream was of Diana, saying goodbye to William rather than him being sickly and likely to perish. William was so immensely fragile and vulnerable in the dream. At no point, during the dream did William awaken. Of course, Diana feared William being eliminated and not made Sovereign if his true heritage for having been seeded were to be discovered. Certainly, the Church of England would be both concerned and threatened; the church may well oppose any such interloper heir becoming their supreme governor.

HM Queen Elizabeth II

Harella also mentioned in passing, how good it was of me to have shared ‘far and wide’ the dream of The Queen’s homecoming in November 2021 before the fact as to have done so after the fact, would have been perceived as having serious credibility issues.

https://dreampoetica.com/2021/11/15/homecoming/

On awaking, I knew that I had to share that prophetic dream tout de suite as the astral plane dream was so immensely lucid and indicated that the The Queen was likely to pass in the near future.

Something Queer This Way Comes

Then on April 24, 2024, two days into Passover, this rather flagrant occult spectacle unfolded for six miles through the streets of London. Of course, the two horses were on a set course; fulfill their role in what seemed a flagrant course-altering of history, they most certainly did. In all the reign of HM Queen Elizabeth II’s 70 years as Sovereign never did so bold an occult spectacle ever unfold. That was not mere happenstance. Nothing is ever coincidental!

December 25, 2023 to June 1, 2024, it has now been 159 days since Catherine has not been seen. What has happened, has she run off and how if at all is this connected to Thomas Kingston’s violent demise? The supernova of rumours have caused the digital universe to spiral out of control. Something foul is afoot and there is no getting around that fact. Naturally, the Fleet Street abattoirs are seeking distraction by way of heaping on more abuse and lynching of Harry & Meghan, because well, they can. Is Catherine in hiding, refusing to a divorce and waiting for Charles to die, which automatically makes her Queen – especially so if Camilla’s favoured chatelaine in Norfolk has demanded a quick divorce so that she in time becomes Queen at William’s coronation rather than Catherine? Kensington Palace’s troop of Fleet Street fabulist are so patently offering fabulist tales of Catherine’s whereabouts, including being seen at the end of May walking about, yet positively no photograph has been produced of the event, when there are commoners everywhere with cameras ever at the ready. Why is there an obvious coverup afoot?

Something truly diabolical is afoot of late: shocking deaths, MIA royals and alleged cancers ravaging the House of Windsor. Of course, as the photo agency authorities have dismissed Kensington Palace: TRH Prince & Princess of Wales, chiefly William, of lacking integrity and credibility, nothing is to be believed anymore. This equine episode on April 24, 2024 for six miles through the streets of central London was saturated with occult symbolism. Of course, there was then a statement released that the bloodied white horse had a history of being readily spooked; however, at Horse Guards, the official entrance to Buckingham Palace, at the same time horses there were also uncharacteristically acting up. I don’t care how royals and their semi-feral fabulist troop of Fleet Street hacks lie, I am supremely convinced that Charles’ cancer is a cover for Catherine’s cancer, which is likely not cancer at all. Catherine, alas, may be very dead. As the royal’s social calendars go, expect their to be news of Catherine taking a turn for the worse and a funeral, after all these long months embalmed and hidden away, taking place in September after the Balmoral break and the royal calendar start up in earnest in October as has predictably always been the case.

Prince Harry in Theatre & Comments on Prince Williams’ Jealousy

Indeed, though the current vogue is to blame Meghan, and to a lesser degree, Harry for all that is going on in the House of Windsor, we need not lose sight of the fact that William & Catherine have been problematic from long before Meghan married in. What has evolved, is that the cabal of Fleet Street hacks have conspired to protect and present the Waleses as above reproach no matter what the evidence otherwise suggests.

Long before Meghan, that undesirable ‘Yank’ marrying in, William made it perfectly clear to American, Dave Clark that he did not approve of his relationship with his cousin, HRH Princess Beatrice of York, and he did not want him marrying into the House of Windsor. So adverse was William to Dave Clark’s existence that he refused to have him attend his wedding to Catherine as his cousin, Princess Beatrice’s plus one. Indeed, it was Prince William and not Prince Philip, the Duke of Edinburgh, who was against Sarah, Duchess of York attending the Cambridges’ wedding. Proof of that fact was borne out 7 years later at Prince Harry’s wedding, Prince Philip was then alive, and Sarah was an invited guest because it is what Harry wanted; it was not Prince Philip’s call to have made.

The best way to hide a secret is to keep it in plain view. And as we are well aware, the House of Windsor’s MO is slight of hand. They have steadfastly perpetuated, through their network of Fleet Street hacks and unofficially an approved troop of biographers, the lie that Prince Harry was James Hewitt’s child and even got Diana, Princess of Wales to go along with it, by revealing her affair with James Hewitt, though the affair between Diana, Princess of Wales and James Hewitt occurred two years after Prince Harry’s birth. But you have never once heard any such utterance or rumour about William’s paternity as that is too dangerous a secret to ever see the light of day.

Prince Charles & Barbra. Prince William & Barbra

From the earliest times, Charles’ confidant of immense wealth would have been the one to have facilitated the connection between Barbra Streisand & Prince Charles. Thus it was that Barbra was the one to have hosted the newly wedded William in Los Angeles when they visited after their first royal tour to Canada in July 2011. The event though hosted by the American wing of BAFTA in Los Angeles, was also about making sure that Barbra hosted Charles’ stepson’s coming out in Hollywood as the newly minted President of BAFTA.

Chelsea Hotel

I will always remember howling, long and hard, early in our relationship, one weekend that Merlin and I stayed at the storied Chelsea Hotel. Hello Dolly was on TV and I wanted to go watch it at Attila Isaksen’s Williamsburg apartment to which he had invited me; however, Merlin wanted to go 20 blocks uptown to Frederick Jones’s West 43rd Street townhouse. Merlin yelled at me to call off going to Brooklyn to watch damn TV as he considered Barbra a fraud. “Come on, you don’t for a second think that there was a tie, do you? I mean, just maybe, I could contemplate a possible tie between her and Shelley the fuck Winters, but are you kidding me, Katharine Hepburn and her getting matching number of votes? It’s a travesty. She did not win that award fair and square!” I remained silent, looking out the window of the checker cab as we sailed up 8th Avenue en route to Frederick’s. “Come on… stop pouting and look at me…” He negotiated with a kiss on the left cheek, the tickle of his beard so arousing that I abruptly turned and began the delicious face-fucking that we readily, perpetually indulged.

The Queen Dismisses Venal William & his Toxic Wife

As The Queen was no one’s fool, she was keenly aware of the duplicitous games and racist campaign directed by William and Catherine, to which she openly aired her displeasure by brushing them off at Christmas 2020 at Windsor Castle during Covid and after the Sussexes were effectively ousted by the venal cancerous racist senior royals Charles and William and their spouses. So then let’s go through all the ways in which William & his venal, cancerous wife engaged in their racist campaign against Meghan, and Harry too. Not to be outdone were they, of course, by Charles & Camilla.

Christmas Day, 2019 Sandringham Estate

William makes no effort to disguise his revulsion at Meghan when she turned around to say something to him, whereupon he simply stepped back and scowled as though he smelt shit. By this point, Christmas Day, 2018, Meghan is pregnant with Prince Archie and she and Harry had completed their first royal tour which proved a success. Also, by this point, William and Catherine had planted the character assassinating story with Camilla Tominey, in the Daily Telegraph, in which she speciously alleged that Meghan had made Catherine cry. The reason for doing this, is that no matter what, the principal royals, who are in line to be sovereign and heir with their spouses, are never faulted for anything and will be defended to the hilt. Thus, it was the perfect coup, Meghan is marrying in, she is both a Yank & Black, which made her even more otiose and dangerous than Wallis Simpson.

*I am visible in the YouTube screen capture with the red line passing at the back of my head and just below my right ear as I craned up looking at the balcony whereat Meghan, the Duchess of Sussex stood with the German President’s wife.

As I stood in Whitehall on Remembrance Sunday for the 100th anniversary of Armistice Day, I had never felt so overcome with fear and dread before. Positively everyone around me spoke negatively about Meghan. To that point, Camilla Tominey’s character assassination planted lie ‘Meghan Made Catherine Cry’ had yet to appear. Meghan was called that Yank. She was openly ridiculed with lots of laughter when someone said that she would likely appear at the window, wearing white dress, hat and gloves. The racist remarks are not worth repeating here. All this whilst Meghan was pregnant with Prince Archie. Prince Harry was stood feet away in front of me; however, I never saw him, so tall were the bearskin hats worn by the guards two rows deep and ahead of a row of regular soldiers and a line of Metropolitan police officers who kept a keen eye on the crowds.

Just as he bullied and had his way at Pippa, Catherine’s sister’s wedding, William also saw to it that his interference meant that Meghan would be blocked from attending the Middleton-Matthews wedding. William & Catherine are possessed of 9 in their numerology and it is about being intransigent, conceited, racist, stubborn, faultfinding and shit-disturbing. Of course, William’s dubious paternity is reason enough to see why he would be so vehemently opposed to Meghan becoming a member of the House of Windsor, which for all intents based on the arcana gleaned in the lucid dream with Harella in December 2023, will shortly cease being the House of Windsor – indeed, always playing the long game.

This would, of course, explain why his best friend and royal relative took a wife who, though non-traditional, at least was infinitely more favourable than Harry taking a non-traditional and most undesirable wife. That relative’s mum, baroness Marie-Christine, was not shy about currying favour with princes Charles and William by wearing the blackamoor brooch. What did she care, HM Queen Elizabeth II was on her way out and it would only be a matter of time before William would be king and the tide truly turned. Indeed, no doubt that as part of the long-term strategy of acclimatising the public towards an eventual end of House of Windsor, was William’s closest royal friend, Lord Frederick Windsor taking a favourable non-traditional wife by way of actor, Sophie Winkleman. Baroness Marie-Christine knew that there would never be offence taken by Charles and William at her sporting the blackamoor brooch to Meghan’s first royal outing, The Queen’s Christmas lunch of 2017 at Buckingham Palace.

Just look at the most handsome member of his generation from the House of Windsor, James Ogilvy, sat behind baroness Marie-Christine and her husband, the day after their son-in-law was clearly murdered. Though fake as all fuck, baroness Marie-Christine copped hauteur, but James looked as though he had been to hell and back, at least on the astral plane. However, he was sat there, well aware that this was no dream, Thomas was murdered, William was missing, obviously owing to another important passing. All this meant that ‘Ella’ was being returned to baroness Marie-Christine still childless, a spinster and now a newly minted widow. Though Prince Michael of Kent has always been admirable, there is no way to gloss over the fact that baroness Marie-Christine is as rough as a backstairs whore and just as racist! A mere three months on from Thomas Kingston’s murder and just look at how massively the elegant Prince Michael of Kent has aged with vastly compromised mobility as he turned up at the Chelsea Flower Show in May, 2024. Indeed, the backstairs thug recently declined the invitation from King Tampon himself to attend a Buckingham Palace garden party; one is clearly not done with being pissed off about the coverup of Thomas’ demise – oh just go write a tell-all already! That’s right toots, karma does exist and there are repercussions for thinking that anti-Black racism is racy sport. Honest to god, when in The Queen’s long reign did this sort of vulgar schadenfreude come so fast and so loose?

Magnolia blooms

In the early days of our relationship, spent in Manhattan, Merlin opened up and shared a deeply disturbing episode from his childhood. We had been at a social gathering which being theatre folk, was for him always professional. There was an actress there who ridiculously kept turning and blowing cigarette smoke in my face. At one point, I spat on her which caused no end of upheaval at the gathering. Soon, Merlin abruptly took leave with me in tow. As we rode down 7th Avenue, Merlin laid down the law, under no circumstances was I to behave that way again. According to him that woman was Jewish and could have me thrown in jail for no good reason. I made it perfectly clear to Merlin that though I was prepared to tolerate his cigarette smoking, as a rule, I abhorred the smell and practice. Merlin tried to assure me that I was being baited by the woman and that she was deliberately blowing smoke in my face because I was Black and she did not approve of my existence. It was so terribly gauche to my upbringing to be related to in this way.

36 Servington Crescent

According to Merlin, on his deathbed his grandfather commanded his father, to go out and buy a new house with separate bedrooms for him and his wife, with the promise that he would never sleep with his wife, Merlin’s mum, again. Merlin’s mum was of Irish heritage which was wholly unacceptable for his paternal grandfather. More disturbing, as Merlin wept quietly, each time that he was presented to his paternal grandfather, he was spat at or on and dismissed as a freak, all because his Polish Ashkenazi grandfather could not forgive his son, doing ‘that’ to him. As a result, Merlin went out and purchased a tree so that each Spring the showy magnolia bloom – one of the earliest each year – would be a source of inspiration just outside his mum’s bedroom window as she was never allowed to sleep in the same bed with her husband again. My response to Merlin was that his father should have taken the pillow and suffocated his father after spitting in his face for having repeatedly spat on his beloved son, Merlin and insulted his wife. Thereafter, I always had great empathy for Merlin’s dad and we enjoyed a close bond, which grew closer when Merlin was diagnosed with full-blown AIDS.

Charlestown, Nevis with blooming flamboyant tree

In March, 1989 with Merlin returned from hospitalisation at St. Michael’s Hospital, I went to Nevis for a break with Pandora joining me from Paris, at one point, I flew into St. Croix, U.S.V.I to visit my adorable aunt, who was the most regal of souls. On my return, Merlin and I spent hours poring through the developed photographs from my trip. He was thrilled to see the photos of the Jewish cemetery and dilapidated synagogue in Charlestown, Nevis. What intrigued him even more was the family photo of my mum’s father, a copy of which I had secured from my aunt in St. Croix. Merlin was convinced that my mum’s dad had to have been of Jewish heritage. Of course, that was the case, Merlin stated that if they were Portuguese by way of Brazil then they would have been Sephardic. “My god that would make you even more Jewish than me…” I made Merlin swear never to tell anyone as I frankly did not want persons in his life suddenly changing their behaviour towards me. In particular, as per that New York incident, there was one Ashkenazi Jew in particular who was always keen to blow cigarette smoke in my direction; she eventually was banned from our Cabbagetown home. It has been my experience that Ashkenazi Jews are alarmingly anti-Black racist in the extreme.

Princes Harry & William

Though both men went to great lengths to never be photographed together, why pray tell does William look so like the man in that revelatory dream? Cranium, lower lip, mouth, teeth, smiles, bone structure & nostrils all nicely match. William’s balding pattern mirrors the man in that dream as well. There are no coincidences. Once entered into this deal, which I believe was strictly between Charles and his confidant, what could The Queen have done? Positively nothing. Under no circumstances did The Queen want a possible constitutional crisis during her reign, coming so close after the one which saw King Edward VIII abdicate in favour of her father, King George VI. There is nothing that they could have done to William without swift repercussions from that entity or others in his sphere. That is why when Diana came to no good end, Charles wailed as he did on seeing her body in the Paris hospital. He had made a deal with his master and when Diana provoked his wrath, by wanting to start a parallel court with Dodi, a Moslem, she was swiftly, coldly removed from the scene.

Recently, I went off to look at the graduating student exhibition at OCADU – Ontario College of Art & Design University; back in the ’80s, I modelled there and elsewhere for George Hawken and others. Annually, George and I went on the Sunday afternoon to catch the show; it was always humorous to listen to his critiques of some students’ works – bored, rudderless middle class snobs without a fucking clue.’ Of course, at the time, he lived down McCaul just above Queen Street West and there we would retire and indulge in more wanton salaciousness. This time, I attended with Pandora and we rather enjoyed ourselves though retreated to the AGO where I found a vegan leather *eye roll whatever the fuck next* wallet with snazzy Haida motif. I got home having discovered two awesome Palestinian-Canadian grad students focussed in the graphic and environmental design worlds, turned on the TV to have this blasted little smug talking head on CP24 announce the latest on the Israel-Hamas war. Are you fucking kidding me? Where are the Palestinian tanks, fighter jets, military; a war involves combatants moderately, equally armed and on somewhat equal footing. America and others afford Ukraine military arms to assist in its war declared by Russia. Who the hell then is affording Palestinians arms, if it truly is a war between Israel and Palestinians? Soon, I was out the door again, into the Gay Village where I grabbed a few boxes of Craig’s Cookies on Church Street, A1C be damned. The fucking idiocy of everyone not having an opinion for fear of… fuck forget being cancelled, more like annihilated.

Merch of Jonathan Yeo’s King Charles III Portrait

You know, I may not have 50 friends to send a King Tampon mug, but I sure as hell will be sharing a few of these mugs, come Christmas, stuffed with tampons. I have never been described as humourless!

The ever radiant, Diana, Princess of Wales

Just think of the power and arrogance of a man who sired a royal heir once displeased with Diana, Princess of Wales being entangled with Dodi Fayed, a Moslem. With swift expediency, Diana was removed; she was assassinated. Of course, when you review all the facts that have lurked just below the surface, ‘the establishment’ Dodi’s dad relentlessly referred to Diana & his son’s assassination – Diana’s fourth number was 7, three things always stood out. Why did Charles wail as he did on seeing Diana’s exterminated body in Paris? Certainly, Charles had not envisioned Diana’s sacrifice for having made a deal with his confidant, albeit likely indirectly connected to said confidant. Furthermore, why did the royals remain at Balmoral as long they did? They were in shock; this was not something that they had either envisioned or sanctioned. This left, The Queen, in particular, acutely aware of their vulnerability. Then, too, there was William’s reaction at Balmoral. Suddenly, he went missing and was unaccounted for. He must then have been approached by his ‘handler’ and Charles’ confidant to be given a stiff talking to and told of his role. Also, was he then told of his true heritage, if Diana had not previously told him?

The Queen’s address at the passing of Diana, Princess of Wales

Suddenly, heavy indeed was the crown. With Diana’s assassination, The Queen was made aware that her power was strictly ceremonial; the real power lay at the feet of her son’s confidant. Indeed, not only was the agreement readdressed, it was sealed with William’s birth. There was a very real and definite threat to The Queen and anyone else with regard’s William’s safety and wellbeing. Too, The Queen knew that any hushed whispers of who gave the order to have Diana removed, would be squarely focussed in her direction. Indeed, after Diana, Princess of Wales’ assassination, there could be no doubt who wielded true power. With Diana, Princess of Wales’ assassination, the House of Windsor had effectively ended. There could be no greater clue to that transition to mark the end of the House of Windsor than 13.5 years later, with Catherine wearing the assassinated Diana’s ring, William would be wedded on both the feast day of St. Catherine of Siena and a rather pivotal character’s birthday. That day effectively marked the end of the House of Windsor. A coup was affected across social and cultural lines without so much as a single shot having been fired on August 31, 1997 – or at least that we know of. And just as with Jesus, Diana had two sacrificial deaths alongside hers as she was a modern day sacrifice to herald the dawn of a new royal house.

The Queen & Prince Philip riding up the Mall on return from Balmoral after Diana’s Assassination

Just imagine what it was like for The Queen to have returned to London from Balmoral, knowing quite well that the little people hadn’t a clue of what was truly going on. Indeed, much like Meghan being blamed for Catherine having made her cry, the Queen became a crucible for people’s rage at Diana’s assassination, when she did not, in fact, give the order to have William’s – who was truly her step-grandson – mother, Diana, Princess of Wales, assassinated. Also, think of the exquisite fear that suddenly befell The Queen because she too could at anytime be removed, thanks to the colossal power of Charles’ confidant.

Of course, Charles’ confidant was quite confident that regardless how long The Queen lived, she would never be around for Prince George’s marriage at which point, William would have been stridently groomed to see to it that George took no ordinary bride, thereby effectively achieving the confidant’s long range objective. Well, the one thing that The Queen was not, was unaware; shrewd to the very end, she made sure that Prince Harry, whom for obvious reasons she favoured over William, had a grand wedding. Too, to protect her vision, she threw the wedding within the confines of Windsor Castle where there was little chance of anything disastrous unfolding as previously with Diana, Princess of Wales almost twenty-one years earlier. Look at William & Charles’ rude display at Prince Harry’s wedding, openly ridiculing Harry’s wife and her culture. Interestingly enough, not once did Prince Andrew betray this open animus towards his nephew and his Black wife’s culture.

So there were Charles, Camilla, William and Catherine sat across the quire from TV professionals whose job it is, to stage and rigorously read every nuance of human behaviour, as the senior royals openly ridiculed Meghan, her friends and colleagues, and her culture.

As rightly can be expected, The Queen & Prince Philip sat there dignified and decorous as is befitting. They were sufficiently aware and human that they did not engage in petty, racist behaviour, banter and open ridicule which was plain for the world to see from other senior royals. Not once did Prince Andrew engage in this vulgar, uncouth racist display; for that much, he is to be commended. Sat there was Andrew both aware of the optics and clearly appalled at his brother Prince Charles & nephew Prince William’s behaviour and, of course, not the least bit surprised that their spouses would shadow their open racism. Andrew ought to turn on them and write his own damn palace exposé.

As at Prince Harry’s wedding, there too were Camilla & Charles openly ridiculing non-Whites whilst Inuit throat singers performed as they represented HM The Queen on royal tour to Canada. Just look at that ugly backstairs cocksucker, sat there before the Canadian flag, dismissing a noble people and their culture; she is as fucking ugly as she is uncouth. He, of course, is ever a petty, nasty little blood-soaked tampon… the blasted fool. Naturally, Catherine, Camilla, Charles & William are as vile as they are for having been enthralled at the court of the real King, Charles’ rather powerful confidant.

So after having dispensed with Diana, Princess of Wales, her firstborn ‘the plant’ declares his allegiance by marrying Catherine on the feast day of St. Catherine of Siena and another’s birthday. Of course, as this is all covert and one is ever onlooking from the sidelines, the confidant was nowhere to be seen at said wedding. After all, he was not expected to attend the most important society wedding, royals or not as the Windsors are not wealthier than him.

HM King Charles III

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Spike Milligan British Comedy Awards Jonathan Ross 1994

At long last, the little grovelling bastard, King Tampon irreverently realised as he truly is, lord of all Hades most debauched bathhouse. Clueless as all fuck, he is finally at home where positively no one gives two fucks, much as now. Sold off the House of Windsor, yet still scrounged around for bags of cash. A right racist boor and a damn fool to boot his entire life. Immolating before our very eyes. An empty, indulgent life; fat little grasping fingers ravaged and ravenous by the same debauched proclivities as his cohorts Gary and Jimmy. Ready to rage is he, because finally acceded the throne, he is as charisma-challenged as a bored, fatigued koala. For what it’s worth, Jonathan Yeo is a sixth-level mature scholar soul (fourth life at current soul age) and an entity mate of seventh-level mature warrior soul, King Charles III. They are both members of entity 4, cadre 4, greater cadre 16, pod 404.

Nicolas Le Riche – Bolero de Maurice Béjart L’Opéra de Paris

What Charles is doing to Harry is not different to every bigoted/prejudiced parent, who disowns and rejects their son because that son comes out as Gay, openly takes a male lover then marries that male lover. There was so much expectation of what their son was supposed to have become and for Charles, Harry going off and taking a Black wife, Meghan, and starting a family with her – two beautiful children, was clearly as much a betrayal for Charles as if Prince Harry had come out as Gay, gone off and taken a male lover and wedded him.

It was simply not acceptable for Charles, William and Britons at large. Charles has secretly despised Blacks his life long and then, as his racist psyche perceives the situation, his son, Prince Harry, does this to him. Indeed, a son who his life long clearly experienced the open racist conversations and attitudes towards Blacks from his father and others within the royal family – how could Harry not have been exposed to this racial animus towards Blacks? As far as they are concerned: Charles, Camilla, William and Catherine, Harry has rebelled – at least as they see it, never mind that he and Meghan have a strong past-life history together – against their ugly ignorance and racist bigotry!

It is fairly obvious how deep was the gaslighting, abuse and control that Charles & William exercised over Harry. Just look at the photographs in SPARE of Nottingham Cottage where Harry lived prior to and briefly after marrying Meghan; it’s a shockingly horrid dive. This explains why Harry keeps going back to England, to family. Of course, Meghan never interferes, she lets him go back, each time knowing that he is one visit closer to saying, “To fuck with it, I am done with these people; I’ve a family of my own.” Obviously, Harry knows this, but emotional and mental abuse are more addictive than any drug going. Apart from the House of Windsor, Prince Harry has the House of Spencer in England to keep him grounded, loved and supported; he can always return for the sake of his children, knowing their English heritage, by favouring the Spencers rather than Windsors.

Tango. Rudolf Nureyev & Sir Anthony Dowell Valentino

So in order to spite Harry whilst in London for the Invictus Games’ 10th anniversary service of thanksgiving, what does he do, King Tampon gets together with a high profile personality who since attending Harry’s wedding, has clearly taken sides. It is obvious where Charles’ favoured guest stands as a family friend with a retarded sibling likes yapping like the bipedal chihuahua that she is at Meghan’s expense. Never forget that William and Charles are also possessed of fourth number of 5, which is all about sexual scandal, sexual infamy, sexual debauchery, sexual perversion and sexual addiction. Andrew, too, is possessed of fourth number of 5 and we all know how that’s turned out for him. As the numerology deftly betrays and as the photos and video above validate, a picture never lies; smoke and mirrors are the preferred MO every damn time.

These are the rarefied zones where the worlds truly closeted famous persons let their hair down. These men are always well-guarded. They are usually family men who seemingly never have many friends beyond the family and are rarely photographed hanging with other men and they can never be perceived as a man’s man. The wife and kids give good cover. Away from all that, their debauchery and real passions are reserved for the guarded privacy of yachts, private planes and private islands where the paparazzi, the little people and media have no access. Most of these closeted men were expertly groomed from the word go and though not exclusively so, they usually hail from the worlds of sports and entertainment; they’ve got talent, they were of modest means and were hungry for it all. Fame always comes at a price. This arrangement is as old as time itself. Some break out of the mould and don’t give a damn who may know nor do they care, like the late George Michael. Overwhelmingly, for 95 percent of these persons, there is a veneer of their fluidity just below the surface; however, ever they remain guarded and living in utter fear. Of course, in dreams there are neither secrets nor lies and since human civilisation occupies but one planet in one star system, my life long, I’ve gleaned a galaxy of truth in dreams of inordinate lucidity.

L’Après midi d’un Faune – Rudolf Nureyev

One such person, I know of. He was a lover of Merlin’s who preceded me by four others. He is a movie star, not an Oscar winner, but a household name the world over. I have seen the amorous photos of him with Merlin, with the lover of Merlin’s with whom he ran off and of them both in various stages of passion and tumescence. It is all very sad really because truth be told, humans are just that… humans. No one is male or female; you are a soul incarnate and you will connect with those with whom you’ve shared intense and frequent past lives passed in a positive mode. Based on numerology, it would be bizarre if some persons did not find the time to connect; it is a dance of spirits, vibrations harmonising and it can never, once consensual, be a negative thing, provided there is no control and intimidation involved. But alas, when money – big money, I might add – is involved, you’d better damn well believe that every effort will be made to live the most closeted and guarded, fear-plagued existence.   

Therein lies the crux of the matter, though homoerotic in essence – 5 in the fourth position, Charles & William are dead set against Harry having taken a Black wife, Meghan, because this is the rage of far too many White Gays everywhere; they secretly detest Black women – whether these men are fathers, closeted and with all that miserable angst, or all out Queer, they overwhelmingly do not like Black women. They are profoundly racist, though, they will be the first to most vehemently deny this fact. I remember an evening with Merlin & I at Frederick Jones and his Puerto Rican lover at this Hell’s Kitchen home on West 43rd Street. Frederick stated whilst guzzling god-only-knows which glass of liquor that day that White Gays hated Black women because “they don’t have motherfucking big black dicks…”

Tallis: If Ye Love Me · Choir of St George’s Chapel, Windsor Castle

In less than two short years, since The Queen’s departure, so much has happened and none of it either edifying or constructive for those she left in charge of the firm. Meghan was supremely astute and had the greatest counsel, that is what the baby shower in New York City was about in February, 2019 – just look at who attended: Serena Williams, Abigail Spencer, Misha Nonoo-Hess, Amal Clooney, Gayle King. All these women were trusted and part of Meghan’s inner sanctum. Amal would give superior advise, Gayle would be a liaison for Oprah. Being a senior working royal clearly was a hellish experience for Meghan and her support network needed to see her. There is no way that Serena was going to let Meghan perish. Meghan, and Harry, had to take leave of that racially predatory environment, the firm.

Milonia Caesonia, Caligula II, Peggalicious & Expendable

The crown prince & his heir needed Harry and Meghan to be around to play their roles within the pantomime, the perpetually scorned scapegoats. However, knowing that The Queen hadn’t much longer to live, Caligula II & quadrant mates knew that it was better to expel Harry & Meghan sooner rather than after The Queen’s imminent demise. In that way, The Queen, who is never faulted, can be seen to have dispensed with the Sussexes and clear the racist boors of culpability. Crucial in all of this was Harry’s account in his memoir, SPARE, of what occurred at the Sandringham Summit. Knowing that she was not long for this world, The Queen remained silent throughout the tense meeting; thereby, she betrayed her support for Harry and Meghan and in having chosen to not become engaged in the proceedings, she was letting the Sussexes know that this was not her doing. Thusly, The Queen exposed Caligula II & the seeded, pegged and bothered, racist boor as the architects of the racist expulsion of the Sussexes.

Harry, Guy & Meghan

What has since transpired is that Meghan has made a man and father of Harry; they have a beautiful family, are far removed from the racist boors, who haunt the kingdom that HM Queen Elizabeth II, greatest Sovereign of the last half millennium, departed. The mess that her two immediate successors have created may well not be reparable with George’s reign…

Tina Brown on Sussexes Nigerian Tour

Listen to Tina Brown having to eat her words. This same woman wrote The Palace Papers and in all those pages, there was not a single mention of the blackamoor brooch incident. The Briton who’s earned her fame and fortune in America, deceptively sought to prosecute the notion that the royals aren’t racist and that Britons aren’t racist. How is it even possible to write about the reason for The Queen’s grandson and his Black wife having to leave the royal family without so much as mentioning race. Post-colonial Britain and its White citizens are ever ready to deny their history, however, facts do not tolerate fictions. The Sussexes have left and are thriving, doing marvellously well, successful and no amount of at this late hour admitting that Harry & Meghan’s departure was a tragic loss for the firm, changes anything. The four principals: Charles, Camilla, William and Catherine will never change nor will they ever admit to having been racist towards Meghan – goodness they are still cowardly sniping from the wings through the fabulist, race-baiting troop of Fleet Street hacks of theirs.

Catherine, William, Meghan & Harry at Westminster Hall bidding farewell to The Queen

My, but I love this rather poignant photograph; it perfectly captures the end of the reign of HM Queen Elizabeth II. With that deeply respectful, elegant curtsey and Harry’s dignified bow, Meghan was saying goodbye to The Queen. More importantly, Meghan was saying Adieu to the island kingdom and her husband Prince Harry’s family. Meghan has proven since then that it is ill-advised to disrespect and play a Black woman for a fool. She will never return to Britain and be seen curtseying to Charles and his ugly beard, Camilla. Most definitely, she will never bow to that violent racist boor, William and his cancerous wife, Catherine – his racially predatory vindictiveness cost her and Harry the life of a child. This bid on the part of the left-behind royals to have their troop of Fleet Street hacks float the idea that Harry & Meghan need to apologise, shows how blindly conceited Whites, as opposed to Caucasians, are. At this stage, if Charles were to apologise to Harry and Meghan in a Christmas message, it would change nothing. Meghan will never set foot in Britain again to suffer the indignity of having to bow to racist boors who are neither worth her time nor knowing in any capacity. Meghan is an American, a Black America; she knows her worth.

As the Invictus Games and Archewell Foundation tour of Nigeria proved, Harry & Meghan do not a racist island kingdom need. Quite simply, the world is their realm.

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Herbie Hancock – Piano

Dexter Gordon – Tenor Saxophone

Billy Higgins – Drums, Percussion

Freddie Hubbard – Trumpet

Butch Warren – Double Bass

I will always remember my mum, Harella, dancing in the living room of our St. Kitts home to this Jazz masterpiece. She was being taken higher, truly inspired. One of my greatest memories in the early 1970s.

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You are to Jazz what wings are to an ostrich; what the fuck do eagles care that queer, unaware ostriches have wings?

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© 2013-2025 Arvin da Brgha.  All Rights Reserved.

Lesson In Older Soul Lovemaking.

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So, on Friday, November 3, 1995, as the gibbous Moon waxed in Pisces – measurably drifting across my tenth house – I would dream this dream which concerned the dynamic between both Merlin and Oleg. 

*For the record, Oleg in a previous incarnation was the English writer, Charlotte Bronte.  END.  

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A house that much reminded me of the one in Crab Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts proved the setting for this most potent dream.  There were five of us here; although, one person’s identity now eludes me.  There in the living room, seated on the blue sofa of our Crab Hill home, was Merlin with his back to the north.  Directly behind him was the five-foot oblong mirror; it was hung against the living room’s wall.  On the other side of that wall, in the waking sate, was Harella’s bedroom.

Here in the dreamtime, which was definitely astral plane in focus, the living room was elongated; it was more oblong-shaped, along a north-south axis.  Merlin’s right side was closer to the veranda and the main road with the McHughs across the road.  Across the room from me, with her back to the street and facing due east, was Gita Gurucharan – Oberon Samuelson’s lovely wife and mother to miracle worker extraordinaire, Vijayalakshmi Gurucharan.  Oleg de Brontë was seated directly opposite Merlin.  There was a man, to my immediate left, who sat directly opposite Gita.  Whilst I was closer to Merlin than anyone in the room, I was not however sharing the sofa with him.

Abruptly, Merlin got up and took his leave of us.  He went into Harella’s bedroom.  The others had dropped by to visit.  It was clear, early on, that Merlin simply wasn’t into it.  There was strain to the social dynamic which Merlin put an end to – he rudely took his leave of us.  This was so unlike his former self during his recently-concluded incarnation.  Yet, I fully understood where he was coming from.  Whilst being in the soul state, he was now more so his true self.  This gathering of persons represented the past to him, which at this point, clearly served no interest for him.

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I then got up and stood next to Gita who was on my right.  After Merlin rudely took his leave of us, we had all silently gotten up.  To say the least, it was awkward.  As we faced towards the dining room, our backs were now to the veranda.  Filling the void that Merlin’s departure had created, Gita and I began making conversation.  To say the least, it was a strained, canned affair.  Here, I was keenly aware of how much I am dismissed as a social misfit.  I was aware that these were persons who had long ago decided that I was not the swiftest of souls – I don’t indulge in clever repartee and such plastic aggressiveness when socialising.

The Black man then came over; he was tall and handsome with a gorgeously mesomorphic body.  He stood to my left, directly facing Gita, and began talking.  There were a lot of pauses here; they were trying to get me to shove off by firmly excluding me.  Finally, I dryly said, “Well, I’m going to go and see how my man is doing.”

I then walked between the chairs, on which Oleg and the Black man sat, as though heading for the boys’ bedroom rather than Harella’s to which Merlin had retreated.  I then, however, made an abrupt turn left going instead through the door from the living room to Harella’s bedroom.  On entering the bedroom, I saw that Merlin was lying in the girls’ bedroom next-door.  Merlin seemed as though asleep.  He did look as though ill with full-blown AIDS.  It was not, however, distressing to have seen him thus; I was lucidly awakened here.

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Initially, when out in the living room, Merlin looked robust and even leaned towards a robust, mesomorphic body type.  It was clear though that having to visit with these persons, from the past, had very much so enervated his spirits.  Rather than sit there interminably, enduring what was an unpleasant situation for him, he thankfully had taken refuge when he had.  On drawing closer to him, I gently caressed his face – all the while thinking of how difficult this was for him.  I wanted to share some of my energies with him; I wanted to restore his.  The vibrations from the living room, however, were distracting.

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After excusing myself from Merlin, I returned to the living room.  Immediately, I dramatically shifted personae and became rude.  I told them to sit down, at which point, we all did.  Oleg then got up after awhile; he was holding a long-necked, brown beer bottle.  There were three empty identical ones on the floor and next to his chair.  There was no mistaking the fact that he was drunk.

‘Who the hell gets drunk on the astral plane anyway?’

Oleg wore a woollen jacket that was dark and nondescript.  Incidentally, on my return, the Black man was no longer present.  In his place was a White man with the same physical description; he came over trying to save face.  The unfamiliar man charmingly suggested that it was time that they pushed off.  Oleg had gotten very drunk indeed; he was not at all being belligerent.  It turned out that Oleg had gotten emotionally distraught – about Merlin’s condition; he was upset at the way that things had turned out between them.  The fact that things were unresolved between them, at the end of Merlin’s last life, caused Oleg a great deal of distress.

He did not know how else to deal with it; thus, Oleg got miserably drunk.  I wanted to be of solace to Oleg, however, since my energies were already committed to being with Merlin that option proved a nonstarter.  Clearly, Gita and the other man had been there to try and broker some sort of peace between Oleg and Merlin.  Obviously, Merlin was not up to it.  At one point, I had actually headed to the dining room and called back to Oleg.  My voice rang out as I asked Oleg if he wanted another beer.

This was the point at which the unfamiliar White man had interrupted and declined the offer; instead, he suggested that they take their leave of Merlin and me.  Oleg, of course, was inclined to take another drink.  I did not like my role here – that of keeping Oleg grounded by drink.  Certainly, it did give the impression that I was trying to block any resolution or any communion between both him and Merlin.  Although, to be honest, Oleg had begun drinking after Merlin had left the room.  It was quite embarrassing really.  Oleg could hardly get up – let alone stand on his own.

The man had had to rush to Oleg’s aid.  Like Merlin in the bedroom, Oleg was completely enervated though he had used alcohol to drown his pain.  Oleg was devastated that Merlin was not going to return.  More importantly, Oleg knew that Merlin had positively no intentions of suffering him for a minute.  The man threw his arms about Oleg and braced him up.  More than that, he was fortifying his very spirit.

Again, I took my leave of them in the living room and headed back for Merlin.  However, I did not spend time visiting with Merlin.  On returning to the bedroom, I got a long, black, woollen evening coat.  It was rather expensive and cut close to the body.  Bearing the coat, I returned to the living room where I insisted that Oleg take it to stay warm.  For not realising that he had been drinking to excess, I had felt badly.  He was truly distraught; nothing pained me more than seeing this truly beautiful man’s spirit in disrepair.

Whilst his White friend got him into the coat, I stood in back of a disjointed Oleg and held the evening coat open.  Interestingly enough, Oleg’s handsome, Black friend earlier was the same handsome Black man, with the striking resemblance to Maxwell Bowleson – he had appeared with him in that august-energied dream, on Friday, July 21, 1995.  Eventually, they all took their leave of the house; they were rather low-key when doing so.  When I had returned to the living room, after having visited with Merlin in the girls’ bedroom, Gita had not said anything further.

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No sooner than had they all left the house that Merlin came out to the living room to join me.  I was surprised to see that he was again looking so healthy.  Directly opposite Merlin, I now sat alone.  Merlin silently sat there.  Whilst consciously sending him loving energies, I held my back erect.  Much to my surprise and amusement, Merlin carried a large, clear plastic bag with about 1.5 pounds, likely more, of marijuana.  Merlin meticulously rolled a large thick joint with all the Zen focus as he had when incarnate.

I sat there being truly blown away at the sight.  I had completely forgotten the sublime, almost Zen, sight of Merlin rolling a joint.  Moments like this were when Merlin really turned up the hues of his magus nature.  It was a groove into which he slipped, in order to conceptualise – to non-linearly think.  These ganja joints were so thick that they looked like short white cigars; they certainly smoked profusely like a cigar does.  I was mildly humoured by Merlin’s realness.  It was grounding.

On looking up, Merlin paused before lighting up and turned up the sensual hues in his large brown – which they were not when incarnate – eyes.  Coolly, Merlin intoned, “I have no intentions of seeing these people…”

He then pursed the fat joint in his rosy lips and lit up.  Casually, Merlin blew on a long even breath that readily perfumed the air with its pungent aroma.  Up to that point, the room was sillaged by that most glorious of scents patchouli – it was Merlin’s favourite fragrance.  As an afterthought, Merlin added that Oleg had intended to come back tomorrow and join him for lunch.  There was supposed to be some woman or other present then.

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Apparently, it was not going to be either Morag O’Hoare or Gita Gurucharan.  I don’t know who she was supposed to be but it was also definitely not Elektra Skanczchowicz – and definitely not Hélène Plotte-Visage.  Merlin took his time and drew on another breath.  He then announced that the luncheon had been arranged by none other than Maxime Gascoigne-de Montigny.  Merlin, however, was not into it.  “Are you sure that you’re going to be up to it?” I asked obviously concerned.

As I looked across the room at Merlin, I spent a great deal of time being spiritually focussed and sent him energy.  What was really interesting in this process was that with his long even breaths, when dragging on the ganja joint, I used his breathing rhythm to become harmonised with his vibration.  The focussed process of sharing my energy with him was very potent – real.  The energy flowed with great ease.  For being intensely lucid, I thought of elevating my vibration’s frequency.  I had hoped to thus cycle off a ton of my energy into Merlin.  I accomplished this by envisioning us both encircled by spheres of intense blue-white light.  Soon, I saw my energy body cycling off a coil of white light.

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This light originated both from the top and bottom of the sphere of light which completely enveloped my seated body.  The light travelled the distance between us, across the room, some seven feet away at most.  It made contact with both poles of his energy body’s identical sphere’s integrity.  Together, we were truly in communion soul-to-soul.  The interesting thing here was that we both continued casually visiting though I knew that Merlin was keenly aware of the energy work that was being accomplished between us.  As he continued his detached Zen-like smoking, I knew that it served as a backdrop to his being receptive of the energy work that I was doing on his behalf.  Our breathing was completely synchronised.

I used each inhalation to draw off the negative vibrations.  It was this energy that had caused him to become completely enervated when seated opposite Oleg whom he clearly had no desire to have encountered.  Merlin then chose to abruptly retire, whilst the others visited, to the girls’ bedroom to crash.  With each exhalation, I sent him intense, white-light energy that was being liquidly drunk by his energy body.  The marvellous thing about this entire experience was how utterly feminine Merlin’s modalities were.  This was in marked contrast to my very masculine, martial, warrior-energied focus.

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It was truly a validation of the creative principle, Merlin being yin to my yang.  Together we were becoming whole.  Together our energies were perfectly harmonised.  As a result, Merlin’s energies were thusly realigned.  Too, for being in this very expansive state, I caught brief glimpses of the outlines of the light energies that were being manifested between us.  During the moments when he would exhale potent puffs of smoke, I observed the manifested spheres of light each time.  The smells of the patchouli and ganja, combined with the ganja’s smoke, created the effect. I was so grounded for being here in this astral plane reanimation of the Crab Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts house.  It was a truly sublime shamanic experience.

It was clear that Merlin had no desire to experience unpleasant aspects of the past.  As he sat there, Merlin waited for the air to clear; he waited for the ganja to wane and the strobe of the light spheres to fade out before replying,  “No, no.  It’s okay.  I’ll be okay…”  As Merlin spoke for the first time, he looked healthier than he had looked at any point before during our astral plane dream encounter.  Earlier, he was lying on his stomach with his left cheek on the pillow; his face looked out the door that led to the room from Harella’s bedroom.  There was a cool sheen of sweat then that covered his brow and body; he laid there looking truly wasted.

Even his breathing was loud then.  As I patted his cool brow, I could hear the crackling in his lungs that suggested that he was again suffering from a bout of pneumocystis.  On soothing his spirit, I had brushed the wet strands of his shoulder-length hair from his brow.  It was so very good to have seen Merlin.  The most exquisite pleasure of being in his presence was the great sense of peace that I felt for seeing him whole again.  The simple act of his rolling a joint was, for me, on the order of bliss; he was transcendent.  Of course, as was the case during our relationship in the waking state, he did not offer me a toke of the cigar-like joint.

I do know that I found the second-hand smoke pleasurable.  It was sweet; it did much to relax me, along with the focussed deep breathing that I independently did – that we did in unison and which had been triggered by his breaths when smoking the joint.  Feeling the need to come down from the intense energy work that I had accomplished with Merlin, I got up and walked slowly over to Merlin.  I asked him if he was going to be okay on his own.  He assured me that I had nothing to worry about; he would be fine.  I knew it too.  So with that, I took my leave of him.  In a bid to move back into my regular-dream body, I went out to get some air on the veranda.

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He assured me that I did not need to come back, later on, and join him.  He would be quite okay to handle things on his own, he assured me.  I believed him.  Merlin simply glowed throughout; his cheeks were flushed and fleshy even.  Merlin looked centred and genuinely contented.  I then found some ice cream, beneath one of the living room chairs, which earlier I had been eating.  Naturally, it was not all that great as it had melted down and lost its flavour.

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Yeah groovy people, you know the score, just plié, push off and fly like when you have just had the greatest sex and dance as if this gorgeous planet ain’t nobody’s property but yours.  I love you more.  

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©2013-2025 Arvin da Brgha.  All Rights Reserved.  

Won’t Take The A Train

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As I slipped into sleep, on Friday, July 9, 1993, the Moon transited both Pisces and my tenth house – though not the least bit focussed on Merlin prior to sleep – the dream shaman would manifest and weave the most sublime magic yet.  As will become fast evident, the first three dreams that day were about process.  I was during those dreams, divesting myself of the baggage that affects one’s waking consciousness/persona.  These are waking state survival mechanisms which would be disposed of, in each successive dream, so that I could be elevated enough in spirit to have moved on to the truly noble experiences of the later dreams.  

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Whilst yet another stood beside me, I was looking into a full-length mirror.  At the time, I was with Sjaak van der Velde – friend, current lover and Manhattan cabaret singer.  As I stood there, in the near-darkened bathroom getting cleansed, I keenly looked at my face.  On looking down, I noticed that my entire body was nude; it was completely depilated.  This, of course, presented a big challenge because I am so vain – big hair and all.  I was mildly horrified that my gorgeous pencil-thin moustache was no more.

To say the least, as intended, the moustache and big hair do nothing but scream vain solipsism.  As I try warping self to stay with the ageist, lookist gang, vanity ends up making things that much more superficial.  I spent a great deal of time really scrutinising the lack of facial hair.  After assessing things, I finally came to like the naked look of my exposed upper lip.  ‘What the hell,’ I thought.  I began laughing aloud by grinning down my self-consciousness and vanity.  Soon, I grew to like my smile a lot.  It was truly wonderful.

Then who should appear in the mirror to my left, though never next to me in the dreamtime, but Len Morse.  He, too, had recently shaved his moustache in the waking state.  I was surprised to see him.  I guess that there is some soul connection that we share which was clearly being alluded to.  He has been present in a few dreams of late.  He was warmly looking out at me as if to say,  “Oh really now?  It’s nothing to be ashamed of.  Nothing to be self-conscious of…”

Frankly, I rather liked the nudeness of my face and head minus the moustache and big hair.  The whole thing was a true revelation.  I genuinely looked handsome because I wasn’t trying to run from or hide behind anything.  It was truly uplifting.  What was so empowering about the revelation, too, was the fact that the moment at which I became relaxed with myself – unconditionally accepting myself – my eyes awakened more completely.  It was as though they had never shone so brilliantly, indeed, shone so beautifully before – absolutely revolutionary!

All this maya only caused me to hysterically laugh enjoying the absurdity of trying to get caught up and lost in lookism.  ‘Who frigging cares?’  That was the essence of the wisdom being disseminated here by my higher self.  This new perspective was truly a rare and treasured gift.  It was quite the uplifting experience and one not soon forgotten.  

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Next, in the second dream, I was outdoors in the daytime.  I was in this heavily trafficked, overpopulated metropolis.  It did feel as though I was at Seventh Avenue and 23rd Street.  Whilst, crossing 23rd Street, I was on the west side of Seventh Avenue going north in Manhattan.  I wore a knapsack which was much like the one in the waking state.  Close to my chest, my arms were crossed and folded.  They clutched a book that I was currently reading.  As I passed a young, White couple, they made socially aggressive, racist remarks about me.

‘I don’t want this kind of energy, at all, in the dream state,’ I thought impatiently deflecting their ignorance.  When I got to the other side of the road, I felt unresolved about the whole thing.  So, with that, I turned to look after them.  They veered off, on seeing me eyeing them but I knew that they had wanted to cross Seventh Avenue – on the north side of 23rd Street.  They headed off going east, to the right, on the north side of 23rd Street.

Impatiently I purposefully and heavily strode on my heels, back towards them, soon overtaking them.  On catching up to them, I walked alongside.  The woman was closer to me and him closer to the traffic.  He was considerably taller than her.  They were a very waking-state-focussed, hard-edged, racially aggressive, pinched couple.  Big-boned and Yuppified – they were the epitome of North American, aggressive, merchant class greed.  In a rapid-fire, ballistic staccato, I began aggressively repaying their racist bile bit for bit.  I repaid their aggressive verbal abuse bit for bit.

They were stunned by my response.  As with the codified behaviours of the racist paradigms in the waking state, which keep racially preyed on Blacks fearful of defending themselves against such actions, I was not expected to retaliate.  I had no intentions of sublimating any aspect of self, either here or elsewhere, to suffer anyone and their bullshit.  Yet what could they have done?

They simply turned glacial and remained petrified acting as though one were, all of a sudden, not there.  I had no intentions of having them dump this kind of psychic garbage onto me.  I slapped the racial animus back in their direction and was able to divest myself of such negative energies.  Perhaps, though likely not, my response gave them pause for thought.  

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The third dream then found me going down into the belly of the underground.  I proceeded to take, what would prove, an extensive series of train rides.  I had been down in this particular sprawling subway station.  There were no pillars in between the tracks.  The station was not unlike London’s Liverpool Station and though similarly dimensioned, however, it was completely below-ground.  Whilst waiting for the train to arrive, I had gone and stood close to one of the ends of the platform.  Raising my leg, I had placed my right foot on an orange-coloured railing whilst waiting.  Close by were two White women standing and speaking.

Long, flowing, drop-waisted dresses, that were light summer fare, they both wore.  For being close to them, they fell silent and projected that cool steely edge that was informed by their racist perceptions.  This was not the kind of energy that I wanted to be around.  I strongly resented having this hideous grey light, of waking state racially-tinged maya, flooding and destabilising the Chi of the dreamtime.  Since this was not my scene, I chose to tune out their invasive, racially predatory, psychic aggression altogether.  Pretty soon, they came to realise how utterly ridiculous what they were doing was.

Immediately, they stopped their bullshit and resumed being human.  The WST (waking state transference), in which they indulged, towards me evaporated.  The air became noticeably clear… less dense-energied.  Soon thereafter, the train rolled into the station and we boarded together.  Unusually large, most impressively, there was also a dizzying amount of persons on board this train.  It took the longest while, for us to get on board, as throngs flooded out from the train at our station.  Even when finally we boarded, the bloody thing was still overgrown with humanity.

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I eventually arrived at this particular stop where, again, it was densely populated.  Wherever you looked, it was lushly overgrown here with incredibly large arboreal giants.  

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Not surprisingly, in this the fourth dream, it was impressively landscaped here.  There was a dizzying array of flora and most of them were not readily familiar.  I was up on a winding road that rose up a high hilltop.  Along the way, I encountered an old Black woman.  Goodness was she ever ancient.  Hers was a face that was on the plus side of ten millennia.  To match every lifetime-filled millennium that she had outlived, boy did she have a lot of life and personality.  This was clearly her astral body, which I was encountering, whoever this well-travelled, marvellous old soul was.  This sprawling metropolis was distinctly French.

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This place did remind me of being at Montmartre when looking down into Paris.  This metropolis, however, was several times larger than Paris.  So many eons older than Paris, was this metropolis, it even seemed vastly older than the old woman.  Her lovely dark-complected body, reminding me so of some West Indian women’s, she was so readily familiar.  This metropolis was easily twenty millennia older than Paris.  A truly august-souled metropolis this was.

The woman, along the road on the side of the hill, much reminded me of Clarice Jack who lived in The Alley, Sandy Point, St. Kitts.  Of course, Clarice lived next-door to the church that Harella built.  She was a big-boned, large-bosomed, full-figured lively gal.  She was turning about, busying herself, doing some landscaping repairs along the side of the road.  On approaching her, I asked how to get to a concert hall.  I had been en route to some destination which, presently, I could scarcely recall.  

“Oh no, no, no, my dear…  You have to go all de way back down into town.  It’s not at Palais Royale, in fact.  Don’t even think of there.  You have to go and get some other trains, to get you someplace else…”  Her tongue darted back and forth, over her ever-moist lips, as her lively rapid-fire French gave directions. 

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She had pointed, off in the distance, to what seemed like Grand Palais.  It, too, had a companion like Petit Palais in Paris.  Here, however, these stately buildings were easily four times more colossal than their waking state counterparts.  To anything in the waking state, the scale of architecture here was beyond compare.  Gargantuan doesn’t, even remotely, convey the towering scales of the proportions here.  Everything here was grown over.  The metropolis, centred in this fantastic locale, was layered with each rise and fall of the civilisation readily discernible.  In that sense, this metropolis was much like Rome is.

Everywhere, there were visible signs of crumbling architectural masterpieces.  Still, other long-abandoned structures became the outer shell for more recent revivals of themselves.  The latest additions, to an old ruin, could have occurred four millennia later and still have been easily a dozen millennia old – truly ancient.  There were so many different strata of architectural styles layered one atop the other.  This truly was a living museum of architectural giants.  It was impressive, to say the least.  One felt so utterly nouveau, for being of waking state Earth, as none of Earth’s civilisations can architecturally boast any such richness of character.

Great epochs of civilisations grew on top, through, about and around themselves in this impressive astral plane metropolis.  This place was quite beautifully landscaped.  Everywhere there were mound-like hills, like the one that I was on, which were forested areas of lush growth.  They looked like some of the better-gardened neighbourhoods of Naples.

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Next, the fifth dream had me taking my leave of her.  I went down the hill, into the metropolis, where I entered one of the city’s many termini.  This one much reminded of Gare d’Austerlitz in Paris.  Here, too, this terminus was easily seven times more colossal.  I began my marvellous adventure by taking a number of trains.  There would be a few transfers at other, just as massive, termini along the journey.  Here, at all times, I travelled with a silent astral guide who remained just to my rear.  He seemed to be younger and was definitely White.  

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There was a staggering amount of people in transit here.  People here were also very quiet.  The majority of communication was telepathically engaged.  There were so many tracks all of which were being used by trains.  This was clearly a metropolis on a planet whose population easily soared beyond 17 billion (I meant to say 70 billion).  With lots of transfer points converging all at the same terminus, this particular station was a major hub.  This travel that I was doing, the vehicular transports I was using, merely proved secondary to what was really at play here.

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I was going through different planes, travelling through different dimensions, and realities.  I was in transit – for the ease of waking consciousness, much of this has been perceptually transliterated as being modes of travel comparable to waking state paradigms.  The trains were capable of transporting one, to various locales, at protected faster-than-usual speeds.  However, the travel was definitely destined.  We travelled along a set, guided course.  It was, if you like, a willed form of travel.  It was not as though one were aimlessly wandering about a wilderness or city.

For being buried below-ground, it suggested that this was travel that was deeply rooted in the domains of the soul itself.  There was a definite route, a purposeful intent, and a clear objective for undertaking the journey.  Although for much of the time, especially when I was on the terraced hilltop with the old Black woman, I couldn’t quite recall why I was trying to make a definite rendezvous.  All that I knew was that I simply had to get there.  As it were, I had a destined appointment.  For following along certain experientially mapped out routes, one could interdimensionally travel whilst on board these trains.  

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Whilst I was on one of the trains, when in transit, I sensed that I was not alone.  Looking around, in search of someone’s familiar energetic signature, there on this utterly crowded train I found Merlin!  I was so blown away.  So that the dream wouldn’t be aborted, by my whiting out and prematurely awakening, I had to contain myself.  I can’t say here how utterly arresting it was to have seen him.  

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Not since he had walked into the salon, in that dream on Saturday, July 25, 1992, had Merlin’s beauty so moved me.  Merlin here was as real and as focussed as ever he was, the seven years that I had known him, on the other side of the dreamtime’s pandimensionality.  I was so thrilled.  I became overwhelmed with genuine happiness.  I simply couldn’t believe that this was happening.  I was acutely aware that I was dreaming.  Oh my goodness – this was enlightenment and then some.  Seeing him was akin, to having been away and upon my return opening the door, to have Whoopi come rushing towards me – her familiar pigeon-toed sweetness being the most treasured gift in my life at present.

One glimpse and you fall in love all over again.  Seeing him, I felt all the quiet rapture that I felt – on Friday, October 1, 1982 – when he ambled into my life.  On slipping in through the glass-paned door of a Hell’s Kitchen walkup, Merlin began weaving the most sustained, sublimed magic.  Merlin, to look at him, was such an encapsulation of health and inner beauty.  Goodness, I was completely blown away.  Merlin wore a light, gauze-fabricked shirt that was very much so from the Indian Subcontinent.  Caramel-coloured and ancient-looking, it was reminiscent of many of the ones he so favoured – ones which were perpetually sillaged with patchouli’s grounding signature.

The shirt was covered throughout with tiny rosebuds and other petals – exquisite.  This was so Merlin in every refreshing detail.  A long-sleeved shirt that was buttoned at the wrists, he wore, but with a bit of ballooning just aft the wrists.  So thin and loose a fabric was it that it seemed diaphanous.  Merlin was the picture of health, so much so that, his skin actually glowed near-imperceptibly.  The light was the faint glow, which was the subtle undulating glow, of his aura.  

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This was much the effect that one would observe, if photographing someone, through a soft-focussed lens.  Yet it was more than that, there was a definite hum to his aura’s vibration.  There was so much flesh and vitality to his face and the rest of his still-rakish body that I was left overjoyed at the sight of him.  His mane was beautifully coiffed in a long, leonine, gentle fall.  Interestingly, it was not at all grey or greying.  For that matter, Merlin’s hair was not greying as it was at the time of his passing.

Additionally, Merlin’s beard was not white.  He looked like a much healthier version of himself, as he was at age thirty-five, when we met.  It was so fuck-all fabulous to have seen him.  It was great to have experienced him.  Seated there, languorously looking into the forever of his familiar eyes, my spirit simply danced for joy.  I vibrationally zinged at a higher frequency, on seeing him, to have experienced him yet again.  To have drunk of his familiar spirit was that longed for elixir that my wandering soul so quenched.

Merlin silently looked over, validating that he recognised me, with the most intimate of smiles.  A smile it was by which, for too long now, I had not been warmed.  We communed, though our communication was telepathic, at the level of spirit.  Our communication was not only mentally accomplished but it was emotionally complex and thorough.  We immediately connected, more to the point, we did intimately connect.  There was no getting around the fact of this having been why I had felt so compelled to quest, to journey, in search of this concert.  

On finally having a rendez-vous with Merlin, what stellar music of souls this was.  I knew, there and then, why I had been in transit making all these connections and travelling at such great speeds.  I was in an astral plane metropolis, one which clearly served as a resting and inspirational space, for souls in transit – quite wonderful indeed.  There I sat, on the fast-moving train, flying without moving.  How utterly rapturous a living dream postcard this dream was – especially after our last profound encounter, a year ago.  Sure, there had been other dream encounters during that interval.

This, however, was a dream of high order.  This was a dream which existed at the same heights of spirit as that, on Saturday, July 25, 1992.  Merlin’s eyes were so large, clear and focussed.  Merlin here was so serene.  He was transcendent.  It blew my mind just to look at him.  For resonating with him, I felt myself quivering with rapture.  To feel the quiet purr of his spirit so close, and so familiar a spirit, was more than even I could have hoped for during pre-sleep meditations.

There was no getting around the fact that Merlin was now considerably more elevated than, when we last kissed in that dream, on Saturday, July 25, 1992.  Merlin was now more in control.  He had greater mastered his astral body since then.  Back then, he wore a cloak that had a cowl.  Merlin looked every bit the magus that he was.  It was just like the cowled cloak that he had worn in our initial dream encounter, July 1978, four years before finally meeting on the physical plane.

Merlin here was so much more elevated than ever he had been in life or since his passing.  Now, he was casually dressed but still looked every bit the magus.  Indeed, Merlin here was the dream magus ascended.  This dream was so very healing for my spirit.  Then, on Saturday, July 25, 1992, Merlin was tying up loose – as he was experienced in that sublime dream.  In that dream, Merlin thanked me for having served him nobly and in a healing capacity.

Thanks to his life task, Merlin had awakened the magus within me as I served him during his illness.  This shared task of ours enabled me to become more spiritually focussed.  As a result, as mentor to me, Merlin initiated my accelerated spiritual growth.  In this dream, Merlin was simply saying hello.  No postcard, across the seas of time and dimensions, could have been more beautiful a gift received.  I could not believe that I was seeing Merlin.  He did not, after having set out and sent me that one momentous dream on Saturday, July 25, 1992, have to send me yet another momentous dream.  Yet here he was, by express transit no less, sending me a most magus, evolved and uplifting dream postcard.

Thank goodness my mind was fully aligned with spirit and the soul, as validated by my Venus-Uranus conjunction, enabling me to assimilate the potency and depth of this most sublime of gifts from Merlin.  At that moment, when I found Merlin, the train was speedily travelling above-ground.  The glow of his aura was further highlighted by the swells of sunlight, whose crests broke and oceanically flooded into the train, from the sunny outdoors.  The merry sunlight added to the intensity of the encounter’s sensuality.  I was so captivated by Merlin’s sublime beauty that I had not caught the conductor’s announcement.

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A little dark-haired boy then announced that we would have to change trains.  The boy had stepped up to a round circle, in the middle of the aisle, before the doors.  In a vertical shaft of light, there the young, male astral guide stood perfectly still.  He then announced to us the different transfer points – all of which he telepathically did.  

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Next, the sixth dream found all three of us – Merlin, the youthful astral guide and me – seated on a bunk in a rustic, near-dark, high-ceilinged bedroom.  There were marvellous, dark wooden beams, high overhead in the ceiling, which created that familiar astral plane look.  Whilst seated on the edge of the bunk, our legs dangled over the side.  Merlin was on my immediate right as we visited side-by-side.  His energies were so very warm and familiar.  The house was unmistakably large, like everything else in this dimension.  Incidentally, the ceilings here were vaulted.  There was no mistaking that this dream was set on the astral plane.

*The key signature of the astral plane is its phenomenal architecture.  The astral plane seems to serve as incubator and one from which great thinkers and movers, from time to time, come along and manifest their impressions thereof into the waking state.  These great thinkers being architects such as: Antoni Gaudí, Frank Lloyd Wright and others.  In these dreams, set on the astral plane, architecture is marked by the rustic, the aged, the organic – the fully concretised and usually in proportions that are not of this world.  Everything seems much larger and more solid than even in the waking state.

There is nothing ephemeral about the architecture of the astral plane.  The most impressive thing, about architecture on the astral plane, is the staggering amount of details that are worked into these true works of art.  Structured and sound, one always immediately feels secure, is architecture on the astral plane.  END.

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The young, astral guide was on my left, silently holding the large book of photographs, as Merlin guided me through its pages.  One series of photographs was of a guy who was water-skiing.  The guy reminded me, as a matter of fact, of Maddox Pool.  We looked at the photos which were taken, from the perspective of someone, at the rear of the boat to which he was tethered whilst skiing.  

In one of the photos he had taken away his right hand, from the grip, to energetically grin and wave.  The photos in the book were not static.  They were holographic yet, somehow, they never extended beyond the page.  They were three-dimensional but you were not looking at a film.  Instead, you were looking down into a three-dimensional holographic image which was within the borders of each photo.  It was in these shots that the waterskiing young man looked so much like Maddox.

He was dark-haired and the picture of health.  The water was crystalline and eye-scorching blue.  He was about twenty-two to twenty-three years of age – exactly the same age that I was when Merlin and I met in New York City.  Merlin telepathically explained to me, as we looked at the photographs, that this photo was representative of himself after his first bout of pneumocystis with full-blown AIDS.  Merlin told me that this was the nature of the work that he was presently doing.

Astral plane habitués, such as Merlin, after they had done work on themselves could elect to assist persons still incarnate and moving through the illness.  The crisis of AIDS was so impactful, on humanity at this point, that those who were discarnate had to direct a great deal of energy planetside to those incarnates who were moving through the experience.  When persons went from being advanced with HIV, all the way to being sick with full-blown AIDS, then they on the astral plane would work with them after their first bout of major illness.  

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Merlin explained that they were seen to have a resurgence of vitality because of the energy work, being directed to the incarnate full-blown persons, by astral plane habitués in his position.  This is precisely as had been the case with Merlin, in the spring, summer and early autumn of 1988, after his first bout of pneumocystis – all of which abruptly atrophied when he was betrayed by that stupid drunken woman, Morag O’Hoare.

Merlin also intimated that the energy work came not only from persons such as him, between lives on the astral plane, as well as from souls above and beyond the astral plane.  This was energy that they were sharing, with afflicted physical plane habitués, which they could then use to sustain their lives for a year or two or even a decade plus.  Merlin further shared that they could indefinitely live on, to the full course of their lives, if they so chose.

Though they were fully capable of surviving long-term with the virus, which allegedly led to AIDS, people planetside had not yet made the realisation that they did not have to atrophy and die because they had tested positive for the HIV virus or for going full-blown with AIDS.  This ability, of afflicted incarnates, to live on had to do with willpower.  Choice was the issue in this situation.  They must have wanted to remain incarnate.

They must have wanted to live and to accomplish certain tasks.  The nature of the support system, that one surrounded oneself with, was crucial to being able to become long-term survivors.  Persons really did not have to pass on so soon, Merlin intimated, after discovering that they were HIV positive or full-blown with AIDS.  Humanity presently had such stultifying fear of death that afflicted persons ended up, literally, terrifying themselves to death.  It did not help much that there were so many stigmas associated with AIDS.  At present humanity, for the most part, did not yet realise that death was merely but a refocussing of one’s energies.

“Death…” said Merlin “…was no big deal.  Come on, look at me.  I’m here, aren’t I?  How different am I?” he intoned in a quiet whisper rather than telepathically.  ‘Can’t argue that one,’ I thought.

Merlin was as human and as real as, he had ever been every day of our being together, during our glorious seven-year relationship.  Even though I could see him, and indeed touch him, he was so much more evolved and frankly better off for being in that dimension of purified vibration.  This was definitely not the normal domains of the dreamtime.  From the regular confines of the dreamtime, I had travelled – to this conduit space within the astral plane – to be able to experience Merlin from his regions of the astral plane which are exclusively inhabited by the discarnate.  

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We met in a dimension wherein persons, both discarnate and incarnate, could meet and interact.  It was quite solid here and rarefied too.  To be able to have experienced Merlin left me so immensely happy.  Merlin further explained that people tended to die so soon, after having become full-blown with AIDS, because the spectre of dying became a vortex of fears – enervating energies – that literally depleted their reserves of willpower and caused them to die sooner rather than later.

By becoming so obsessed, with fear of death and the stigma of dying of AIDS, those subjects simply became victims of their own fears.  Merlin said that they had to turn that vortex into a white hole rather than an imploding, enervating, gnawing black hole of fear.  Such a vortex proved a vacuum that sucked the very life out of the afflicted and caused them to die what was clearly a premature death.  Once transmuted, this vortex could be used to assist one to go on to live a very productive life.

This energy could simply be used to fuel oneself and serve as a conduit to channel pure, life-sustaining energies from discarnate souls, such as him, on the astral plane.  This would ultimately enable one to stay focussed, in the afflicted life, for considerably longer.  The thing to remember was that the mind did not have to become afflicted with fears because the body had become impaired by disease.  All over the world, Merlin assured me, the afflicted could choose to triumph over fear of imminent death and it was being done with increasing success.

This vortex of transformed fears could, according to Merlin, become a catalyst for undertaking a great deal of spiritual work.  The amount of growth that could be pulled off for becoming thus focussed, Merlin assured me, was no light matter.  As Merlin imparted this wisdom, I was being illumined to this revolutionary approach to life and death which heretofore, I had not before thought of the paradigm in this manner.  It, however, made perfect sense.  

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What was really impressive, about all this, was having Merlin return now as a teacher.  He was so wise and magus.  I felt absolutely proud of him.  He was a guide to me, sharing of the wisdom that he has gained in his trans-dimensional sojourn thus far, as the realised dream magus who had long set out ahead of his much-loved adept and companion magus.  I can’t say enough how very pleased that I was to have seen him.  I was so moved by Merlin.  It was simply profound.

I was so incredibly happy to see Merlin.  The windows to the large hall, in which we visited, were all closed.  This caused the place to be dimly and intimately lit.  Here, it was very womb-like and nurturing.  

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After that intimate visit together, followed by journeying on some more, we arrived at this the seventh dream.  On returning to the large terminus, we had to take yet another series of trains.  We arrived after much high-speed travel at another terminus.  This one was far larger than any before which I had visited.  Here, the terminus was above-ground and wide-open at both ends.  Multiple tracks were everywhere and veered off in all directions.  After we got on board the train, as before he had, the little dark-haired boy who served as astral guide came up and stood in the centre of the aisle.

Here, there were many people with kids and several persons were travelling with a ton of baggage.  They were carting around all this baggage which they really did not need.  This baggage merely served to weigh them down and impeded their forward advancement.  They did not yet realise that they did not need it.  Neither Merlin nor I had any baggage.  Similarly, the young astral guide had no baggage.  Somehow, because of the travelling requirements here, I couldn’t ride in the same car as Merlin.  Instead I rode one car behind him on the same train.

On pulling up into the large station, there was a PA notice that indicated that the train we were on would not go any further.  We would apparently have to transfer at the next station on disembarking.  The announcer said that one would be able to find one’s appropriate ride by following the colour-coded lines on the platform.  When I got off onto the platform, I began running ahead to the front of the platform in search of Merlin.  Not for anything did I want to lose him now.

A couple had impeded my progress as they wobbled along with a ridiculous amount of baggage.  The luggage was so much dream symbolism – inasmuch as there is such a thing.  These persons represented newcomers to the astral plane.  More importantly, they represented persons who had recently died and returned to the astral plane but who also happened to be fairly young-souled.  They were dead yet not already fully aware.  Just as they were spiritually blind, when incarnate, they now progressed.  They were now hobbling about, carting around all this baggage, as if they could truly ‘take it’ with them.  

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With them was all this Maya, the baggage of their perceptions and the worldviews, which had held them hostage whilst incarnate.  Here they were, on the astral plane, arrivés habitués carting around mindsets that were totally redundant.  What I found unique here was that no one interfered with anyone.  No one came to their aid telling them that it was not necessary for them to be carting around all this baggage.  Furthermore, they were repressed such that they appeared these Boteroesque persons – bloated in the style of Fernando Botero sculptures.

Their little merchant class worldviews had had them well-preserved, and puffed up, with pompous self-aggrandising notions of their greatness.  They did look truly South American in that pretentious sense.  They looked not unlike some of the parvenu-looking subjects of Fernando Botero’s paintings and sculptures.  They were truly lost souls both here and when previously incarnate.

I, on the other hand, was nimbly walking whilst bounding down the platform.  I had hoped to reconnect with Merlin whom I knew had also gotten off at the same stop.  Here, too, in this station all the railings were orange and sturdy-looking.  Rushing ahead of the Boteroesque couple, who vibrationally felt as if made of the heaviest metals in the universe, I noticed something truly spectacular.

High up in the walls of this terminus the wall would simply open up, much as a camera lens’s aperture would, then from the gaping hole would stream out a train at full speeds.  The train was, as it were, intersecting dimensions.  This fantastical train was, along with several others that I had noticed, simply splicing through our pocket of the astral plane en route to heaven-only-knows-where.  At the far side of the terminus another aperture-like portal would gapingly open to accommodate the approaching airborne train.

Soon after, the train would be lost into the black void which moments earlier had opened up.  Those trains, like the others, were massive and looked as though the stateliest trains from the late nineteenth-to-early twentieth centuries.  More than that, they barrelled through the air without travelling on any overhead tracks.  What’s more, they progressed as if along well-mapped out routes.

Some were higher than others.  Others intersected our little cul-de-sac of the astral plane, in a diagonal manner, cutting perfectly across the immense width of the terminus.  These trains, just like all the others, seemed so imposing for being as massive and as multi-carriaged as they were.  Despite the fantastical spectre of these trains, the matter of Merlin’s whereabouts was of paramount concern.  On noticing the initial train, I peripherally recalled that there had been a similar such train piercing through the earlier terminus.  However, its outréness had remained peripheral or not readily assimilated.

Just as described over the PA system, there was a series of colour-coded lines on the platform.  These colour-coded lines indicated where one had to venture, in order to make the appropriate connections, back to one’s final destination.  As could be expected, the trains were all very massive.  What’s more, they were distinctively leaden and stylistically looked as if straight out of the 1930s.  They were very art deco trains indeed.  

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One of the trains was silver and black.  It was a tone of black that was truly austere.  The silver was used for most of the detailing.  Its silverwork was so opulent that, by comparison, it made Erté’s deco sensibilities seem bland.  Somehow, I knew that it was the one that I was expected to take.  In all, there were two trains that I was supposed to have transferred to.  This black and silver train was energetically the densest-feeling one of all the trains that I had seen.

This, I think, was the case because it travelled between this locale and the density of the physical plane – the waking state.  Nonetheless, all that I could think of was Merlin.  I did not want to lose contact with him.  As ever, he had done in the waking state, I had initially seen him leaving the train then gone energetically bounding down the platform.  With so many people everywhere, and for having been impeded by the Boteroesque couple, I had lost sight of him.  My mind busily raced as I thought of the horror of possibly having to lose him here.  

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I did not want our encounter to end just like that.  Besides, we were supposed to have gone off somewhere.  I came down off the platform, desperate to find him again, by using a narrow flight of stone stairs.  From there, I crossed the tracks ahead of the austere-looking train that I was supposed to have taken.  No sooner than had I crossed its track that I saw, off in the far end of the terminus, an unusual-looking train.

It was stationed beneath a sunlight-flooded awning.  It was a most unique mode of transportation.  A series of long horizontal slabs, hovering off the ground, they lined one after the other.  They were, basically, the floors of boxcars that had no wheels, no sidings and no roofs to them.  They were, if you like, just a series of hovering rectangular slabs à la magic carpets.  The awning, beneath which it was stationed, gave a sense of how truly massive this hangar-like terminus was.  It was then, too, that I saw Merlin.

I had recognised him by the brown tweed cap that he always wore in the waking state.  To look at his body, he was the sexiest human imaginable.  Merlin still could work his magic on me.  Merlin wore a faded pair of blue bell-bottomed cotton slacks.  A pair of well-worn, doe-skinned shoes was familiarly upturned at the toes.

He was so true to form – realistic.  This was so very Merlin and so like the Merlin, whom I had known so very intimately, but for the fact that he was not smoking a ganja joint.  Also unlike the sublime dream encounter, on Saturday, July 25, 1992, he was not wearing his gold-rimmed round glasses.  Naturally, he did not need those things anymore.  It was so very good to see Merlin.  Here, he was my astral guru – indeed, the transcendent dream magus had returned to impart his magical wisdom.

Merlin was so phenomenally alive and real.  I was moved beyond belief to see him.  So excited was I, to have found him again, that I went rushing up to greet him where he hung out on one of the slabs.  Thrilled and delighted, I let out an excited squeal.  Soon enough, I grew immediately self-conscious of the fact that no one here verbally communicated.  In one graceful balletic leap, I went rushing up onto the platform broadly grinning.  My love for him welled up from the very bosom of my soul.  As soon as I got there, I realised that everyone else was seated in these circular groupings.  

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They sat in lotus position and faced inwards towards each other.  Merlin was part of a circle of men, seven deeply meditative men, all of whom looked just as transcendent and centred as did he.  They seemed to be so deeply engaged, at the level of spirit, as if a part of a coven of magi who were engaged in group energy work.  Their silence was impactful – there was so much being said and done in its weighty stillness.

Merlin’s eyes were so brilliant and clear yet there was a fecund agedness to them.  The clarity came from the intense focus of his energies, where he presently is, in his transition through the discarnate progression.  They were older-souled eyes; there was no way to get around that fact.  I realised, there and then, that I wasn’t supposed to have been there at all.  So pleased was I to be with him, too eager to telepathically communicate, I began chatting aloud.  It was a way to wrestle his full attention as there was no way that I could have competed with the union of spirits and minds that they shared.

They were simply too deeply telepathic,  “Look Merlin, why can’t you come on this train with me?  I don’t want to be here on this one.  When we start moving, it’s only going to aggravate my allergies which are acute right now in the waking state.  It’ll be too much wind, too much exposure to pollen.  It’s just going to affect my allergies too much.  There’ll be too much wind blowing in my face.  Look, I really don’t know if I want to do this.  Why can’t we go on the other one?”

The moment at which I paused, after having posed my questions, Merlin seized control of the dynamic.  Very firmly, he entered my mind and said, “Be still.  Be quiet.  Don’t rush.  Don’t you understand?  I don’t care to go there.  I don’t care what you want… what you desire.  I’m going to stay on this one.  Besides, it’s what I have to do.  I’m going this way…”

When he intoned that last phrase, from the inflection and weight he telepathically used, I realised that there was no way that I could leave this place but on board that austere-looking silver and black deco train.  Merlin implied, by his intonation, that the conventional old train was the one that I had to use to safely ferry me back to the waking state.  Clearly, he couldn’t take that train because it was too mechanical.

It represented the past and the density, when incarnate, of his former physically ensouled state.  He was now in a dimension of existence which was vibrationally infinitely less dense.  Even the mode of transportation, for his dimension, was more advanced.  There was no denying that these levitating slabs were being kept aloft by their focussed, united wills – Merlin and his kindred spirits’.

To have entered their midst, the air and the Chi were intensely purified.  On entering the vibrational sphere of their midst, I instantaneously felt lighter in my body.  Their seating formations only intensified their energies and focussed their thoughts and wills.  It is safe to say that in these formations, they became a unit.  They were a shared consciousness of sorts.  They did though each still possess a will of their own.  This was clearly the case with Merlin who was able, independent of his circle mates, to exert his own will when asking me not to be an intrusive presence.

He was never hostile but he simply asked that I not be so inconsiderate of their need for privacy.  Meanwhile, the six others patiently waited for him.  You cannot imagine how mentally powerful these seven men were – individually and as a shared consciousness.  They patiently waited for me to either calm down or simply take my leave of them.  What was really intriguing, in all of this, was the fact that they did not have a preference whether I should stay or leave.  That choice was exclusively up to me.

It was truly insightful – they simply had no emotional engagement and were totally objective.  This was so much like the Merlin I had always known.  It was so good to see him that I really did not want to leave.  There was no way that I would pass up on this most rare of treasures found.  On calming my nerves, I directly looked Merlin in the eye and said, “Okay, I accept…  I accept….  I accept.  I realise that I was being so selfish.  Do forgive me.  I know how selfish I can get at times.”

Yet there sat Merlin supremely long-suffering and patient.  I would not, nor could I, deny myself the elixir of those eyes.  Impishly, I added, “Okay, please, let me come some of the way with you, at least.  I don’t know.  I don’t care…”  For breaking protocol and wanting to leave this place by going in his direction, I was more or less quieting my own fears.  I would gladly have given up the ghost, as it were, just to go on journeying with him.

As his eyes warmly smiled into me, a discernible smile drifted across his large, lucidly focussed face.  I was thrilled.  He telepathically suggested that I take a seat, which I did, just outside of the circle.  Two of them shifted their positions signalling that I join the circle rather than not.  The moment that I entered the circle of beings, which included Merlin, the procession of levitating greyish slabs began moving.  They had been hovering, just above a groove that sat, between two knolls.  These rolling mounds were covered by the most verdant cropped grass that zinged with a whisper of misty dew.  

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Instantaneously, we were moving at faster-than-sound through to faster-than-light speeds.  It was immensely thrilling an experience for me.  Merlin sat with his back always to the front of the procession of slabs.  In that sense, he was in a powerful position.  We were seated towards the end of the third or fourth platform.  Each platform-like slab contained several clusters of seven asexual-looking men – even Merlin looked asexual.

Even more interesting, along the lines of the Michael Teachings, was that there were six or seven clusters of six to eight individuals in the tight circular formations.  Here everyone was in lotus position.  There were never any doubts in my mind that Merlin and every last one of these discarnate individuals were the ones whose focussed wills were directing the travel of this light trip.  This was so right up Merlin’s alley – unabashed magic.

Each levitating slab measured roughly ten feet across by close to fifty feet at least.  They were linear and, though wafer-thin, had the most softly plush comfortable surface.  They were just as soft as if we were seated on satin throw cushions.  The speeds with which we travelled were phenomenal.  I did not experience any discomfiture for moving at such great speeds.  There was simply a whizzing blur of everything, outside the confines of our progressing procession of levitating slabs.

We travelled some four feet off the ground as we jetted away from the hub terminus.  The winds never affected us, nor did my body experience the increased G-forces, for travelling at such great speeds.  The landscape sped past, even more rapidly than when on board the trains.  Of course, when on board the trains, we were then in an enclosed environment.  Yet here, as there, we were not at all affected by the winds.  As a matter of fact, this proved an infinitely smoother ride than when travelling on the conventional trains.

There weren’t any of the chattering minds, for one, as experienced when on the conventional trains.  So deeply internalised was this place that there was nothing but Zen order.  No wonder Merlin so loved Johann Sebastian Bach’s artistry because it was so wonderfully suited to the ambience of this place.  

*It was as though, this place was the grove to which he gravitated between lives.  It gave him the sense of serenity, of order and of peace, which was so readily discerned to the core of his being.  At such times, Merlin would become lost – grow intimate and private with his very spirit – for listening to Glenn Gould’s mastery of J.S. Bach’s Goldberg Variations.  Merlin’s intellect, at such times, would become expansive.  Each time, his spirit and intellect were sensed, he would be spatially experienced.  Quite simply, for experiencing him at such times, there is no other way to articulate how one would feel.  END.

All around us were wonderful, rolling green plains situated in a vast expansive vista.  Everything was so thrillingly filled with life.  For travelling at such intense speeds, we were left in a heightened state of sensitivity – or at least I definitely was.  Perhaps, this was par for the course with Merlin and his kindred spirits.  I, on the other hand, found this so new and exciting for my dreamer self.  Everything zinged with more abundant negative ions, at concentrations that were more pronounced, than in the waking state.

This dimension was a harmonious mélange of pure thought and pure emotion.  It was so invigorating and completely centring.  Pure emotion, minus the trappings of ego, it gave the sense of Merlin and his kindred spirits’ transcendent nature.  There was an audible drone discerned here, to our splicing progress through space, which seemed as if their combined breaths held in a sustained meditative hum.  Truly serene a spiritually uplifting experience this was.  How transcendent they each were, too.

This sound was so intense and pure that it can best be described as being audible light.  The sensations and emotions I experienced were so thrilling that I couldn’t believe such intensity of joy could be experienced whilst incarnate.  At that moment, the experience was heightened when Merlin and I both directly looked into each other’s eyes.  In that moment of connectivity, mere words could never do justice to what I experienced.  We were truly intimate soul-to-soul.  

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Looking off to his right, impregnating me with this most beauteous gift, Merlin oceanically poured his very soul into me.  This was the most sublime postcard yet, that he had sent across the seas of time, from his journey up ahead.  I couldn’t ever have imagined that any gift could be so profound, beautiful and cherished.  Looking to the left, I had done so as he had telepathically entered my mind, saying a warm and intimately familiar hello.

Slipping into my moist, expanded intellect, I felt the familiar purr of Merlin’s soul as he edged closer and squinged up next to me soul-to-soul.  How many nights had we gotten this close when he was incarnate…  Yet none of that – physical intimacy – could have compared to the exquisite ticklish touch of his soul deep within me.  This was such a massiveness of spirit that I experienced.  I couldn’t believe that I was feeling the intensity of sensations and insights as I was experiencing.  This was such a massive experience that to look at Merlin the giddy ecstasy that I felt caused me to whiteout.  

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This had been fostered, too, by the enriching stimuli that bombarded my totality as the levitating slabs sped on.  The feel of experiencing nature, as we so rapidly sped by, only made the vibrations of everything that much more pronounced.  As I moved without moving, my body quivered throughout.  Looking to my left into the most intimate pair of eyes that I have known thus far in this lifetime, I thrillingly flew whilst seated there in lotus position.  Merlin’s eyes being the pair that has been more intimate than any other…  This moment of Zen bliss caused me to quickly draw on a sharp breath.

As though I were nodding off, my body had bobbed a tad.  With that I lucidly awoke – my body quivered as I remained in bed on my back looking up into and beyond the off-white ceiling.  Merlin alas quite cleverly had hypnotised me, back into wakefulness, with one sensual look.  

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By far, those dreams were among the most truly uplifting dreams of this incarnation.  There is not a year that passes since then that I don’t recall these dreams with the greatest fondness and humility.  So, alas, dream your dreams of wonder – for having been so richly inspired by mine.  Sweet dreams, you!

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Jessye Norman & Glenn Gould.

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As I work 7 days a week, I was debating whether or not to attend the Twelfth Glenn Gould Prize Gala at the Four Seasons Centre for the Performing Arts.  That morning en route home from some errands, I discovered that someone had jumped from a neighbourhood condo.  I got in and realised that there was no more feet-dragging; to hell with being dog-tired.  I got on the phone and called up Lucian Mann-Chomedy and said, “My darling, we are going to the Jessye Norman Gala!”  As ever, always positive, Lucian chimed in, “Oh my, oh yes, how lovely.  Well, I’ll be both honoured and delighted.”  Indeed, life is for living!  

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Merlin and I met Friday, October 1, 1982 in a Hell’s Kitchen Walk-up, the following Monday evening, on his return to Toronto, Merlin called up crying.  The man whom he had spent so much of our first evening together speaking of, had died; Glenn Gould had died.  For the seven years that we were together, Merlin listened to Glenn Gould’s interpretation of J. S. Bach’s Goldberg Variations at least thrice weekly.  Indeed, the first gift I purchased Merlin, was a recently released recording of the Goldberg Variations at Christmas 1982: I think that it is safe to say that that gift sealed the deal, I was a keeper for sure.  

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As I had waited until the last minute to get seats, I was sat in Ring 4 rather than the usual Ring 3.  This, alas, was my view of the stage and of course, the butterflies are from the set for Atom Egoyan’s masterful staging of Mozart’s Cosi Fan Tutte, which the moment I saw the set, I began chuckling to Lucian on recall of Tracy Dahl’s unsurpassed performance as Despina.  

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As I was too busy trying to throw something together for Instagram, I was heard gasping when it was announced that the head of the Glenn Gould Foundation’s Jury this twelfth prize was none other than the actor, Viggo Mortensen, who then walked out onto stage.  He, indeed, who in a few days time will be attending the Governors Ball where he may or may not be holding an Oscar.  

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Out onto the stage arrived the Twelfth Prize Laureate, Jessye Norman.  Truly, it was a shock to the very core to see Madame being ushered out in a wheelchair.   Suddenly, I was reminded of the events of earlier which caused me to rush home and purchase two tickets for the event.  That aside, there was no greater joy than drinking of her soul’s inspiring beauty.  

This beautiful gala was so filled with touchstones for me, none more so than the moment that bass baritone, Ryan Speedo Green was in full song.  When he sang, “Aprite un po’ quegli occhi” from Wolfgang A. Mozart’s Le Nozze di Figaro.  

Yes, indeed, this marvellous aria’s orchestration included a harpsichord.  Straight away, I was teary-eyed as memories of the truly eccentric and delightful Milan Newcombe readily surfaced; Milan will ever remain a lover like no other.  

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During the intermission, I ran into two old friends not seen in at least 1.5 decades; we spoke of nothing but our surprise at Ms. Norman’s entrance.  Life really does march full speed ahead.  

After the intermission, it was the announcement of the Glenn Gould Foundation’s Progidy Prize with the recipient being none other than, Cécile McLorin-Salvant, the most fabulous Jazz singer on the planet.  Is this not an evening to remember during Black History Month indeed.  

This stunningly unforgettable gala was closed out by the final recitalist being the divinely gifted soprano and Glenn Gould Foundation Prize juror, Sondra Radvanovsky in full song, singing Verdi.  

The gala concluded with Ms. Norman returning to the stage and singing a duet with Cécile McLorin-Salvant.  This was a moving, emotionally intense evening and my life was greatly enriched for having chosen to attend.  The gala was nothing short of magical.  

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As a tribute to this marvellous evening in the theatre, I will include herein two dreams, which were originally audio-cassette-recorded in the 1990s.  Before each deam, one of Glenn Gould, the other Jessye Norman, I will include each individual’s Michael Overleaves.  

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Gould, Glenn Herbert 25/9/32 – 4/10/82, Toronto

This fragment was a sixth level mature artisan in the repression mode, with a goal of growth, an idealist in the moving part of intellectual centre.
He had a Mercury/Saturn body type.

Glenn’s primary chief feature was self-destruction with a secondary of arrogance.

Glenn was third-cast in his cadence and his cadence is fourth in the greater cadence. He is a member of entity four, cadre five, greater cadre 17, pod/node 819.

This fragment has an artisan essence twin who was alive during Glenn’s life but there were no plans to meet. This fragment is still incarnate on the physical plane.

The fragment who was Glenn has a scholar task companion, who was in a previous life, Carl Philip Emmanuel Bach. They were not incarnate at the same time.

However, the fragment who was Glenn was exerting considerable influence on Carl Philip Emmanuel.

These two fragments had many lives together, once as luthiers, three times as court musicians, nine times as brothers of the cloth, twice as brothers in the flesh, as well as completing several important life monads, including student/mentor and master/slave.

In the immediate past life, the fragment who was Glenn had as his three primary needs: security, communion and exchange. Only the first of these was ever even partially satisfied.

So here we had a warrior-cast artisan who had seriously conflicting overleaves and a primary chief feature of self-destruction. He had a goal of growth but a repression mode which would not allow him to flourish.

He had a need for communion, but was sexually ambivalent and socially inept. Undeniably, he had great talent but took no pleasure from performing in public.

This fragment has a great deal of scholar energy that was used in the immediate past life to enable Glenn Herbert to painstakingly examine and interpret the works of Johann Sebastian Bach.

He was very interested in form and structure for all of his adult life. This fragment was, unfortunately, the victim of a severe obsessive-compulsive disorder, also for all of his adult life, which worsened considerably during his third and fourth decades.

This fragment did not, as popular wisdom teaches, retire from public life because of any strong beliefs in the recording industry. Glenn Herbert retired from public life because he could no longer bear to be in crowds, even if he was distanced by a proscenium.

Needless to say, this fragment did not complete work on his fourth internal monad.  

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Astral Plane Glenn Gould Recital!

Nothing is more uplifting than finding oneself at a great musical performance on the astral plane.  This dream was about being richly inspired and by Glenn Herbert Gould, no less; it was truly marvellous an adventure for the spirit.

The dream occurred, on Tuesday, October 6, 1992, whilst the Moon transited both Aquarius and my ninth house.

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I am in France where I leisurely browsed through a store; perhaps, it was somewhere in Paris.  It seemed here like at nighttime.  Whilst in one corner of the store, I noticed that there were all these big slabs of cheese in packaged containers.

There was a woman coordinating the display of the cheeses.  Sometimes the cheese was being grated and other times not.  There and then, I decided that I was going to buy one slab of the cheese that was packaged in a rectangular box.

The cheese was about an inch thick and about eight inches long.  The cardboard box that it was in was white and almost like the size of a box of Cream of Wheat.

Surprisingly, the box was rather heavy.  Though not unlike cheddar, it was a dark cheese.  The smell of this cheese was really hard – quite the bite to it.

It had seemingly been opened for too long as parts of it was growing hardened and turning colour.  I knew straight off the bat that I wanted to have some to take home with me.

So, off I went to purchase the slab that I liked.  Everyone here was, of course, speaking French which I quite so understood and liked.  Interestingly, I too was speaking very competently in French.

It was obvious that I was not too heavily accented as the others were pleasant-enough with me.

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The second dream had me leaving the store; I then found myself hovering in the air.  Whilst in flight, I went into a building which had a green – oxidised-copper – roof.  It was part of a long set of buildings that had very, very tall stone chimneys.

These were chimneys that were not unlike the ones at the Palais du Louvre.  As a matter of fact, the building was similar to the Canadian Parliament buildings though it was not those buildings.

This complex was considerably longer.  These were a series of complex buildings.  Here, I was easily thirty storeys up whilst in flight.  I looked down at the complex which at maximum could not have been more than five storeys tall.

After having contemplatively observed the complex for awhile, I began very slowly gliding down through the air.  I intently studied a procession of persons, way below, who were bailing out of very large buses; they were, as a matter of fact, tour buses.

This was all happening in a courtyard-like area and away from the bustle of the street.  I next noticed some men who appeared; they seemed, in their long, flowing white robes, to be priests.

They were not Arabic or Muslims in caftans; rather, they were definitely Whites.  The buildings here were long on the order of Palais Richelieu in Paris.  When I finally alighted, we had to go through this incredible entrance.

This led into a wonderful sandstone building; it was very modern with a neo-classical design.  On the order of being imposing, the door to this place was massive.  They seemed to be the doors to a temple.

To get to the entrance, there were many steps which one had to climb.  On entering, off to the right, there was a passage that one could take.

An aisle led along another passage; it seemed illumined by a skylight.  The priestly men had all entered before me.  They preceded a procession of adherents who had come to partake of some ritual.

I had gone to explore, off to the left, because it was the wing of the building that had reminded me of the Palais du Louvre.  Going there, I wandered about being fascinated by the place.

Some women were posing for artists in this particular wing.  They wore modern garb but were very exceptionally beautiful.  What was most intriguing about their look was that it was exactly as they would have appeared on the finished canvases.

They were very nubile young women; they had to hold their poses for interminably long periods.  Here several kids kept on going through the place; they were seemingly art students.

They were all very North American, middle class with their loud, snobbish bourgeois affectations.  Right away, it was obvious that all the muses were still virgins.

Theirs was an innocence that could never be affected.  They were all teenage girls whose bodies were very voluptuous and full.  These were not skinny people at all.

There was one point at which one girl was holding different poses.  Each girl would be painted by from three-to-five artists, at a time.  Thus every pose would be captured from different perspectives.

At one point, they told her to take a break; they then reverted back to an earlier pose.  This was so that they could return to that work and put some more work into finishing it up.

When she changed the pose, she had also turned some 180 degrees.  This particular model, whom I was studying, wore socks with Oriental-looking sandals.

Inside her socks she kept little items of hers.  Whilst she was making the transition, she simply reached up her foot and pulled up her right leg to reach down into the socks.

Hers was a pair of blue-coloured socks – pale blue.  To just above the ankles was the extent to which the socks rose.  Looking at her, she took out something from about her ankle which looked like a wafer.

Not the least bit self-conscious, she ate it at once; it seemed like a chocolate wafer which she favoured.  She seemingly needed it to get an energy boost so that she could stay focussed on the tedious work that she did.

After having found it all very interesting, I moved on sufficiently knowledgeable of the goings on here.  Walking along a corridor, I ended up going into a room where everyone was very strange.

A guy there was a lot like Galen Shim – my very beautiful, Hong Kong-born, Eurasian friend.  He reclined on a bed with his head close to the door.  When I came in, I noticed that he was naked.  When giving him a massage, I began by oiling his body.

It was quite fragrant oil.  Rubbing down his body, I began working on his toes and feet.  Afterwards, I got up to leave but he very silently began coming with me.

So out we went and joined the procession of persons; among them this time were several kids.  Mostly, they were teenagers – amongst whom I did not want to be.

Galen or the guy who seemed like him, here the guy was not wearing glasses as before nor would Galen for that matter, and I kept walking through the place.  Pretty soon, after we had left the noisy kids, we started hearing the most beautiful music.

This was one of the rare times that I found the music of the pipe organ to be beautiful.  Within the complex, we happened on this wonderful cathedral inside which were most of the people from the procession.

On entering the structure, it seemed more like a concert hall.  We soon learnt that the hall was specifically built so that only Johannes Sebastian Bach’s music could be played there.

Never before had I heard classical music sound so beautiful.  We stood there transfixed whilst listening together.  Who then should I notice way at the front of the hall, at the pipe organ that sat high on the dais-like stage, but Glenn Gould.  I could see his right profile as if in close-up.

My god, this was rapture and then some.  He was playing with such rapt abandon that I steadied myself and whispered more to myself than to Galen,

“My god, what an incredible dream to be having…”

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There seemed to be a skylight on the side of the high-ceilinged nave.  Instead of there being stained glass windows, windows for that matter, there was only intense light raining down through what seemed to be a skylight system.

The centre of the halved skylight was a wonderful neoclassical, oxidised, copper-looking, greenish flying buttress.  Here the look, though modern, was more in the style of Islamic mosques or even Moorish architecture rather than the classic Gothic signatures.

A series of the most intricate and complex circles intertwined, like some riotous jungle vine, in the cathedral-like, concert hall’s stonework.  Breathtakingly beautiful it was.  I stood there, just inside the entrance to the hall, on the left of the wide aisle.

This was a very wide-bodied structure.  As you progressed down the aisle, there were different levels where one could go up and sit.  These were either on the right or left.  The central aisle was covered by the most beautifully designed red carpet.

This place was considerably wider than Notre Dame Cathedral.  Unlike the Parisian Gothic structure, it was not a darkened affair.  Here it was very intensely bright out.  The light coming in on the right and left side of the flying buttress-like, central girder fell through a slightly frosted glass.

The light was an intense – almost aquatic – blue.  Interestingly, there were no beams or columns, supporting the unusual central, flying buttress-like beam.  For looking at the light, one became slightly languorous.  I felt paralysed with pleasure; there before me, down the massive hall, sat Glenn Gould.

He wore the most thick-fabricked garb; it seemed from an earlier age.  All the men in the white gowns were up at the front.  They were all transfixed – as well they should have been.

Though I love Johannes Sebastian Bach, at the time, I had some reservations as I am not especially fond of pipe organs.  I suppose that it is because it has always had too many religious associations during my childhood.

The persons attending the concert were there simply to recharge their batteries.  They seemed, all of them, as if not quite in their bodies for being so transfixed – they were otherwise-engaged.

Eerily, I had a sense that these were all persons who were between lives as is Glenn Gould.  They were in a form of processing, a form of deep meditation on the order of sleep, as they prepared for the next incarnation.

This fugue was the most complex music imaginable.  Indeed, the music seemed designed for those between lives.  The fugue was composed for astral plane habitués who, sans bodies, could best endure the music’s intensity.

Getting a sense that I really shouldn’t be there, plus the fact that I finally couldn’t get into the pipe organ, I started taking my leave of the place.

Galen, or the person who seemed a lot like him, and I then went out front.  There we waited for the specific tour buses to show up and take us away.  Whilst I waited with Galen, or the person who seemed a lot like him, I was joined by Pandora.

It seemed that most of the people who were here were very young-souled.  They seemed to be on a pilgrimage, like visiting the original Gohonzon in Japan or going on the Hajj, at Mecca.

As the pipe organ played, I could hear in the tone of the place a faint whisper from the men in white robes.  Their thoughts, it turned out, could be telepathically heard.  Even earlier, when I had been hovering in flight high above the complex, I knew that this was more so a political institution rather than not.

This was a structure which was just as colossal as the temple at Karnak and considerably older.  This place was mind-bogglingly complex and massive.  The temple was posited directly in the centre of it all.

Just like La Chapelle in Paris is comparably dwarfed, by its surroundings, so too the massive concert hall-like temple was dwarfed by the complex.  This architectural marvel was simply soul-inspiring.

Whilst all the buses were waiting, I took to one of the buses with Pandora.  I had gotten impatient waiting to be assigned to one.  We spoke in French because everyone else here did the same.

This was not unlike a Parisian bus – the seats all faced each other.  Seated close to the front, we were on the left side of the aisle behind the driver.

As though getting close to Saint-Sulpice Métro, I got up and said goodbye to Pandora.  I wanted to get off there then walk back to her rue de Grenelle apartment.

Pandora planned to go out then come home later so had asked me to wait for her at her place.  Here it seemed as if nighttime coming on to dawn.

Speaking guardedly in French, I made sure that I was speaking properly and not just fumbling partout.  Really, I rather enjoyed this experience of being together with Pandora.

I was very serene enjoying the very beautiful experience.  Galen, or the person who seemed a lot like him, had silently slipped from my side when Pandora came and joined me.

*Of course, it would turn out that the person in question was Louka Duplessis and not Galen.  I would meet Louka, who accompanied me in this dream, the day following this dream.

Just prior to meeting for the first time, it is not uncommon for me to dream of persons.

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Jessye Norman

Norman, Jessye 15/9/45,  Georgia

Jessye is a first level old priest in the passion mode, with a goal of rejection – functioning for the most part in the positive pole of discrimination, a spiritualist, in the emotional part of intellectual centre.

She has a Jupiter/Saturn body type.

Jessye’s primary chief feature is arrogance, with a secondary of stubbornness.

This fragment was third-cast in her cadence and her cadence is fifth in the greater cadence.  She is a member of entity five, cadre six, greater cadre 33, pod/node 212.

She has a discarnate priest essence twin whom she did know earlier in this life but this fragment died in Vietnam.  She has a warrior task companion and they have worked together and continue to do so occasionally.

Her three primary needs are: freedom, expression and power.

The warrior energy gives Jessye tremendous organisational powers and her stubbornness has enabled her to stick in there when the going got very rough many times.

Jessye is a warrior-cast priest who has been a spiritual rebel in this life.  This is, by the way, not the first time this fragment has sung professionally.  This fragment was a well-known castrato in seventeenth century Italy and performed many times before the crowned heads of Europe.

Jessye has great need to serve her concept of the higher ideal and has done so admirably by combining the folk music of her people with her operatic repertoire.

She performs well, as do most entity five fragments.  This fragment has always enjoyed her work.  Singing has been an extension of her inner spirituality.  It is, in fact, a form of meditation for her.  

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Now that’s a Hollywood wife!

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These rather lucidly awakened dreams were experienced with an intense sense of wonder and joy, on Monday, July 2, 1990.  At the time, the Moon transited both Scorpio and my sixth house.

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This first dream found me in a very busy place.  When going south towards the Danforth, it was not unlike being on Broadview Ave.  It was at nighttime.  I came there and found that there were tons and tons of Black people.

Even so, it seemed like Toronto and at Broadview Subway station because there are all these streetcars there.  One of the streetcars was improperly parked, as a result, it was going to go and turn around.

Waiting for it to do what it had to do, there was another streetcar out in the street.  It was really more like a red-rocket streetcar.  It was not like one of the newer ones.

Everyone here was Black.  There were no Whites or other non-Blacks that I saw.  Everybody was in the street which was very jam-packed.  They were getting ready to cross, after the streetcar had passed, to go in.

There was now a system, where you paid your fare aboard the streetcar, so that you did not have to enter the front doors of the station on Broadview.

When you got aboard the streetcar, it was mandatory that you pay a fare.  So it did not matter whether you paid a fare at the proper entrance or not.  There were many people queuing up to get aboard a streetcar.

Passing these people who were seated there, I went through the proper entrance.  One of them seemed like Gabriella Vartan and they were talking about me.

I came around and began going down the steps, into the nether regions, en route to the trains.  There was this little old lady who was taking her time, holding up things, so I pushed her to my right.

I made my way down then had to go around taking another flight of stairs; I then kept on going.  There were a whole lot of levels to this subway system.

When I got down, there was this little cul-de-sac where there were these Black guys – homeboys – hanging out.  However, they were not Black American.

I found one of them very attractive and smiled at him.  He, however, was very homophobic.  He went running upstairs to go call the police on me.

The train then came into the subway and it was a very, very large train.  It towered very high to the ceiling.  It was like an Amtrak train which seemed like a double Decker train.  It was mostly silver, however, it turned out not to have been double Decker.

When it stopped, I began running full speed because I did not want the guy to come back and board the same car as me.  I ran to the front of the train only to find that one couldn’t board there.  Instead, one could only enter this train where the cars joined each other.

You could enter the front or backdoors of each car but not the front ones of the first car.  It was very sleek, round and Deco like a train from the 1930s.

The whole place did have a feel of the ‘30s to it.  It was very neo-Gothic like the Chrysler or McGraw-Hill buildings in New York City, or for that matter, even the Empire State Building.

It was reminiscent of very early in the twentieth century which was all about great architecture – of things being large, mammoth and spiralling upwards, too, things getting faster and faster.

That sense of adventure about the wonderful world of commerce that one had created.  It was that time when people had not yet begun to see, as we now know, the consequences of things being bigger and better and faster and all the effects on nature.

I got onto the train heading, again, towards the front.  Somehow, I felt relieved because I had lost the guy.  I was there and noticed a stout man who was either High-Yellow or, perhaps, even White.

The people here were very strange because they were just rather unusual.  Even though they looked White, they seemed more bronzish, actual bronze, than the pinkish tonality of the waking state.

This was not a place that I knew.  It was very otherworldly here, I soon realised.  I did not get a seat and as I stood there I then noticed a woman.  She was standing at the very front of the train.

The train progressed with unusual speeds, I immediately noticed.  When the train had shaken, the stout man had tried to brace himself by putting out his foot that was already out in the aisle.

In the process, he had stomped me and I had had to pull my foot out from under his and pushed his away.  He wore business attire, a suit and tie, as though en route to an office job.

The woman who was standing up was playing on a wooden flute-like instrument that was less than a foot long.  However, the thing about all this was that she had unusually short arms.

They were fully functional hands with tiny little fingers that nimbly danced over the valves of the wooden, wind instrument.  Her arms were like a Thalidomide-damaged child’s.

Then I noticed too that there were other people on the train, about three or four musicians, practicing as well.  I soon realised that everyone on board had some sort of physical deformity.

They were just ill-proportioned people with torsos that were too long or arms that were too short.  Arms too long or what have you, moreover, this also applied to the legs.

The most pronounced cases were always the musicians like the female flautist – two or three of the other musicians were male.

Someone else who was on the train began laughing and, out of nervousness, I joined in.  The person was laughing at the woman.  She, however, hadn’t paid them any mind.

Nobody else was paying people, who were laughing, any mind.  They did not see anything wrong with the people who were being laughed at.

I then got off the train and was out in this concourse area, where the trains arrived, before I went upstairs.  Before I would go upstairs I saw this child seated in the middle of this white blanket that seemed more like diaper material than flannel.

The child wore a salmon-coloured merino.  He had little, white, cloth diapers on.  The infant had, again, very unusually, unusually short, short legs that made it look almost like a child because it was seated upright on its bottom.

However, it had a very big torso – matured, such that the child seemed like a very big, big child for its age.  Its head was very large with a very developed large and soulful-looking face.

At the time it made me thing of Jake Hudson.  Jake does have a very large head and face.  I was trying to connect with him.  He reached out his short little arms, crying out and said,

“Dad, I want to go.”

There was this youngish man, who was blond like the child, and he seemed not unlike the guy Olaf Knight.  He picked up his son and used the blanket, on which the child sat, that had these straps and put him around his shoulder.

Like an African mother would, carry her child when in the fields, thus he was carried on his father’s back.  He walked off with the child, who was holding on to him, except that the child was really an adult male.

It was all very strange here in this otherworldly place.

I ended up coming upstairs and going out in the outdoors.  There were people here – again, mostly Black people.  I was talking to them when I heard the strains of Richard Strauss‘s Four Last Songs beginning.

I beamed and excused myself from the people, with whom I was interacting, and went running off up this plaza.  It was a clay-tiled plaza and when I got there, I saw the symphony. 

I went and sat in lotus position and sat very close to the front.  There was a gathering of persons in a semicircle and I was, as a matter of fact, the closest to the stage.

The stage was above on a dais and it was edged by old gold juniper.  The juniper was really, really nice and quite fragrant, refreshingly so, to the smell.

Along came, from around a corner walking, Jessye Norman – the high priestess herself.  She had been preceded by her divine voice’s magic.  She was, of course, singing Four Last Songs.

She wore a beautiful, beautiful, glistening black dress that seemed almost organic with a life of its own.  It was twinkling on and off but the lights were lifelike like fireflies.

They were sequins but they seemed, somehow, to be organic.  It had hues of gold, silver, bronze, and dark green hues like pine and blue hues like lapis lazuli.  It was very, very intensely rich a fabric.

She started singing the first song, Frühling, and it was very hauntingly beautiful.  She saw me and beamed down at me.  It was so connected between us.  I was so enthralled and overpowered; I was quite smitten by her.

I thought very rapturously awakened,

‘Yes!  I’m having a dream of Jessye Norman.  So very good to see her again, my god here she is and performing Four Last Songs.’

She then came almost to the lip of the stage and stopped as though about to sneeze.  Then she held her breath and started laughing because it was so hysterical.

The look on my face was one of being truly horrified for her.  This had actually caused her to crack up.  Then she began singing again and began making gestures for me to move or be removed.

I was stunned and thought this some sort of betrayal.

‘Why is she snubbing me like this?’ I wondered.

Then these two huge, burly guys came to eject me out of the area.  As I was leaving, I could hear her starting to sing again.  I was very, very upset.

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I was, in the second dream, in this large house that was a very many-storeyed place.  It had many apartments.  I came out and it had a very slanted roof that one could go out onto.  This roof was, however, very dangerously precipitous.

I was looking about and thinking of Carl Leroiderien because, somehow, someone was talking about him.  This White man was talking to me and telling me that Carl had been enquiring after me.

He then went on to ask me if I smoked dope which I denied.  I can’t think of it doing anything for me except, perhaps, to make me sneeze at the most.  Sometimes if mixed with hashish, I then got a massive headache.

“It doesn’t do anything for me, I don’t really like it.  I don’t see the point to it and I don’t smoke it.”

At the time that he was saying this, we were climbing some very, very steep stairs.  Then at that point, after she had given her performance, I encountered Jessye Norman again.  She was seated on a bench and called me over.

She said hello very warmly and apologised saying,

“I hope you weren’t upset.  You realise that it was a misunderstanding.  I wasn’t laughing at you; it’s just that you don’t seem to realise where you were.

“You were, well there are certain degrees of protocol and you were ahead of the dignitaries.

“And you shouldn’t have been so close to the stage because one of the reasons why your nose started bleeding was, in this dimension, if you’re this close to the stage… when I’m singing, when I hit certain notes it can shatter your eardrums but also shatter your mind.

“So you see it was very crucial that I get you out of there.  Also, I was having a very bad allergic reaction to the plants at the edge of the dais.  They made me want to sneeze.  It wasn’t at all you or exclusively you.”

In having embraced me thus, she was being most healing.  I did, in fact, have quite the nosebleed.  As I was being hustled out of the place, by the burly guards, it was then that I realised that my nose was bleeding.

At the time, I had thought it strange.  As this dream progressed very lucidly and linearly, there was no point at which either burly guard had so much as touched me.

I was so upset.  It was so very good, after the fact, to have had her explain as she did.

*This dream really does validate the notion that all persons encountered in the dreamtime, without exceptions, are separate entities and not figments of one’s imagination.  END.

When I was being bounced by her, I was so stunned, upset and humiliated.  Had she not explained as she had just done, I would have awakened from this dream with a totally different perception of events.

I had also no way of knowing that she was having an allergic reaction to the juniper which, at the time, I found so wonderfully soothing.  What’s more, I hadn’t a clue that I had thrown the Chi of the place by having disrespected protocol.

I would never have thought that my nosebleed was due to her singing.  In fact, it is possible that I could have awakened and not recalled that, indeed, I had had a nosebleed which I had totally forgotten until she had mentioned it.

Jessye Norman has indeed straddled, with great élan and diplomacy, many a dimension with great frequency and fluency.

I then began holding her hand and told her that there were times that I had dreams of her, in which there were sometimes cetacean-looking creatures that came and did formations around her as she sang hyper-dimensionally.

She was just enthralled and pleased.  She squeezed my hands and laughed a healthy, really wonderful laugh.  She was quite smitten by me and encouraged me to write it all down.

Her eyes here were so very large, soulfully dark and focussed right into me.  It gave me a high just to have experienced them.

I was wearing, when close to the stage, a satin merino-like shirt.  So at the time of being bounced out, I had passingly thought that I had been dressed too scantily for her liking.

In any event, it was quite interesting.

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This third dream was truly hysterical.  It seemed like on Eglinton Avenue East, between Yonge Street and Mount Pleasant Road.  It was at nighttime.  There was a lot of goings on.

Shirley MacLaine was there, Warren Beatty and Madonna Ciccone, as well.  Warren Beatty was the man of the hour and the centre of everybody’s attention.

He had a great deal of sexual energy and magnetism.  He had been performing for the camera and for everybody around.  It felt very staid to me though.

One very interesting thing that happened was that he had been heavily drinking and, whilst laughing, had bent forward.  He then began uncontrollably coughing and was holding his chest and faking a massive heart attack.

Next thing you knew, we were in a very crowded area and it turned out that he had not been faking the heart attack.  He had a very, massive, massive heart attack.

He was dead just like that.  He was gone within moments.  It was just incredible.  Shirley MacLaine became utterly hysterical.  Her bawling was like from some Greek tragedy.

She went into a trance-like frenzied state and began calling on astral guides and her Pleiadean guides.  Pulling out a very impressive clutch of crystals, she threw herself onto him and tried healing him of death.

She was placing them all over his body – at the chakras and elsewhere.  It was too humourous for words.

Meanwhile, as Warren Beatty died, Madonna came rushing up to the scene.  It had all been too late and they couldn’t rush him to a hospital.  There was no way that he could have been revived.

They had been out in some desert area having a big party; there were no doctors around.  There was nothing that they could do; he couldn’t be saved.  He was dead… he was gone.

Shirley MacLaine started cursing to the gods, saying,

“This is so unfair.

“He hasn’t even been able to make the sequel to Dick Tracy.  And right when he’s at the top of his career this is happening?”

“Well you know this will really immortalise him now.  Definitely, this is great publicity, right at this point in his career.” someone had dryly said who was not attached to his whole entourage.

I had heard this but Shirley MacLaine hadn’t heard it.  Madonna came and whatever she thought about I could telepathically hear it.  Her immediate response was,

‘Oh shit!  This is just going to fuck up my goddamn career.

‘If only I’d gotten a child by him.  Shit why did I have to have that abortion of his child.  Shit!’

She was thinking fast.  She was someone who knew how to manipulate the media.  She was really pissed off because it would have meant immediate Hollywood sainthood for her, were she to go on and have Warren Beatty’s only child, after he had tragically died.

She was really pissed off because this was media manipulation beyond her wildest schemes,

‘I’ve got to get him out of here.  I’ve got to have the best genetic engineers flown in immediately…’

I was stunned when I read her thoughts because, of course, she intended to harvest his seed and impregnate herself and then have a premature love child of Warren Beatty’s.

I was stunned by this woman’s phenomenal megalomania.

‘During the autopsy, I’ll have his sperm taken out and I’ll have it copyrighted.  It’ll be my possession.  I’ll have it engineered so that I’ll have a child… a son.  God we can even have twins…’

She, all the while, was cowering over his face… kissing him and doing the wailing widow number,

‘…Can you imagine, Madonna?’

She privately squealed to herself – unaware, of course, that she was broadcasting to someone like me.  She was so triumphant at having had that idea because all she knew was that people who so loved Warren Beatty would take to her now.

She was insecure as to whether or not she would endure through time.  However, with this, she knew that she would automatically become iconic.  She would become truly the virgin mother!

She would be actually giving birth to some dead man’s child – he of course being, Warren Beatty.  It was destiny.  After all, she was ‘the’ Madonna.

She had this flash that this was why she had always been so drawn to crucifixes.  She was going to capitalise on the whole drama by making sure that it would be a son.

Of course, not to be outdone by that old, other Holy Mother with the virgin birth, she would eclipse that Madonna by having twin sons.  Again, La Stupenda squealed with delight to herself.

I passingly wondered if I were the only one to be privy to her thoughts.  Then I realised that from my detachment, as everyone bawled and was truly horrified as though these were Olympians and not mere mortals, that I was the only one.

‘What could be better than having two Warren Beatty lookalikes crawling around the planet and who were his twins?  And his only heirs!  With today’s genetic engineering it will be a great coup.

‘Think of the press!  I’ll be guaranteed perpetual immortality.  I’ll be iconised for all history…’

I thought then and there,

‘My god, this woman is monstrous.’

In any event, the funeral was upon us and by some strange quirk of the dreamtime, I was very much so a part of the funeral.  I was as though a fly on the wall, as it were, and aren’t you lucky?

Why, was I participating?  I do not know?

In any event, I was dressed to the nines.  I had on a wonderful, lace outfit with a mantilla with my veil covering my face.  I was part, somehow, of the funeral party.

It turned out that Warren Beatty had had five wives and, at the point at which he died, his fifth wife was a High-Yellow woman.  She was part Black, part White, partly Latina.

He had had all these wives.  They had always been paid and kept to remain silent.  They were never brought out in the public or media.  It was one of Hollywood’s biggest secrets.

People, obviously, never knew about it.  It had never once been spoken about.  There was an interesting turn to all of this… I had been going along Eglinton East on the south side.  It was as though I was going towards Yonge Street; however, it was not Eglinton Avenue East.

Madonna was going to be late because, luckily, it was that time of the month for her.  She was off having herself impregnated, by way of a turkey baster, with Warren Beatty’s frozen sperm – the planet’s most expensively rare caviar fertiliser of sorts.

I was attending the funeral with a short woman who was the fifth wife’s mother.  She seemed a lot like Sybil Ben-Daniel and wore a brown coat over her dress.  I walked with my right arm embracing her as she was on my right.

I had burly bodyguards all about me, before, beside and behind me.  They were real Mossad-goon-cum-Wrestlemania types.  My pants were those flare-legged Giorgio Armanis that allowed me to stride throwing my legs.

There was a lot of train to them and I had such utter style.  I had enormous energies about me and great flare.  My eyes were bedazzling even though mantilla-veiled.

They were what were, of course, fuelling my high spirits.  The onlookers were lapping up my entrance; I felt wonderful.

We then went into the church and the mother was talking about,

“We want the money to go to the Church because the Church is really the staple of society and civilisation.  The Church does so much good.”

I just decided to let her babble on and kept my tongue in check.  However, I cussed her under my breath saying,

“You demented old fool.  What Church are you talking about?”

The church had a metallic-silver front and it looked not unlike York Cinemas on Eglinton Avenue East.  It was not a very big church on the inside.  As we got inside, I turned around and hissed at one of the bodyguards because he had earlier stepped on my train.

Of course, we were surrounded then by the paparazzi and the little people.  His Bigfoot’s footprint was there on the pant’s train.  I reached back and slapped his face real hard calling him a fucking asshole.

Of course, I knew that it was safe to do it here because everyone here knew, only too well, that side of me.  However, I couldn’t wreck my public image doing so outside.

As we got closer to the church, I began striding firmer with each step in anticipation of getting his oafish arse.  I was really careful not to show that side of me when in public.

I started going down the aisle and there at the end was Warren Beatty’s corpse in the open casket.  It was a pure black casket that glistened.  It was a dark black wood and a really gorgeous casket.

Escorting the mother-in-law, I came all the way down the aisle.  I decided that I would go into the first pew on the right.  The first pew on the left actually went further down the aisle and did go past the casket.

It held men in white flowing robes; they were priest of whatever denomination this was – very cream, ivory-coloured and obviously very Catholic.

I went and sat down and immediately behind me was the fifth wife’s family.  They were very Hispanic-looking more so than Black.  They were very handsome in that family.

I turned around and smiled at one of the men and the energies coming from them weren’t as I had expected – I had thought that they would hate me.

I knew Madonna; I was apparently part of her hangers on.  Somehow, I had known her through dance.  I thought that, for that association, they would hate me.  However, they displayed no such hostilities towards me.  

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Finally, the fifth wife came and was walking very slowly, regally.  She carried a globular bouquet consisting of tiny, little white roses that were sprinkled in amongst some baby’s breath.  There were one or two little red roses as well.

She wore a white, lace outfit.  Deliberately dressed as though attending her wedding, she was not though veiled.  She came down to the casket and knelt before it, like Jacqueline Kennedy-Onassis at the rotunda, staking her claim on history by her performance.

She sobbed in a controlled breath and then got up and walked around to the right end of the casket.  Facing the church, she was now behind it and up on the altar.  She was before the pews on the left side of the aisle.

She knelt down again and this time began wailing and ululating.  She was doing ritual port de bras with her torso and head as well.  She kept on holding on to the bouquet.

It was a very Latin; a very emotional display; definitely, not Jacqueline Kennedy-Onassis.  It was very soulful and moving.  One really felt for her.

Finally, Madonna made her entrance and began slowly progressing down the aisle.  There was utter silence in the place because everybody was thinking,

‘Oh dear, poor Madonna was slutting with Warren Beatty at the point of his death.  Here is the fifth wife and is she going to create a scene or not?’

Well, of course, she is.  The fifth wife is Latin so, of course, there will be theatre.

When the fifth wife had been crossing the casket, I took in her body which was very wide-beamed.  I knew then, in a flash, that she was pregnant with Warren Beatty’s child and four months pregnant.

It was clearly no Immaculate Conception as per Madonna’s little trick.  She was a very big-boned woman.  She got up when Madonna entered the church and stopped crying.

Madonna saw her and avoided her glance as I turned and watched this fascinating bit of theatre unfold.  Everyone was really excited at the potential fireworks about to go off.

She started coming down to confront Madonna.  I immediately and intuitively knew that there was a gun inside the bouquet that the fifth wife so firmly clutched.

Positioning the gun, the fifth wife began holding the bouquet to her stomach.  Madonna, staying her ground, kept on proudly walking down the aisle.

She wore black; it was an outfit that was not dissimilar to mine.  She wore a short veil and not a mantilla like I did.

She came walking down towards the casket staying closer to the left pews.  The fifth wife came around the right side of the casket and was walking down the right side of the aisle looking at Madonna.

She had a very, very vexed and determined – an almost trance-like, expression of self-absorption on her face.  All the energy in her body was directed at Madonna.

When she was about five feet away from Madonna, she held up the bouquet and callously said,

“I’m going to blow your fucking brains out!”

It was filled with so much venom that it reverberated throughout the very high-ceilinged-though-tiny church.  It was also very Gothic an interior.

Madonna stopped truly catatonically horrified.  You could see it beyond the veil.  She had no entourage or bodyguards.  She showed up alone, so confident was she of the coup that she had just scored at the geneticist’s.

She was so flustered that she gallantly stuttered back,

“I dare you…”

She was very nervous and said very quickly with a weak, little laugh.  She was also vamping à la Breathless Mahoney – the character she played in Warren Beatty’s Dick Tracy film.

She was, however, visibly ashen.  Madonna was visibly shaken with fear.

Those persons in the left pews automatically screamed out and crouched down for cover because the fifth wife had held up the bouquet in both her outstretched arms like the gun that it so obviously hid.

“Come on.  You wouldn’t want to do that.  That’s just stupid…” Madonna bravely said.

“…You can’t do that.  Besides Warren’s already dead.  What are you trying to prove?  You can’t do this to me!  Don’t be stupid.”

The woman, however, started slowly walking towards her not buying her bullshit.  At that, Madonna turned around and started to bolt and she fell down over her long-trained dress.

She had already made it to the back of the pews on the left.  She was much too vain, to run outside and possibly be murdered in front of the little people.  So she got up and began running around the far side of the pews.

Of course, as she ran away, the fifth wife could easily have shot her in the back.  Then Madonna got really pissed off, stopped against the far left wall of the church, holding out her palm at her attacker saying,

“Stop it!  You don’t want to do this.  This is stupid.  You can’t kill me.  I’m Madonna!”

She was just winded; the expression on her face was unbridled rage, fear, terror, chutzpah, all in one.  Then the fifth wife pulled the trigger, which was the only sound in the place, releasing the magazine.

Madonna cried out and began pleading with her.  It was truly a spectacle.  It was really pathetic.  The fifth wife then pulled on the trigger and there was a loud plopping sound.

Everybody just screamed and the place became flooded with blinding blue light.  It turned out to have been an older-model camera and the flashbulb from the camera as it went off.  

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At that, the fifth wife laughed this loud, truly callous, heavy-from-the-womb, ripe, wicked, vindictive, victorious-all-in-one laugh.  It echoed throughout the church.

When her echo collapsed, as Madonna stood there truly disempowered, the fifth wife uttered in a weary breath,

“I always said to Warren that you’re an ugly slut.  This picture will prove it.”

At that the fifth wife turned and came and sat down on the pew next to me.  Her Latina family members were just going wild clapping and hysterically shrieking.

Now that’s a Hollywood wife!

Poor Madonna was still standing there involuntarily shaking.  She was holding her chest and gasping for air like an asthmatic.  Her left hand placed on her chest, with her right hand holding on to the pew, thus she stayed her ground.

Although her hand was on her chest, she was being most clever.  However I knew that really where it should have been was at her pussy because what the fifth wife instinctively knew, as did I, was that she had just miscarried.  Madonna was profusely bleeding.

Poor Madonna was so humiliated.  The look on her face was truly sad; she was sweaty and runny-nosed.  She soon collapsed and had to be taken away.  Of course, she would be beaten out of having Warren Beatty’s heir by the fifth wife.

The whole thing was so funny and hysterical.  I was so stunned that the fifth wife was going to pull this stunt.  I really thought that it was a gun; I had, at least, gotten this flash that it was a gun.

The idea to have a bolt release, affecting a gun, was truly ingenious.  The picture turned out to be truly horrific.  It was all a joke being played on Madonna by Hollywood’s film elites who could not have cared less about her and her parvenu ambitions.

The whole affair was so very wickedly political.  The whole thing was so hysterical.  I wondered as to what next was going to happen.

Is the fifth wife going to come forward and produce the first Warren Beatty heir – the true child?  A child that would look like Warren Beatty – more like a child of the future being of multiracial heritage and a bronzed version of Warren Beatty would the fifth wife bear.

What then will she do about Madonna’s copyright of Warren Beatty’s sperm?  Will the fifth wife, for producing the heir, win the legal rights to them and have them destroyed if she chooses to?

Will this not, in fact, begin a Pop Religion rivalling the King, Elvis Presley’s, if Madonna had won custody of the sperm and gone on to impregnate herself and bear those miscarried twin sons because of her bonds to Warren Beatty and his two pseudo-virgin-birthed children – sons at that?

Truly, this is iconography for the new millennium, indeed.

*A very, very interesting dream.  Certainly, that I would be dreaming about these people is interesting enough.  I don’t pay much attention to any of them beyond the passing.

I had seen Dick Tracy three weeks ago.  That the whole thing would evolve the way it did was rather insightful.  I was totally surprised, as much so, as was Madonna in the church.

I really did think that she was going to be shot.  I thought that it would be so messy.

You know, I just did not want having anybody’s can’t-wash-out bloodstains on my Giorgio Armani pants.

A truly, truly funny dream this was.

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*What can I say, dreams are purely experiential.  I dream it and awaken, immediately bringing forth the dream experiences, committing those experiences to audio-cassette tapes. 

I rather enjoyed being alone and visiting with Jessye Norman in the earlier dream.  Clearly, those dreams were set on a parallel Earth in another dimension and one in which the mostly Black population is differently proportioned than we humans of waking state Earth are. 

On the eve of the Oscars, I thought this a fitting offering.  I could never have fathomed the outcome of the fifth wife’s agendum until it unfolded.  Ingenious, to say the least, was her use of the bouquet. 

As ever, sweet dreams and don’t forget to push off and start flying… and so what if you bump into a wall, just attempt doing so again and this time believe that you can effortless transcend the barrier.  Perception is, alas, everything. 

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As ever my dear sweet ennobled friends, I am ever grateful for your continued support.  Please do spread the word, far and wide about this happening dream joint on the cosmic wide web.  Always remember to push off and start flying… I love you more.  

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©2013-2025 Arvin da Brgha.  All Rights Reserved.  

Merlin.

Merlin.

July 21, 1947 <O> November 18, 1989

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I could never have imagined surviving Merlin by 25 years.  More than that, I could never have fathomed how immensely enriched I would grow for having known and loved Merlin.  Certainly, I would never have imagined that our relationship would continue, merely otherly focussed, beyond his passing.  However, as many dreams herein have attested that we most definitely did and have.

I offer the links to three dreams had after Merlin’s passing – all of which are to be found in the ‘Dreams of Merlin’ category.  The first dream occurred as Merlin passed, the other two dreams three and four years after his passing.  Do enjoy and I trust that for your own loved ones, these dreams will inspire you to remain open and focussed on being attuned and ever in love with loved ones when they transition to merely being at a different vibration as astral plane habitués.

Incidentally, Merlin was reincarnated on December 2, 2006 as a first level old scholar in an old soul northern European country’s capital city.  Merlin’s soul has chosen in this lifetime to be female and yes, I have dreamt of this beautiful-eyed young woman.  Love ever endures.

These dreams, without a doubt, attest to Merlin and I having shared a most remarkable love affair.  All is choice.  Sweet dreams and love you and your loved ones even more!

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Photo: Merlin 1977 in Montréal.

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Anointed By the Exalted Mentor, Merlin!

As the Moon progressed through the early degrees of Gemini, transiting my first house, I would on taking to bed slip up past the folds of restfulness.  There I would awaken into the most lucid dream experiences had in long ages.

It was Saturday, July 25, 1992 – long after Merlin’s passing.  

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The first dream was set, at night time, in Sandy Point, St. Kitts where I had spent my childhood.  I was playing in the street, well past midnight, with three local youths.

All Rastafarians, too, they were all in their twenties.  I was my present age – thirty-one.  They were younger.

Everything about them was very real.  There was a direct focussed tenor to their gaze; they looked into you.  I felt very edgy with all this probity.

We had been acrobatically playing, in the street in front of the church, in The Alley, Sandy Point, St. Kitts.  Of course, that same church Harella had built twenty-two years prior in the waking state.

I tried not to outshine them, with my leaping tumbles, for fear of escalating the tension in the air.  There was an edge to our interactions.  It was a tension born of my having been so long off-island and their being suspicious, I thought, of my outré sexuality.

Just then, I noticed a light streaking across the star-punctured sky.  In a bid to diffuse the tension between us, I drew their attention to it.  However, I soon noticed that its progress was unusual.

There was also something distinctly different about this light.  It caused me to recall similar icons in dreams past – each had presaged rather momentous visions.

Like all those before it, this streaking light seemed a silent observant probe.  Immediately, I became open to what this comet-like streaking star could later reveal.

I began to explain to the youngest Rastafarian who was an impish, sexually-dynamic beauty – he was not the least bit self-conscious of his missing front teeth – that it was no doubt a very high geostationary satellite that had bombed and was now crashing to Earth.

Further, I speculated that it was no doubt an orbiting space shuttle presently reflecting Sol’s intense light.  As I spoke, I knew that I did not really believe either explanation but I thought that the ideas were a good way to ameliorate my position in the dynamic.

The ruse failed to have done the trick.  On returning my attention to the group, I was sent bolting – the leader was menacingly lunging through the air towards me, with a raptor’s ease, in eager flight.

Soon I also was in flight being chased through the streets of a Sandy Point, St. Kitts which quickly morphed and shifted becoming, more and more populous, like parts of old Havana.  I was not certain which city this was but I was definitely still in the Caribbean.

I managed to escape into a house where I very energetically fought off their advance, securing the locks to the front door, thereby shutting them out.  I climbed up the narrow and steep flight of stairs, in near-darkness, to the safety of the second storey.

Winded and more enraged than stunned, at their behaviour, I took the time to gather my breath.  I briefly visited with my aunt Pilar do Aragão† and Pandora – the latter whom Merlin favoured the most of my siblings.

They were unaware of the tumult that I had just endured.

I took refuge in the darkened front of the house’s second storey.  Next I found myself, in one of those rare dream moments, actually falling asleep whilst lucidly dreaming.

I nodded… on recovering, I found that I had come to in an apartment.  It was one more opulent than the one in which I had just grown suddenly drowsy.

On a red antique chaise longue, in the most beautifully dark, wood-panelled, high-ceilinged digs that I had ever seen, I was now seated.  Across the room was an open door that led out to a veranda.

A dark awning provided ample shade and allowed just the cool tropical breezes to laze in satiating the spirit.  To have awakened into this new dreamspace had left my awareness more sensitised… more absorbing.

The dream became more lucid and any sense of time dissolved.  This left every moment infused with a sense of mysticism – magic even.  It definitely felt like the West Indies here, perhaps, old-money Haïti or Guadeloupe if not Cuba.

Slowly, I drank in every detail of the stately furnished room.  There were, on both walls to my left and right, floor-to-ceiling shelves which were not untidily crammed with old leather-bound volumes – some red, some brown, most were black.

Slowly, from where I reclined, I pinpointed my vision to check the titles of some of the books.  Thus I was able to see and read them, as intimately, as if I had gotten up and gone to stand before them closely peering.

They were mostly ancient volumes.  However, the script was not vaguely recognisable like any of the innumerable ones on the other, more familiar side of the dreamtime.

My spirit soared, as I felt fully relaxed, in this most bucolic of dreams.  Strangely, though not unusual for the realm of the dreamtime, I felt that for having looked at these laden bookshelves my mind had absorbed the library’s voluminous wealth.

Just then there was movement, to my right, across the room.  I saw a cat that looked much like Whoopi.  It appeared from behind one of three sofas, skulking towards another, situated opposite across the room.

Each sofa, like the chaise longue on which I reclined, had beside it a small round table.  Each table was covered in either rich, dark earthy damask or actual rugs in deep though muted red.  I was immediately reminded of the round table, across which sat the sibylline woman from Merlin and I, in the dreams of September 4, 1988.

I sat up calling her name,

“Whoopi!  Whoopi!” at which moment, the cat shimmered and became Julio – our black cat at 20 Amelia Street in Cabbagetown who, like Whitney before him, was killed in a hit-and-run as he ran across Amelia Street on New Year’s Eve, 1987.

As I watched the cat disappear behind one of the three sofas, which accompanied my chaise longue, my mouth froze open in amazement.  Whilst I assimilated that one and thought to myself that this certainly was a most unusual and lucid dream, there was utter stillness.

The cat’s metamorphosis had discernibly shifted the vibration of the dream.  Now time seemed considerably measured as compared to its usual frenetic rhythm.

The door in the far right corner then opened… into the room walked Merlin.

*I can’t here relay the rapture I felt on seeing him but the ecstatic descriptive of dream audio-cassette recording, for that day, comes fairly close.  END.

Overwhelmed with emotion, my body quivered throughout.  I tried to rouse from my reclining position.  My arms outstretched to him, I greeted him squealing with delight.

He stood, just in the entrance, raising his brows with the left familiarly arched higher.  Staying me with the index and middle fingers of his raised right hand,

“No, don’t get up…” I heard Merlin direct me with the quiet familiarity that our intimacy knew.

This directive I telepathically experienced as though we were squinging up in bed, in the dark, at 20 Amelia Street in Toronto’s Cabbagetown.  Our souls tickled, at such times, as we listened to some glorious thunderstorm drowning out the dog days of a too-hot-and-humid, Toronto summer.

I obliged, sitting upright on the edge of the plush chaise longue, for the first time placing my feet on the beautifully designed and predominantly red rug.  His face warmed towards me in a smile.

At once my mind expanded, simultaneously processing on multiple levels, becoming even more awakened.  Rapture… pure rapture – I was enthralled.

Here again, Merlin wore all the evolved energies that he had in that first dream encounter – that dream, of course, set in a Pacific west coast rainforest that was not unlike Vancouver Island’s Cathedral Grove in July 1978.  A dream, of course, which occurred four years before I would physically meet him in the waking state.

Slowly, he walked the short distance of the room towards me.  A breeze coming from the veranda not only cooled the place but it shifted the ambiance and made the place grow dimmer.

The dimness highlighted the definite soft yellow glow that girdled his entire form.  I sat there thinking,

‘My god, I can actually see your aura Merlin.’

He smiled and I was reminded that everything that I thought was instantly being telepathically shared.

I was passive… moreover I was ripened as though I had just experienced an Alfred Brendel recital.  I felt so lightheaded that I firmly pressed down both my palms, into the chaise longue’s plush red velvet, bracing myself.

Merlin came and stood before me.  He was casually dressed in loose, earthen woollen clothing.  A cloak he wore stylishly draped about his narrow shoulders with its cowl removed.

As I looked up into his face, besotted by the beauty of his soul’s magic, he slowly arched his left brow in the way he had always affected when he wanted to be intimate.  Merlin’s magical expression was exactly as it was, that gibbous-Moon October night, when we met in Babylon – which now for him was truly a lifetime removed.

My face liquidly melted away in a smile.  I was warmed by the knowledge that I was dreaming and that here before me was a man, Merlin, with whom I had shared such wonderful fortune. He had shared his grace, along with his beauty and his intellect, in the most magical combination with me.

As we made eye contact, still never having said a word, he slowly knelt into the bay of my open legs.  Enthralled, my eyes slowly and unflinchingly shifted to look down into his as now he knelt before me.

He wore his glasses, his beard cropped close, his hair styled in a leonine full-bodied mane.

Moreover, I was moved by just how much this pose reflected the last night we had spent together – November 17, 1989.  With an acuity rarely achieved in the waking state, my mind lucidly assimilated this rapturous encounter.

Here before me knelt Merlin.  Merlin was the very embodiment of wholesome health, healing my spirit, releasing me from so much of the pain that I had endured.

Like that last night of his life, before dying of AIDS, I was overcome with emotion.  However, owing to the healing that this moment affected, now I wanted to melt in tears of joy.

More than that, the moment’s poignancy rose from how uncannily it mirrored our final encounter.

About his slender long neck, Merlin wore a necklace of thick, copper-coloured coil that looked not the least bit malleable.  The coil was half an inch in diameter and set with beautiful large crystals of various colours.

The coil moved through each stone’s centre and each stone was deeply etched with golden hieroglyphs.  Although Mayan hieroglyphs bore the closest resemblance, the inscriptions resembled none in this planet’s long history.

The effect of the bronze-coloured coil and crystals was grounding.  The crystals gave off a low rumbling hum that was felt.  It was akin to the definite effect of my pyramid, in the waking state, but easily thrice as intense.

There were seven crystals in all.  Principally, there was the large, smoky rough-hued quartz set at the bottom of the circular coil.

Its design slowly shifted from within but its glow seemingly originating elsewhere.  It was huge and by far the most powerful.

One quarter the way around the circle, which was duplicated on the opposite side, there were three crystals.  The crystal in the middle was like nothing imaginable in the waking state.  It was a coppery-bronzed colour with hints of blue-lapis lazuli dust throughout which actually glistened.

With any slight movement, the dust shifted becoming copper-coloured.  When the colour shifted, I experienced a correspondingly subtle shift in the serenity that I felt.

The unusual central crystal was flanked by two small and perfectly clear crystals.  They were more radiant and powerful than any multiple-carat diamond yet found in the waking state.

It was actually difficult to sustain my focus on their exquisite beauty overlong.  They were dynamic and seemingly made of the heaviest element imaginable.

I was so pleased to see Merlin.  The necklace he wore was like a grounding conductor.  Seemingly, in order to manifest from his dimension to this dimensional dreamspace, he needed the energies of the crystals to join me.

He wore an argyle sweater that was not unlike one of the pastel ones I had bought him one Christmas.  This one though was an earthy brown which he had, years earlier, interestingly claimed to have preferred.

He effortlessly removed the crystal necklace placing it at my feet.  The humming abruptly ceased.  The crystals’ effect immediately shifted.  I actually felt a cool energy, from the crystals, buzz through my entire body travelling from my feet to the crown of my head.

I watched as he detached the different crystals and made sure to leave the central one on the coil.  Somehow, he was able to remove the six crystals from the coil though the coil remained a perfectly whole circle.

As he kept placing the crystals, in different circular formations at my feet, he kept looking up at me with the warmest direct stare.  Each formation affected a different temporal lobe and corresponding area of my body.

I was experiencing crystals with a potency that never before had I known in the waking state.  I felt splayed by the experience.

There were times that I felt as though my body and head were being stretched – elastically elongated with an ease nowhere else possible except the astral plane in the dreamtime.

I thought then how absolutely incredible this man Merlin was – how truly fortunate I was to have met him, to have known him, to love him.

The lights noticeably further dimmed in the room.  Next, the central large crystal grew black changing into the most unusual design.  There had been an incredible energetic drain from me – energy which I suppose was collected in the now-transformed crystal which had remained about the coil.

From his left breast pocket, Merlin retrieved a little black pouch.  As he looked down at it, I said to him,

“Oh my god Merlin, you are so beautiful…”

I knew that I was dreaming and I was thinking at the time,

‘…I will never be able to meet you, again.  I’ll never see you again.  You’ll never be that perfect mélange of bloodlines that created the magic that was your every idiosyncrasy.’

He looked up and smiled making me again realise that everything, we said without speaking, was so very clearly, readily known to the other.

As he opened the little black pouch, my lips trembled.  I looked at those utterly gentle fingers that, I thought in passing, were now ashes in the earth at Toronto’s Mount Pleasant Cemetery,

‘Oh yes… those fingers, those beautiful delicate fingers.

‘Oh my god, yes…’ I simultaneously thought,

‘…These fingers, I will never see; they’ll never touch me again in the waking state – they’ll never exist again.’

Then, as if to eclipse my melancholy, he gently took my right hand in his.  Merlin’s still-sensual hands purposefully began pouring the little, black pouch’s contents into mine.

The touch of him was as intimate and as gentle, an evocative memory, as absent waves heard distantly lapping ashore on the beach in Pump Bay during childhood.  How, as in the still of the night, my mind would race wondering of what new vistas I was yet to dream – when I was a child in St. Kitts.

All along, I had restrained the desire to touch him for he seemed so much more evolved.  Truth be told, I was afraid that to physically reach out to touch him would only dissolve the dream.

Naturally, for becoming emotionally overwhelmed, the fear was that I would undoubtedly whiteout.  However, his touch was so real and so very familiar that I let out a heavy familiar sigh.

Into my palm spilled a dozen, perhaps more, of the most beautiful tiny crystals that were quite powerful.  The touch of them actually made my mind further expand.

My head seemed to contort, once again, with an élan that matched the lightning speed with which I assimilated the intense energies from the clutch of crystals into me.

They were more leaden, easily by ten times, than their small size betrayed.  They glowed and they were decidedly hypnotic.  They emitted a sense of music that was more experienced than heard.

In spite of the fact that they glowed, I brushed aside the beauty of them and chose instead the real magic.  I took his free hand with mine and began holding it, rubbing it, squeezing it.

Even more intently, I looked overjoyed into his arrestingly soulful eyes.  I began groaning, moaning, I was overcome with intense emotion.

This was, by far, the most alive and most lucid dream with Merlin since his passing some three years ago.  I wanted more… I wanted no moment of this great intimacy to stop.

I asked him to remove his glasses so that I could really look at his eyes.  He obliged and when he removed them his eyes weren’t their smoky grey-hazel-faded blue.

They were brown, in fact, but they were his eyes and I thought,

‘My god, you’ve got brown eyes,’ to which he slightly blushed.

He wore a beard; it was the usual bushy affair.  His lips were so moist, I said,

“My darling, kiss me.”

Taking the lead, as I had when we met, I held the bottom of his ticklish beard and reached up his face to mine as I bent down.  We kissed each other.

It readily became a wonderfully slow and timeless dance high up our entwined greenhouses.  My spirits soared to even greater heights.  It was the greatest pleasure.

It was quite simply a sensory whiteout.  We did not use tongue.  We just kissed each other on the mouth.  Throughout, until it was no longer possible, our eyes remained perfectly glued to each other’s.

I turned my head to the right to kiss him, again.  It was a soft lingering kiss; it was a kiss of complete surrender in which was communicated so much.

As though he and I were two leviathan creatures swimming together in a sensual medium of liquid blue light, our intimacy was pure movement.  This aqueous light medium was immensely heavy and inhibited our progression to a slow-motioned crawl.

Progressing playfully, as though so many nanoseconds were deleted from each time-stretched moment, we effortlessly danced alone.  We were together and enraptured in a universe just for two – Merlin and me.

It was such great pleasure that, in its shared intimacy, it reflected the idiosyncrasies that we had known so well.  It was a continuation of the dance we familiarly had always intimately known.

It was such incredible intimacy that when the kiss was concluded the dream dissolved…

I sighed, on a deep sustained breath, besotted with the beauty of Merlin’s spirit.  This was a most rare dream, a most soulful of dreams, with the dream magus.

The sound of my breath was so loud that I actually felt the weight of my high-dreamer self as I crashed back into my body from, being astral-projected, high up the astral plane.

I felt fatigued, I felt spent, as is customary with such dream travel.  Whilst remaining still, I kept my lids shut.

Focussing on my weary breath, I allowed myself to drift upwards again.  This time, I melted into true sleep where I could rest and recoup my energies.

I awoke, about an hour later, in the nearly dark room of my tiny Queen Street West apartment in Toronto.  Rested, I was truly rejuvenated after all that astral projection in the first sleep cycle.

As is customary with reparatory sleep, there were no dreams recalled of the second sleep cycle.  I cried…  I cried for joy.

The realness of Merlin was so intense that after crying, for the first time since his passing, I grew aroused after dream contact.  I savoured the beauty of this man, Merlin, my elfin-dream magus.

Pulling the black, satin blindfold back over my eyes, I slipped onto my stomach between the red satin bedding.  Tightly holding on to a pillow, my left cheek pressed into it and the bedding drawn up over my head, I withdrew into a sweat lodge where I could continue communing with Merlin’s very soul.

My right knee drawn up, I allowed my rock-hard cock to ride up against the bedding and away from my tummy.  Slowly, kneadingly, I ground my winding pelvis into the luxury of the bedding.

Ploughing away, beyond its wet folds, I massaged my lusty thoughts deep and high up into the magical greenhouse.  Whispering his name, my lips, my abs and body quivered.

From time to time, I managed my way up onto my toes.  This allowed the exquisite play of cock and bedding to draw out greater pleasure.

My abs ached.  Whilst sweat sheened throughout my shivering body, I shuddered as the inside of my thighs violently tremoured.  Merlin still knew how to work his magic on me.

Losing myself, my breath collapsed in repeated noisy, exhausted, shuddered grunts and groans.  I whispered his name proclaiming my love to that point.

In no other way could I have celebrated this truly profound astral plane encounter with Merlin in the dreamtime.  As ever, hands-free auto-eroticism resulted in a most profuse and exquisitely pleasurable orgasm.

So richly deserving was I to have lost myself this way – beyond the usual daily auto-erotic ritual.  I needed to savour this momentous dream encounter by making a solemn ritual of pleasurable thanksgiving.

I had been moved anew by Merlin’s magic.

*Regardless your combination, there is no greater gift to receive than the love of another whom one has chosen to completely give of self.  There is no greater validation of love’s superiority than to experience love from another, who has transitioned onto the next octave in that soul’s maturation, in a lucidly awakened dream as this shared between Merlin and me. 

We have all loved and been loved and may you dear dreamer, by opening yourself up, experience your own moments of rapture as I did in this rhapsodic astral plane encounter with the one, the man, the elfin, the fuck-all fabulous, the ganja-smoking, groovy shaman from Babylon, Merlin! 

The mark of a truly great love affair is the fruit it bears… dreams. 

Sweet dreams you, I love you more!  END.

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Photo: Merlin & Arvin Niagara-on-the-Lake, autumn ’87, photo by actor, Wayne Robson.

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Now That’s A Hollywood Wife!

a madonna mtv 1990

These rather lucidly awakened dreams were experienced with an intense sense of wonder and joy, on Monday, July 2, 1990.  At the time, the Moon transited both Scorpio and my sixth house.  

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This first dream found me in a very busy place.  When going south towards the Danforth, it was not unlike being on Broadview Ave.  It was at night time.  I came there and found that there were tons and tons of Black people.

Even so, it seemed like Toronto and at Broadview Subway station because there are all these streetcars there.  One of the streetcars was improperly parked, as a result, it was going to go and turn around.

Waiting for it to do what it had to do, there was another streetcar out in the street.  It was really more like a red-rocket streetcar.  It was not like one of the newer ones.

Everyone here was Black.  There were no Whites or other non-Blacks that I saw.  Everybody was in the street which was very jam-packed.  They were getting ready to cross, after the streetcar had passed, to go in.

There was now a system, where you paid your fare aboard the streetcar, so that you did not have to enter the front doors of the station on Broadview.

When you got aboard the streetcar, it was mandatory that you pay a fare.  So it did not matter whether you paid a fare at the proper entrance or not.  There were many people queuing up to get aboard a streetcar.

Passing these people who were seated there, I went through the proper entrance.  One of them seemed like Gabriella Vartan and they were talking about me.

I came around and began going down the steps, into the nether regions, en route to the trains.  There was this little old lady who was taking her time, holding up things, so I pushed her to my right.

I made my way down then had to go around taking another flight of stairs; I then kept on going.  There were a whole lot of levels to this subway system.

When I got down, there was this little cul-de-sac where there were these Black guys – homeboys – hanging out.  However, they were not Black American.

I found one of them very attractive and smiled at him.  He, however, was very homophobic.  He went running upstairs to go call the police on me.

The train then came into the subway and it was a very, very large train.  It towered very high to the ceiling.  It was like an Amtrak train which seemed like a double Decker train.  It was mostly silver, however, it turned out not to have been double Decker.

When it stopped, I began running full speed because I did not want the guy to come back and board the same car as me.  I ran to the front of the train only to find that one couldn’t board there.  Instead, one could only enter this train where the cars joined each other.

You could enter the front or backdoors of each car but not the front ones of the first car.  It was very sleek, round and Deco like a train from the 1930s.

The whole place did have a feel of the ‘30s to it.  It was very neo-Gothic like the Chrysler or McGraw-Hill buildings in New York City, or for that matter, even the Empire State Building.

It was reminiscent of very early in the twentieth century which was all about great architecture – of things being large, mammoth and spiralling upwards, too, things getting faster and faster.

That sense of adventure about the wonderful world of commerce that one had created.  It was that time when people had not yet begun to see, as we now know, the consequences of things being bigger and better and faster and all the effects on nature.

I got onto the train heading, again, towards the front.  Somehow, I felt relieved because I had lost the guy.  I was there and noticed a stout man who was either High-Yellow or, perhaps, even White.

The people here were very strange because they were just rather unusual.  Even though they looked White, they seemed more bronzish, actual bronze, than the pinkish tonality of the waking state.

This was not a place that I knew.  It was very otherworldly here, I soon realised.  I did not get a seat and as I stood there I then noticed a woman.  She was standing at the very front of the train.

The train progressed with unusual speeds, I immediately noticed.  When the train had shaken, the stout man had tried to brace himself by putting out his foot that was already out in the aisle.

In the process, he had stomped me and I had had to pull my foot out from under his and pushed his away.  He wore business attire, a suit and tie, as though en route to an office job.

The woman who was standing up was playing on a wooden flute-like instrument that was less than a foot long.  However, the thing about all this was that she had unusually short arms.

They were fully functional hands with tiny little fingers that nimbly danced over the valves of the wooden, wind instrument.  Her arms were like a Thalidomide-damaged child’s.

Then I noticed too that there were other people on the train, about three or four musicians, practicing as well.  I soon realised that everyone on board had some sort of physical deformity.

They were just ill-proportioned people with torsos that were too long or arms that were too short.  Arms too long or what have you, moreover, this also applied to the legs.

The most pronounced cases were always the musicians like the female flautist – two or three of the other musicians were male.

Someone else who was on the train began laughing and, out of nervousness, I joined in.  The person was laughing at the woman.  She, however, hadn’t paid them any mind.

Nobody else was paying people, who were laughing, any mind.  They did not see anything wrong with the people who were being laughed at.

I then got off the train and was out in this concourse area, where the trains arrived, before I went upstairs.  Before I would go upstairs I saw this child seated in the middle of this white blanket that seemed more like diaper material than flannel.

The child wore a salmon-coloured merino.  He had little, white, cloth diapers on.  The infant had, again, very unusually, unusually short, short legs that made it look almost like a child because it was seated upright on its bottom.

However, it had a very big torso – matured, such that the child seemed like a very big, big child for its age.  Its head was very large with a very developed large and soulful-looking face.

At the time it made me thing of Jake Hudson.  Jake does have a very large head and face.  I was trying to connect with him.  He reached out his short little arms, crying out and said,

“Dad, I want to go.”

There was this youngish man, who was blond like the child, and he seemed not unlike the guy Olaf Knight.  He picked up his son and used the blanket, on which the child sat, that had these straps and put him around his shoulder.

Like an African mother would, carry her child when in the fields, thus he was carried on his father’s back.  He walked off with the child, who was holding on to him, except that the child was really an adult male.

It was all very strange here in this otherworldly place.

I ended up coming upstairs and going out in the outdoors.  There were people here – again, mostly Black people.  I was talking to them when I heard the strains of Richard Strauss‘s Four Last Songs beginning.

I beamed and excused myself from the people, with whom I was interacting, and went running off up this plaza.  It was a clay-tiled plaza and when I got there, I saw the symphony.

I went and sat in lotus position and sat very close to the front.  There was a gathering of persons in a semicircle and I was, as a matter of fact, the closest to the stage.

The stage was above on a dais and it was edged by old gold juniper.  The juniper was really, really nice and quite fragrant, refreshingly so, to the smell.

Along came, from around a corner walking, Jessye Norman – the high priestess herself.  She had been preceded by her divine voice’s magic.  She was, of course, singing Four Last Songs.

She wore a beautiful, beautiful, glistening black dress that seemed almost organic with a life of its own.  It was twinkling on and off but the lights were lifelike like fireflies.

They were sequins but they seemed, somehow, to be organic.  It had hues of gold, silver, bronze, and dark green hues like pine and blue hues like lapis lazuli.  It was very, very intensely rich a fabric.

She started singing the first song, Frühling, and it was very hauntingly beautiful.  She saw me and beamed down at me.  It was so connected between us.  I was so enthralled and overpowered; I was quite smitten by her.

I thought very rapturously awakened,

‘Yes!  I’m having a dream of Jessye Norman.  So very good to see her again, my god here she is and performing Four Last Songs.’

She then came almost to the lip of the stage and stopped as though about to sneeze.  Then she held her breath and started laughing because it was so hysterical.

The look on my face was one of being truly horrified for her.  This had actually caused her to crack up.  Then she began singing again and began making gestures for me to move or be removed.

I was stunned and thought this some sort of betrayal.

‘Why is she snubbing me like this?’ I wondered.

Then these two huge, burly guys came to eject me out of the area.  As I was leaving, I could hear her starting to sing again.  I was very, very upset.

I was, in the second dream, in this large house that was a very many-storeyed place.  It had many apartments.  I came out and it had a very slanted roof that one could go out onto.  This roof was, however, very dangerously precipitous.

I was looking about and thinking of Carl Leroiderien because, somehow, someone was talking about him.  This White man was talking to me and telling me that Carl had been enquiring after me.

He then went on to ask me if I smoked dope which I denied.  I can’t think of it doing anything for me except, perhaps, to make me sneeze at the most.  Sometimes if mixed with hashish, I then got a massive headache.

“It doesn’t do anything for me, I don’t really like it.  I don’t see the point to it and I don’t smoke it.”

At the time that he was saying this, we were climbing some very, very steep stairs.  Then at that point, after she had given her performance, I encountered Jessye Norman again.  She was seated on a bench and called me over.

She said hello very warmly and apologised saying,

“I hope you weren’t upset.  You realise that it was a misunderstanding.  I wasn’t laughing at you; it’s just that you don’t seem to realise where you were.

“You were, well there are certain degrees of protocol and you were ahead of the dignitaries.

“And you shouldn’t have been so close to the stage because one of the reasons why your nose started bleeding was, in this dimension, if you’re this close to the stage… when I’m singing, when I hit certain notes it can shatter your eardrums but also shatter your mind.

“So you see it was very crucial that I get you out of there.  Also, I was having a very bad allergic reaction to the plants at the edge of the dais.  They made me want to sneeze.  It wasn’t at all you or exclusively you.”

In having embraced me thus, she was being most healing.  I did, in fact, have quite the nosebleed.  As I was being hustled out of the place, by the burly guards, it was then that I realised that my nose was bleeding.

At the time, I had thought it strange.  As this dream progressed very lucidly and linearly, there was no point at which either burly guard had so much as touched me.

I was so upset.  It was so very good, after the fact, to have had her explain as she did.

*This dream really does validate the notion that all persons encountered in the dreamtime, without exceptions, are separate entities and not figments of one’s imagination.  END.

When I was being bounced by her, I was so stunned, upset and humiliated.  Had she not explained as she had just done, I would have awakened from this dream with a totally different perception of events.

I had also no way of knowing that she was having an allergic reaction to the juniper which, at the time, I found so wonderfully soothing.  What’s more, I hadn’t a clue that I had thrown the Chi of the place by having disrespected protocol.

I would never have thought that my nosebleed was due to her singing.  In fact, it is possible that I could have awakened and not recalled that, indeed, I had had a nosebleed which I had totally forgotten until she had mentioned it.

Jessye Norman has indeed straddled, with great élan and diplomacy, many a dimension with great frequency and fluency.

I then began holding her hand and told her that there were times that I had dreams of her, in which there were sometimes cetacean-looking creatures that came and did formations around her as she sang hyper-dimensionally.

She was just enthralled and pleased.  She squeezed my hands and laughed a healthy, really wonderful laugh.  She was quite smitten by me and encouraged me to write it all down.

Her eyes here were so very large, soulfully dark and focussed right into me.  It gave me a high just to have experienced them.

I was wearing, when close to the stage, a satin merino-like shirt.  So at the time of being bounced out, I had passingly thought that I had been dressed too scantily for her liking.

In any event, it was quite interesting.

This third dream was truly hysterical.  It seemed like on Eglinton Avenue East, between Yonge Street and Mount Pleasant Road.  It was at nighttime.  There was a lot of goings on.

Shirley MacLaine was there, Warren Beatty and Madonna Ciccone, as well.  Warren Beatty was the man of the hour and the centre of everybody’s attention.

He had a great deal of sexual energy and magnetism.  He had been performing for the camera and for everybody around.  It felt very staid to me though.

One very interesting thing that happened was that he had been heavily drinking and, whilst laughing, had bent forward.  He then began uncontrollably coughing and was holding his chest and faking a massive heart attack.

Next thing you knew, we were in a very crowded area and it turned out that he had not been faking the heart attack.  He had a very, massive, massive heart attack.

He was dead just like that.  He was gone within moments.  It was just incredible.  Shirley MacLaine became utterly hysterical.  Her bawling was like from some Greek tragedy.

She went into a trance-like frenzied state and began calling on astral guides and her Pleiadean guides.  Pulling out a very impressive clutch of crystals, she threw herself onto him and tried healing him of death.

She was placing them all over his body – at the chakras and elsewhere.  It was too humourous for words.

Meanwhile, as Warren Beatty died, Madonna came rushing up to the scene.  It had all been too late and they couldn’t rush him to a hospital.  There was no way that he could have been revived.

They had been out in some desert area having a big party; there were no doctors around.  There was nothing that they could do; he couldn’t be saved.  He was dead… he was gone.

Shirley MacLaine started cursing to the gods, saying,

“This is so unfair.

“He hasn’t even been able to make the sequel to Dick Tracy.  And right when he’s at the top of his career this is happening?”

“Well you know this will really immortalise him now.  Definitely, this is great publicity, right at this point in his career.” someone had dryly said who was not attached to his whole entourage.

I had heard this but Shirley MacLaine hadn’t heard it.  Madonna came and whatever she thought about I could telepathically hear it.  Her immediate response was,

‘Oh shit!  This is just going to fuck up my goddamn career.

‘If only I’d gotten a child by him.  Shit why did I have to have that abortion of his child.  Shit!’

She was thinking fast.  She was someone who knew how to manipulate the media.  She was really pissed off because it would have meant immediate Hollywood sainthood for her, were she to go on and have Warren Beatty’s only child, after he had tragically died.

She was really pissed off because this was media manipulation beyond her wildest schemes,

‘I’ve got to get him out of here.  I’ve got to have the best genetic engineers flown in immediately…’

I was stunned when I read her thoughts because, of course, she intended to harvest his seed and impregnate herself and then have a premature love child of Warren Beatty’s.

I was stunned by this woman’s phenomenal megalomania.

‘During the autopsy, I’ll have his sperm taken out and I’ll have it copyrighted.  It’ll be my possession.  I’ll have it engineered so that I’ll have a child… a son.  God we can even have twins…’

She, all the while, was cowering over his face… kissing him and doing the wailing widow number,

‘…Can you imagine, Madonna?’

She privately squealed to herself – unaware, of course, that she was broadcasting to someone like me.  She was so triumphant at having had that idea because all she knew was that people who so loved Warren Beatty would take to her now.

She was insecure as to whether or not she would endure through time.  However, with this, she knew that she would automatically become iconic.  She would become truly the virgin mother!

She would be actually giving birth to some dead man’s child – he of course being, Warren Beatty.  It was destiny.  After all, she was ‘the’ Madonna.

She had this flash that this was why she had always been so drawn to crucifixes.  She was going to capitalise on the whole drama by making sure that it would be a son.

Of course, not to be outdone by that old, other Holy Mother with the virgin birth, she would eclipse that Madonna by having twin sons.  Again, La Stupenda squealed with delight to herself.

I passingly wondered if I were the only one to be privy to her thoughts.  Then I realised that from my detachment, as everyone bawled and was truly horrified as though these were Olympians and not mere mortals, that I was the only one.

‘What could be better than having two Warren Beatty lookalikes crawling around the planet and who were his twins?  And his only heirs!  With today’s genetic engineering it will be a great coup.

‘Think of the press!  I’ll be guaranteed perpetual immortality.  I’ll be iconised for all history…’

I thought then and there,

‘My god, this woman is monstrous.’

In any event, the funeral was upon us and by some strange quirk of the dreamtime, I was very much so a part of the funeral.  I was as though a fly on the wall, as it were, and aren’t you lucky?

Why, was I participating?  I do not know?

In any event, I was dressed to the nines.  I had on a wonderful, lace outfit with a mantilla with my veil covering my face.  I was part, somehow, of the funeral party.

It turned out that Warren Beatty had had five wives and, at the point at which he died, his fifth wife was a High-Yellow woman.  She was part Black, part White, partly Latina.

He had had all these wives.  They had always been paid and kept to remain silent.  They were never brought out in the public or media.  It was one of Hollywood’s biggest secrets.

People, obviously, never knew about it.  It had never once been spoken about.  There was an interesting turn to all of this… I had been going along Eglinton East on the south side.  It was as though I was going towards Yonge Street; however, it was not Eglinton Avenue East.

Madonna was going to be late because, luckily, it was that time of the month for her.  She was off having herself impregnated, by way of a turkey baster, with Warren Beatty’s frozen sperm – the planet’s most expensively rare caviar fertiliser of sorts.

I was attending the funeral with a short woman who was the fifth wife’s mother.  She seemed a lot like Sybil Ben-Daniel and wore a brown coat over her dress.  I walked with my right arm embracing her as she was on my right.

I had burly bodyguards all about me, before, beside and behind me.  They were real Mossad-goon-cum-Wrestlemania types.  My pants were those flare-legged Giorgio Armanis that allowed me to stride throwing my legs.

There was a lot of train to them and I had such utter style.  I had enormous energies about me and great flare.  My eyes were bedazzling even though mantilla-veiled.

They were what were, of course, fuelling my high spirits.  The onlookers were lapping up my entrance; I felt wonderful.

We then went into the church and the mother was talking about,

“We want the money to go to the Church because the Church is really the staple of society and civilisation.  The Church does so much good.”

I just decided to let her babble on and kept my tongue in check.  However, I cussed her under my breath saying,

“You demented old fool.  What Church are you talking about?”

The church had a metallic-silver front and it looked not unlike York Cinemas on Eglinton Avenue East.  It was not a very big church on the inside.  As we got inside, I turned around and hissed at one of the bodyguards because he had earlier stepped on my train.

Of course, we were surrounded then by the paparazzi and the little people.  His Bigfoot’s footprint was there on the pant’s train.  I reached back and slapped his face real hard calling him a fucking asshole.

Of course, I knew that it was safe to do it here because everyone here knew, only too well, that side of me.  However, I couldn’t wreck my public image doing so outside.

As we got closer to the church, I began striding firmer with each step in anticipation of getting his oafish arse.  I was really careful not to show that side of me when in public.

I started going down the aisle and there at the end was Warren Beatty’s corpse in the open casket.  It was a pure black casket that glistened.  It was a dark black wood and a really gorgeous casket.

Escorting the mother-in-law, I came all the way down the aisle.  I decided that I would go into the first pew on the right.  The first pew on the left actually went further down the aisle and did go past the casket.

It held men in white flowing robes; they were priest of whatever denomination this was – very cream, ivory-coloured and obviously very Catholic.

I went and sat down and immediately behind me was the fifth wife’s family.  They were very Hispanic-looking more so than Black.  They were very handsome in that family.

I turned around and smiled at one of the men and the energies coming from them weren’t as I had expected – I had thought that they would hate me.

I knew Madonna; I was apparently part of her hangers on.  Somehow, I had known her through dance.  I thought that, for that association, they would hate me.  However, they displayed no such hostilities towards me.

Finally, the fifth wife came and was walking very slowly, regally.  She carried a globular bouquet consisting of tiny, little white roses that were sprinkled in amongst some baby’s breath.  There were one or two little red roses as well.

She wore a white, lace outfit.  Deliberately dressed as though attending her wedding, she was not though veiled.  She came down to the casket and knelt before it, like Jacqueline Kennedy-Onassis at the rotunda, staking her claim on history by her performance.

She sobbed in a controlled breath and then got up and walked around to the right end of the casket.  Facing the church, she was now behind it and up on the altar.  She was before the pews on the left side of the aisle.

She knelt down again and this time began wailing and ululating.  She was doing ritual port de bras with her torso and head as well.  She kept on holding on to the bouquet.

It was a very Latin; a very emotional display; definitely, not Jacqueline Kennedy-Onassis.  It was very soulful and moving.  One really felt for her.

Finally, Madonna made her entrance and began slowly progressing down the aisle.  There was utter silence in the place because everybody was thinking,

‘Oh dear, poor Madonna was slutting with Warren Beatty at the point of his death.  Here is the fifth wife and is she going to create a scene or not?’

Well, of course, she is.  The fifth wife is Latin so, of course, there will be theatre.

When the fifth wife had been crossing the casket, I took in her body which was very wide-beamed.  I knew then, in a flash, that she was pregnant with Warren Beatty’s child and four months pregnant.

It was clearly no Immaculate Conception as per Madonna’s little trick.  She was a very big-boned woman.  She got up when Madonna entered the church and stopped crying.

Madonna saw her and avoided her glance as I turned and watched this fascinating bit of theatre unfold.  Everyone was really excited at the potential fireworks about to go off.

She started coming down to confront Madonna.  I immediately and intuitively knew that there was a gun inside the bouquet that the fifth wife so firmly clutched.

Positioning the gun, the fifth wife began holding the bouquet to her stomach.  Madonna, staying her ground, kept on proudly walking down the aisle.

She wore black; it was an outfit that was not dissimilar to mine.  She wore a short veil and not a mantilla like I did.

She came walking down towards the casket staying closer to the left pews.  The fifth wife came around the right side of the casket and was walking down the right side of the aisle looking at Madonna.

She had a very, very vexed and determined – an almost trance-like, expression of self-absorption on her face.  All the energy in her body was directed at Madonna.

When she was about five feet away from Madonna, she held up the bouquet and callously said,

“I’m going to blow your fucking brains out!”

It was filled with so much venom that it reverberated throughout the very high-ceilinged-though-tiny church.  It was also very Gothic an interior.

Madonna stopped truly catatonically horrified.  You could see it beyond the veil.  She had no entourage or bodyguards.  She showed up alone, so confident was she of the coup that she had just scored at the geneticist’s.

She was so flustered that she gallantly stuttered back,

“I dare you…”

She was very nervous and said very quickly with a weak, little laugh.  She was also vamping à la Breathless Mahoney – the character she played in Warren Beatty’s Dick Tracy film.

She was, however, visibly ashen.  Madonna was visibly shaken with fear.

Those persons in the left pews automatically screamed out and crouched down for cover because the fifth wife had held up the bouquet in both her outstretched arms like the gun that it so obviously hid.

“Come on.  You wouldn’t want to do that.  That’s just stupid…” Madonna bravely said.

“…You can’t do that.  Besides Warren’s already dead.  What are you trying to prove?  You can’t do this to me!  Don’t be stupid.”

The woman, however, started slowly walking towards her not buying her bullshit.  At that, Madonna turned around and started to bolt and she fell down over her long-trained dress.

She had already made it to the back of the pews on the left.  She was much too vain, to run outside and possibly be murdered in front of the little people.  So she got up and began running around the far side of the pews.

Of course, as she ran away, the fifth wife could easily have shot her in the back.  Then Madonna got really pissed off, stopped against the far left wall of the church, holding out her palm at her attacker saying,

“Stop it!  You don’t want to do this.  This is stupid.  You can’t kill me.  I’m Madonna!”

She was just winded; the expression on her face was unbridled rage, fear, terror, chutzpah, all in one.  Then the fifth wife pulled the trigger, which was the only sound in the place, releasing the magazine.

Madonna cried out and began pleading with her.  It was truly a spectacle.  It was really pathetic.  The fifth wife then pulled on the trigger and there was a loud plopping sound.

Everybody just screamed and the place became flooded with blinding blue light.  It turned out to have been an older-model camera and the flashbulb from the camera as it went off.

At that, the fifth wife laughed this loud, truly callous, heavy-from-the-womb, ripe, wicked, vindictive, victorious-all-in-one laugh.  It echoed throughout the church.

When her echo collapsed, as Madonna stood there truly disempowered, the fifth wife uttered in a weary breath,

“I always said to Warren that you’re an ugly slut.  This picture will prove it.”

At that the fifth wife turned and came and sat down on the pew next to me.  Her Latina family members were just going wild clapping and hysterically shrieking.

Now that’s a Hollywood wife!

Poor Madonna was still standing there involuntarily shaking.  She was holding her chest and gasping for air like an asthmatic.  Her left hand placed on her chest, with her right hand holding on to the pew, thus she stayed her ground.

Although her hand was on her chest, she was being most clever.  However I knew that really where it should have been was at her pussy because what the fifth wife instinctively knew, as did I, was that she had just miscarried.  Madonna was profusely bleeding.

Poor Madonna was so humiliated.  The look on her face was truly sad; she was sweaty and runny-nosed.  She soon collapsed and had to be taken away.  Of course, she would be beaten out of having Warren Beatty’s heir by the fifth wife.

The whole thing was so funny and hysterical.  I was so stunned that the fifth wife was going to pull this stunt.  I really thought that it was a gun; I had, at least, gotten this flash that it was a gun.

The idea to have a bolt release, affecting a gun, was truly ingenious.  The picture turned out to be truly horrific.  It was all a joke being played on Madonna by Hollywood’s film elites who could not have cared less about her and her parvenu ambitions.

The whole affair was so very wickedly political.  The whole thing was so hysterical.  I wondered as to what next was going to happen.

Is the fifth wife going to come forward and produce the first Warren Beatty heir – the true child?  A child that would look like Warren Beatty – more like a child of the future being of multiracial heritage and a bronzed version of Warren Beatty would the fifth wife bear.

What then will she do about Madonna’s copyright of Warren Beatty’s sperm?  Will the fifth wife, for producing the heir, win the legal rights to them and have them destroyed if she chooses to?

Will this not, in fact, begin a Pop Religion rivalling the King, Elvis Presley’s, if Madonna had won custody of the sperm and gone on to impregnate herself and bear those miscarried twin sons because of her bonds to Warren Beatty and his two pseudo-virgin-birthed children – sons at that?

Truly, this is iconography for the new millennium, indeed.

*A very, very interesting dream.  Certainly, that I would be dreaming about these people is interesting enough.  I don’t pay much attention to any of them beyond the passing.

I had seen Dick Tracy three weeks ago.  That the whole thing would evolve the way it did was rather insightful.  I was totally surprised, as much so, as was Madonna in the church.

I really did think that she was going to be shot.  I thought that it would be so messy.

You know, I just did not want having anybody’s can’t-wash-out bloodstains on my Giorgio Armani pants.

A truly, truly funny dream this was.

**What can I say, dreams are purely experiential.  I dream it and awaken, immediately bringing forth the dream experiences, committing those experiences to audio-cassette tapes. 

I rather enjoyed being alone and visiting with Jessye Norman in the earlier dream.  Clearly, those dreams were set on a parallel Earth in another dimension and one in which the mostly Black population is differently proportioned than we humans of waking state Earth are. 

On the eve of the Oscars, I thought this a fitting offering.  I could never have fathomed the outcome of the fifth wife’s agendum until it unfolded.  Ingenious, to say the least, was her use of the bouquet. 

As ever, sweet dreams and don’t forget to push off and start flying… and so what if you bump into a wall, just attempt doing so again and this time believe that you can effortless transcend the barrier.  Perception is, alas, everything.  END. 

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Photo: Madonna in costume at MTV Awards 1990.

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Magus Maharaja Holds Court.

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As the stately Moon drifted on its transit through Aries and thus my eleventh house, I would – whilst I serenely slept – experience the most exquisite glimpse into Merlin’s spirit.  It was one of the most lucidly engaged dreams had in long ages.

Of course, it was Monday, April 11, 1994.  This was a dream encounter with Merlin not soon forgotten.  It was, in fact, the second dream that day.  

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Next, I was ushered inside this large beautiful hall that was columned by the princely Maharaja.  Here it was a cream-coloured, slightly tan marble structure.

From outdoors, wonderful streams of dappled sunlight flooded the interior.  Whilst moving through the gracious palace, I passed a dozen or more beautiful saried ladies.

All of them were tall and beautifully dark – in that gorgeous Dravidian manner.  However, these were more mythic archetypes than aristocrats, courtesans.

Their saris were saffron-coloured, some with hues of peach, all of them beautifully flowing fine fabrics.  In what were the finest silks imaginable, somehow, there seemed to be actual light woven into the fabrics.

There was a lot of gold jewellery here, as a matter of fact, everywhere on their person.  They did, though, seem none-too-thrilled at my presence.

At a low table, which was beautifully set, we were next seated on silken cushions.  Lots of fine wares: gold and brass, were among them.

The light flooding into the place caused everything to become imbued, in the true sense of the word, with a glowing hue which was ethereal.  Everything here seemed to zing at a higher frequency, for being infused with this magical starlight, which merrily flooded into the palatial salon.

The Maharaja, who had been our host, was immediately familiar as well as warm and good to be around.  He had the most handsome, soulful smiling eyes.  He sat directly across from me and we were not seated at the heads of the long table.

To my left was a very beguiling, genuinely yellow-eyed beauty.  She was nubile and immensely arousing.  I wanted to fuck this woman from the moment that I laid eyes on her.

She was, in fact, the hostess who sat across the table from the Maharaja – she was clearly his Maharani.  Seated on the opposite side of the table the Maharaja seemed totally transcendent.

Indeed, this man was so elevated that he needn’t have eaten of the food – so long was he removed from being in the body.  His was an august, truth be told, fixed gaze that was the most hypnotic.

Sitting there, he directly looked across and into me.  He paid attention to no one else.  I could feel the warm caress of his mind’s touch as he became telepathically harmonised with me.

He knew exactly everything that was going on in my mind.  He was a most utterly beguiling man.  His were the energies of a truly evolved individual.  He had a large robust, though softening, body which was rather Zen-energied.

Too, the ease with which he had slipped into my mind bespoke a great intimacy which we have shared over several lifetimes.  Whilst he sat opposite me, grounding me, on his side of the table were all the other mythic-looking saried women along with some truly princely-looking gentlemen.

The one feature of all these persons was the beautifully haunting silence in which they sat here whilst we took a meal in their presence.  Seeing the Maharaja reminded me of Merlin.

Observing the maharaja was akin to when looking across the magic carpet-like platforms, as we sat in lotus position in a circle, during the final dream on Friday, July 9, 1993.  There was no getting around the fact that the maharaja bore a connection to Merlin.

Meanwhile, the Maharani was graciously lowering her beauteous head just-so.  At the time, she was eating and had done so in order to whisper instructions to me.

She discretely shared the finer points of dining etiquette when in their rarefied milieu.  This meal involved a great deal of ritualised behaviour throughout.

I was astounded by the array of gold being used here: the goblets, jugs and plates.  This proved to be one of the most lavish multi-coursed meals that I had ever partaken of.

Lots of beautiful blooms dreamily floated, perfuming the air, in gold bowls of water.  Some were purple, others yellow, whilst some pink blooms; they sat in bowls which were placed along the centre of the table’s considerable length.

This was terribly refined beyond the extraordinary.  Naturally, there was no flatware which, had there been, would doubtless have been made of the same yellow-white gold.  Whenever the Maharani had spoken to me, she had lowered her head and smiled exposing those beautiful compacted teeth.

Beguilingly, from behind her smile’s alluring façade, she had given clipped directives.  She was never impatient with me, either.  The food was spiced ever so delicately, seeming more so like Chinese – Szechuan or even Japanese cuisine – rather than East Indian.

Either way, this fare had a bite to it that was truly sublime.  I had taken a bite of some deep-fried fish which had proven mind-expansive.

The subtlety of the seasonings, and the degree to which each spice had been cooked into the fish, was truly phenomenal.  She discreetly told me not to get ahead with myself thereby, ending up eating the wrong dishes or at least, eating something before it was meant to be eaten.

There were lots of chutneys being used here.  Goodness it is simply not possible to convey, in this medium, how utterly refined the seasonings and the overall ambiance of this meal was.

Rarely does one get to be in such refined company.  Truly, these were highly evolved persons.  Nonetheless, their wealth was not a mercantile state of affairs.

Rather they were wealthy, surrounded by all this exquisite refinement, as it accurately reflected their state of soul evolvement.  Truly refined were they.

There was nothing classist or elitist about this august company in which I found myself.  To avert embarrassment for me, she had reached forward for something from a dish and thereby cut me off in the process.

As she foiled my none-too-couth display, she had rapidly told me not to take another piece of the fish.  It had not been meant to be eaten just then during the meal’s many courses.

What could I have cared?  This was the most glorious of experiences.  Indeed, this meal and refined company were truly music for the soul.

I had been so ravenous.  I so wanted to have another piece of fish for so good was it.  Seemingly, one was expected to take but one bite of each dish.

This was about showing control, about being able to then move on to the next dish, even though one was dying for more of the last dish.  Control, discipline and grace – these were the hallmarks of this ritual dining experience.

Distantly, the strains of strings came wafting through the air and were laced with the sweet fragrance of jasmine, oleander and sandalwood incense.  All along the length of the table, plumes of incense hypnotically danced into the air.

There were times, when it was hard to make out the eyes of my host which were so immediate and so familiar.  His were eyes which had an uncanny resemblance to those of Merlin’s.

Flames also burnt at the centre of the table heating up and cooking some of the dishes.  In one instance, a large flame suddenly rose up between the Maharaja and me.

As if I had not known or noticed the resemblance before now, for the first time, the magical flames caused a phantom of Merlin’s face to dance through the fiery veil.  I was astonished yet not surprised.

All that I had been feeling was, in one flicker of the suddenly rising flame, being validated.  The flame had served to sear away layers and dimensions, as if so many lifetimes were being wiped clean, to reveal the residue of the individual Merlin whom I had most intimately known.

Though revelatory, the flames also served as the barriers – dimensional barriers – which now separated us.  Though Merlin, he was now more than Merlin had ever been.

Lifetimes and dimensions impassably stood between us.  Nonetheless, there was a knowing and connectivity there which could never have been extinguished.

There was something primal, magical even, about the flames.  The ever gracious Maharaja had not quivered one iota, though they had suddenly shot up into the air, when the rising plume of fire had roared to life between us.

There he sat radiant and more focussed and intense as though, somehow, he had magically affected the flame’s uproar.  His cool betrayed that of only one other human being that I have ever known – Merlin’s.

Suddenly, he was illumined.  Perhaps, there had been a light breeze wafting a silken curtain, just off the colonnade or even the movement of piece of polished gold on the table.

Whatever it was, the light struck him just-so.  For the first time, without the flame’s effect, there was no mistaking the fact that here across from me sat the soul of the man who had recently been Merlin.

The shaft of light had fallen in back of him, off to the right and rear, bouncing off so many surfaces.  The effect that it had, from where I sat, was that of creating what seemed like a halo, an icon, about the head of a princely maharishi.

Unmistakably, there was an aura of mysticism about him which clearly had been hinted at before.  Seated there, my lips quivered, as I experienced sheer ecstasy for seeing the beauty of this being’s spirit.

There was no way of getting around it… this was an utterly beautiful dream.  Whilst sitting there, I felt much as I had in that dream wherein Merlin and I flew together into the intense blue-white light, in an upright position and laughing our heads off.

Of course, that amazing flying dream between Merlin and me did occur on Friday, August 10, 1994.  It was, by far, one of the most beautiful dreams.

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Photo: c. 1860 Maharaja Duleep Singh.

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Older Souls Commune.

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So, on Friday, November 3, 1995, as the gibbous Moon waxed in Pisces – measurably drifting across my tenth house – I would dream this dream which concerned the dynamic between both Merlin and Oleg.

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A house that much reminded me of the one in Crab Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts proved the setting for this most potent dream.  There were five of us here; although, one person’s identity now eludes me.

There in the living room, seated on the blue sofa of our Crab Hill home, was Merlin with his back to the north.  Directly behind him was the five-foot oblong mirror; it was hung against the living room’s wall.  On the other side of that wall, in the waking sate, was Harella’s bedroom.

Here in the dreamtime, which was definitely astral plane in focus, the living room was elongated; it was more oblong-shaped, along a north-south axis.  Merlin’s right side was closer to the veranda and the main road with the McHughs across the road.

Across the room from me, with her back to the street and facing due east, was Gita Gurucharan – Oberon Samuelson’s lovely wife and mother to miracle worker extraordinaire, Vijayalakshmi Gurucharan.  Oleg de Brontë was seated directly opposite Merlin.

There was a man, to my immediate left, who sat directly opposite Gita.  Whilst I was closer to Merlin than anyone in the room, I was not however sharing the sofa with him.

Abruptly, Merlin got up and took his leave of us.  He went into Harella’s bedroom.

The others had dropped by to visit.  It was clear, early on, that Merlin simply wasn’t into it.  There was strain to the social dynamic which Merlin put an end to – he rudely took his leave of us.  This was so unlike his former self during his recently-concluded incarnation.

Yet, I fully understood where he was coming from.  Whilst being in the soul state, he was now more so his true self.  This gathering of persons represented the past to him, which at this point, clearly served no interest for him.

I then got up and stood next to Gita who was on my right.  After Merlin rudely took his leave of us, we had all silently gotten up.  To say the least, it was awkward.  As we faced towards the dining room, our backs were now to the veranda.

Filling the void that Merlin’s departure had created, Gita and I began making conversation.  To say the least, it was a strained, canned affair.

Here, I was keenly aware of how much I am dismissed as a social misfit.  I was aware that these were persons who had long ago decided that I was not the swiftest of souls – I don’t indulge in clever repartee and such plastic aggressiveness when socialising.

The Black man then came over; he was tall and handsome with a gorgeously mesomorphic body.  He stood to my left, directly facing Gita, and began talking.  There were a lot of pauses here; they were trying to get me to shove off by firmly excluding me.

Finally, I dryly said,

“Well, I’m going to go and see how my man is doing.”

I then walked between the chairs, on which Oleg and the Black man sat, as though heading for the boys’ bedroom rather than Harella’s to which Merlin had retreated.  I then, however, made an abrupt turn left going instead through the door from the living room to Harella’s bedroom.

On entering the bedroom, I saw that Merlin was lying in the girls’ bedroom next-door.  Merlin seemed as though asleep.  He did look as though ill with full-blown AIDS.  It was not, however, distressing to have seen him thus; I was lucidly awakened here.

Initially, when out in the living room, Merlin looked robust and even leaned towards a robust, mesomorphic body type.  It was clear though that having to visit with these persons, from the past, had very much so enervated his spirits.

Rather than sit there interminably, enduring what was an unpleasant situation for him, he thankfully had taken refuge when he had.  On drawing closer to him, I gently caressed his face – all the while thinking of how difficult this was for him.

I wanted to share some of my energies with him; I wanted to restore his.  The vibrations from the living room, however, were distracting.

After excusing myself from Merlin, I returned to the living room.  Immediately, I dramatically shifted personae and became rude.  I told them to sit down, at which point, we all did.

Oleg then got up after awhile; he was holding a long-necked, brown beer bottle.  There were three empty identical ones on the floor and next to his chair.  There was no mistaking the fact that he was drunk.

‘Who the hell gets drunk on the astral plane anyway?’

Oleg wore a woollen jacket that was dark and nondescript.  Incidentally, on my return, the Black man was no longer present.  In his place was a White man with the same physical description; he came over trying to save face.

The unfamiliar man charmingly suggested that it was time that they pushed off.  Oleg had gotten very drunk indeed; he was not at all being belligerent.

It turned out that Oleg had gotten emotionally distraught – about Merlin’s condition; he was upset at the way that things had turned out between them.  The fact that things were unresolved between them, at the end of Merlin’s last life, caused Oleg a great deal of distress.

He did not know how else to deal with it; thus, Oleg got miserably drunk.  I wanted to be of solace to Oleg, however, since my energies were already committed to being with Merlin that option proved a nonstarter.

Clearly, Gita and the other man had been there to try and broker some sort of peace between Oleg and Merlin.  Obviously, Merlin was not up to it.

At one point, I had actually headed to the dining room and called back to Oleg.  My voice rang out as I asked Oleg if he wanted another beer.

This was the point at which the unfamiliar White man had interrupted and declined the offer; instead, he suggested that they take their leave of Merlin and me.

Oleg, of course, was inclined to take another drink.  I did not like my role here – that of keeping Oleg grounded by drink.  Certainly, it did give the impression that I was trying to block any resolution or any communion between both him and Merlin.

Although, to be honest, Oleg had begun drinking after Merlin had left the room.  It was quite embarrassing really.  Oleg could hardly get up – let alone stand on his own.

The man had had to rush to Oleg’s aid.  Like Merlin in the bedroom, Oleg was completely enervated though he had used alcohol to drown his pain.

Oleg was devastated that Merlin was not going to return.  More importantly, Oleg knew that Merlin had positively no intentions of suffering him for a minute.

The man threw his arms about Oleg and braced him up.  More than that, he was fortifying his very spirit.

Again, I took my leave of them in the living room and headed back for Merlin.  However, I did not spend time visiting with Merlin.

On returning to the bedroom, I got a long, black, woollen evening coat.  It was rather expensive and cut close to the body.  Bearing the coat, I returned to the living room where I insisted that Oleg take it to stay warm.

For not realising that he had been drinking to excess, I had felt badly.  He was truly distraught; nothing pained me more than seeing this truly beautiful man’s spirit in disrepair.

Whilst his White friend got him into the coat, I stood in back of a disjointed Oleg and held the evening coat open.

Interestingly enough, Oleg’s handsome, Black friend earlier was the same handsome Black man, with the striking resemblance to Maxwell Bowleson – he had appeared with him in that august-energied dream, on Friday, July 21, 1995.

Eventually, they all took their leave of the house; they were rather low-key when doing so.  When I had returned to the living room, after having visited with Merlin in the girls’ bedroom, Gita had not said anything further.

No sooner than had they all left the house that Merlin came out to the living room to join me.  I was surprised to see that he was again looking so healthy.

Directly opposite Merlin, I now sat alone.  Merlin silently sat there.  Whilst consciously sending him loving energies, I held my back erect.

Much to my surprise and amusement, Merlin carried a large, clear plastic bag with about 1.5 pounds, likely more, of marijuana.  Merlin meticulously rolled a large thick joint with all the Zen focus as he had when incarnate.

I sat there being truly blown away at the sight.  I had completely forgotten the sublime, almost Zen, sight of Merlin rolling a joint.

Moments like this were when Merlin really turned up the hues of his magus nature.  It was a groove into which he slipped, in order to conceptualise – to non-linearly think.

These ganja joints were so thick that they looked like short white cigars; they certainly smoked profusely like a cigar does.  I was mildly humoured by Merlin’s realness.  It was grounding.

On looking up, Merlin paused before lighting up and turned up the sensual hues in his large brown – which they were not when incarnate – eyes.

Coolly, Merlin intoned,

“I have no intentions of seeing these people…”

He then pursed the fat joint in his rosy lips and lit up.  Casually, Merlin blew on a long even breath that readily perfumed the air with its pungent aroma.

Up to that point, the room was sillaged by that most glorious of scents patchouli – it was Merlin’s favourite fragrance.

As an afterthought, Merlin added that Oleg had intended to come back tomorrow and join him for lunch.  There was supposed to be some woman or other present then.

Apparently, it was not going to be either Morag O’Hoare or Gita Gurucharan.  I don’t know who she was supposed to be but it was also definitely not Elektra Skanczchowicz – and definitely not Hélène Plotte-Visage.

Merlin took his time and drew on another breath.  He then announced that the luncheon had been arranged by none other than Maxime Gascoigne-de Montigny.  Merlin, however, was not into it.

“Are you sure that you’re going to be up to it?” I asked obviously concerned.

As I looked across the room at Merlin, I spent a great deal of time being spiritually focussed and sent him energy.  What was really interesting in this process was that with his long even breaths, when dragging on the ganja joint, I used his breathing rhythm to become harmonised with his vibration.

The focussed process of sharing my energy with him was very potent – real.  The energy flowed with great ease.  For being intensely lucid, I thought of elevating my vibration’s frequency.  I had hoped to thus cycle off a ton of my energy into Merlin.

I accomplished this by envisioning us both encircled by spheres of intense blue-white light.  Soon, I saw my energy body cycling off a coil of white light.

This light originated both from the top and bottom of the sphere of light which completely enveloped my seated body.  The light travelled the distance between us, across the room, some seven feet away at most.

It made contact with both poles of his energy body’s identical sphere’s integrity.  Together, we were truly in communion soul-to-soul.  The interesting thing here was that we both continued casually visiting though I knew that Merlin was keenly aware of the energy work that was being accomplished between us.

As he continued his detached Zen-like smoking, I knew that it served as a backdrop to his being receptive of the energy work that I was doing on his behalf.  Our breathing was completely synchronised.

I used each inhalation to draw off the negative vibrations.  It was this energy that had caused him to become completely enervated when seated opposite Oleg whom he clearly had no desire to have encountered.  Merlin then chose to abruptly retire, whilst the others visited, to the girls’ bedroom to crash.

With each exhalation, I sent him intense, white-light energy that was being liquidly drunk by his energy body.

The marvellous thing about this entire experience was how utterly feminine Merlin’s modalities were.  This was in marked contrast to my very masculine, martial, warrior-energied focus.

It was truly a validation of the creative principle, Merlin being yin to my yang.  Together we were becoming whole.  Together our energies were perfectly harmonised.  As a result, Merlin’s energies were thusly realigned.

Too, for being in this very expansive state, I caught brief glimpses of the outlines of the light energies that were being manifested between us.  During the moments when he would exhale potent puffs of smoke, I observed the manifested spheres of light each time.

The smells of the patchouli and ganja, combined with the ganja’s smoke, created the effect. I was so grounded for being here in this astral plane reanimation of the Crab Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts house.  It was a truly sublime magus experience.

It was clear that Merlin had no desire to experience unpleasant aspects of the past.  As he sat there, Merlin waited for the air to clear; he waited for the ganja to wane and the strobe of the light spheres to fade out before replying,

“No, no.  It’s okay.  I’ll be okay…”

As Merlin spoke for the first time, he looked healthier than he had looked at any point before during our astral plane dream encounter.

Earlier, he was lying on his stomach with his left cheek on the pillow; his face looked out the door that led to the room from Harella’s bedroom.  There was a cool sheen of sweat then that covered his brow and body; he laid there looking truly wasted.  

Even his breathing was loud then.  As I patted his cool brow, I could hear the crackling in his lungs that suggested that he was again suffering from a bout of pneumocystis.  On soothing his spirit, I had brushed the wet strands of his shoulder-length hair from his brow.  

It was so very good to have seen Merlin.  The most exquisite pleasure of being in his presence was the great sense of peace that I felt for seeing him whole again.

The simple act of his rolling a joint was, for me, on the order of bliss; he was transcendent.  Of course, as was the case during our relationship in the waking state, he did not offer me a toke of the cigar-like joint.

I do know that I found the second-hand smoke pleasurable.  It was sweet; it did much to relax me, along with the focussed deep breathing that I independently did – that we did in unison and which had been triggered by his breaths when smoking the joint.

Feeling the need to come down from the intense energy work that I had accomplished with Merlin, I got up and walked slowly over to Merlin.  I asked him if he was going to be okay on his own.

He assured me that I had nothing to worry about; he would be fine.  I knew it too.  So with that, I took my leave of him.  In a bid to move back into my regular-dream body, I went out to get some air on the veranda.

He assured me that I did not need to come back, later on, and join him.  He would be quite okay to handle things on his own, he assured me.  I believed him.

Merlin simply glowed throughout; his cheeks were flushed and fleshy even.  Merlin looked centred and genuinely contented.

I then found some ice cream, beneath one of the living room chairs, which earlier I had been eating.  Naturally, it was not all that great as it had melted down and lost its flavour.

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Photo: Colliding galaxies.

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Paradigm shift.

paradim shift

Each time one makes the choice to walk, to become removed from it all, signals a new plateau in one’s spiritual maturation.  This next dream betrays just such a new plateau ascended to.

The Moon was then transiting Pisces and my tenth house.  It was Saturday, March 12, 1994.  The dream in question was the first one that day.  It proved a most illuminating and thus transformative dream…

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I was in a tiny wooden house at night time looking outdoors.  The tiny log cabin was quite cosy and ancient.  Pandora was in the cottage with me.

Lots of Black, wonderfully-spirited playful children were about enjoying themselves.  They were so sweet and refreshingly grounded.  I did so notice that they were exceptionally tiny and looked almost like Pygmy children though not.

Their heads were unusually large with that extended skull in back that’s decidedly African – much like Pharaoh Akhenaten’s was.   They wore pyjamas.  Some of the children were already asleep.

I gathered up the children who were awake and got them readied for bed.  When I was done, I returned to the large window.  I looked outside the window enjoying the platinum moonlight.

Just beyond the lone log cabin, large, soulful moss-covered cedars were everywhere.  In addition, there were thick-leaved trees that looked cactus-like.

Clearly, they were fir trees of some sort.  They were strikingly beautiful.  Too, there were lots of large ferns which looked like they were from pre-historic times.

To the left of my field of vision, as I looked out the window, I noticed the Moon rising.  This was obviously to the east as I faced due south.  When close to the horizon, the Moon was massively oversized.  It was a most beautiful mélange of salmon and pink tonalities.

To have experienced the Moon’s slow hypnotic ascension was the most rapturous adage.  It was as though hearing Richard Strauss‘s Viennese waltz being played considerably slowed down.  It was the most sensually exquisite sensation.

This was not unlike the slow-motioned suspension, when he was on morphine during points in his end-of-life illness, that I witnessed Merlin experiencing.  I was left feeling as though on the edge of where time ceases to exist.

Rapture!  I was experiencing fusion with nature.  I was experiencing love.

I was as if outside of myself and at one with the soul aspect, which the august Moon represented, in this very totemic dream.  With the Moon’s ascent, my senses became oceanic and expansive.  I was psychically blown wide-open and receptive.

As Luna rose in the sky, I could see that in through the trees its size did not really shrink.  As it climbed high in the sky, away from the horizon, it did not seemingly shrink to its usual size.

There was definitely something quite different about this moon.  As it approached the zenith, I increasingly felt more grounded.  I felt, in fact, splayed in place by its massiveness.

I felt no apprehension, however.  The massive Moon’s warm face seemed to be intimately smiling at me.  It had a great deal of presence about it.

Straight away, I was reminded of the Moon’s ensouled quality, as I experienced it in the dreams of early September 1983 whilst living and not very successfully pursuing a dance career in New York City.

There was no mistaking the fact that the Moon, here in this dream, was an ensouled entity with a presence all its own.  Ascending higher still, it lost its fiery tonalities and eventually became a blazingly platinum orb.

It was a beautiful full Moon.  Whilst standing there, I watched transfixed as it began expanding.  On having crossed 45 degrees of arc, it lyrically inched towards the zenith and seemed to wax larger even more.

Instead of seeming to diminish in size, on moving away from the horizon, Luna began growing pregnant.  There was something creatively fecund about Luna with each degree of arc to which it ascended.

The closer to the midnight position it grew, the more pregnant it became.  It was so beautiful to have experienced, yet, I was still surprised at how very large it kept on getting.

Goodness, when it was at 60 degrees of arc, it had grown at least four times as large as the normal full Moon.  I was completely in awe of its beauty.

I was spellbound; my soul itself was lit up by the intense, though soft, silver-white light that drenched the entire area.  Consequently, the log cabin’s interior was being soaked throughout by the intense flooding light.

At about 80 degrees of arc, the massive beauteous Moon came to a stop.  For an infinite pause, Luna hovered in the sky.  Totally enraptured, I reached out my soul itself to dance with this beauteous Moon.

Suddenly, my slow dance was abruptly ended when the Moon novaed.  It was the most incredible, beautiful mind-expanding experience.

This was not a case of the Moon exploding.  It was a spiritual birthing.  It was an unfoldment in which the mind and spirit were harmonised to experience a transformation that was truly transcendent.

This was so unexpected that it was liberating to have experienced it.  The Moon’s quiet seduction had been so complete that, when it novaed so entranced was I at that point, it proved not to have been a traumatic experience.

This was sheer bliss.  Luna, goddess of the night, had novaed.  More importantly, the soul aspect – which the Moon here represented – was directly manifesting to me.

I was reminded of the enlightened face that I saw, when pulling back from Merlin’s head in my cupped-handed embrace, in the lucid vision on July 23, 1988.

I was so lucidly focussed that I experienced the nova in exquisite slow-motion.  As a matter of fact, I think that the Moon’s nova may well have been in slow-motion.  Looking on spellbound, I watched as the fragmented Moon radiated outwards… all 360 degrees.

As a result, pieces of the novaed Moon were directly headed towards Earth.  Resultantly, it seemed that there was one large piece of jettisoned Moon meteor directly headed towards me.

Now everything resumed in normal waking state time.  The intensity of the shift was overwhelming.  Too, the breakneck speeds of the Luna fragments were phenomenal.

The impact of this astrophysical episode was devastating.  The spatial flux created by Luna’s nova was, if you like, tantamount to a localised solar system tsunami.

The fabric of space about Luna, as it were, became suddenly warped.  This resulted in a rippling magnetic wave from the nova’s epicentre.

The jarring intensity only lasted for a moment, however, before that I had experienced the nova in timeless slow-motion.  I was so detached and expansive that I began lucidly experiencing the event, to the point where I was able to isolate each moment of the event, simultaneously viewing it from various perspectives.

Again, to the analogy to the Viennese waltz, it was as though I were able to experience a fugue within each note of the slowed down waltz.  Mind-alteringly intense this was.  This truly was bliss.

This was, for me, absolute fusion with the soul of self – plain and simple.  It was truly a sensory high.

Next, the whole place became totally flooded with pure white light.  Never before had I seen or, more to the point, experienced white light of such an ecstatic intensity.

The light seared through all of nature.  Everything became a sponge which it flooded, soaked and arrested with its aqueous beauty.

Nature became sodden and expansive.  I could feel the arboreal giants about the log cabin respond.  They were as if soaked by a perpetual downpour, for the last few days, as a result of being exposed to the Moon’s novaed light.

Even the log cabin had become x-rayed, as it were, by the light’s intensity.  Too, my body – indeed my entire being – had been infused with the light’s unstoppable power.

That power unmistakably was Love.  To have experienced the light, flooding through my body, was akin to flying at great speeds whilst standing erect.

Whilst standing legs akimbo, all that I could do was hold on to the window frame.  I braced myself against being overwhelmed by this tsunami of love.

As the experience grew in intensity, I was slapped from my inner rapture by the sound of everyone screaming aloud.  All across the globe, humanity was being displaced by the effects of Luna having novaed.

Rushing through the tiny house, I went to look after the tiny kids who were understandably afraid.  As they had been asleep by that point, they were not aware of what was taking place.

Soon Pandora joined me and together, we went about busily gathering up the kids.  Some of the kids had even been sleeping in cupboards, which Pandora had reminded me of, inside the tiny cabin.

She had yelled at me to go get the kids in the cupboards.  When we went to look out the window, I now saw that the one-hundred-foot-plus redwoods were being effortlessly blown over.

It was as though they were miniature trees on a scaled version of the town.  As if it was a movie set that was being filmed, it looked as though the trees were experiencing a great storm of violent magnitude.

Of course, in such a situation, the trees would have been scaled down and miniaturised.  The intensity of the interplanetary tsunami, created by Luna’s nova, began violently snapping the trees.

This was the effect when the magnetic wave had finally reached Earth.  This was a truly cathartic experience.

Throughout the experience, however, I was never fearful.  I simply got caught up in the rapture of the moment and allowed myself to ride the thrilling crest of intense sensations.

The windstorm, that the novaed Moon affected, was beyond anything fathomable in the waking state.  It sounded as if a couple of freight trains were barrelling along, on either side of the log cabin, travelling at speeds in excess of 300 mph.

The fierce windstorms simultaneously occurred across the globe.  They were created as Earth was being momentarily thrown off its axis.

Luna’s nova had created a spatial magnetic wave that shook Earth to its core.  All over the planet, soon enough, there were actual tsunamis.

With Luna’s reduced size, the tides were no longer predictable.  Whilst the planet rotated off its axis, in some cases, the seas became transformed.

As a result, the unstable oceans became giant waterspouts.  In some instances, the displaced oceans were pulled heavenward into outer space.

This created walls of ocean which rose into the air – nothing was secure anymore – total pandemonium and tectonic instability.  The Earth’s gravity had become completely destabilised.

Across the globe, oceans drastically rose.  Still, in some altitudes as though in outer space, one was able to experience weightlessness.

Off in the distance, I could make out a distant ocean, shooting into outer space.  It looked not unlike a giant geyser.  The oceans were becoming as if reversed waterspouts.  Truly fantastical!

Before being pulled back to Earth by gravity, they had risen up only so far.  Even though considerably weakened, there was still some gravity.  The crashing oceans led everywhere to the fiercest rainstorms.

Of course, for being briny rainwater, it meant that there would be widespread damage to most of the rained on vegetation.  There was also massive flooding everywhere.

The interesting thing about the energies here was that one sensed that the lunar effects on humanity, in particular women, were now radically altered.

With Luna’s nova, I became aware that until the transformation women had been subjugated by men.  This was largely affected by the influence of the Moon on them physiologically and psychologically.

Before my eyes, outside the house, I saw women transformed.  They were now as if giants.  They were truly warrior-spirited.

I think that the symbolism, inasmuch as I believe in such a thing as dream symbolism, of this dream was two-fold.

Not only was it about a spiritual awakening; it also gave insights to the imminent climax between male-female sexual tensions.  These transformed women were now as if men; no longer were they to be physically overpowered by men.

Luna transformed allowed women, especially with regards to sexual matters, to no longer be at a physical disadvantage to men.

This does speak to a psychic revolution.  Although, I do believe, the feminist movement with its mercantile edge has gone about this revolution the wrong way.

The current approach has ultimately charged women’s animus to the detriment of women’s health.  There was an almost cannibalistic sensibility to these transformed women in the dreamtime.

One could easily see these Amazons, performing double mastectomies so that they could, take on any foe unhindered.  This is not the psychic revolution that one would hope for.

There is little spiritual uplift, anywhere discernible, with women emerging as the transvestite’s beau idéal.  These were such strong domineering women.

Each of them was in excess of seven feet tall.  They were each mythic and statuesque.  They appeared monstrous, nonetheless, for being so animus-charged.

It was clear, too, that women were no longer regulated by the Luna cycle.  The fragmented Moon had lost much of its tidal effect on Gaia and all its life-forms.

Women were now roaming the Earth as if stark raving mad, to be sure, the ultimate feminist wet dream.  One thing that I picked up on, about these women, was that they had developed large distended clits and labia.

This did, however, cause me on awakening to ponder whether what I had been seeing were not members of a new hybrid human sex.  That is to say, post Luna’s nova, the human race had no defined sex.

Quite simply, there were persons with both sexual organs that were fully functional.  Perhaps, post Luna’s nova, there was one or more gender changes that were naturally occurring during the course of newly hybrid human life.

Beyond all that angst, there was finally a moment of calm.

Everything simply ceased to be in a state of maddening flux.  There had been incredible Earthquake activity across the globe that accompanied all this lunar instability.

To make sure that the kids were alright, I then moved through the tiny log cabin.  I neither saw Pandora again nor, for that matter, the kids.

Once more, I returned to the window to gaze into the sky.  On stepping before the window pane, I let out a sigh of wonderment at the sight of the Moon.

Now, the experience had shifted onto an even higher octave.  By far, this would prove the most beautiful aspect of the dream.

Now, Luna was reduced to a third of its original size.  It was now a much smaller Moon.  Around the novaed Moon, securely hugged in its orbit in a clockwise rotation, was a Luna ring.  A small number of the Luna asteroids were caught in an elliptical orbit but for the most part they were mostly in an equatorial orbit.

The ring was created from the large fragments of Moon rock which had not been lost in outer space.  They had not been large enough to have escaped Luna’s orbital gravity – such as it is.

After the initial pulsation of the nova, the larger rocks fell back towards the novaed Moon.  Some crashed back onto Luna’s surface but others were caught in a ring that orbited the scaled down satellite.

Some undoubtedly had fallen out of Luna’s orbit.  No doubt, some Luna meteors had crashed into Earth.  The Luna meteors only added to the tectonic instability here on Earth.

The majority of the lunar meteors that fell back towards Luna formed an orbital ring.  It was a ring of asteroids that was held in place by Earth’s greater gravity.

The lunar asteroids that formed the ring were the most beautiful sight imaginable.  Luna was, of course, still full.

The uneven, jagged Luna asteroids were now reflecting Sol light.  They created a perpetually sparkling ring of light that was truly kaleidoscopic.

In its expressionism and spiritual evolution, humanity had ascended to a higher octave.  It had been dramatically affected by Luna’s nova.

Humanity’s ascension was adequately reflected by the sight and harmonic vibration of the transformed Luna.  It was truly musical and created greater attunement to one’s spiritual nature.  It was rhapsodic.

To have experienced the ringed Luna was like the most ticklish whisper of hushed strings.  Whilst each jagged Luna asteroid brilliantly glistened, each triggered a musical resonance deep within for having experienced its singular beauty.  Bliss!

Just as bright as the full Moon, the orbital lunar asteroids were a blazing dash of sparkling twinkling colours.  Slowly rotating about Luna, the orbital lunar asteroid ring reflected Sol’s light.

I can’t say enough how beautiful this was.  Still, there was the added element of the ethereal with the twinkling ring of Luna asteroids.  This created a sublime and truly hypnotic effect.

I can’t see how, if this were to happen in the waking state, we as humankind could emerge unaffected.  There is no way that we would not become a better and a more harmonious people.

All this spiritual and physiological evolution thanks to Luna’s new inspiration which, in turn, would greatly enhance humanity’s more evolved qualities.

Quite simply, this was the most glorious stellar sight imaginable.  It was as if there were souls dancing around the transformed Moon.

Luna, it seemed, now served as a nebulous portal that signified our passage into a new humanity.  A new humanity of greater consciousness and harmony this would facilitate.  At least, so I would like to think…

This was so arrestingly beautiful a sight.  This paradigm shift was precisely the kind of revolutionary idea which, in one’s wildest imaginings, could not have been fathomed whilst in the waking state.

Even though it was now diminished in size, one had the distinct impression of the Moon that it had fallen from its orbit.  Than previously it had been, Luna was now in closer proximity to Earth.

I wondered as to what this would mean, for womankind in particular, when Luna was now reduced and ringed with tiny satellites of its own.

I pondered whether or not this had anything to do with human sexual politics, as it were, rather than the maturation of the soul aspect on a personal level.

There was no denying, however, that this was clearly the ushering in of a new age… and high time.  Certainly, all this mercantilist dreck has long served its purposefulness.

I was quite so lucid, standing there before the window pane, observing and pondering so many possible ramifications of all this exciting transformation.

On looking back up at the transformed Luna, I was blown away by this birthing and expansiveness of consciousness – this glorious paradigm shift.

On closing my lids, to better drink in the beauty of the brilliant light’s touch all over my body, I was lucidly drawn awake.

*Luna transformed was as if a much more dense satellite.  Newly reborn, Luna had a halo of light-intense orbiting fragments.

These orbital lunar fragments gave the effect of them being a giant necklace of diamonds that were handsomely setting off the newest and most beauteous face in Sol’s orbit – Luna novaed and transformed.  END.

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Photo: Full Moon digitally enhanced.

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