The dream was the first that day and occurred in the B sleep cycle, on Thursday, June 25, 1992, whilst the Moon transited both Aries and my eleventh house. As with all past life dreams, this was inordinately lucid, all my senses were piqued. Of course, there was the sense of being locked in – not being able to change the outcome of events as they unfolded.
A marvellous hall at nighttime where I was with a companion progressing through the place. I don’t quite know who it was that accompanied me. Then I wandered off and was with myself. I rather relished having done so. On the right side of the wall, it was rather dark and dimly lit by candlelight or torch flames. There were all these books everywhere. They were of brown-covered, time-faded colours. They were in the fantasy genre.
Immediately, I was intrigued and got excited when recognising some as the same ones that I had bought before. Sadly, I had never gotten around to reading them. Interest peaked in me because I wanted to see what the covers of the books were like. As a matter of fact, one of the books was opened. Almost every one of them was opened.
Somebody had been reading them but hadn’t finished doing so. Whoever had been reading these books would, as a matter of fact, then turn them upside down on the ledge of the fragile-looking bookcase. Each night before going to sleep, this was the habit which the reader employed with the books. I progressed down the length of the shelf leisurely perusing their covers.
There was one there which stood out and immediately appealed to me. It was brown-covered with a young, handsome man on it. Another had a man with a dragon in the image. It was in the fantasy genre and terribly scorpionic in tenure. Its sensibilities were terribly medieval. As I kept walking along, I came to this one image on one of the walls. It was of a very large tapestry. Immediately on seeing it, I stopped dead in my tracks because it was readily recognisable.
It was something for which every residual resonance harked back to a former lifetime. It was a stunning tapestry. It was, as a matter of fact, quite large. On the bottom of it, there was this writing in red that was very Gothic. Arcane writing it was. Though it seemed to be in Latin, I was more so of the impression that it was in arcane Welsh. There were lots of Ws in the very long words.
I tried my best to read and interpret what it was saying but couldn’t quite make it out. It did have something to do with a particular event which was depicted as having occurred in the year 1209 or earlier. The writing was at the base of a stump in the tapestry. It sat there, a stone outpost that appeared on closer scrutiny, more so like a crypt. Whilst facing the tapestry, I looked at it and keenly recorded every lush detail of the very real experience.
The head was of this very princely man who was bearded and luminously silver-haired. He wore a long, flowing, white robe and as one looked at the wall, which was on my right, so too was the tapestry’s actions in that direction. As he lay there on this large, stone slab, the head of the man was plainly visible. His head was to the left of the tapestry. The robe that he wore came and hung over the edge of the stone slab.
The fabric beautifully cascaded over the edge and down to the floor. It was a wonderful, beautiful, shiny, white robe. The threads in the tapestry were such that the light striking it, from the room, caught and imbued it with a handsome glow. There was a woman there in the hallway, where the tapestry hung, who was dressed in medieval garb. Her arm outstretched, she was looking up with great yearning. The left arm on her heart, the right stretched up over the head of the prostrate ruler.
Supplicating the gods as it were, she was arched backwards. She was mourning. Her mouth torn-open birthed her bloody pain. She was wailing. All of this left one feeling such gravity at the sad state of affairs. Behind her was a large, brawny, warrior-like man. Basically, her arm was outstretched to block him off. He carried an upraised sword. He wore gold chain-mail. Experiencing this tapestry was very painful. I just couldn’t bring myself to look at the face of the prostrate ruler. Immediately, as I looked away, I was instantaneously made aware that I was participating in the action being depicted in the tapestry.
I was caught up in a re-enactment of the tapestry. Rather, it was a reanimation such that I was reliving the events depicted in the tapestry. There I was, of all things, lying on the slab. I was, in fact, the princely leader. As I reclined there, I immediately became familiar with the body. Large, mid-aged and overweight, I immediately became fully synchronised with the princely body’s every nuance. Also, I was instantaneously reminded of that large body which I had ensouled in that dream recall of that past life in Roman times. In that past life dream, I was murdered at the baths by my very shrewd wife’s centurion guard-cum-starfucker-stud agent.
In between feigning wailing at my loss, the woman was now leaning over me and whispering to me. Straight away, I realised what was afoot. I was not yet dead and she knew it too. We were trying to affect a faux death. This is why I was covered in all that heavy material which would easily disguise my shallow breathing. I was supposed to be faking being dead. Lying there, there was a commotion outside the large, heavy, wooden doors to the damp, empty room in a stone, fortress-like dwelling. Where it was seemingly at night-time, there was a great deal of light coming through the high-placed windows about the room.
The man outside the door, who had been shouting in a violent display of temper, barged in and commandingly approached the cold slab on which I laid. I remained catatonic truly overcome with fear. He was a very large-bodied, brawny, hirsute study of Sagittarian, Martian energies. There was a dense concentration of warrior-spirited drive in his body. On his waist he carried his sword and was one impatient, disgruntled soul. He wore a chainmail suit of dull gold or bronze. When he walked there was all this noisy clanking from his armour, chainmail and sword.
He was bearded and much younger than I. He was long-haired, handsome, like a fierce warrior, with jet-black, glossy hair. His mouth was youthful, full and beautiful. His was the intensity of unbridled fearlessness and sheer, brutish force. He was cool and deadly. On seeing him, I was immediately filled with fear. My pulse uncontrollably raced. All I wanted to do was get up and bolt. However, I could not have. Approaching, he began talking to the woman in this strange, archaic, Aryan tongue. Basically, he was refuting the news that I had died. In essence he was saying, “He isn’t dead. Are you trying to fool me?”
He had the most powerful, booming voice whose echo slapped the damp chill out of the room.
“Look at him! He should have been dead a long time ago!”
I guess that he was my heir and was quite upset and wanted to claim the title that I had which, of course, was his by birth. Although he was my son or heir, at the very least, I had a mortal and ultimately fatal fear of him.
“Damn you! You should have died a long time ago. Why aren’t you dead yet?”
Then he suddenly stopped as it dawned on him that I could be faking it. He barked a loud breath of impatience and immediately drew his sword. At that the woman cried out, tossing herself at him, asking,
“What do you think you’re doing?”
With the most ferocious force, he brought down the sword vengefully attacking my body. The sword entered my stomach like an intensely hot spear. Simultaneously, it had struck my left hip as they both stood to the left of me – as indeed, she was standing in the tapestry. When he smote me the blade came down and hit me on the hip but then he moved it by thrusting it into my stomach.
Turning and twitching, I rigidly nudged my head to the right in pain. As he triumphantly laughed, the loudest most vulgar laugh erupted in the hall. Naturally, had I been dead there is no way that I would have moved.
*As I slept here, I had a corresponding cramp in my stomach. It was of a sharp, stabbing pain. This correspondingly made me simultaneously turn away to the right in the waking state. This was a very, very, vivid dream. END.
My sense of smell was quite piqued and there was no way to get over my being alive in this experience. It was very damp with a foul odour of agedness in the air. My stomach was convulsing and there was a taste of blood in my mouth mixed with the loud smell of faeces in the air. The woman, my companion, cried trying to explain that I had only recently died thus it was a nervous twitch – a nervous reaction if you like.
She was not very convincing to which he shot back, “Ha, well then if he is dead…” he began walking around her forcefully approaching the head of my body, “…he won’t mind having his head removed!”
All that I could see, from beneath my quivering lids, was her reaching up and lunging as she bawled aloud, “Noooo!” She reached up her hand and I tried to throw open my lids terror-struck. However, when the sword crashed down into my neck severing my head at the spinal cord, I swiftly felt a loud thud.
At that there was this immediate abortive blank. It was abrupt and with great finality. Gone was the woman’s horrified scream in mid-breath. I could feel the contact of the sword on my spine at the point of decapitation. This was, in fact, rather traumatic because abruptly and with great force my life was ended.
*At that point, the moment of blank displacement, I was slapped back into my body instantaneously awaking. Finding myself fully awake, I was in the midst of raising my head off the pillow as I slept on my back. When I heard my infamous neck injury snap and being aggravated anew, I had not yet sat up in bed. I collapsed back into the pillow stunned and short of breath.
It was all so overwhelming that all that I could do was just relax. I dissolved in a silent, teary cry. It was the only way to address the tense rigidity that my body had become. As I laid there it was extremely hard to simultaneously cry and breathe. I had no desire to get up. I was simply resigned with sheer exhaustion and the weightiness of having re-lived a traumatic end-of-life experience. This was a past life which undoubtedly was in the early part of this millennium, in Wales.
This obviously was, from every richly detailed nuance of the very intensely lucid, progressional experience, a slice of a past life. What was really impactful, even more so than the beheading, was the moment at which I saw the tapestry. It was immediately familiar and infused with a certain validity which couldn’t be denied in any way. I wanted to run, to not see it, on first contact with it but was incapable of doing anything.
The tapestry depicted the slaying, of the aged leader, as being a pivotal moment in that realm’s history. I did not get the sense that the man was my son but rather my usurper. Regardless, I was rather afraid of this man. This dream was much like so many others that relate to matters of trauma which resonate to the level of soul itself.
I can remember thinking at the time of that dream of Francesca and of the one with Merlin, in which he collapsed a great deal in that life in Spain with the Ludnezes and I protested by saying, “I want out of this dream, now!”
It does go without saying that as Merlin is a scholar soul, the upturned, unread books – which were brown-covered and time-faded – were a residue of his true soul in essence and agedness of soul. After all, it was Merlin who nightly read several books, one of which he would conclude. Until he was prepared to return to one of them to conclude the following night, the others were kept upturned or down-turned about the apartment.
In the event that they were to be accidentally closed, there were even times when he would wedge a piece of pretzel in between the pages. Of course, I was in the habit of going around and closing the books when cleaning house. Merlin, time and again, expressed displeasure at what he saw as interference. I would never mischievously close the books that he had kept opened about our home. Alas, such is wedded bliss.
Every detail in these dreams was so richly realised and resonant. There was no way that Merlin could not have been instrumental in this past life revisit and reanimation. I am confident that Merlin was crucial to the invocation of this past life milieu which awaited my arrival. Of course, thanks to the jarring vividness of the decapitation, I abruptly awoke.
However, I still felt as though I needed to dream on. I knew that there was more yet to come. Despite Whoopi having leapt from the bed anticipating being fed, I chose not to get from bed and do anything. I would much later after this dream learn, from Mathilde Duchenne’s channelling, that Merlin and I are indeed task companions – he a seventh level mature scholar to my seventh mature artisan. This validation only made the dream of the library, of much loved books, that much more relevant.
Obviously, that dream set in late-twelfth, early-thirteenth century Wales involved both he and I. I don’t, however, know whether he was the large-bodied woman who pleaded for me not to be killed or whether he was the Sagittarian-Martian energied usurper/heir who came to make sure that the job was done and I was truly dead. It was all very lucid and like every reincarnational dream one was incapable of affecting change in the outcome of events. One was, as it were, simply along for the roller-coaster ride. END.
As ever, straighten up and fly right, all the while singing, vocalesing and having a merry old time of it… because you are special and I say that you are damn well worth a flying dream. Thanks for your ongoing support.
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