Back to the Moon and All Hail the Tampon King!

One of the most powerful dreams had, whilst living for seven years in Montréal, occurred early during my stay in the lovely city.  This dream was truly momentous.  The travels in consciousness, whilst astral-projected, were energetically facilitated by being in contact with Merlin.

The dreams occurred on Monday, October 6, 1997 whilst the Moon transited both Sagittarius and my seventh house.  I am inclined to believe that this astral-projected experience occurred not on some far-off distant world but here on Earth’s Moon. The dreams were had during the second or ‘B’ sleep cycle that day.  I had been in the meditative state prior to sleep and was also having trouble getting to sleep.

For one, my pyramid was still back in Vancouver and thus I lacked my usual grounding.  For another, I had to endure my ignoramus neighbour’s loudmouth noise pollution.  He did nothing but nightly talk, on his phone, bullshit no end. This was especially infuriating since I was then working the midnight shift.  My sleep was always being ruined when this man came home from his dead-end job and talked nonstop on the phone.  

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*Also am reposting this dream because prior to the last blog post, “Two of a Kind” I had a dream was set in this same otherworldly locale. This time, I encountered a parent and persons who have since become astral plane habitués.

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2865 rue Goyer, Montréal

*Prior to sleep, whilst in the meditative state, I had been lying in bed.  My pyramid has not yet arrived from Vancouver.  Here I was really connected and felt increasingly relaxed and opened up to the light within.

So with that I sought to have a positive connection with my task companion during the dreamtime.  To that end, I opened myself to experience contact with my trusty soul mate.

**By the time that I had relocated to Montréal, I had learnt of my connection to Merlin.  Merlin’s overleaves and mine were, by then, channelled by Mathilde Duchenne who was part of the original Michael group. Merlin, of course, is my task companion.  END.

This experience occurred just after 21:00.

vDream one.  Simultaneously whilst still awake, I experienced a sudden, jolting surge of energy at my solar plexus.  This vibration was very powerful. Then, it was as if I began hugging and flipping from my back onto my right side in the process.  It was as though I were hugging Merlin had he been there in bed with me. I told Merlin that I loved him whilst simultaneously the energy surging through me was akin to raw, electromagnetic energy.  This was quite intense and a bit overpowering.

Too, I began experiencing a zinging, high-pitched tone in my ears.  This was so intense that it seemed as if on the verge of causing an aneurysm – or at least what I assumed an aneurysm would manifest.  It did take me a moment before realising that I was still lying on my back. Indeed, I was astral projecting.

This is what allowed me to be, simultaneously on my right side, in yet another dimension as well.  There, I was on my right side on the astral plane with Merlin.  I was hugging him whilst lying in bed yet spatially aware here in the waking state. As I was lying in embrace with Merlin, I began experiencing a variation in the zinging pitch’s tonality.  Now it began wavering, as if in and out of frequency.

Whilst alternately not so, sometimes it was high-pitched in tone.  Either way, it was most unbearable.  I was afraid that at the end of the experience, I would be rendered deaf – it was that intense.

Next, I began feeling movement behind my back – here on the bed.  It was based close up by the shoulders.  The feeling was akin to back when Merlin and I lived at 20 Amelia Street and either Zora or Whoopi would come up on the pillows during the night to be closer and more affectionate. It really did feel as though a cat had leapt onto the bed – here in my 17-2865 rue Goyer, Montréal apartment.  So to ground the experience, I said aloud, “Well, of course, it’s you Merlin because here comes one of the cats.”

The experience now became elevated to the next level.  With that, I experienced what can only be described as the cap of the top of my head explosively blowing off. My crown chakra had come undone.  I was being realigned.  My chakras and energy were thoroughly reworked by, Merlin, the dream magus himself. Simultaneously as my body rattled away, even more so than before, I began experiencing a two-way flow of the most intense, yellow-gold light energies.

Quite simply, it was as if my head was the exhaust of a space-shuttle at blast off.  As if my poor body were not sufficiently taxed, now I was being touched by Merlin’s soul itself. Even though my lids were closed, I kept them closed not wanting the experience to end anytime soon.  I was hanging on for the ride; I matched its cosmic intensity as best my body could muster. As the experience endured, it became a yellow-white light.  Throughout all this, I heard my noisy Jamaican neighbour talking.

Even though the room was dark, as I was lying there in meditation, spatially I felt it become intensely illumined.  It matched the brilliance of the light energies that I experienced. Even as I was lying there in bed, I could feel the light’s intensity on my face and exposed arms.  Clearly, I was in two planes simultaneously. My soul was lucidly focussed both on the astral plane and the physical plane.  In the latter, I was lying in meditation of a most sublime though intense nature.

Interestingly enough, just as in the fifth dream of July 9, 1993 when I would encounter Merlin on the astral plane, I was sharing energy with him who had been on my right side. When the energy transference session was concluded, which happened for quite some time, a new wave of energy was begun. Encircling my head, starting at just below the ears, a heavy wave of energy moved slowly up my head.  The energy ended at the blown-off crown chakra.  This was a truly phenomenal experience. Quite simply, it did feel as though my skull itself was being warped.  It felt like a rippling succession of waves that moved – always from bottom to top.  As it moved upwards, the sonic waves droned in and out of intensity and pulsated as well.

It was like having a humpback whale singing the same two notes, over and over again, next to one’s ears.  Overwhelming, this was an intensely charged energy experience. For whatever reasons, I decided that I would try to get up.  If my head were towards true north, I thought that it would be much better.  I was keenly aware that I was still lying in bed in my apartment. Too, I was aware that I was definitely not asleep. After all, the neighbour was arguing about whether or not Dennis Rodman was a battyman – Gay. One thing that I peripherally gathered, from their conversation, was that he was talking to a man named Henry.  This man’s conversation was such absolute, mindless bullshit.

To have hugged Merlin was like hugging pure light energy which is why it was so intense.  When it was over, my astral projecting self rolled off my right side and back onto my back. Even though I was returned to my body, I was not fully returned to the shell of my physical body.  I was still astral-projected to being with Merlin on the astral plane. I felt as though I hovered two thirds out and above my reclining body.  My astral self was levitating above my body.  It felt as though my body was a body of water, as it were, it was the ocean. My astral self felt as if floating in the water with just an inch of it above the water’s surface.  It felt as though I were floating in a heavy body of water.

Spurring myself on, I told myself that I could muster the willpower to pick up my body and move.  I said aloud, “Come on, Arvin.  You can do it.  Get up, take the bed and relocate it so that you end up with your head to the north.” Too, I thought passingly of having the light in the room turned on… somewhat.  I was keenly aware that the large crystal was directly behind my head – in the waking state, of course. I desperately wanted, at times, to reach back behind my head and touch the powerful quartz crystal.  None of these things that I wanted to do, I was able to.

Undaunted, I told myself to get it together as it was not as if I were paralysed.  When I tried to move, I got up a bit but it was so sudden that it was almost displacing. Furthermore, the whirring energies about my head intensified becoming more so crushing than before.  Instead of my, legs swinging off the bed to the floor, my body did. I landed face down, with a thud, onto the floor beside the bed.  Oh dear, not quite what I had been expecting.  I guess that I had overshot my mark.  My head was in the same direction as when I had been lying on the bed. Thank goodness, it was not a bunk bed but merely a couple of mattresses on the floor.  Of course, my furniture has yet to arrive here from Vancouver.

Collapsed, my body was crushed against the floor.  I felt more weighted, as if a ragdoll, than before. At least there was softness to the mattress.  The electromagnetic surge was much too intense.  I resolved to rectify, at whatever cost, what seemed an energy imbalance. Still feeling fairly splayed, I struggled to my feet.  I managed to get the table lamp, which the landlord loaned me, and began trying to plug it in.  However, both sockets in the room seemed to be dead. It was as if there was a blown fuse in the house.  I knew that there wasn’t a power blackout because I could hear the neighbour’s TV.  Truth be told, the TV was being drowned out by his loudmouthed phone conversation.

Now I was beginning to be confused.  Perhaps, this fall from the bed and subsequent adventure with the lamp was not taking place on the physical plane.  Indeed, perhaps, it was not centred in my 17-2865 rue Goyer apartment but instead on the astral plane. The tip-off here was the fact that the room was so incredibly dark.  It was like being inside a light vacuum.  At whatever cost, I wanted the lights on.  Now when I tried the overhead light switch, it did not work as well. Here there were two switches, whereas there is only one in my rue Goyer, Montréal apartment.  These two switches were truly bizarre.  They did not work properly and only went up halfway.  Still, they did not produce lighting when I got them all the way up.

I then decided to go out to the bathroom, where the lights were always on in the waking state, to see if the light there did work.  When I got out to the hallway, it was another room entirely.  I then went to the next room which was the bathroom. Here again, the lights did not work.  Becoming more frustrated, I began rushing about the apartment testing all the lights.  This apartment definitely was larger with added rooms too. Feeling pissed off, I called out, “Come on, Merlin!  Stop playing around with the electricity.  Turn back on the lights!”

However, in all of this, I never did see Merlin.  Finally, I made it to another room where, I found another lamp.  This was a most weird-looking lamp.  Making sure that it worked properly, I tried taking it apart. Inspecting it to see that the lamplight was properly screwed in, I had taken off its shade.  It had three prongs which held up the shade.  They were brass-coloured prongs and looked rather rusty. When I was done with the prongs, the shade just did not fit on it at all.  Regardless, I got the damn lamp and returned to the bedroom with it as the light did work.  Perhaps, the fuse there was okay and it would work. Since there was sufficient light coming through the far windows, I could get some of it inside the bedroom.  As soon as I had snapped at Merlin, there was now a flood of light outdoors that shone lots of light indoors.

It seemed as though there were three full Moons, high in the sky, flooding the apartment’s periphery.  Now there was so much light flooding the bedroom that I did not need the lamp anymore. Then I decided to move the bed across the room.  I hadn’t a clue where the energy came from but in one powerful shove, I moved the bed across the room as if by force of will.  The covers, incidentally, were on the bed. Soon, I realised that the bed was improperly lined up.  Now, it was facing due west rather than north.  So then, I tried moving it to the correct north-south alignment. I got it moved then decided that I needed to move the TV.  Obviously this was on the astral plane as I would never have the TV in my bedroom.

I found a long strip of cable wiring which, strangely enough, was transparent.  I did not think that it was going to be long enough to do the trick, so I knew that I had to reroute it. For some strange reason, I decided that I had to have the TV at the foot of the bed – just beyond my feet.  There was a stand there on which it would sit. The cable cord, which ran to the TV, was the cream-coloured one as in the waking state.  There were parts of it, however, that were transparent-looking like an IV tube. Before connecting to the TV, the cable forked into a Y-formation.  So I ripped it from along the floorboards where it ran.  There was a tiny bracket which held the cord in place but it did not, however, look like an oversized staple.

These brackets were shaped like inverted Ls.  White and made of plastic, they were also very pliant.  There was a bit of a hook at the top, up beneath which one would shove the cable cord and thus secure it. After having unhinged the cord from the brackets, I pondered next where to redirect the cable cord.  It was at this point that I noticed that there was another bed in the bedroom. Also, it was much higher than my present bed.  A well-made bed, there were several layers of sheets on it. 

One spread on it was the cover that Isis da Braga absolutely adored – when we lived at Toronto’s 122 Mortimer Avenue. It was a series of blue squares with white in between each square.  There were several floral designs on it.  All in all, it looked pretty much as if a mock quilt.  Instead of being a good quality duvet, it contained synthetics – foam – on the inside. Soon, I realised that I had way too many covers on the bed.  I definitely did not want to have the fully-opened sleeping bag.  It was much too warm for that.  I removed the sleeping bag from the bed and thought to return to bed. All this time, because I could still hear the Jamaican speaking next door, I thought that I was in the waking state.  I then, however, stopped in midstride and thought for a second that this could not be anything other than having astral-projected to a very lucid OBE – Out-of-Body-Experience.

With that, I opened my lids momentarily, only to find myself in the familiar darkened cocoon of my apartment at 17-2865 rue Goyer in Montréal.  Next door, unusually loudly, the neighbour was still blabbing away. What was really interesting was that, when I moved the bed to face its northwards orientation, I sensed a definite shift and realignment in the room’s Chi.  It was, in fact, quite noticeable. What should have triggered my awareness was the fact that there was no door from the bedroom to the balcony.  This, of course, explained why the room was so dark.  Lids closed again, I was returned to the OBE where I stood at the foot of the bed.

Returning to the bed, on the astral plane, I got in with my head due north.  At that moment, the electromagnetic surge which seemed so imbalanced immediately shifted.  Straight away, I was properly aligned.  Suddenly, I felt nothing but peace. This was such sweet surrender that I could simply have died for joy.  It was such release after the harrowing, energetic roller coaster ride that I had been on. At this point, I was then instantaneously slipped into the dreamtime… in earnest.

At once, I was as if violently ejected from my body, on returning to it on the astral plane bed.  The tranquillity that I felt, on taking to bed on the astral plane, was a false alarm.  As this the first dream suddenly began, it had been a mere momentary pause. Straight away, my astral self was projected out of my body again.  This time, it seemed to have been magnetically tugged away by a greater force. On suddenly leaping from my body, I astral-projected and found myself in midstride.  As with the earlier phase of astral projecting when my crown chakra was as if blown off, this was just as explosive.

Just as when the yellow-gold light surged through me, my ejection into this dream was as intense.  Rarely has my awareness been so fluidly and lucidly engaged as at this moment. Too, I had a strong, distinct awareness of Merlin being around me. I walked along a pathway which had an embankment on either side.  The natural earthen path was rather wide.  It was in a large, incredibly-treed, densely forested area that was much like the more lush parts of Vancouver Island. It was like the northern end of Vancouver Island around Cathedral Grove Park.  This was a rainforest during its dry season.  At points, it did so seem as if in Vancouver’s Stanley Park.

What immediately I thought of was that initial dream encounter with Merlin almost twenty years prior in 1978.  The only difference here is that, the trees were close to seven times taller than those at Cathedral Grove Park and Stanley Park.  They were thick-trunked evergreens.  These trees were the most potent energy forms imaginable. Straight away, I was reminded of the arboreal giants who seemed sentient, or at least on the verge thereof, back in that OBE on Boxing Day 1972.  These massive arboreal giants were the energies that had been coming through to me. In concert, these arboreal greats used their harmonised energies to assist with my realignment to the light within.  Utterly healing it was to have experienced this transformation.  Such marvellous validation, it proved, of much that had been learnt in that experience on Boxing Day, 1972.

As I wandered along the pathway, I noticed that there was something wrong.  I could hear the same vibrational whirring but, this time, it was not occurring inside my head and destabilising me.  It was off somewhere. Although I can’t honestly say that I ever did see him, I could also hear Merlin speaking to me.  Merlin then warned me to be careful and watch out.  It was then that I noticed a person getting up. When I looked more closely, I saw that the individual was unusually proportioned.  Though they seemed human enough, they had unusually weird-looking arses. Their arses just did not hang right.  Rather, their arses did not look remotely like a human’s.  The arses here were not dissimilar to the arses on those short elfin Whites, whom I encountered in the ‘Hellsgate Bar’, in the dreams of the November 4, 1989.

Here these people had jet-black, extra-long hair that covered their entire bodies.  They were über-poilu – excessively hirsute – in the extreme. They were, too, quite large-bodied an extra-human species.  This led me to ask Merlin if, indeed, the notion of the Sasquatch was not true.  There were family groupings with parents and children. They began coming down from off the right embankment as I walked past. 

As a matter of fact, they were not running away from me but crossing the street.  They were going to the other embankment, on the left, which was lower. Their behaviour, the way that they got up, suggested that they slept out in the open.  Seemingly, they rose up and simply began going about their daily routine.  From the embankment the land sloped downwards away from the road.

There had been a break-like path, in the embankment, down which they progressed.  Their movement was casual.  They did not, however, interact with me.  Indeed, they did not acknowledge my being there. I counted about seven small family groupings.  More to the point, I did not like the vibration that I was getting from them.  It was about not, as it were, being in familiar territory. Definitely, since this was not Kansas, the plan was to stay out of harm’s way.

So with that, I pushed off and opted for the expediency of flight.  I levitated, going up into the air.  Whilst in flight, I was as if lying on my stomach, face down to the ground, with my arms outstretched directly before me. This is a position in which I can’t recall having flown and, if so, quite rarely.  I did this because I wanted to be able to travel really swiftly.  I was doing this to jettison my way on out of this place.

I wanted to push beyond so that I could go to some new dimension to which I had never ventured before.  Initially, I had not been flying at great speeds and this only left me feeling impatient. I just did not like the feeling of entrapment that, deep within me, such slow flight induced.  So I sought to go beyond, the bounds of, the very dimension in which I was questing. I wanted to experience some grand illuminating, uplifting experience like, in too long, I have not.  Thanks in large measure to the morass, back in Vancouver, through which my life had been dredging. Earlier, when I had snapped at Merlin, it was my way of saying to him that I needed some help.  So that I could go push further beyond, I wanted him to give me a boost.

I desperately wanted, in my spiritual unfoldment, to push beyond the bounds to which I have already quested.  When astral projecting, I was reminded that the transparent cabling represented the astral self’s cord. Even though in an OBE state, when I was lying in the rearranged bed on the astral plane, I was then projected out of my body yet again.  I was about to quest into, a whole other dream realm of, new adventures and dimensional experiences. I had mistakenly been of the impression that when I was lying, with my head due north, that that was the point at which I went to sleep.  Obviously, this was not the case. Soon, I began flying past large ferns – some of which floated lazily in the sky.  They, like every other arboreal life-form here, were especially lush.

They floated, only on the level at which I flew, on either side of the wide earthen path.  They managed to have overhung the pathway by using tree branches to have affected the feat. Even though I flew considerably high up, I was nowhere higher than the trees which were uniformly tall and majestic.  When I came from beyond the growth, where the hirsute beings were, it was now an open space that basked in intense sunlight. The men were about 9 feet tall whilst the women some 7 feet tall; they were possibly taller but for being unfamiliar, with having to gauge such heights, my observations were likely off. They were a brawny, robust people who were clearly extra-human.  There were no distinguishing features to their faces as their long, jet-black hair entirely covered their faces. Though I had not found them frightening, I thought it best to keep a low profile.  After all, I was in their domain.  Since my speed was not picking up, as desired, I grew less impatient.

Intrigued by the environment, I paused to check out a sheer rock face which was all black stone.  The rock was stratified by the thinnest layers conceivable. I had noticed it, off to the left, as I flew back in the direction over the road.  I was flying back along the route, which I had taken, when in a hurry to flee the place.  This was a place truly like no other before experienced. Now I could no longer discern the whirring sounds, of the vibrational energy surge, which had previously played mightily on my ears.  However, I wanted some of that energy to assist me in flying faster.  I just wanted to get beyond, to the next level, to whatever that adventure might be.

Since I had already accomplished much energy work, in the meditative and vision states, there was no need to have gone any faster.  This I had concluded when reasoning with self. I had already been revved up, with more than ample energy, to get me through these experiences.  I was, as ever, my usual impatient self.  I was an amalgam of both ego and soul. When the sheer rock face finished, there was a large opening where there was an incredibly super, mammoth civilisation.  This metropolis dwarfed any that I had, before in the dreamtime, ever encountered.

By far, it was one thousand times larger than that metropolis, which I saw from the hilltop, in the dreams where I would meet Merlin on July 9, 1993. It was more massive, by several thousand times, than the inverted Machu Pichu-like civilisation – to which I had travelled in the dreamtime on December 29, 1990. When I had happened on it, I was in flight and looking down on this most spectacular vista.  Just past the rock face, the civilisation began way below.  It was not only surprising but revolutionary. Too, there were giant holograms in the air.  They featured Blacks in hair care advertisements.  The Blacks in these holographs were very upper middle class-looking and healthy.

They had great skin, teeth and were spectacularly dark-complected.  I had flown off, to the left, to check out the holograms. I then noticed that, way below me, there was a golden, bronze-coloured maze that was made of the smoothest stone.  It can only be called a maze as its complexity defies description. At times, it was hard to tell whether it was actually stone or metal.  The element’s tonality subtly changed throughout.  It was a flat surface which had lots of openings in it. Basically, these were portals at the top of the civilisation.  They were simply tunnels to let the natural light in, as well as, to let off heat and exhaust.  For below its impenetrable shell, this civilisation was teeming with unimaginably large masses.

This was the roof of the civilisation.  Through the gaping portals was revealed windows galore.  Every portal had massive skyscrapers that were easily in excess of five hundred storeys. However, none of these skyscrapers broke above the flat, rock-metallic-looking surface.  When arriving at this super-metropolis, I had first seen the portals. Several of these massive skyscrapers fit into each of the portals.  The rock face encircled the entire civilisation.  The rock face left this super-metropolis neither as distant nor canyoned as that inverted Machu Pichu-like metropolis.

*This, of course, refers to the Machu-Pichu-like civilisation encountered in the dreams of December 29, 1990.  END.

This area was most massive.  There were vats of red light that shot up into the air, on escaping from the portals, as the civilisation’s glowing lights made it from the bowels of the depths. The portals were each hexagonal in shape.  Though all of the portals contained the ultra-modern, five-hundred-storey-plus skyscrapers, they never protruded above their rims. This civilisation on its own must have easily been home to at least 200 billion souls.  This was a truly humbling experience. I felt as if a mere pygmy moth, in flight, traversing across the width of a canyoned, bronze-stoned encased structure.  Truly phenomenal a sight and experience this was.

When looking down and discovering all this, I must have been in flight some three thousand feet in the air.  Prior to having experienced it, one could not have conceived of anything on this scale. A truly densely populated civilisation this was.  Blown away by the massiveness and beauty of this place, I flew across as much of the golden-bronze civilisation’s rooftop as I could. Thank goodness that I had earlier gotten such a boost of energy.  Nothing less could have sustained me, when in flight, across the top of this complex, massive civilisation.  Just for security’s sake, from time to time, I hugged the rock face whilst in flight. Whilst in flight, there was no way that I wanted to run out of my fuel of light energies.  Energies they were which Merlin had shared with me, I was firmly convinced.

I then noticed that, up in one section of the rock face, there was also a built up extension of things.  The same architectural designs were also used. Worked into the intricate structure was the monolithic face of a woman.  Indeed, could this have been a matriarchal civilisation? However, even though a face made of stone, I then noticed that she began speaking.  Clearly, this woman was pretty pissed off, “I’m going to show them.  I’ll get them yet.” Whilst part of a sculpture which looked much like Earth’s Mount Rushmore in the United States of America, she was operating some levers.  The stone, with a seeming mix of metal – in this case gold, was nicely worked into her face.

As she spoke and her features became animated, the play of light on her features was kaleidoscopic.  It seemed that she was out to show the inhabitants, of the portalled civilisation, a thing or two. She announced that she would release a much-feared creature on the civilisation.  A voracious carnivore, it was expected to go into one of the portals where it would feast on a few million citizens. Intrigued, I slowed down and alighted on a ledge in the rock face.  It was around a large outcropping of golden-bronze, metallic stone. Around the corner to my right, beyond the outcropping, was the enraged woman whose face was made of stone or seemingly so.  To my right, on the rock face, towering above the civilisation was the creature’s face.

Its eyes were fairly close to me.  Like a griffin or the mythic dragon, it was a bird creature of some sort.  It was not a very pretty-looking creature and you just knew that it could be a real menacing terror. These were the eyes of an eagle which predatorily flickered, a couple of times, as I looked at it.  Even though worked into the rock face, like its mistress, it seemed simultaneously mechanical though she did not. However, this creature was quite so alive.

Whilst distracted by the griffin, I had failed to have noticed that there was some other creature.  Hungrily snapping up at me, the creature was just below my feet. It was a pet of the dominatrix’s; it was as if a dog though not.  It was covered in a white membrane which was as if a giant sloth with large beaver-like teeth. Definitely not game, I shoved off and levitated higher up the rock face.  Obviously, I sought to get out of its reach.

She, however, was not aware that its yapping was because I was there.  Frankly, I don’t think that she could have cared less. I suspect that she thought that it was greedily anticipating the kill which, shortly, the large griffin-like creature would undertake. With a coiled tail, like a serpent’s or a dragon’s even, this griffin-like creature was more so a bird of prey.  Next, an aperture opened up in the rock face about the creature. In so doing, it revealed that the creature had an immensely long body with a shell on its back.  It really did look much like a turtle’s shell.  Similarly, the white membrane which covered the tiny pet’s body covered the amphibian-looking, predatory, griffin-like creature.

Sure enough, like any bird would, it noisily crowed.  The cry was always a dual-toned affair and noisy at that.  On her signal, the über-griffin came from its lair and leapt from the opening.  It then began effortlessly flying downwards to the civilisation below. Meanwhile, she had used other levers to close almost all the dozens of hexagonal portals in the civilisation’s rooftop.  When she was finished, there was only one portal left open.

Naturally, everyone in the mega-metropolis would be filled with terror.  Clearly, this could only mean that the dreaded monster was upon them. The other portals were closed to prevent anyone’s escape.  She would have none of it.  She ruled the civilisation and clearly she was a god of revenge who used terror to keep her subjects in line. The portal covers fitted so seamlessly that it was hard to discern that previously there had been massive, gaping apertures in the metallic-stone-looking maze.  This surface had no lustre to it; rather, it was a matte finish.

Off to my left, there was a recession in the rock face.  There, I noticed that there was a ledge.  The civilisation did not, however, expand over into that direction.  A paved area it was rather damp. The dominatrix’s pet sloth-like creature went scurrying after something that was over in that direction.  I did not, however, make out what it was. As compared to the white membrane which covered the rest of its body, the griffin-like creature’s shell was rather dark.  One interesting feature about it was that its eyes were, on long pods, like a snail’s eyes. They were capable of moving independent of each other, even though they were such large imposing birdlike eyes. 

These were not the eyes of a turtle or a snake but definitely those of an eagle’s.  Like an eagle, it effortlessly flew through the air. Peripherally, it noticed the pet making for the kill so diverted and swooped down with an eagle’s deadly precision.  Of course, it got ahead of the pet.  It was obvious from its head movements that it had captured the tidbit. The pet sloth-like creature noisily protested being cheated out of a snack.  This was all that I needed to see and said to myself, “Well darlings, whilst you work that out, I’m getting on out of here.”

With that, I took to the air, I flew away from there.  I followed the rock face which encircled some seventy-five per cent of the civilisation.  Definitely, it was more than a semicircle.  The rock face was shaped like the hook at the top of a question mark. I made my way around the rock face and got away from where the sadistic goddess ruler was.  Coming around the large abutment of the rock face, I happened on a massive cabling of root systems.

This was now a very cavernous damp area.  This area was completely unlike the cool built-up civilisation.  Moss covered the massive root systems throughout and made the smell here the most ripe, fecund perfume. Here I happened on two children who stood in amongst the forest of cabling roots.  They were very Oriental-looking but dark-complected.  They were not though like dark-complected Asians – in the waking state. What they seemed to be were an amalgam of all the races.  They were taller than the average, South East Asian, more than six feet tall, even though clearly children.  Also, they were a lovely olive complexion like Hispanics.

They weren’t as dark as say Sri Lankans or Sumatrans.  More than anything else, they were tall and long-limbed as though Maasai children.  I thought that this was what humanity had racially evolved to, sometime in the distant future. With Asians being the dominant tribal grouping on the planet, it did make perfect sense.  Finally, there was truly one human race, no more of this hideous idiocy of divisiveness. They were full-lipped and large almond-eyed with beautifully flared nostrils.  Then I thought about it, a bit, remembering the Blacks in the hair care ads.  Clearly, this suggested that there were still specific tribal groupings around.

Looking as if lost, this boy and girl were just standing there.  There were little creatures on the ground behind them.  Though they looked like crows, they were clearly not.  They were more so like winged squirrels.  They were as nonthreatening as squirrels or, for that matter, crows. As they stood side-by-side the girl was closer to me whilst the creatures were off to their left.  Though kids, they were already six feet whilst I flew in the air at just above six feet. I had come around, in flight, from off their right shoulders.  He was a little older and a tad taller than her.  I flew around them, noticing the white membrane here.  The membrane covered the entire ground here.

It was a strange-looking substance and like nothing in the waking state.  I never did get close enough to the ground, so that I could touch it, to test its consistency. With that I took flight, again, soaring upwards and flying ahead to yet another vista.

*Each time that I would soar higher here, I would be posited into what would be a new dream experience.  However, this was a rather seamless progression from dream to dream. I moved from dream to dream, in what was the same extraordinary, never-before-visited civilisation.  Thus, unless warranted, I will let the dreams flow one into the other.  END.

Kiara Kabukuru

Now as if in the yard of the Crab Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts house, I was posited in the second dream.  Here I noticed lots of twigs which seemed to be from the genip tree.  However, as they had large thorns on them, it would seem that they were from a shaddock tree. Here it was night time out and a very beautiful light illumined the area.  Soon, I noticed a lovely dark-complected woman in the yard who reminded me of Joy Westhammer. However, it was not Joy.  Indeed, this woman was much more beautiful and looked a lot like Naomi Campbell.  As a matter of fact, the look was more like Kiara Kabukuru’s, the model.  She was long-limbed, svelte and wonderful to look at.

She was then, down in the gutter, taking clippings from the trees.  Not that I would mind her doing it but I suggested that there was nothing wrong with her coming by and asking if she could do so. Of course, I would have let her have some.  After all, as it would be propagating the plant, I would gladly have allowed her to.  However, since I was the proprietor, she was socially obliged to have approached me and asked for my permission. This was the only way that civil society could be maintained and not dissolved into anarchy.  As a matter of fact, I would have loved to have counselled her on which parts of the tree to have chosen.

I would have loved to have shown her how best to prune a tree.  As I pointed this out, I was stunned as she became pissed off with me.  From her point of view, I was attacking her. She let me know that she had no intentions of returning them.  Of course, I had no desire to have them returned to me.  Why would I?  They are nature; I could never own them. With that, she started fleeing but I called after her.  I told her that there was no need for that response.  With that, I went chasing after her as she went running around the property.  Here, it was more than the Crab Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts house’s property.

This was now part of a large estate as we went running around to the side which led up to Yvette Morehead’s.  From there, she went running into Max Worsthorne’s yard.  I knew that she definitely was not Elizabeth Westhammer’s daughter. This woman was the classic, beautiful artisan soul.  She was cosmopolitan and upper middle class.  In her flight, she had dropped the twigs which stood upright as if tuning forks.

*Of course, this harkens back to that dream on November 4, 1989.  In said dream, there were the golden-coloured, Y-shaped, yod-like tools which similarly acted when falling to the ground.  END.

Somehow, it seemed as though they were magnetised by an energy flow deep below the surface.  Gathering them up, I tossed them over the fence back into the Crab Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts house’s backyard. When returning to the yard, I stood on the steps from Harella da Braga’s bedroom and looked off into the yard.  Peripherally, I had noticed some movement.  Shocked was I to find that she had returned to pick the twigs. I admonished her and told her that she did not have to be like that.  I told her that there was no need to have fled or even have vilified me.  However, she did need my permission if she were to go on taking the twigs.

Nonetheless, she would have none of it.  She disagreed by yelling at me then stubbornly ran off.  With that, I went to inspect the tree as I wondered if she had only returned just so that she could do deliberate damage to the tree. Obviously, she had taken offence at being counselled by me.  This woman exhibited that stinking ignorance so rife, the world over, amongst much of human society. This is an attitude whereby one would rather hate and kill one another than communicate.  It made no sense to have behaved the way that she had.

Going to the tree, I noticed that there was a dark-haired, White male down in the gutter.  Initially, I thought that he had been taking a piss but he remained motionless for much too long. Soon, I realised that there was obviously more at play here.  I decided to go and discreetly check things out.  Clearing the bushes, I snuck down into the gut where he was standing.  He stood facing that opening in the wall of the Crab Hill Bridge. He stood there at the portal in the bridge’s wall as though keeping a lookout… or so it seemed.  As I grew closer, I noticed that there was a man squatting in front of him who gave him head.

Both were decidedly North American-looking, White Gays.  Each was in his early twenties; they rudely reacted to my coming and blocking them.  I, for one, felt badly for having walked in on them. I thought that he had been alone, at the most, possibly jacking-off.  They were quite pissed off that I had shown up.  Intrigued, I wanted to play voyeur and check out the action. Furious, they abruptly stopped then got up and took off.  Going onto the street, they stood there with their backs against the wall of the bridge.  Where they had been standing on the other side of the bridge’s wall, they were just beside the portal. Waiting for me to get lost, they stood there making snarky remarks about me.  I did not hear and could not have cared less about them and their remarks.

Once indoors, I was now posited in this the third dream.  Readily, much to my horror, I realised that my apartment was not at all that secured.  The door that leads to the inner fire escape – here at my rue Goyer, Montréal apartment – had had its doorknob and the two latches at top and bottom removed. To say the least, I was really pissed off because anyone could easily have entered my apartment.  Looking through, I noticed that there was an apartment next door with two beds. It seemed that there were two White women living there; they were young.  They seemed like classical dancers.  The one on the far bed reminded me of Mindy Asparian.

She was working on a macramé that was likely going to be a Christmas present.  There was a design on it that looked like a little ragdoll.  A most unusual design though it was. A large body, two heads attached, plus two little bodies that fell from beneath either arm.  It was propped up on the bed so that it looked rather garish.  About 18.0 inches tall, it was a thick, Babushka-type doll. I had been peering through the hole, where my doorknob bloody-well ought to have been, when I saw all of this going down.  I wondered how long that the door had been an open invitation. They, or anyone else for that matter, could have come over and spied on me.  Regardless, as soon as possible, I wanted the situation taken care of.

Daytime now found me in a narrow cobblestoned street, here in the fourth dream.  Though wet, it was also bright out in this unfamiliar city. All the buildings here, by several millennia, were rather ancient.  They were, however, in the Gothic style.  Again, this was not in Europe but this strange world to which I had travelled. Were it in Europe, then it would likely have been Germany rather than France.  To be sure, this was in another dimension entirely.

Isis da Braga and her Jamaican friend Dahlia Compton were together.  We were together and Dahlia said that she felt rather tired and wanted to rest for awhile. Meanwhile, I was being complimented for having fluttered my lashes whilst smiling at the beauty of the place.  In this dimension, I Arvin was terribly racy, witty and possessed of a confidence that was supremely sexy. Indeed, I was also an actor by profession and was incredibly charming.  Here, I was greatly loved by everyone.  Obviously, this was a dimension in which I hadn’t Harella da Braga and Pericles da Braga with whom to contend in childhood.

My eyes here were riveting and I was known to possess this beguiling quality when speaking.  My eyes perpetually were flirting, dancing and feverishly darting about. At the time, I had a paper fan with which I covered my mouth whilst speaking.  This, of course, drew more attention to my eyes.  In a mocking fashion, I had been self-consciously covering my mouth. I was being flirtatious whilst pretending to be a woman.  This was a caricature that I did in that dimension.  My teeth were perfectly beautiful when smiling and were for that matter capped and rather large.

However, I was aware that the Arvin of that dimension was not aware of why he felt the need to cover his handsome mouth.  When Arvin of that dimension did his caricature, though it came through from the level of soul, it was intimately connected to all Arvins. In particular, it had been inspired by me in this dimension.  In that sense, he was as if channelling me here though not consciously aware of the roots of his caricature. Here in this dimension, Isis was rather sweet towards me.  I was much favoured by her.  There was no dynamic here of being manipulated within the family by either Harella or Pericles. Eventually turning onto a narrow little street, we had been walking back and forth.  Here, there were some wide stately steps that led up to the buildings.

The steps were very dark as if covered with a dried-up moss.  Being on this street, I was immediately reminded me of a street on which I had been on two previous occasions. The previous times when I was on this street, obviously occurred in the dreamtime, when living in New York City.  The other occasion was much earlier during childhood in St. Kitts. Soon, I saw a Black man coming down the street who looked like a friend in Montréal.  In these parts, I was readily warmed at the reminder of a friend.  I had said that I referred to that Haïtien friend as ‘Belle Tête.’  I explained that it meant ‘beautiful head’ as in the shape of his exquisite skull.

Here in the dreamtime, I had even called the man the same thing.  He too had asked what it meant which I had tempered by being flirtatious.  Dahlia had rather enjoyed my playfulness and sweetly laughed. I was quite amazed at this other aspect of self.  For here, one was being deferred to rather that opposed or rejected.  Truly revolutionary! Whilst we visited, a car came down the street in our direction then pulled up and parked beyond us.  We walked up and past it.  I wanted to go explore some trees that looked like cherry trees; they beautifully overhung the street.

Beautifully pruned, they were not more than nine feet tall… if that much.  As we went down, I noticed that a couple of macaques came out into the street from off the trees.  I thought it the most charming thing imaginable. Right away, I was reminded of the macaques in Japanese snowy mountains or those in Nepal about which Sjaak van der Velde speaks so highly.  However, this particular species had unusually long tails that curled. Dark-furred, their fur was also a bit on the long side.  On closer scrutiny, I realised that there was something off about them.  Sure enough, their eyes were exceptionally large and monochromatic.

Some were black-within-black eyes whilst others were exclusively crimson red-within-crimson red eyes.  If ever there were any doubts as to this not being Kansas, they were certainly then dispelled. As we grew closer, they ran away and scurried into the long stretch of cherry trees.  These trees lined the ancient, moss-covered cobblestone road. The trees soon became noisy from the rustling of the large tribe of monkeys in their crowns.  The inordinately beautiful macaques were exceptionally noisy.  This street ran off one of the many piazzas which, incidentally, stood before one of the many large Gothic structures. Though the look of these structures was cathedral-like, they were though several storeys high.  They were in excess of one hundred storeys each.

Made of pure stone, they were moss and time-blackened office and residential towers.  These fantastic structures were in the Gothic style with flying buttresses and Gothic spires at their far-off crowns. The stone, though seemingly darkened by the wetness which drenched the place, was innately that dark aside from the moss that covered them and everything else. The moisture from the rainfall left the black stone with a glossy finish that was truly spectacular.  With a noisy bevy of macaques on either side of us in the treetops, I said quietly, “I think my dear Isis we ought to turn back now.”

I just did not want to alarm this one.  Many of the macaques were crossing over from one tree to the next, over the middle of the street, in the most acrobatic of flying leaps. Firmly taking Isis’s hand, I told her that whatever happened we simply couldn’t start running.  As a matter of fact, these macaques seemed feral and ready to attack. Next, there was a swarm of what initially I thought to be flies.  They proved, however, to be some furry genus of bees.  They had a symbiotic relationship with the macaques.

In essence, the bees’ role was to eat the very honey-sweet, perpetual mucous from the macaques’ spectacularly monochromatic eyes.  Every now and again, in unison, the bees would simply fly away. For a brief moment, they would take leave of their host macaques.  Interestingly enough, the macaques would never have stirred or brushed away the bees yet they would buzz away for a moment. This was some sort of hive response to some aspect of the macaques’ rhythm.  It was one which clearly still stirred some instinctive fear in them.

At one point, I saw one of the macaque counterparts, of this far-off, never-before-visited-in-the-dreamtime-dimension, in an intimate close-up as I intently studied it. Its eyes were the same intensity of red as what you would find in the red of round, red pieces – which along with black ones – form the basis for a game of checkers.  The others had brown-black rather than jet-black eyes. Clearly, this was some aspect of the astral plane to which I rarely travelled.  As it were, this was not astral terra firma as I am accustomed to experiencing things when on the astral plane.

As we had made our way down the tiny road, a large tribe of the macaques came rushing across the piazza to our left.  With the most amazingly agile ease, they took to the trees before and behind us. They squatted there in the treetops and looked down at us.  There was no getting around the fact that they were intelligent beings. Their posture when squatting suggested that they were as if macaque-man.  Clearly, they were some evolutionary manifestation of ensoulment in simian mammalia. As we walked past them, as if into a well-laid trap, they were facing in the direction from which we had come.  It seemed likely that the couple of macaques which had been standing there, drawing my attention, were part of a well-laid plan.

A ruse whereby the unsuspecting were entrapped and then made a meal of, later on, or what have you.  When we turned around, their backs were now turned on us.  They all faced the same direction and never looked over their shoulders back at us. Again, knowing her only too well, I asked Isis not to freak out regardless of whatever happened.  Rather than running, I told her that we had to appear cool by walking away. Were we to have run, they would be disturbed and the only likely reaction would be fearful.  I added that I did not see how such a reaction could not be inimical. If they were to come after us, I assured her that we did not stand much of a chance against them.  We were, I reminded her, in their territory and did not quite know of their capabilities.  All of this, I telepathically said to Isis.

I firmly reached into her mind and thus stilled her fears.  I had had to initially take her hand, on entering her mind, as she was about to freak out not knowing what was going on. Hand-in-hand, I was able to guide her out of there.  Cautiously, we ventured out from beneath the entrapping tunnel of macaque-filled, riotously blooming, cherry trees.

Here, in this the fifth dream, I was running into several former members of the National Ballet of Canada.  As well, there were some current dancers from the company.  They were all tightly spaced. This again took place in one of the same tightly-spaced, cobblestoned, wet black-stoned streets.  As they were getting ready to go onstage, here it was nighttime.

Some sort of spectacular was about to be staged with these dancers.  Several others were also going to be participating.  I passingly wondered if it meant that Celia Franca had died. Perhaps, too, the National Ballet of Canada was celebrating its 50th or 60th anniversary.  As I moved through the gaggle of dancers, they were all decked out in colourful costumes that were designed unmistakably by Hélène Plotte-de Visage.

Evelyn Hart was not among the dancers here though I did see Karen Kain.  As well, I saw just about every dance luminary from the company’s illustrious past.  They were all so very excited to be reunited.

One dancer, in particular, caught my eye.  He was dark-complected and obviously John Alleyne whom I have never met.  As I passed, he was to my right as we were all tightly packed in the backstage area and I said, “Well hello, Kevin Pugh.”

Of course, it was not Kevin – to whom I was briefly acquainted in the waking state.  Those nearby heard the gaffe and giggled at the idea that I was implying that ‘they all look alike.’  Since I too was Black, especially drôle it seemed to those who had heard my gaffe. I was merely nervous as all hell to have been there and to have met John Alleyne.  These things happen, after all, so why not here in the dreamtime.

About four persons later, I did in fact see Kevin Pugh.  I explained to him what had just occurred.  We briefly, warmly chatted.  To have done what I had, I told him how embarrassing and racially insensitive it was of me. One dancer next to Kevin, undoubtedly it was Owen Montague,  hysterically laughed and threw his head back in the process.  It really was true though and embarrassingly funny.

Kevin gave me a pat on the forearm, whilst smiling, as I walked away.  It was amazing how very real he was.  He was as if before me in the waking state.  I could even smell his very intense, sweat-soaked costume. Here, I was the same racy-personae, other-dimensional Arvin.  I was very much the actor who was recognised.  To everything that I said, everyone hung on to my every word.

I did have quite an alluring quicksilver wit and intellect.  One had to be ‘on’ when listening to me as it created an illuminating high when I spoke.  I was charm personified.  Clearly, my overleaves here in this dimension were different. To my personality’s makeup, there was great sagacity.  I seemed so much more so a sage soul rather than an artisan soul.  Naturally, this was no doubt due to being focussed in an actorly fashion. This would not be so hard to pull off, for being an artisan soul, on the expression axis.  One is, after all, more readily connected to sage soul sensibilities.

As I moved on, I noticed that there were persons who would be performing two roles.  For the specially choreographed piece, to celebrate the event, they were singing and acting roles.  The soprano came rushing backstage declaring, “Oh dear, we suckers have to get lost…” It turned out that who should show up, to narrate and sing, but Maureen Forester and Jessica Tandy.  Jessica Tandy, now discarnate, came walking across the dark-stoned piazza with all the ducal elegance as, Katherine Worsley, Duchess of Kent herself – who does bear a passing resemblance to her.

Jessica Tandy was a little bit ahead and to the right of the great Canadian singer.  Maureen Forester looked refreshed, grounded and utterly approachable. Both women were dressed in beautiful pink robes.  I can’t say enough, how radiant Jessica Tandy looked.  As if it were not obvious when she was incarnate, now her inner light eclipsed us all. Maureen Forester, even though dressed up, looked slightly frumpy but on the verge of winsomeness.  To look at her, I thought right away that this woman was likely a slave soul with very strong sage soul influence.

Perhaps, from her task companion or that the sagely energies were rather marked in her casting.  She just had that slave soul feel about her. She was a real trouper and it showed through and through.  This had been the case, one sensed, for more lifetimes than most.  Full stop. She was honoured to have been asked to participate.  To look at her, you just knew that she would pour her very soul into the task at hand. Serving the common good thus, this was her very raison d’être.  Warmed by this woman’s spirit, I broke into a smile.  Gracious.

To go cross to another part of the location, I left the backstage area.  However, I ended up taking a divergent route which took me around to another area.

Warner Park Stadium, St. Kitts

I was then in a pavilion which reminded me of the one in Sandy Point, St. Kitts.  However, it was definitely not that pavilion.  Whilst I was there, high up in the stands, I looked out to a field and saw Morag O’Hoare. Morag was telepathically speaking to me though it seemed as if we were speaking on headphones.  She was saying that she did not appreciate my trying to contact her. She said that this was the third time that I was doing so and she found it terribly upsetting.  She went on to say that she did not, in the least, appreciate it.  Firmly, she insisted that I not do it again.

Then she became very loud, shouting at me, letting me know that she was not going to take what I had done to her.  Neither was she going to take what I was saying about her.  Livid, she was really pissed.  Before I knew what, she began coming after me. Turning around, I saw a couple of kids who were blond except that there was something odd about them.  Extra blond, they were also very pale. On closer inspection, their lashes were silver and their eyes – I tell you, good people – were pure white.  Slinking down a smooth pylon, I left the upper deck where I had been hanging out.

*Darlings, this is some Kansas, ain’t it?  This was most unusual and about high time that I clicked my high heels.  END.

This one feature is why I had been reminded of the pavilion at the Recreation Grounds, in Sandy Point, St. Kitts.  As I did not want any interaction with Morag, I went running away – not of cowardice but quite simply hers were not energies of a very evolved nature. She wore a cream-coloured, long woollen tunic over long, white stretch pants.  She began coming after me, in a full-throttle rage, not surprisingly from the same rage that informed her telepathic connection.

I had no desire to be corded by this individual, her conscience and its manifested implosion – Parkinson’s disease – is her problem.  Thinking about it, it dawned on me that Morag had likely knitted the woollen tunic.

In any event, I went bolting from the pavilion into a maze of tiny, wet and black, cobblestone streets.  Here, I happened on a large number of entertainers.  Among them were a large number of boys who were in full drag. As the drag queens were waiting to go on, I hid out for a bit and waited to be able to cross the street.  I did not wish to be seen by Morag.  Where I stood, a number of streets had converged with a large public parking area setup there.

In that sense, it did seem terribly European like the old Gothic architecture.  However, this was millennia older than anything in Europe.  As I began crossing the heavily-trafficked, converging streets, I noticed that Morag was down the street and off to my right. She did the most ridiculously bizarre thing.  In a bid not to be seen by me, as she was hot on my trail, she covered her face whilst standing still in the middle of the street.  This was truly hilarious. This just betrayed how spiritually immature she is; it’s a dream, all one has to do is render oneself invisible.

The energies coming from her were rapacious and fiercely determined.  With that, I bolted and fled in earnest yet again.  She was letting me know that I hadn’t any idea how much I had caused her to suffer. I told her to fuck-off and deal with it.  It was not an iota as much as the pain that her betrayal had caused Merlin.  Even though I had been on a different street at the time, I telepathically told her this as we were always in contact this way.

Crimson Dining Room, Alnwick Castle

Fleeing her, I dodged into a complex where I waited inside in the near-dark.  Although I could have sensed their presence, it took me awhile to realise that there were persons here. A long table sat at the centre of the room.  Here, I saw that beautiful woman, Jeanette Giroux.  Here again, I was my usually charming, actorly self. There were lots of people here which, of course, meant that I immediately was ‘on’.  She seemed surprised to see me there and asked what exactly brought me to these parts.

I was about to sit down when she referred to me as ‘Dumbo’ in a snide reference to the waking state – my abysmal French leaves me seeming as if a deaf and dumb, lost soul. As I was anything but ‘Dumbo,’ in these parts where I was so witty, it was seen as a humorous aside.  Turning to my right, I looked at her as though she were mad.  I truly wondered why the hell anyone would think of me as ‘Dumbo’. Ignoring her, I hysterically laughed as though she had just gotten undressed and revealed herself a double-cocked hermaphrodite.  However, my dreamer self was affected by her cutting remark.

If for no other reason, it proved rather an insightful revelation about her.  Throughout these experiences, I was quite lucidly aware that I was dreaming. As a result, I was dual-personae in these dreams.  There was my persona from that dream dimension, plus the lucidity of my waking state persona, the former unaware of the other’s presence – naturally. The table was a narrow wooden affair where there were lots of exciting persons gathered.  The energies here were giddily intellectual.  I felt right at home here. When I joined the table, all the attention became directed my way.  Again, everyone hung on to my every word. 

Meanwhile, we were waiting for a car to come get both Jeanette Giroux and me to take us to a performance. Jeanette got up from the table to go powder her nose.  Whilst she went off, along came an unusually tall man of between 8-9 feet tall who was completely at ease and possessed of his body.  It was natural for him to have been that tall. He wore a dark suit and was there to chauffeur us to the performance.  Going outside, would reveal that he had shown up with the most gorgeous Rolls Royce imaginable. Red, it was truly electrifying and all that I could think of at the time was just how much Isis would love the racy colour – it is her favourite.  A convertible, it was a white, leather-interiored work of art.

Prince

Going outside, I was stylishly charming and simply glowed for living in such fine style.  Just prior to obvious extra-human chauffeur coming inside, to announce that the ride was ready, in had come Prince.  The diminutive performer recently was Scott Joplin, of course, reincarnationally in his immediate past life. He was utterly stunning and held that part of the astral universe in his right breast pocket.  He wore a red suit which rode quite tightly about his sexualised arse.

I really can’t see how this man is not Bisexual.  A white shirt was pinned up to the neck with lots of frills at the neck and sleeves.  Truly stylish, he readily eclipsed me. Just as others had deferred to me so too did I fall into line and deferred to him.  As a witty aside, I commented on his very Mozartian look to the enthralled table. I then added that though Prince would like to think that he was Wolfgang A. Mozart in a past life, the latter’s soul would never emulate his past life persona.

I added that, as a matter of fact, the soul in question would in fact not be interested in its past life as Mozart to the degree that Prince clearly was.  I dismissed Prince as a Mozart impostor. There was then a petition being passed around, prior to Jeanette Giroux having left the table.  As I signed with great flourish, I said, “It is, October the sixth and Luna my friends is in, not Aries but Sagittarius!” They all looked at me as if to say that they had never heard anything so bizarre in all their discriminating, learned years.  To deflect their concern of my being a bit ‘off’ as it were, I pompously added, “Believe me, I know.  It is in Sagittarius.”

I realised as I did this that this was quite a dead giveaway of my not being from that dimension.  Meanwhile, the Arvin of that dimension, whose script was as fluid as mine, thought to himself whilst mildly horrified, “What the devil am I saying?” Indeed, a bleed-through of my waking state persona had nosily barged in and channelled through information which was, in that dimension, at best a non sequitur.  At the most, it was a sign of the old effete losing his marbles.  Dieu!

The reason for this bleed-through was the high that one vicariously experienced for experiencing another Arvin.  As I said that, Jeanette – who was seated at the table next to me – tapped me on the shoulder asking, “What are you talking about, ‘Dumbo’?” One had the sense of her that she was a fellow actor with whom I shared many passionate fucks and good times.  She does so much remind me of Maria di Caspieri, which was why it was ultimately not all that surprising to have found her in these parts.

There were no residues of the ofttimes friendly ridicule which I experience here… in the waking state. The tall man and I then went outside.  There we waited for Jeanette Giroux to stop waiting for the contact cement on her face to dry. What else could have taken her so long, anyway?  Finally, she came out joining us and we got into the swank-interiored car whose roof was not down.  We were then en route to the special performance across town.

As the car tried crossing a street to head into where the main piazza was, there were all these lisping Gays who were in full drag.  They were, in fact, all professional drag queens. They were all dressed up as famous female entertainers whom they could never be in a million lifetimes. 

Barbra Streisand

As we came around the corner, I announced aloud, “And here, of course, we have the genuine article.” Here was Barbra Streisand… about whom I rarely ever dream.  Next to my strong, demonstrative otherly dimensional personality, she was very subdued and earthy. Charming as ever, I was speaking a mile-a-minute which was part of my conversational magnetism.  I spoke with a rapidity that was truly mind-blowing. Whilst speaking, I had slipped into an impersonation of Barbara Streisand.  Touching the back of my hair and pulling on my nose, I did so in an elongating gesture.  Using an arch, nasal accent, I copped a ‘Dolly Levi’ impersonation that was truly hysterical.

Here in this dimension, it seemed that said film, “Hello, Dolly!” had recently been premiered.  I was doing the impersonation in front of her.  Clearly, she was charmed by me as was everyone as she blushed and genuinely smiled. It was not a socially uncomfortable situation for her.  She was genuinely at ease in my presence or at least that of my otherly dimensional Arvin.  She remained seated whilst I regaled her. Again, like both Jessica Tandy and Maureen Forrester, she wore the same pink floral gown.  Barbra Streisand was seated before a makeup mirror getting ready to go on.

All the lisping Gays had gathered around and clung on to everything that I said.  Here, my enunciation was crystal clear.  Too, my speech was not only lyrical but it lilted in flowing cadences that were truly musical. It was basically an art form to have spoken as I did.  It was, however, not affected but utterly of my spirit.  My speech was basically sung.  As such, it was a form of musicality that was most elevated and refined. The ‘everything’ about everything that I said was laced with the raciest double-entendres, all delivered with the greatest of timing.  This was a supremely colourful use of language as revolutionary as Rap is to music as was and continues to be Jazz.

One had to be really ‘with it’ and ‘on’ to have gotten my shrewd intellect.  Of course, it all was part of the winning, stellar charm here in this dimension. Most people just did not get it except, of course, those rare souls who floated about from salon to salon where intellect was prized above even fine wine, food, music and art. What I, dreamer Arvin of the waking state, vicariously loved about it all was how utterly smart everyone in these circles were.  There was a high, zingy vibration to these people. This was especially true at the long narrow table as I had let rip with some of my colourful insights.  Above all else, I was never at any given moment speaking bullshit.

It was all straight-shooting, witty insightfulness on an order that was stratospherically intellectual… revolutionary.  It was also none of it cutting or mean-spirited. Going on, I said to Barbra Streisand, “Darling, there are only three divine divas; the three Supremes.  And, they are, herself (Barbra Streisand) and either Cher or Bette Midler.  And the other one, honey Chile, on this funky-assed, backwater world of a planet, this mother you don’t want to mess with, ‘cause she ah bitch!” The rapidity and coloratura with which these words bloomed from my smiling lips was truly operatic.  As I did so, I slowly leaned in, into the face of Barbra Streisand.  She sat there as if enraptured by my every word.

Even my dreamer self had had to coast along so many nanoseconds behind trying to get it.  She sat there being intoxicated by my bewitching turn as magus palaver extraordinaire. At once witty and funky, yet elevated in its brilliant composition, my use of language was truly impressive.  Even when being profane, I was sublimely colourful.  The whole thing was sheer magic.  Her face became illumined as I spoke.

When I said that last bit, she threw her head back and earthily laughed as there was no denying, from my facial expressions, that one was referring to Diana Ross.  Barbra Streisand was tickled to the very soul. With that I took my leave of her and moved on.  I arrived at an area where I noticed that the narrow streets were becoming more crowded.  Lots of persons were headed for the main piazza where the performance was to have taken place.

*When I awoke and discovered that my head was not facing due north, I was though rather surprised.  More than that, I had not experienced residual fatigue or feelings of being psychically splayed.

Aristarchus Crater

**The portalled city, which I had intuitively deduced was on the Moon, would later be validated by the massive, lit, portal-like structure in the Moon’s Aristarchus Crater which had been photographed during NASA’s Apollo 11 mission to the Moon.  END.

Truly extraordinary an experience these astral-projected dreams were.  In the first dream, when I began walking down the street, the neighbour’s voice here in the waking state dropped off.

Now it was back in its loud, earnest, ignorance – so quintessentially low-life Jamaican.

***There is a definite tie-in between this dream and one dreamt years earlier.  The dream in question occurred on April 4, 1993.  As with that dream’s reference to Minerva – the mythic woman turned to stone – that persona was here animated as the dominatrix made of stone who unleashed the massive deadly creature into the portalled metropolis.

I believe both dreams to have been focussed on Luna, Earth’s Moon.  Though we Gaian humans are given to believe that it is a barren satellite, I rather suspect – from both these two dreams and others – that there are many extra-human civilisations which have been based on Luna for countless millennia many of which are still focussed there at present.  END.

Art Blakey & the Jazz Messengers Live San Remo Jazz Festival 1963

Art Blakey – Drums

Freddie Hubbard – Trumpet

Wayne Shorter – Tenor Saxophone

Cedar Walton – Piano

Curtis Fuller – Trombone

Reggie Workman – Bass

To the Moon & Hell with You – December 2023

Facsimile of Twin Earth City of Lemuria

One of the reasons for sharing the dream of Lemuria set on Twin Earth in January 2024, was that in late 2023, on 10th December, I had had a dream which was set there. In the dream, many of the major players would feature heavily in subsequent weeks. At the time of the dream, Harella, my mum, was present and served in the role of a guide to me as to what was unfolding in the dream. The dream was layered and it triggered dreams from many years earlier, which lay dormant until triggered during the dream. Harella and I were ensconced in a heavily peopled hall where most of whom were world famous persons.

We entered a millennia ancient structured hall, which vaguely resembled the entrance to London’s St. Paul’s Cathedral. This structure, though, was definitely not St. Paul’s Cathedral; it seemed much as if a temple though it was not. A large gathering place, for the most part, 9 of 10 persons recognised here were astral plane habitués. Present were HLM Queen Elizabeth II who was speaking to a man, whom Harella said was a trusted horse breeder associate of hers; clearly, he was Arab and had been rather wealthy when alive, the gold in his softly glowing, pine green kandura actually glimmered in the dimly diffused light of the massively cavernous hall. The Queen looked much as she had in the prophetic dream had of her on the eve of King Charles III’s 73rd birthday in November 2021; once again, The Queen appeared to be in her early 50s – she was neither wearing gloves nor carrying a handbag.

Off to the left, before we turned right on Harella’s direction, through an arch into another wing of the colossal structure, was the diminutive performer, Prince who here looked as regal and arrogant as he did in the above dream encounter from 1997. He stood in deep conversation with none other than the Princess of Wales, to which as an aside Harella whispered, “murdered.” The Princess of Wales wore a red version of the green off-the-shoulder gown that she wore to the state banquet in Jamaica whilst on the Platinum Jubilee royal tour of Jamaica in March, 2022.

Eldritch Library

Once through the arch, we were posited into a giant library where on the small, round café-style table, at which we sat, was a familiar sight which I had first dreamt of long before the turn of the century. That dream instrument, had in the ’90s, would yet be invented and become the familiar e-readers like the Kindle. Here as in the dream when first encountered, the e-readers were globular and looked like a crystal ball; however, they were lightweight rather than the hefty familiarity of a crystal ball that large. These e-readers were interesting and by now familiar to me, it was about five inches in diametre. You simply looked into the crystal ball-like globe and the book would come to life holographically. Though the moving images of the book would be fully animated and perfectly as though a hologram, its contents would never extend beyond the crystal ball’s spherical shell. Thus, whatever you were focussed on would be private to self and its contents imparted audio-visually. In that sense it was much like an audio book whose contents were exclusively shared telepathically with the reader.

As Harella is an astral habituée – she has since reincarnated, male and resides in London, England; however, as is standard, the astral body of any past incarnation endures eternally – she wanted to show me an animated book within the confines of the astral plane crystal ball-like e-reader that was of great importance. Obviously, for being in this massive library setting, we were poring through the Akashic records – though Harella never alluded to this being the case, it was not lost on me that this was so.

St. Paul’s Cathedral

As the animation of the globular e-book began, it readily triggered a dream had over 40 years earlier in November, 1980. I had just spoken to my father by phone to wish him happy birthday. Harella had been dead less than four months and I was concerned how he was doing. I then had the most lucid of dreams, which saw a most unusual bride and groom emerge from an otherworldly St. Paul’s Cathedral.

She wore a black wedding dress with heavy cowl, looking more like a gothic medieval bride rather than not. Her groom wore a golden metallic panoply with a horned helmet. Though a massive, millennia old version of St. Paul’s Cathedral, at the first landing of the stairs from the west front, there was large canal. This astral plane city was as if a mélange of London and Venice.

Santa Maria della Salute on the Grand Canal. Canaletto

As though they were leaving the Santa Maria della Salute on the Grand Canal, the couple entered a royal carriage which here was converted to a water-faring vessel with the usual horses fashioned into wooden white steeds that formed part of the carriage. Soon, they were off down the canal when I awoke, stirred by Devon initiating sexual play.

The book came alive, and showed the scene with which we are all familiar by now; it was that of Prince Charles’ young bride walking alone up the aisle at St. Paul’s to meet him; much as Meghan, the Duchess of Sussex had when first she was unaccompanied as she walked up the aisle at St. George’s Chapel Windsor to meet HRH Prince Charles, the Prince of Wales who escorted her to his son, Prince Harry. Here, Diana’s father, Edward Spencer, 8th Earl Spencer, at no point participated in the nuptials. The ceremony progressed and then Diana was walked further up the alter after her vows and instead of turning right to sign the registry, she and Prince Charles turned left and went through a massive arch which exists only in this colossal version of St. Paul’s Cathedral.

The young couple progressed down into the bowel of the astral plane copy of St. Paul’s Cathedral where here, it was a much deeper basement; this structure was millennia old and easily dwarfed its waking state counterpart by five times. Straight away, the couple were separated and a phalanx of women in flowing white robes took Diana, Princess of Wales away. When we saw her again, Diana was changed from her black wedding gown with cowl and wore a blindfold and was taken into a relatively small copula, for this massive structure, where there, she was disrobed and ritually bathed then taken away.

The globular book further unfolded as Diana then entered into a candlelit chamber where she walked accompanied by a female attended on each side. She now wore a red blindfold, red high heels and wore nothing save a sheer red veil that fell down to just above her ankles, covering her milky hued naked body. Candles encircled the large wooden bed draped in lavender linen; they were beeswax candles at least ten feet tall and looking much like a scene from Stanley Kubrick’s Eyes Wide Shut, from the lavender gothic room’s silhouetted periphery a lone man, wearing black panoply with horned helmet, emerged; his panoply was draped in a black robe. As he approached the Princess of Wales, the gothic room suddenly became flooded by moonlight with trees styled in the most ornate topiary of varying heights all around just beyond the tall gothic windows. Casting aside the robe with it the panoply disappeared, leaving the black horned helmet in place. The naked disguised man, then joined the supine Diana in bed.

Very methodically, he began ritualistically making love to her with great intensity. It was obvious that he had a job to perform. It was also obvious that it was not Prince Charles and that this event occurred within months of their marriage. As he walked away from the bed, where she remained, exhausted, he effortlessly removed the panoply’s horned helmet, revealing an unusually large skull. Still tumescent, he was hung. This man was, though, not readily familiar.

The man was older and taller than Prince Charles that much was certain. As the man retreated, he moved effortlessly through the gothic window pane and into the darkness of the extensive growth of topiary with giant firs and cedars beyond that encircled the bed chamber where the Princess of Wales remained; Diana then gathered the lavender bedding about her naked and ravaged body. The holographic book collapsed within the crystal ball-like e-reader at which Harella gestured for me to get up and simply stated, “Remember, the wedding and a birthday are the keys to everything… your friend was off the mark, nor was it by normal means.” Her words were so stark, the import of what she imparted, posed a riddle that had me immediately awaken in my Toronto apartment when Buster chirped as I came to. He watched me with those soulful eyes of his; little did I know that in less than three months, he would be dead. Indeed, in that short space of time, much would unfold and a riddle reveal itself.

Four Last Songs, Richard Strauss Jessye Norman 1979

*This music played on repeat whilst I slept dreaming in December 2023 in my trusty pyramid which I have used for 40 years now. Throughout the dream, Jessye Norman’s booming voice set the mood as she sang Richard Strauss’ Four Last Songs. It is a touchstone for me and it is always the surest way to have a dream of high spiritual moment on the astral plane. It was also playing on arriving home after an all night shift, before the dreams later that day in October, 1997, and shared earlier. Jessye was an old soul priest soul with the most glorious overleaves. Her mastery of her craft was unparalleled. Quite remarkably, Jessye Norman was a high-priestess who worked magic through music. This music has spirited me to astral plane flying dreams of the greatest lucidity, more so than any other recording. Certainly it kept me aloft on finding myself exquisitely alone in the world on Merlin’s passing. END.

Buster sleeping in pyramid

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On March 22, 2024 about an hour after Catherine, HRH the Princess of Wales announced via a video, which has since been revealed to have been AI generated, I had the most jaw-dropping epiphany. There was Catherine, announcing that she was undergoing chemotherapy for Cancer, after she was seen in that dream in December speaking to musical genius and astral plane habitué, Prince. I put my hand over my mouth, got from the pyramid – from which I never move on awaking, until the dreamtime’s cache are fully recalled – then quickly went to look at my formidable numerology database. Straight away, I yelled, “Bingo!” the riddle that my astral plane habitué mum, Harella, had set me, was finally drawn fully into focus.

“The wedding is the key!” That was what had me going over my discarnate mum’s carefully worded riddle. The wedding was not Charles and Diana’s, which was the focus of the lucid astral plane dream, it was William and Catherine’s. They were wedded on April 29, 2011, which happened to not have been the birthday of the Spanish King; besides, and he was not the man who walked away naked and tumescent from bed, having seeded Diana, Princess of Wales in that dream, in which I looked into the globular crystal ball-like e-book reader. As my mum, Harella, stated at least once a week my entire childhood, “There are no coincidences…” In the dream, Harella had given assurances that other allegations of William’s paternity were incorrect. This then requires that we rigorously review everything that to date we thought that we knew, through the new lens of someone else having played a most pivotal role in the transformation of the House of Windsor.

Richard Strauss Four Last Songs Jessye Norman Gewandhaus Orchester Leipzig Kurt Masur

This comes with the caveat that a review is based on the arcana gleaned in a rather lucid astral plane dream encounter with my departed mum, Harella, in December, 2023. This was an astral plane dream just as arcane and lucid as that which foreshadowed the passing of the The Queen, had on the eve of Prince Charles’ 73rd birthday; interestingly enough, the day of that dream, rather than listening to Jazz, I had intently listened to Jessye Norman, singing Strauss’ Four Last Songs. Without doubt, both totemic dreams were triggered by having listened to the towering artistry of astral plane habituée, Jessye Norman singing Strauss’ Four Last Songs prior to sleep.

William going to Jerusalem in 2018 and the London synagogue days after Thomas Kingston’s violent death, were the definitive clues. In both instances, William’s distinctively large cranium, wearing a kippah was remarkably unlike King Charles III’s. Indeed, could William’s discovery of the news of a death, the day after Thomas Kingston’s murder, have caused him to have pulled out within minutes of King Constantine II of Greece’s royal service of thanksgiving. Clearly, William had more important business to address the day of his late godfather, King Constantine II’s service.

William overcome with a tsunami of emotions: Catherine’s cancer, Thomas Kingston’s murder or suicide who will ever really know, the King’s cancer diagnosis being made public, no wonder he was literally falling apart, swaying on his feet and then dropping the pendant days later at an investiture in early February. William has a unique trait, apart from the large distinctive-looking and uniquely shaped cranium among Windsor men, he favours leaning his head to one side when sat or standing still.

Moreover, weeks before the service of thanksgiving for King Constantine II, there was William issuing a statement about the ongoing grievous slaughter in Gaza, which both shocked the world and caused many to state that it was not his place to get involved. Too, it has been William who has stated that he doesn’t feel himself particularly inclined to become the head of the Church of England in due course, which was quickly condemned by the much-loved late Christopher Hitchens’ brother, Peter Hitchens.

All that has happened before and after the Sussexes moved to America, has been William’s vicious, pernicious, racist, jealous, obsessive, focussed animus directing the House of Windsor campaign against the Sussexes. Funny, too, that a disproportionate number of persons with open animus towards Meghan have and continue to be Jewish; indeed, what do they know?

At the loss of the American colonies in the revolutionary war, and later the Napoleonic War, England was on the brink of bankruptcy. HM King George IV entered into a 200 year agreement. Naturally, as the agreement was coming to an end, it was quite possible for the future king, the then Prince Charles, to have agreed to new terms for that agreement’s continuation.

HM Queen Elizabeth II.

Since having had this dream, it turns out that Diana, Princess of Wales spoke of a key figure in question and was clearly wary of him as she dismissed him as a gossip; however, she also alluded to “the agreement” by emphatically stating that he was a very clever man. That, of course, would be his energy body of 2; very charming and chatty but also utterly deceitful and duplicitous. As much as I love reading, especially biographies, I will notoriously abandon any book before its conclusion if I find its contents making its way into the dreamtime. I quite value my dreams and I want when therein focussed, not to have my dreams corrupted by experiences absorbed from books, films or television. This just makes the dreams seem so inauthentic, so rather than not, I will more readily abandon any book if this occurs. I have pored through books about Diana, Princess of Wales but never finished any specifically for this reason. That is why, I was surprised when a friend shared what Diana had to say about the key figure in all this intrigue, in a biography, which in light of the revelatory dream with Harella makes perfect sense.

Diana was no one’s fool but having to rapidly swim, as she put it, she always fought back; Diana during her Panorama interview with BBC’s Martin Bashir displayed an intellect and shrewdness, which no one had ever attributed to her. She was a virgin bride who was used during renegotiation of an agreement; nonetheless, she was not a damn fool. This is why after the dream which divulged how she was used by Charles and his confidant to sire William and seal an agreement, she dashed herself down flights of stairs in a bid to abort a child that she was carrying to seal a deal.

What I think the deal involved, was Diana being artificially inseminated and possibly she was tricked into this by way of Charles, claiming to want a child but concerned about his inability to perform his duties. Once seeing a specialist about her viability to give birth, it may have been suggested that they try artificial insemination at which point, the subject of the dream rather than Charles’s sperm was used to ‘seed’ Diana. Seeding was the specific word used in the astral plane dream in December, 2023 and Harella then added that it was not by normal means; clearly, that would be either surrogacy or artificial insemination. In the dream wherein Diana was seeded, it was clearly set at Highgrove House, which would have been all too possible without The Queen knowing. A weekend away at Highgrove House, Diana inseminated after seemingly failed attempts without her realising that she was not being seeded by Charles. Obviously, Diana was genuinely pregnant at the time, so that rules out surrogacy.

Sarah Lamb & Steven McRae Romeo & Juliet death scene. Royal Ballet, 2015

In this probable reality, the artificial insemination likely did occur, the agreement was a business one and at that level of society as it was a soft hostile takeover. The artificial insemination option would have been like choosing a prize racehorse, say Secretariat, to sire desired offspring – and quite the stallion he appeared on walking away from the dream bed in which Diana was seeded. This would explain why Prince Harry rather than William looks like both a Spencer and Windsor. Naturally, when Diana made to further hamper the deal, by attempting to marry a Muslim, clearly, she was too naïve to know that could be interpreted as breaking a contract agreed to by Charles. So unacceptable would such a marriage be that someone connected to that agreement would not think twice about doing her in. Diana would clearly have known of the deal and breaking the contract, by starting a Moslem court of Fayed, came with consequences. Incidentally, not only like Diana is Dodi Fayed an artisan soul, he is also an entity mate of Diana’s. Dodi and Diana were more familiar to each other as their spectacular exit was the 27th incarnation where they were known to each other. Dodi and Diana two artisans are in entity 1, cadre 6, greater cadre 48 of pod 380. In that sense, Charles and Diana were relatively unfamiliar; Charles is in pod 404.

God only knows that Meghan entering the House of Windsor, which was gladly approved of by HM Queen Elizabeth II, who was likely only cognisant of Charles’ agreement after William’s birth, would have proven a gross insult to persons in Charles’ confidant’s sphere of influence. Moreover, the very shrewd, canny HM Queen Elizabeth II in affording her consent to the marriage of Harry & Meghan, was a rebuttal shot across the bow for how she was callously disregarded in late August, 1997. In the end, fully cognisant of what a true viper’s nest, where racial animus towards Meghan would never cease, Prince Harry made the right call and cleared out of Dodge. Who gives a rat’s ass about being the first Black, which therefore means that one has to stay there and take it; as time has shown, William & Catherine are two wholly unsavoury, vile racist boors who are not worth the waste of time. They will never change and as he was seeded; interloper William will never cease having a prejudicial view of Meghan and her Black heritage – he has been bred and groomed with certain expectations, which he clearly steadfastly adheres to. To fuck with that.

Princes Philip & Harry, The Queen, Doria, Meghan, the Duchess of Sussex & Prince Archie

As with Dodi and Diana being entity mates, let’s then look at other royals who are both entity and cadre mates. In the preceding photograph, all persons present are cadre mates save Prince Philip; Philip is a 4th mature warrior soul and in pod 408. The Queen, Prince Harry and Meghan are entity mates. There are anywhere from 800 to 1200 souls in an entity and there are seven entities in a cadre. Each entity will be represented by one if not all of the seven soul types, with each soul type corresponding to a number and the qualities associated with that number. The seven roles or soul types are: Slave/One, Artisan/Two, Warrior/Three, Scholar/Four, Sage/Five, Priest/Six and King/Seven. Seven cadres make up a greater cadre and there are 49 greater cadres in a pod. Seven is the highest number in the Michael Overleaves Teachings. The Queen, Harry & Meghan are in entity one or slave entity; this entity is focussed in being of service to the common good and both loyal and enduring. This is why The Queen stated at her start of her reign that she would be devoted, however long her life may be, to be in service as Queen. That she ably did. This too is why Harry/Warrior and Meghan/Artisan have pointedly stated that “Service is Universal.” Again, all three, The Queen, Harry and Meghan are in entity 1 of cadre 6, greater cadre 7, pod 418. The Queen was on her second incarnation as a third-level mature soul Slave. This is Prince Harry’s fourth life as a fifth-level mature Warrior soul. His entity mate and wife, Meghan, is a mid-cycle mature Artisan soul on her third life at mid-cycle, which is the gap between third and fourth-level mature soul – the only time this occurs in the soul cycles. This, incidentally, is the twenty-first incarnation wherein Harry and Meghan’s souls have gotten together. Each pairing they like other souls do not choose to be exclusively man and wife, they could have been parent/child, cousins, siblings, grandparent/grandchild, friends, enemies, business partners et al. Camilla is also living a mid-cycle mature life but she is a scholar soul and not in their pod but pod 129*. All persons in the preceding photograph are mature souls. Of them, Prince Archie is the oldest soul; he is a seventh-level mature priest soul and an entity mate of Prince George’s who is a fourth mature king soul – they are in entity five of cadre 6, greater cadre 7 of pod 418. Also, in the same cadre is Doria a fifth-level mature slave in entity 3 of the same cadre, 6. Your soul type and casting never change from life to life. There is no way that the Queen would not have welcome Meghan into her family. Evidence of that soul bond is gleaned in the Sussexes’ engagement interview when Prince Harry shared that Meghan walked in and The Queen’s corgis were approvingly tail-wagging at Meghan’s feet. Dogs can sense vibrational connections between souls as they can also see auras. The Queen’s corgis would have seen Meghan as a new family member.

Equestrian Portrait of King Charles V of Spain by Titian 1548 Museo Nacional del Prado

*129. Souls in pod 129 are: Queen Elizabeth, the Queen Mother, Shirley MacLaine, Barbra Streisand, Whoopi Goldberg, George Harrison, Queen Camilla, Titian, George Lucas, Georgia O’Keeffe, Stephen Hawking, Mikhail Baryshnikov, Marilyn Monroe, Robert Mapplethorpe, Amadeo Modigliani, Sidney Poitier, Stevie Wonder, Art Tatum, Charlie Parker and lots more. Incidentally, Titian was a seventh-level mature artisan soul, second life at that level and is a member of entity 2, cadre 4, greater cadre 1, pod 129.

Weeks before Diana, Princess of Wales’ contracted demise in Paris, I dreamt the most lucid dream, which was clearly set on the astral plane. Pandora and I were together and were alone in a large bedroom as Prince William, about 12 or thirteen years old in the dream in 1997, was curled up in bed asleep, wearing pyjamas. Diana, Princess of Wales stood with back to large window, alone and looked rather deep in though – as a matter of fact, she looked withdrawn. Absently, more so as an aside to self, rather than to us, Diana said, “I really hope that they don’t do anything to him.” I thought that it was so strange, even long weeks after the dream, I meditated on the meaning of the dream and wondered if it meant that William was a sickly child and as a result would be eliminated as he could never be deemed fit to become sovereign.

Astral Plane Metropolis

Diana then left the darkened bedroom and headed out into the street of the city, which was not remotely familiar, with Pandora and I in tow. I readily knew that this dream was set on the astral plane as the architecture here was vastly more colossal than anything in the waking state and seemed to be more millennia aged as compared to any structure in the waking state. This was a metropolis with a population well in excess of 10 billion, a city – rather than world – so populous a city that it could only mean that one was focussed on the astral plane. Of course, mere weeks later with Diana’s life violently cut short, I realised that the dream was of Diana, saying goodbye to William rather than him being sickly and likely to perish. William was so immensely fragile and vulnerable in the dream. At no point, during the dream did William awaken. Of course, Diana feared William being eliminated and not made Sovereign if his true heritage for having been seeded were to be discovered. Certainly, the Church of England would be both concerned and threatened; the church may well oppose any such interloper heir becoming their supreme governor.

HM Queen Elizabeth II

Harella also mentioned in passing, how good it was of me to have shared ‘far and wide’ the dream of The Queen’s homecoming in November 2021 before the fact as to have done so after the fact, would have been perceived as having serious credibility issues.

https://dreampoetica.com/2021/11/15/homecoming/

On awaking, I knew that I had to share that prophetic dream tout de suite as the astral plane dream was so immensely lucid and indicated that the The Queen was likely to pass in the near future.

Something Queer This Way Comes

Then on April 24, 2024, two days into Passover, this rather flagrant occult spectacle unfolded for six miles through the streets of London. Of course, the two horses were on a set course; fulfill their role in what seemed a flagrant course-altering of history, they most certainly did. In all the reign of HM Queen Elizabeth II’s 70 years as Sovereign never did so bold an occult spectacle ever unfold. That was not mere happenstance. Nothing is ever coincidental!

December 25, 2023 to June 1, 2024, it has now been 159 days since Catherine has not been seen. What has happened, has she run off and how if at all is this connected to Thomas Kingston’s violent demise? The supernova of rumours have caused the digital universe to spiral out of control. Something foul is afoot and there is no getting around that fact. Naturally, the Fleet Street abattoirs are seeking distraction by way of heaping on more abuse and lynching of Harry & Meghan, because well, they can. Is Catherine in hiding, refusing to a divorce and waiting for Charles to die, which automatically makes her Queen – especially so if Camilla’s favoured chatelaine in Norfolk has demanded a quick divorce so that she in time becomes Queen at William’s coronation rather than Catherine? Kensington Palace’s troop of Fleet Street fabulist are so patently offering fabulist tales of Catherine’s whereabouts, including being seen at the end of May walking about, yet positively no photograph has been produced of the event, when there are commoners everywhere with cameras ever at the ready. Why is there an obvious coverup afoot?

Something truly diabolical is afoot of late: shocking deaths, MIA royals and alleged cancers ravaging the House of Windsor. Of course, as the photo agency authorities have dismissed Kensington Palace: TRH Prince & Princess of Wales, chiefly William, of lacking integrity and credibility, nothing is to be believed anymore. This equine episode on April 24, 2024 for six miles through the streets of central London was saturated with occult symbolism. Of course, there was then a statement released that the bloodied white horse had a history of being readily spooked; however, at Horse Guards, the official entrance to Buckingham Palace, at the same time horses there were also uncharacteristically acting up. I don’t care how royals and their semi-feral fabulist troop of Fleet Street hacks lie, I am supremely convinced that Charles’ cancer is a cover for Catherine’s cancer, which is likely not cancer at all. Catherine, alas, may be very dead. As the royal’s social calendars go, expect their to be news of Catherine taking a turn for the worse and a funeral, after all these long months embalmed and hidden away, taking place in September after the Balmoral break and the royal calendar start up in earnest in October as has predictably always been the case.

Prince Harry in Theatre & Comments on Prince Williams’ Jealousy

Indeed, though the current vogue is to blame Meghan, and to a lesser degree, Harry for all that is going on in the House of Windsor, we need not lose sight of the fact that William & Catherine have been problematic from long before Meghan married in. What has evolved, is that the cabal of Fleet Street hacks have conspired to protect and present the Waleses as above reproach no matter what the evidence otherwise suggests.

Long before Meghan, that undesirable ‘Yank’ marrying in, William made it perfectly clear to American, Dave Clark that he did not approve of his relationship with his cousin, HRH Princess Beatrice of York, and he did not want him marrying into the House of Windsor. So adverse was William to Dave Clark’s existence that he refused to have him attend his wedding to Catherine as his cousin, Princess Beatrice’s plus one. Indeed, it was Prince William and not Prince Philip, the Duke of Edinburgh, who was against Sarah, Duchess of York attending the Cambridges’ wedding. Proof of that fact was borne out 7 years later at Prince Harry’s wedding, Prince Philip was then alive, and Sarah was an invited guest because it is what Harry wanted; it was not Prince Philip’s call to have made.

The best way to hide a secret is to keep it in plain view. And as we are well aware, the House of Windsor’s MO is slight of hand. They have steadfastly perpetuated, through their network of Fleet Street hacks and unofficially an approved troop of biographers, the lie that Prince Harry was James Hewitt’s child and even got Diana, Princess of Wales to go along with it, by revealing her affair with James Hewitt, though the affair between Diana, Princess of Wales and James Hewitt occurred two years after Prince Harry’s birth. But you have never once heard any such utterance or rumour about William’s paternity as that is too dangerous a secret to ever see the light of day.

Prince Charles & Barbra. Prince William & Barbra

From the earliest times, Charles’ confidant of immense wealth would have been the one to have facilitated the connection between Barbra Streisand & Prince Charles. Thus it was that Barbra was the one to have hosted the newly wedded William in Los Angeles when they visited after their first royal tour to Canada in July 2011. The event though hosted by the American wing of BAFTA in Los Angeles, was also about making sure that Barbra hosted Charles’ stepson’s coming out in Hollywood as the newly minted President of BAFTA.

Chelsea Hotel

I will always remember howling, long and hard, early in our relationship, one weekend that Merlin and I stayed at the storied Chelsea Hotel. Hello Dolly was on TV and I wanted to go watch it at Attila Isaksen’s Williamsburg apartment to which he had invited me; however, Merlin wanted to go 20 blocks uptown to Frederick Jones’s West 43rd Street townhouse. Merlin yelled at me to call off going to Brooklyn to watch damn TV as he considered Barbra a fraud. “Come on, you don’t for a second think that there was a tie, do you? I mean, just maybe, I could contemplate a possible tie between her and Shelley the fuck Winters, but are you kidding me, Katharine Hepburn and her getting matching number of votes? It’s a travesty. She did not win that award fair and square!” I remained silent, looking out the window of the checker cab as we sailed up 8th Avenue en route to Frederick’s. “Come on… stop pouting and look at me…” He negotiated with a kiss on the left cheek, the tickle of his beard so arousing that I abruptly turned and began the delicious face-fucking that we readily, perpetually indulged.

The Queen Dismisses Venal William & his Toxic Wife

As The Queen was no one’s fool, she was keenly aware of the duplicitous games and racist campaign directed by William and Catherine, to which she openly aired her displeasure by brushing them off at Christmas 2020 at Windsor Castle during Covid and after the Sussexes were effectively ousted by the venal cancerous racist senior royals Charles and William and their spouses. So then let’s go through all the ways in which William & his venal, cancerous wife engaged in their racist campaign against Meghan, and Harry too. Not to be outdone were they, of course, by Charles & Camilla.

Christmas Day, 2019 Sandringham Estate

William makes no effort to disguise his revulsion at Meghan when she turned around to say something to him, whereupon he simply stepped back and scowled as though he smelt shit. By this point, Christmas Day, 2018, Meghan is pregnant with Prince Archie and she and Harry had completed their first royal tour which proved a success. Also, by this point, William and Catherine had planted the character assassinating story with Camilla Tominey, in the Daily Telegraph, in which she speciously alleged that Meghan had made Catherine cry. The reason for doing this, is that no matter what, the principal royals, who are in line to be sovereign and heir with their spouses, are never faulted for anything and will be defended to the hilt. Thus, it was the perfect coup, Meghan is marrying in, she is both a Yank & Black, which made her even more otiose and dangerous than Wallis Simpson.

*I am visible in the YouTube screen capture with the red line passing at the back of my head and just below my right ear as I craned up looking at the balcony whereat Meghan, the Duchess of Sussex stood with the German President’s wife.

As I stood in Whitehall on Remembrance Sunday for the 100th anniversary of Armistice Day, I had never felt so overcome with fear and dread before. Positively everyone around me spoke negatively about Meghan. To that point, Camilla Tominey’s character assassination planted lie ‘Meghan Made Catherine Cry’ had yet to appear. Meghan was called that Yank. She was openly ridiculed with lots of laughter when someone said that she would likely appear at the window, wearing white dress, hat and gloves. The racist remarks are not worth repeating here. All this whilst Meghan was pregnant with Prince Archie. Prince Harry was stood feet away in front of me; however, I never saw him, so tall were the bearskin hats worn by the guards two rows deep and ahead of a row of regular soldiers and a line of Metropolitan police officers who kept a keen eye on the crowds.

Just as he bullied and had his way at Pippa, Catherine’s sister’s wedding, William also saw to it that his interference meant that Meghan would be blocked from attending the Middleton-Matthews wedding. William & Catherine are possessed of 9 in their numerology and it is about being intransigent, conceited, racist, stubborn, faultfinding and shit-disturbing. Of course, William’s dubious paternity is reason enough to see why he would be so vehemently opposed to Meghan becoming a member of the House of Windsor, which for all intents based on the arcana gleaned in the lucid dream with Harella in December 2023, will shortly cease being the House of Windsor – indeed, always playing the long game.

This would, of course, explain why his best friend and royal relative took a wife who, though non-traditional, at least was infinitely more favourable than Harry taking a non-traditional and most undesirable wife. That relative’s mum, baroness Marie-Christine, was not shy about currying favour with princes Charles and William by wearing the blackamoor brooch. What did she care, HM Queen Elizabeth II was on her way out and it would only be a matter of time before William would be king and the tide truly turned. Indeed, no doubt that as part of the long-term strategy of acclimatising the public towards an eventual end of House of Windsor, was William’s closest royal friend, Lord Frederick Windsor taking a favourable non-traditional wife by way of actor, Sophie Winkleman. Baroness Marie-Christine knew that there would never be offence taken by Charles and William at her sporting the blackamoor brooch to Meghan’s first royal outing, The Queen’s Christmas lunch of 2017 at Buckingham Palace.

Just look at the most handsome member of his generation from the House of Windsor, James Ogilvy, sat behind baroness Marie-Christine and her husband, the day after their son-in-law was clearly murdered. Though fake as all fuck, baroness Marie-Christine copped hauteur, but James looked as though he had been to hell and back, at least on the astral plane. However, he was sat there, well aware that this was no dream, Thomas was murdered, William was missing, obviously owing to another important passing. All this meant that ‘Ella’ was being returned to baroness Marie-Christine still childless, a spinster and now a newly minted widow. Though Prince Michael of Kent has always been admirable, there is no way to gloss over the fact that baroness Marie-Christine is as rough as a backstairs whore and just as racist! A mere three months on from Thomas Kingston’s murder and just look at how massively the elegant Prince Michael of Kent has aged with vastly compromised mobility as he turned up at the Chelsea Flower Show in May, 2024. Indeed, the backstairs thug recently declined the invitation from King Tampon himself to attend a Buckingham Palace garden party; one is clearly not done with being pissed off about the coverup of Thomas’ demise – oh just go write a tell-all already! That’s right toots, karma does exist and there are repercussions for thinking that anti-Black racism is racy sport. Honest to god, when in The Queen’s long reign did this sort of vulgar schadenfreude come so fast and so loose?

Magnolia blooms

In the early days of our relationship, spent in Manhattan, Merlin opened up and shared a deeply disturbing episode from his childhood. We had been at a social gathering which being theatre folk, was for him always professional. There was an actress there who ridiculously kept turning and blowing cigarette smoke in my face. At one point, I spat on her which caused no end of upheaval at the gathering. Soon, Merlin abruptly took leave with me in tow. As we rode down 7th Avenue, Merlin laid down the law, under no circumstances was I to behave that way again. According to him that woman was Jewish and could have me thrown in jail for no good reason. I made it perfectly clear to Merlin that though I was prepared to tolerate his cigarette smoking, as a rule, I abhorred the smell and practice. Merlin tried to assure me that I was being baited by the woman and that she was deliberately blowing smoke in my face because I was Black and she did not approve of my existence. It was so terribly gauche to my upbringing to be related to in this way.

36 Servington Crescent

According to Merlin, on his deathbed his grandfather commanded his father, to go out and buy a new house with separate bedrooms for him and his wife, with the promise that he would never sleep with his wife, Merlin’s mum, again. Merlin’s mum was of Irish heritage which was wholly unacceptable for his paternal grandfather. More disturbing, as Merlin wept quietly, each time that he was presented to his paternal grandfather, he was spat at or on and dismissed as a freak, all because his Polish Ashkenazi grandfather could not forgive his son, doing ‘that’ to him. As a result, Merlin went out and purchased a tree so that each Spring the showy magnolia bloom – one of the earliest each year – would be a source of inspiration just outside his mum’s bedroom window as she was never allowed to sleep in the same bed with her husband again. My response to Merlin was that his father should have taken the pillow and suffocated his father after spitting in his face for having repeatedly spat on his beloved son, Merlin and insulted his wife. Thereafter, I always had great empathy for Merlin’s dad and we enjoyed a close bond, which grew closer when Merlin was diagnosed with full-blown AIDS.

Charlestown, Nevis with blooming flamboyant tree

In March, 1989 with Merlin returned from hospitalisation at St. Michael’s Hospital, I went to Nevis for a break with Pandora joining me from Paris, at one point, I flew into St. Croix, U.S.V.I to visit my adorable aunt, who was the most regal of souls. On my return, Merlin and I spent hours poring through the developed photographs from my trip. He was thrilled to see the photos of the Jewish cemetery and dilapidated synagogue in Charlestown, Nevis. What intrigued him even more was the family photo of my mum’s father, a copy of which I had secured from my aunt in St. Croix. Merlin was convinced that my mum’s dad had to have been of Jewish heritage. Of course, that was the case, Merlin stated that if they were Portuguese by way of Brazil then they would have been Sephardic. “My god that would make you even more Jewish than me…” I made Merlin swear never to tell anyone as I frankly did not want persons in his life suddenly changing their behaviour towards me. In particular, as per that New York incident, there was one Ashkenazi Jew in particular who was always keen to blow cigarette smoke in my direction; she eventually was banned from our Cabbagetown home. It has been my experience that Ashkenazi Jews are alarmingly anti-Black racist in the extreme.

Princes Harry & William

Though both men went to great lengths to never be photographed together, why pray tell does William look so like the man in that revelatory dream? Cranium, lower lip, mouth, teeth, smiles, bone structure & nostrils all nicely match. William’s balding pattern mirrors the man in that dream as well. There are no coincidences. Once entered into this deal, which I believe was strictly between Charles and his confidant, what could The Queen have done? Positively nothing. Under no circumstances did The Queen want a possible constitutional crisis during her reign, coming so close after the one which saw King Edward VIII abdicate in favour of her father, King George VI. There is nothing that they could have done to William without swift repercussions from that entity or others in his sphere. That is why when Diana came to no good end, Charles wailed as he did on seeing her body in the Paris hospital. He had made a deal with his master and when Diana provoked his wrath, by wanting to start a parallel court with Dodi, a Moslem, she was swiftly, coldly removed from the scene.

Recently, I went off to look at the graduating student exhibition at OCADU – Ontario College of Art & Design University; back in the ’80s, I modelled there and elsewhere for George Hawken and others. Annually, George and I went on the Sunday afternoon to catch the show; it was always humorous to listen to his critiques of some students’ works – bored, rudderless middle class snobs without a fucking clue.’ Of course, at the time, he lived down McCaul just above Queen Street West and there we would retire and indulge in more wanton salaciousness. This time, I attended with Pandora and we rather enjoyed ourselves though retreated to the AGO where I found a vegan leather *eye roll whatever the fuck next* wallet with snazzy Haida motif. I got home having discovered two awesome Palestinian-Canadian grad students focussed in the graphic and environmental design worlds, turned on the TV to have this blasted little smug talking head on CP24 announce the latest on the Israel-Hamas war. Are you fucking kidding me? Where are the Palestinian tanks, fighter jets, military; a war involves combatants moderately, equally armed and on somewhat equal footing. America and others afford Ukraine military arms to assist in its war declared by Russia. Who the hell then is affording Palestinians arms, if it truly is a war between Israel and Palestinians? Soon, I was out the door again, into the Gay Village where I grabbed a few boxes of Craig’s Cookies on Church Street, A1C be damned. The fucking idiocy of everyone not having an opinion for fear of… fuck forget being cancelled, more like annihilated.

Merch of Jonathan Yeo’s King Charles III Portrait

You know, I may not have 50 friends to send a King Tampon mug, but I sure as hell will be sharing a few of these mugs, come Christmas, stuffed with tampons. I have never been described as humourless!

The ever radiant, Diana, Princess of Wales

Just think of the power and arrogance of a man who sired a royal heir once displeased with Diana, Princess of Wales being entangled with Dodi Fayed, a Moslem. With swift expediency, Diana was removed; she was assassinated. Of course, when you review all the facts that have lurked just below the surface, ‘the establishment’ Dodi’s dad relentlessly referred to Diana & his son’s assassination – Diana’s fourth number was 7, three things always stood out. Why did Charles wail as he did on seeing Diana’s exterminated body in Paris? Certainly, Charles had not envisioned Diana’s sacrifice for having made a deal with his confidant, albeit likely indirectly connected to said confidant. Furthermore, why did the royals remain at Balmoral as long they did? They were in shock; this was not something that they had either envisioned or sanctioned. This left, The Queen, in particular, acutely aware of their vulnerability. Then, too, there was William’s reaction at Balmoral. Suddenly, he went missing and was unaccounted for. He must then have been approached by his ‘handler’ and Charles’ confidant to be given a stiff talking to and told of his role. Also, was he then told of his true heritage, if Diana had not previously told him?

The Queen’s address at the passing of Diana, Princess of Wales

Suddenly, heavy indeed was the crown. With Diana’s assassination, The Queen was made aware that her power was strictly ceremonial; the real power lay at the feet of her son’s confidant. Indeed, not only was the agreement readdressed, it was sealed with William’s birth. There was a very real and definite threat to The Queen and anyone else with regard’s William’s safety and wellbeing. Too, The Queen knew that any hushed whispers of who gave the order to have Diana removed, would be squarely focussed in her direction. Indeed, after Diana, Princess of Wales’ assassination, there could be no doubt who wielded true power. With Diana, Princess of Wales’ assassination, the House of Windsor had effectively ended. There could be no greater clue to that transition to mark the end of the House of Windsor than 13.5 years later, with Catherine wearing the assassinated Diana’s ring, William would be wedded on both the feast day of St. Catherine of Siena and a rather pivotal character’s birthday. That day effectively marked the end of the House of Windsor. A coup was affected across social and cultural lines without so much as a single shot having been fired on August 31, 1997 – or at least that we know of. And just as with Jesus, Diana had two sacrificial deaths alongside hers as she was a modern day sacrifice to herald the dawn of a new royal house.

The Queen & Prince Philip riding up the Mall on return from Balmoral after Diana’s Assassination

Just imagine what it was like for The Queen to have returned to London from Balmoral, knowing quite well that the little people hadn’t a clue of what was truly going on. Indeed, much like Meghan being blamed for Catherine having made her cry, the Queen became a crucible for people’s rage at Diana’s assassination, when she did not, in fact, give the order to have William’s – who was truly her step-grandson – mother, Diana, Princess of Wales, assassinated. Also, think of the exquisite fear that suddenly befell The Queen because she too could at anytime be removed, thanks to the colossal power of Charles’ confidant.

Of course, Charles’ confidant was quite confident that regardless how long The Queen lived, she would never be around for Prince George’s marriage at which point, William would have been stridently groomed to see to it that George took no ordinary bride, thereby effectively achieving the confidant’s long range objective. Well, the one thing that The Queen was not, was unaware; shrewd to the very end, she made sure that Prince Harry, whom for obvious reasons she favoured over William, had a grand wedding. Too, to protect her vision, she threw the wedding within the confines of Windsor Castle where there was little chance of anything disastrous unfolding as previously with Diana, Princess of Wales almost twenty-one years earlier. Look at William & Charles’ rude display at Prince Harry’s wedding, openly ridiculing Harry’s wife and her culture. Interestingly enough, not once did Prince Andrew betray this open animus towards his nephew and his Black wife’s culture.

So there were Charles, Camilla, William and Catherine sat across the quire from TV professionals whose job it is, to stage and rigorously read every nuance of human behaviour, as the senior royals openly ridiculed Meghan, her friends and colleagues, and her culture.

As rightly can be expected, The Queen & Prince Philip sat there dignified and decorous as is befitting. They were sufficiently aware and human that they did not engage in petty, racist behaviour, banter and open ridicule which was plain for the world to see from other senior royals. Not once did Prince Andrew engage in this vulgar, uncouth racist display; for that much, he is to be commended. Sat there was Andrew both aware of the optics and clearly appalled at his brother Prince Charles & nephew Prince William’s behaviour and, of course, not the least bit surprised that their spouses would shadow their open racism. Andrew ought to turn on them and write his own damn palace exposé.

As at Prince Harry’s wedding, there too were Camilla & Charles openly ridiculing non-Whites whilst Inuit throat singers performed as they represented HM The Queen on royal tour to Canada. Just look at that ugly backstairs cocksucker, sat there before the Canadian flag, dismissing a noble people and their culture; she is as fucking ugly as she is uncouth. He, of course, is ever a petty, nasty little blood-soaked tampon… the blasted fool. Naturally, Catherine, Camilla, Charles & William are as vile as they are for having been enthralled at the court of the real King, Charles’ rather powerful confidant.

So after having dispensed with Diana, Princess of Wales, her firstborn ‘the plant’ declares his allegiance by marrying Catherine on the feast day of St. Catherine of Siena and another’s birthday. Of course, as this is all covert and one is ever onlooking from the sidelines, the confidant was nowhere to be seen at said wedding. After all, he was not expected to attend the most important society wedding, royals or not as the Windsors are not wealthier than him.

HM King Charles III

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Spike Milligan British Comedy Awards Jonathan Ross 1994

At long last, the little grovelling bastard, King Tampon irreverently realised as he truly is, lord of all Hades most debauched bathhouse. Clueless as all fuck, he is finally at home where positively no one gives two fucks, much as now. Sold off the House of Windsor, yet still scrounged around for bags of cash. A right racist boor and a damn fool to boot his entire life. Immolating before our very eyes. An empty, indulgent life; fat little grasping fingers ravaged and ravenous by the same debauched proclivities as his cohorts Gary and Jimmy. Ready to rage is he, because finally acceded the throne, he is as charisma-challenged as a bored, fatigued koala. For what it’s worth, Jonathan Yeo is a sixth-level mature scholar soul (fourth life at current soul age) and an entity mate of seventh-level mature warrior soul, King Charles III. They are both members of entity 4, cadre 4, greater cadre 16, pod 404.

Nicolas Le Riche – Bolero de Maurice Béjart L’Opéra de Paris

What Charles is doing to Harry is not different to every bigoted/prejudiced parent, who disowns and rejects their son because that son comes out as Gay, openly takes a male lover then marries that male lover. There was so much expectation of what their son was supposed to have become and for Charles, Harry going off and taking a Black wife, Meghan, and starting a family with her – two beautiful children, was clearly as much a betrayal for Charles as if Prince Harry had come out as Gay, gone off and taken a male lover and wedded him.

It was simply not acceptable for Charles, William and Britons at large. Charles has secretly despised Blacks his life long and then, as his racist psyche perceives the situation, his son, Prince Harry, does this to him. Indeed, a son who his life long clearly experienced the open racist conversations and attitudes towards Blacks from his father and others within the royal family – how could Harry not have been exposed to this racial animus towards Blacks? As far as they are concerned: Charles, Camilla, William and Catherine, Harry has rebelled – at least as they see it, never mind that he and Meghan have a strong past-life history together – against their ugly ignorance and racist bigotry!

It is fairly obvious how deep was the gaslighting, abuse and control that Charles & William exercised over Harry. Just look at the photographs in SPARE of Nottingham Cottage where Harry lived prior to and briefly after marrying Meghan; it’s a shockingly horrid dive. This explains why Harry keeps going back to England, to family. Of course, Meghan never interferes, she lets him go back, each time knowing that he is one visit closer to saying, “To fuck with it, I am done with these people; I’ve a family of my own.” Obviously, Harry knows this, but emotional and mental abuse are more addictive than any drug going. Apart from the House of Windsor, Prince Harry has the House of Spencer in England to keep him grounded, loved and supported; he can always return for the sake of his children, knowing their English heritage, by favouring the Spencers rather than Windsors.

Tango. Rudolf Nureyev & Sir Anthony Dowell Valentino

So in order to spite Harry whilst in London for the Invictus Games’ 10th anniversary service of thanksgiving, what does he do, King Tampon gets together with a high profile personality who since attending Harry’s wedding, has clearly taken sides. It is obvious where Charles’ favoured guest stands as a family friend with a retarded sibling likes yapping like the bipedal chihuahua that she is at Meghan’s expense. Never forget that William and Charles are also possessed of fourth number of 5, which is all about sexual scandal, sexual infamy, sexual debauchery, sexual perversion and sexual addiction. Andrew, too, is possessed of fourth number of 5 and we all know how that’s turned out for him. As the numerology deftly betrays and as the photos and video above validate, a picture never lies; smoke and mirrors are the preferred MO every damn time.

These are the rarefied zones where the worlds truly closeted famous persons let their hair down. These men are always well-guarded. They are usually family men who seemingly never have many friends beyond the family and are rarely photographed hanging with other men and they can never be perceived as a man’s man. The wife and kids give good cover. Away from all that, their debauchery and real passions are reserved for the guarded privacy of yachts, private planes and private islands where the paparazzi, the little people and media have no access. Most of these closeted men were expertly groomed from the word go and though not exclusively so, they usually hail from the worlds of sports and entertainment; they’ve got talent, they were of modest means and were hungry for it all. Fame always comes at a price. This arrangement is as old as time itself. Some break out of the mould and don’t give a damn who may know nor do they care, like the late George Michael. Overwhelmingly, for 95 percent of these persons, there is a veneer of their fluidity just below the surface; however, ever they remain guarded and living in utter fear. Of course, in dreams there are neither secrets nor lies and since human civilisation occupies but one planet in one star system, my life long, I’ve gleaned a galaxy of truth in dreams of inordinate lucidity.

L’Après midi d’un Faune – Rudolf Nureyev

One such person, I know of. He was a lover of Merlin’s who preceded me by four others. He is a movie star, not an Oscar winner, but a household name the world over. I have seen the amorous photos of him with Merlin, with the lover of Merlin’s with whom he ran off and of them both in various stages of passion and tumescence. It is all very sad really because truth be told, humans are just that… humans. No one is male or female; you are a soul incarnate and you will connect with those with whom you’ve shared intense and frequent past lives passed in a positive mode. Based on numerology, it would be bizarre if some persons did not find the time to connect; it is a dance of spirits, vibrations harmonising and it can never, once consensual, be a negative thing, provided there is no control and intimidation involved. But alas, when money – big money, I might add – is involved, you’d better damn well believe that every effort will be made to live the most closeted and guarded, fear-plagued existence.   

Therein lies the crux of the matter, though homoerotic in essence – 5 in the fourth position, Charles & William are dead set against Harry having taken a Black wife, Meghan, because this is the rage of far too many White Gays everywhere; they secretly detest Black women – whether these men are fathers, closeted and with all that miserable angst, or all out Queer, they overwhelmingly do not like Black women. They are profoundly racist, though, they will be the first to most vehemently deny this fact. I remember an evening with Merlin & I at Frederick Jones and his Puerto Rican lover at this Hell’s Kitchen home on West 43rd Street. Frederick stated whilst guzzling god-only-knows which glass of liquor that day that White Gays hated Black women because “they don’t have motherfucking big black dicks…”

Tallis: If Ye Love Me · Choir of St George’s Chapel, Windsor Castle

In less than two short years, since The Queen’s departure, so much has happened and none of it either edifying or constructive for those she left in charge of the firm. Meghan was supremely astute and had the greatest counsel, that is what the baby shower in New York City was about in February, 2019 – just look at who attended: Serena Williams, Abigail Spencer, Misha Nonoo-Hess, Amal Clooney, Gayle King. All these women were trusted and part of Meghan’s inner sanctum. Amal would give superior advise, Gayle would be a liaison for Oprah. Being a senior working royal clearly was a hellish experience for Meghan and her support network needed to see her. There is no way that Serena was going to let Meghan perish. Meghan, and Harry, had to take leave of that racially predatory environment, the firm.

Milonia Caesonia, Caligula II, Peggalicious & Expendable

The crown prince & his heir needed Harry and Meghan to be around to play their roles within the pantomime, the perpetually scorned scapegoats. However, knowing that The Queen hadn’t much longer to live, Caligula II & quadrant mates knew that it was better to expel Harry & Meghan sooner rather than after The Queen’s imminent demise. In that way, The Queen, who is never faulted, can be seen to have dispensed with the Sussexes and clear the racist boors of culpability. Crucial in all of this was Harry’s account in his memoir, SPARE, of what occurred at the Sandringham Summit. Knowing that she was not long for this world, The Queen remained silent throughout the tense meeting; thereby, she betrayed her support for Harry and Meghan and in having chosen to not become engaged in the proceedings, she was letting the Sussexes know that this was not her doing. Thusly, The Queen exposed Caligula II & the seeded, pegged and bothered, racist boor as the architects of the racist expulsion of the Sussexes.

Harry, Guy & Meghan

What has since transpired is that Meghan has made a man and father of Harry; they have a beautiful family, are far removed from the racist boors, who haunt the kingdom that HM Queen Elizabeth II, greatest Sovereign of the last half millennium, departed. The mess that her two immediate successors have created may well not be reparable with George’s reign…

Tina Brown on Sussexes Nigerian Tour

Listen to Tina Brown having to eat her words. This same woman wrote The Palace Papers and in all those pages, there was not a single mention of the blackamoor brooch incident. The Briton who’s earned her fame and fortune in America, deceptively sought to prosecute the notion that the royals aren’t racist and that Britons aren’t racist. How is it even possible to write about the reason for The Queen’s grandson and his Black wife having to leave the royal family without so much as mentioning race. Post-colonial Britain and its White citizens are ever ready to deny their history, however, facts do not tolerate fictions. The Sussexes have left and are thriving, doing marvellously well, successful and no amount of at this late hour admitting that Harry & Meghan’s departure was a tragic loss for the firm, changes anything. The four principals: Charles, Camilla, William and Catherine will never change nor will they ever admit to having been racist towards Meghan – goodness they are still cowardly sniping from the wings through the fabulist, race-baiting troop of Fleet Street hacks of theirs.

Catherine, William, Meghan & Harry at Westminster Hall bidding farewell to The Queen

My, but I love this rather poignant photograph; it perfectly captures the end of the reign of HM Queen Elizabeth II. With that deeply respectful, elegant curtsey and Harry’s dignified bow, Meghan was saying goodbye to The Queen. More importantly, Meghan was saying Adieu to the island kingdom and her husband Prince Harry’s family. Meghan has proven since then that it is ill-advised to disrespect and play a Black woman for a fool. She will never return to Britain and be seen curtseying to Charles and his ugly beard, Camilla. Most definitely, she will never bow to that violent racist boor, William and his cancerous wife, Catherine – his racially predatory vindictiveness cost her and Harry the life of a child. This bid on the part of the left-behind royals to have their troop of Fleet Street hacks float the idea that Harry & Meghan need to apologise, shows how blindly conceited Whites, as opposed to Caucasians, are. At this stage, if Charles were to apologise to Harry and Meghan in a Christmas message, it would change nothing. Meghan will never set foot in Britain again to suffer the indignity of having to bow to racist boors who are neither worth her time nor knowing in any capacity. Meghan is an American, a Black America; she knows her worth.

As the Invictus Games and Archewell Foundation tour of Nigeria proved, Harry & Meghan do not a racist island kingdom need. Quite simply, the world is their realm.

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Herbie Hancock – Piano

Dexter Gordon – Tenor Saxophone

Billy Higgins – Drums, Percussion

Freddie Hubbard – Trumpet

Butch Warren – Double Bass

I will always remember my mum, Harella, dancing in the living room of our St. Kitts home to this Jazz masterpiece. She was being taken higher, truly inspired. One of my greatest memories in the early 1970s.

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Photo: Close-up of Moon.

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You are to Jazz what wings are to an ostrich; what the fuck do eagles care that queer, unaware ostriches have wings?

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© 2013-2025 Arvin da Brgha.  All Rights Reserved.

4.3.4 = 11

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Meghan, HRH Duchess of Sussex has the most masterful numbers. She does, indeed, have master numbers: 11. Look at those eyes, the eyes of Queen Mother, to HM King Henry VI, grandmother to HM King Henry VIII and great-grandmother to HM Queen Elizabeth I. She has staying power, thanks to those double 4s and with an attitude of 3, she is renowned for being most articulate and a skilled communicator of the message.

4 – focussed, solid, self-made, resolute, inner-directed, reincarnated with an agendum.

3 – attitude of 3 – gracious living, the great communicator, when one speaks others listen. There is only win-win, failure is never an option for these persons. Incidentally, Ben Mulroney is an attitude of 3, which is why he is a gracious interviewer – non-confrontational. Also, I have noticed that a lot of persons who planned a life in the public sphere tend to have 9 and 3 in their make up, as in both HRH Prince William, Duke of Cambridge and his lovely wife, Catherine, HRH Duchess of Cambridge. Incidentally, these three persons, Ben and the Cambridges would have been very relaxed in each others company and true to her 9 energy body, Catherine would likely have made a dig at her husband along the lines, ‘He certainly has a great head of hair…’ As it is perfectly naturally for straight men to be attracted to each other, they would not be human if they did not, both men would have been pleasantly warmed by the other’s make-up with their similar 9 and 3. Catherine and Ben both are 9 energy body; they would have found each other more than passingly fascinating. Catherine is a warrior which means that she will always be steely; as for Ben, don’t know his overleaves but I am guessing that he is more so on the expression axis rather than not – an artisan or sage soul. In my experience, whereas 9 women can be extremely rude and dismissive, 9 men are reserved and not given to readily passing judgment.

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There is also the matter of Catherine, HRH Duchess of Cambridge being in perseverance mode, which is as unrelenting a foe as you can ever imagine, on top of which she is a warrior. This woman was born to be Queen Consort and that’s the end of that, there will be no Camilla rewriting the script. Interestingly enough, both Diana, Princess of Wales’ sons are wedded to very strong women – as well they should be. In both cases, both couples are entity mates, which is as good a partnering as one can hope for. Meghan, however, with double 4s and master number of 11 is here to rule as when previously she had as Queen Mother and Tudor dynasty matriarch.

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Not only is 11 a master number but it also leaves all such persons lone wolves, regardless how popular they are. This explains why Meghan, HRH Duchess of Sussex will faster-than-a-sneeze dispense with persons when need be. And yes, she has every damn right to be done with the blasted dreck that do not know the meaning of family: honour, fealty, discretion. I am, where the master number 11 is concerned, just such a person… 2.1.8 = 11. Of course, like Catherine, HRH Duchess of Cambridge that attitude of 1 means that I am more inclined to be shy and reserved than ‘on’. At least that was the rule when Merlin was incarnate and we were together. Now, more of the 11 comes to the fore and I simply give two-fucks and sound off loudly and most articulately.

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Recently, owing to a host of prickly transits, to say nothing of the mercury retrograde, I have found myself beset with some entanglements that have provoked the less polished side of my Venus/Uranus conjunction. This all began around the time that I wrote the blog about that blasted tarbaby frog finally showing his true colours. I had no less than 8 French Canadians getting up in my business, demanding that I delete aforementioned blog and that these were the indiscretions of youth. Bitch please! After having lived in Montréal for seven years with the best task companion/comrade-in-arms an equally seventh level mature soul, though, she a warrior, we gave as good as we got. Of course, said warrior became my wife at Palais du Justice on Bob Marley’s birthday in 1999. Today, we remain the best of friends and she now he, has a fully beard than I have ever sported…. alas, I digress. A couple of weeks ago, I was being regaled by my sister who lives in Nevis about my mother’s cousin whose funeral it was that day. She died at age 107 and was attended by quite the turn out with le tout Nevis’ elites in tow. Though I have never met, her great-granddaughter was part of the descendants who eulogised the grand dame; that great-granddaughter was Mel B (Scary Spice) of Spice Girls fame. I have though several times met my fathers cousin, the inimitable and truly regal, Cicely Tyson, wife of Jazz genius, Miles Davis a man who did not gladly suffer people who hate him or his race…. as well he damn ought to have.

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As I entered the little school in my neighbourhood, a spry spirit who always is good for a laugh, beamed on seeing me as he sat on his scooter with equally situated mates and inquired, “And who will you be voting for?” to which I shot back, “You can damn well bet it won’t be for no blasted motherfucking, cocksucking tarbaby-arsed frog!” raucous laughter peppered the air as I went in and voted conservative for the first time in my life. Enough of that sissy-arsed twat, who is nothing more than Modi’s pappishow with his displaced femme au foyer, fag-hag frau, Madame Plotte-Visage herself, who looks more and more each day like Tammy Faye Bakker. You don’t like black people… go fuck yourself… god only knows, you did not invent Jazz!

Days earlier en route home with my little suitcase in tow, I got up off the bench to take the Wellesley 94 bus eastbound to my art-filled lair. The bus pulled in and queerly parked such that the back door was a good three feet away – I have never seen the appeal of metric… nothing beats knowing whether you are dealing with 9.5 or 10.5 inches! Though my suitcase was too heavy, I was prepared to step off the platform to make for the rear doors, yet, the doors did not open. Finally, I joined the Dravidian male who had been waiting to board the rear doors as well. When I got to the front door, noisily pulling my suitcase, I looked up stunned as the doors slammed shut just as I was getting ready to board. The doors then opened after the driver looked at me with a smug smirk creasing her lizard-lipped face. I got in and as ever, I said thank you. As I progressed towards the double seats by the rear door, the bus suddenly broke, causing me to lurch forward. Taking it all in stride, I opted not to assume anything by this trio of events which most blacks would see after the third incident as being racially provocative. Up the couple of steps I got with my heavy suitcase; this only made me realise my advancing years as suddenly the urge to pee came on. I had switched from Bleu par Chanel a couple of years back when senior leak suddenly meant that after five minutes Bleu fades and gives way to god forbid that most malodourous of bouquets: loud-smelling, dribbled piss. Now it is Christian Dior’s Sauvage as the scent lingers and dissipates any provoked thoughts of raunchy water sports.

Having made my way to the back seat, there were all told less than a dozen souls on the bus. On arriving at the first stop from the station, the driver got up at Church Street. I thought that there must be someone wheelchair bound, trying to board, hence she got from her seat to assist. As I was otherwise engaged in thoughts libidinal and what I’d like to do with that burly mesomorph at work, whose woman just upped and left him, I remained focussed on artisan channels 3 to 5 instead. Just then, I noticed the bus driver step up the two steps and make it towards me, seated at the centre of the bus’ long back seat. Leaning her, her nasty-looking perm straight out of the 90s, she gruffly barked at me in a manner that suggested that couth had ever been foreign to her. “Look, everybody has bad days okay. There’s no need to swear at me.” I said nothing, looking instead past her as the thought occurred to me that the bus was being driven by duppy incarnate. Since my name ain’t Shaneequa, I remained calm and looked up at a face warped uglier by rage, which I also found uncomfortably too close. I was hemmed in. “Get off my bus or I call the police!” As I chose to say nothing or move a single muscle, she got even more incandescent with irrationally unprovoked rage, “That’s it get off my bus now, I’m calling the police!” As she turned to walk away, it gave a good look at her flat-arsed, no-calved god fugly hideousness and I got up and began making it for the bus’ front doors. As I slowly strode for the front doors, I expertly memorised her bus ID and every detail of slender hipped, extra-vertebrae-looking alien body and realised that she was likely trans; either way, just then a definite non sequitur. For once, I said nothing on exiting and as I really needed to pee, thought of hailing a cab when noticing another bus directly in back of the scene of my misadventure. I got aboard, said hello to the driver, a guapo Filipino and grabbed a seat on the even less populated bus. Also, I memorised the ID information associated with his bus. On exiting the bus, as per usual, I said thanks and exchanged pleasantries. As soon as I got situated at home, with Buster on my lap purring away, I took to the TTC’s site and chose the tab that allows for filing complaints. In exquisite detail, as well you are I shared what occurred and confidently knew that at no point would any of the bus’ cameras capture me saying anything to the female driver. She is, as per her contract, never to leave her seat nor confront a passenger. I have never seen her since.

Well in the grip of Mercury retrograde, I strolled into one of many little joints which I love frequenting as I like chatting with the proprietors and in the process, giving them my business. On close to a decade of frequenting this particular store, where I picked up a lottery ticket or two, my bike was leaning against the row of sugary treats, I turned just in time to see an old weathered hag out on Yonge Street beadily gawking in and cutting her hateful eyes at me. Possessed of some right afforded her by god only knows fuck-all whom – the blasted motherfuck, she bounded into the store, well into her ninth decade and looking and smelling of ill-health and poverty, “Get that goddamn bike outta here.” I was wearing my helmet with lights attached front and back in broad daylight as one does. Without so much as missing a beat, I launched into her with a ferocity, she likely had never before encountered, which is why she felt perfectly entitled to take such liberties. “Get your fucking ugly arse out of here, go the fuck to Wal-Mart make your way to the back of the store and tell them I sent you to put a down paying on your fucking casket as you are obviously too fucking poor to afford to die all this time…” Never having had her racially predatory behaviour challenged before, she stood there suddenly catatonic. “Go on, here you go, start that fucking down paying today…” with that, I tossed the few coins in my pocket at her feet and barged on in full throttle loud, vituperativeness. “Pick it the fuck up, high time your fucking ugly, broke arse and casket were lowered into the ground. Come in here opening your motherfucking lizard-lipped mouth, barking at me. Pick it the blasted motherfuck up and crawl the fuck in your casket.” She tried to weakly say something to which I kept up my defense against being racially preyed on, “Shut up and die, go on… scoot. There’s no need for your fuck-all ugly, broke arse, smelly cunt hanging around… get the fuck off the planet.” Never ever during a mercury retrograde will this venus-uranus leo hold his tongue when being racially preyed on. Faster than the loudest sneeze, I rammed my fist up her rotting arse, yanked and ripped at her calcified soul, pulled it out, wiped arse with it, then slapped her silly in the face before making her gag on a soul being held hostage by her useless maudlin existence. I have become so less inclined to tolerate this perpetual abuse which we as blacks endure on a daily basis yet pretend as though it does not exist. There are, though, times when you need to protest. Back in 1988 after meeting Wayne Robson’s firstborn, as I moved south down the west side of Bond Street to go visit Merlin at St. Michael’s Hospital who was suffering his first bout of AIDS-related pneumocystis, I screamed at the top of my lungs at an old Caucasian female who on noticing me began hurriedly crossing to the east side of Bond, “I don’t want your fucking handbag…” Never ceases to amaze the arsenal of behaviour that non-blacks project onto us as they get their racially predatory fix: sniffing, outright ridicule, dragging feet, yawning, bumping into you, blowing cigarette smoke in your direction… those are the passive racially predatory acts. More often, it is like that act in the convenience store, so racially obsessed that one feels oneself perfectly entitled to project that ignorance in a malicious, accusatory, bullying manner towards blacks. Indeed, ever notice the inordinate number of overweight blacks; they like all persons who were sexually preyed on in their early years more often than not develop eating disorders.

With Meghan, HRH Duchess of Sussex’s lynching daily in print media, social media and just about everywhere else, I have become increasing intolerant of any and all such BS. Do not because I am black start, apropos of fuck-all nothing, braying about how much you hate and can’t stand that Meghan bitch as if the blasted fuck these arsewipes know the woman. Out of the blue someone whom I thought had long made the only logical move viable to her sorry arse and crawled into her casket, called up trying for the nth time to get me to start today and join that pyramid scheme of hers for which she is ever travelling to some rah-rah seminar and on the cusp of getting rich yet still ain’t and needs you to join this very day; this, I can assure you, is about as appealing as trying to get me to bed some moneyed old fuck with a micro penis and bad breath. Nah… I’m all about the dharma.

Last summer everyone called up, demanding to know if I were not going to the Raptors championship parade. Hell no! Crowds you say… not happening. The day of the parade, I kept being called up by excited friends, asking me if I was watching and wasn’t it phenomenal. Very matter of factly, I declared to one, “When these fucking Goys do Yom Kippur, they certainly do know how to go all out.” Of course, after having explained myself days later at a dinner party, the point was well taken. This is a country with soft ethnic cleansing of blacks: negative immigration and population growth, a entrenched history of employment discrimination, which sees blacks being ghettoised in casual positions in the work place, especially at crown corporations (government-owned) – I have worked at two: Canada Post and the Toronto Convention Centre; in the case of the former, I arrived in Montréal from Vancouver to find myself the first full-time black in the work place; as fighting is nothing but foreplay in my books, I organised a lone Haitienne and got her to file a Human Rights complaint which she won. This resulted in back pay and all the mostly Haitian blacks awarded full-time and back pay where they had served as casual for 5, 10, 15 years. Naturally, the messenger/lightning rod always comes into someone cross-hairs. At one point, where they tried firing me the local union president told me to go to hell and go back to Canada; thus, I ventured into my firing interview with a lawyer in tow – had never happened before and was not then fired after multiple frantic calls to Ottawa to find out how to deal with him. Before being fired, that blasted porcine pequiste fucker decided to avail himself of my tax dollars by running in the federal election, thankfully he did not win but when he tried two years later, I wrote to Jack Layton who had frequented our Cabbagetown home in the 80s when we lived next door to a rather parvenu and highly snobbish Alfred Sung and informed Mr. Layton that if he did not withdraw that vile racist, my lawyer and I would go to the media and expose him – the letter of course was cced to all the other federal party leaders. In the end, the Bloc Quebecois thanked me for the letter and ran a black Haitienne in the riding from which the union head was summarily dropped and that Haitienne, Ms. Bardot won her seat, only to be replaced in Papineau riding by that blasted, racist tarbaby-arsed frog… but I digress. Two million persons cheering on black excellence when this is a country that actively eradicates any participation of blacks in its cultural fabric – hello JazzFM where you would be dismissed as stupid for thinking that Jazz is black culture. Sure, there are window-dressing blacks in the TV medium but they are not the norm. Not a single prominent Canadian protested and demanded that the vile racist politician resign when his blackface past emerged. Naturally, his people stridently argued in his defense. Would that these ungrateful fucks who hold the country to ransom would finally fuck off and leave. No one outside of Québec, who does not work in the government, is remotely bilingual. Seven years of living in Montréal made one thing perfectly clear: theirs, by its sheer ubiquity is nothing more than a northern confederate flag… and they certainly are possessed of unapologetic xenophobia. The only people deserving of having a party in the Canadian parliament, which not all Canadians can vote for, are the First Nations and Inuit peoples.

Back in late 1982 whilst Merlin and I held up in the Trockadero loft in Manhattan’s Chelsea on Sixth Avenue below 23rd Street, I got in one evening after looking at rehearsal of the Nanette Bearden Dance Company, to find Merlin having dinner and strategising with Jim Henson. As they shared the same agent, Joyce Ketay, they were prepping and throwing around ideas for how to thematically film the series, Fraggle Rock which would be shot in the coming new year in Toronto at CBC’s studios. Merlin had made his favourite dish a chicken paprikash which John Hirsch had taught him. Joining them, I dug in to what was my favourite of Merlin’s prepared meals. I will always remember Jim saying, “first you start with a compliment and then you hang back and listen, listen to what’s said but most of all, what is not said…” Sage advise that I have always followed. What I love about us artisan souls is that we always reveal our nature and the fact that we input on five channels whenever we speak. Listen to Naomi Campbell in her acceptance speech for the CFDA Icon Award. Straight out of left field in the tenth minute, she remarks, “God my lips are dry… sorry.” No other soul but an artisan soul would shift subjects so abruptly so seamlessly and carry on without so much as missing a beat. This quirk of ours, mine, Naomi, Meghan and every last artisan soul who has ever breathed, makes for a master tactician and someone not easily understood or shaken. With a destiny number that proves master numbers like Meghan, HRH Duchess of Sussex, she is a 11 – she is a diamond through and through and why HRH Prince Charles, Prince of Wales refers to her as Tungsten.

As ever, life is like a flying dream; if you look down, you’re fucked. Enjoy the ride and fear no one!

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©2013-2025 Arvin da Brgha. All Rights Reserved.

See You Soon… 30 Years On, Merlin’s Magical Departure.

Almost instantaneously, as the Moon transited Leo in my third house, my lungs besottedly drank the warm and dank, dark air.  Thus I effortlessly drowned into sleep.  Whilst wintry winds howled outside the window, this cold early Saturday morning – November 18, 1989 – my lucid focus seamlessly shifted into the dreamtime. 

I readily knew that I was dreaming. 

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Here, just as moments earlier whilst awake and meditating, Merlin was uppermost in my thoughts.  I could sense his presence.  The shift from one dimension to the other was seamless.  Lucidly self-aware, I was immediately come to in a dream that was set in the bedroom where I slept.

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I was in bed with the artist Olaf Nordstrom – a source of loving support at present in the waking state.  I was lying in bed, leaning on his bony chest, as he sat up in bed.  It was obvious from his body language that he did not want to be in bed with me.  I felt a still and quiet vibration to this dream.  The moment was truly serene and peaceful.  This was not a sexual or post-sexual interlude.  We were both reflective.  It was obvious that we were on the cusp of something momentous.  It was the sort of vibration that signalled that something extraordinary was about to unfold.

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Olaf behaved as if he was uncomfortable being there – it was a grave moment.  He wanted to be there, however, to merely lend his support.  It was obvious that he was wary of my clinging.  Clinging, however, was not my intention.  The moment together was brief – just a preparation for things to come.  With that we parted.  It was time to get up and participate in the events of whatever was to unfold.

This dream was possessed of inordinate lucidity; its every detail and nuance my faculties absorbed with acuity beyond the norm.

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In the second dream, this cold Saturday morning, I found myself in the familiar territory of the Cabbagetown streets where we lived.  I went into a store which does not exist in the waking state.  It sat just south of the Pet Menagerie store, on the east side of Parliament Street, between Amelia and Winchester Streets.

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It was a tailor’s shop that carried rather high-end fabrics.  I was there to pick out some fabric because I had a definite idea of what I wanted to wear to Merlin’s funeral.  I knew that the only way, to get the look that I wanted, was to make the outfit myself.  The kindly, gracious salesman was trying to get me interested in a rather conservative plaid fabric but it simply was not to my liking.  My aversion was not because it was plaid; rather, the tone was too sombre.

He was not insistent but let me know that it was appropriate.  However, I would have none of it; I simply did not like the fabric or the colours.  I simply was not going to have it.  Unable to make up my mind and not wanting to make a decision about fabric, as there were so many ramifications to what it all meant, I left the store stepping into the light of day.  It had been a very dimly lit, nicely wood-panelled, stately shop.

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Once outside, I became acutely aware of Merlin.  I was now returned to the yard of Cabbagetown’s 20 Amelia Street, where we lived, and Merlin was present with me.  Thoughts of Merlin, on leaving the store, had me immediately posited in the front yard of 20 Amelia Street where I happily joined him.  We were watering the lawn even though it was wintertime.  Next door at 18 Amelia Street, where at this point Club Monaco designer Alfred Sung no longer lived, there were lots of potted plants hanging from the lone, purple-leaved, sugar maple tree.

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Merlin was telling me to water the plants.  He then began telling me, rather matter-of-factly, that I had to start taking care of the apartment – I had to make it a home again.  Merlin asked me to start preparing things.  He meant that this was not the time for procrastination.  Of course, moments earlier in the prior dream, I had been procrastinating when down on Parliament Street to pick out fabrics to wear to his funeral.  By avoiding the matter altogether, I had chosen instead to forego the purchase.  As Merlin spoke to me, I became so aware of him that I completely became self-aware – both in the dream and in my sleep whilst in bed at 20 Amelia Street.

I was standing there very intently looking at Merlin.  He, too, was very intently looking at me.  Whilst we were unflinchingly looking into each other, I thought aloud with quiet resignation, ‘Merlin has died.’

I knew, too, that Merlin had heard my thoughts in the dream.

At that moment my sister Pandora da Braga, with whom Merlin enjoyed the best relations of anyone else in my life, suddenly became a presence in the dream.  She never fully became physically manifested but her energies became overwhelmingly strong.  Her energies were just to my rear as she played a loving and supportive role.

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Suddenly, introspectively, I recalled a dream which I had had earlier in the week.  With everything moving so quickly, in the waking state – with little time to collect my thoughts, let alone overlong time to record any dreams- it had slipped by unrecalled on awakening.  However, now it was not merely being recalled, it was being relived in its entirety.  I stood there and as I recalled the dream, rather seamlessly, I actually entered the dream which was being reanimated as it was being holographically recalled.

Within the reanimated dream being recalled and relived, I was again on the lawn at 20 Amelia Street in the warmth of the Sun’s rays.  Just as in today’s dream, I was on the front lawn facing due north and the house with 18 Amelia Street on the left to the west.  As Merlin and I were visiting in the outer dream of today, I had turned my body.  Being in the same physical position had triggered the recall and reanimation of the dream from the past week.

To my left, I saw an incredibly ancient-looking, wise being who progressed across the lawn.  The slowness of his progression was so measured that one’s experience of time, in the reanimated and recalled dream, progressed outside of time itself.  It was simply magical to experience the progression of the very ancient and mystical being.  The millennia-ancient figure progressed across the lawn, of 18 Amelia Street, heading towards our home at 20 Amelia Street.  The being was male and small in stature; he was hobbit-like.  His head was large, disproportionately large, compared to his tiny, frail-bodied frame.

He could not have been more than four feet tall.  His head was absolutely massive.  His forehead arched up and was high like an African’s.  Too, his head was elongated in the back, reminiscent of Pharaoh Akhenaten’s skull.  More striking than the majesty with which the august being progressed outdoors, towards our home at 20 Amelia Street, was the look of his face.

It was simply magical.  From beneath the translucent skin, soft yellow-white light escaped revealing his very visible aura.  Nothing but pure love, along with the same nonjudgmental look that ever peered back from Merlin’s eyes to mine, radiated from this being.  The love radiating from the being towards me was awesome, immense – intense.  The great being’s progress was purposeful.  He was on a mission; he was unstoppable.  The process had begun.

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I was struck by the uncanny resemblance, which the face of this being bore, to the planet-being in the skies of Sandy Point, St. Kitts in a momentous dream during September 1983.  It was a dream whose potency and beauty would lay unfathomable for years to come.  The being progressed as though levitating mere millimetres above the rather zingy, extra-green grass of the lawns at both 18 and 20 Amelia Street.  Though he did not pause as he progressed, the radiant being did turn and look at me.  As though he was familiar with me, he acknowledged me by slightly nodding.  However, he continued on towards our home.

He moved past me as I stood there, still and silent, drinking in the majesty of the experience.  At soul-centre we were familiar to each other.  I knew him.  He knew me.  I stood, alone and awestruck, in the front yard being refamiliarised by the vibration of his beauty as the effect of his potent powers spatially affected the dream.  As he moved past, I was reminded of the film The Dark Crystal, by Jim Henson – with whom Merlin had worked, directing two episodes of the Fraggle Rock television series in its inaugural season.  This movie would for several months, after we saw it together in New York City, be our favourite film.

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Thereafter for several weeks, whenever we looked at each other – even when not being intimate, we had hummed at each other as the rival beings in the film did when communicating.  The being here was much like the good beings in the Jim Henson film The Dark Crystal.  The being progressed up the few stone steps, to the wooden veranda at 20 Amelia Street, and began making his way inside the house.  As I watched him ascend, from the lawn to the veranda, it was clear to me that he was levitating.  Though it was a dream and I too could have levitated and flown, he though had a power which surpassed mine.

This august-souled, mystical being clearly originated from a dimension which vibrationally and spiritually was of a higher plane than the astral, where the dream occurred, and the physical in which I am incarnate.  Indeed, the same physical plane from which Merlin was rapidly taking his leave – it was that discernible.  The moment the mystical being entered our home, being lost to view, I came to from the inner holographic dream which was a recall and reanimation of a dream that I had experienced within the last week.  As I came to, I was about to go indoors to see what had become of the being that had clearly entered our home.

It was then, having returned to being fully focussed in the outer ‘shell’ dream of today November 18, 1989, that I saw Merlin anew.  He was standing at the front door looking out at me.  I stood there, in the front yard, transfixed whilst the bright daylight bathed my body throughout.  The look on Merlin’s face was purely transcendent.  He was perfectly still and perfectly radiant.  Merlin stood in the midst of a nimbus of dazzling, blue-white light.  As he lovingly glowed out at me, this splendid light only intensified.

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Merlin was transformed and as his face lovingly lit up, at me, the light grew to more completely envelop his body.  Whilst lovingly glowing at me with the warmest, most familiar knowing smile, Merlin slowly brought his right hand up with the palm facing me and more completely smiled.  The radiance of his smile soon became lost in the glow of his aura’s light.  The nimbus, enveloping his transformed body, radiated even more intensely at that point.

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I was blown away.  Arrested, I readily knew what I was experiencing; I could feel it.  I knew that across dimensions, in the waking state, Merlin had just died.

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However, as is my wont, I protested.  I dropped the hose which was still bleeding its nurturing water onto the frozen, wintry lawn at my feet.  I stood – paralysed.  Determinedly, I then bolted for Merlin.  I headed up to the veranda as my lover, as my mentor, as my friend stood transcendent in the doorway to what had been the most beautiful sense of home ever experienced.  “Merlin!” shrieking in protest, I yelled out his name.

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(Detail of oil on canvas by my sister Pandora of Toronto’s Mount Pleasant Cemetery where Merlin is buried.)

Suddenly, the thunder of my protesting breath abruptly drew me from sleep.  I sat upright in bed, my arms outstretched and beyond, after having crashed back into my body and no longer astral-projected.  From the foot of the bed both cats – Zora and Whoopi – knowingly, silently looked up.  I was arrested by the frozen horror-struck face staring at me from the mirrored closet doors across the room. 

In the near-darkness of the bedroom, a few rays of early morning light made it past the blood-red, velvet drapes heavily hung at the windows.  Those rays starkly cast light on how horribly desolate my life now was.  Merlin was gone.  His spirit had taken leave from this world.  It was that discernible as my world, my very universe, had experienced a massive vibrational shift. 

I had been abruptly displaced from the astral plane.  I had been lucidly dreaming a dream within a dream.  I was being told so long as Merlin, transitioned from incarnate to astral plane habitué, bade farewell to our magically glorious union on the physical plane.  I was heartened by the peace and knowingness in his transcendent face because I knew that it was a, “See you soon…” parting, for now. 

I knew that there would be dreams aplenty up ahead.  Just as he had pledged, he would magically weave in his indelible promise to me, before departing from the physical plane.  There was such a cold silence, a stinging finality to the moment, as I sat there in bed.  After having looked back at myself, silently waiting, I placed a call to the eighth storey nursing station at Wellesley Hospital. 

I was immediately aware that the tone of the nurses, with whom I was by now long-familiar, had changed.  In very little time, it was official… Merlin had indeed passed.  Truth be told, it was not a surprise; I could sense it on awaking.  He simply was not there.  As always, I had reached out to sense him on awaking – his energies – just blocks away at Wellesley Hospital.  Now, there was nothing. 

Then, as if needing further proof, I thought about Merlin calling each morning.  He would do so, to lovingly say hello and thereby, to lovingly wake me up.  Merlin would then lovingly ask for a call-back, after I had audio-recorded the dreams.  Merlin had, thus far, not called.  Once again, I saw the stillness of my reflection across the room.  I knew then, really knew…  Merlin was gone.  

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As ever, thanks for your ongoing support but if you really want to make me levitate then do buy my books!

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© 2013-2025 Arvin da Brgha.  All Rights Reserved.

The Markle Sparkle.

The duke and duchess were two hours late for their welcoming ceremony due to the knock-on effect of an earlier delay to their scheduled air service

Meghan, HRH Duchess of Sussex in Valentino Haute Couture in Morocco.  

Many moons ago, in the 80s when living next-door to designer, Alfred Sung on Cabbagetown’s Amelia Street, I was more obsessed with fashion than I now am.  Back then, lots of friends used to bemoan the paucity of black models appearing on catwalks of major house, in particular, Armani.  

In this 1992 Fashion Television feature portrait by Jeanne Beker, the thinking model, Veronica Webb makes passing reference to the paucity of black models in ad campaigns and even walking the catwalks of some houses.  

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Then along came a picture-perfect day in Berkshire when Sol shone with rays that sparkled as though laced with diamonds and platinum.  This phenomenal woman, this soul who had previously been Margaret Beaufort, she with an unparallelled sense of theatre, with poise, self-absorption and awareness in the space of a couple of hours proved herself a game changer.  That poise, elegance and revolutionary arrival onto the world stage got everyone to sit up and take notice.  Certainly, Pierpaolo Piccioli took notice.  He clearly thought that if Meghan, HRH Duchess of Sussex were going to favour haute couture in choosing Givenchy for the elegantly minimalist wedding gown then Maison Valentino had to step up and court the Duchess.  

Bored out of my mind, one day, I happened to be tune into a live event on Eva Chen’s IG @evachen212.  It was the Spring/Summer 2019 Maison Valentino Haute Couture show and as Eva shouted and praised the models and creations as they walked, I began crying.  Never had I seen so many black models walking in a show.  Then Naomi Campbell appeared, closing the show and I was simply floored.  Never had Ms. Campbell looked more radiant when walking the catwalk.  There was so much tangible love in the air, in that room.  This was a moment like no other.  There was no denying that Piccioli was courting Meghan, HRH Duchess of Sussex with that show, not just the ubiquity of black models but the number of creations that featured a bateau neckline were clear homage to the latest duchess of the House of Windsor.  

Listen to what Naomi has to say, near the end of the video, when speaking to British Vogue Editor, Edward Enninful.  There was nothing more overwhelming that seeing the response in that salon, from Naomi crying, to the adorably eccentric Reine de Charlemagne, Céline Dion, crying her eyes out whilst sitting FROW along with Mr. Valentino himself, Valentino Garavani.  

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Campbell, Naomi 22/5/1970 London, England

Michael: This fragment is a second-level mature artisan — third life thereat.  Naomi is in the caution mode with a goal of rejection.  A realist, Naomi is in the moving part of emotional centre. 

Naomi’s body type is Saturn/Mercury. 

Naomi’s primary chief feature is arrogance and the secondary stubbornness. 

The fragment Naomi is fifth-cast in the sixth cadence; she is a fragment of greater cadence four.  Naomi’s entity is two, cadre four, greater cadre 7, pod 414. 

Naomi’s essence twin is an artisan and her task companion is a sage. 

Naomi’s primary needs are exchange, expression and freedom. 

There are 6 past-life associations with Arvin and 4 with Merlin. 

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Naomi epitomises what someone in the positive pole of discrimination looks like.  Of course, she is an artisan soul, which gives her that kaleidoscopic, chameleonesque mystique.  She also happens to be an entity mate of both John Hirsch and George Hawken; this is why George was always left speechless when she appeared on television.  He was bewitched and fascinated by her, which was rare for him where adoring famous persons was concerned.  As the recent trip by TRH Duke & Duchess of Sussex to Morocco revealed, Meghan, HRH Duchess of Sussex certainly took notice of Pierpaolo Piccioli’s homage to her discriminating  sense of fashion and design.  

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As ever, I would be remiss if I did not take this time to state how deeply appreciative of your support all these years I am… thank you.  Here’s to life.   Here’s to you dreaming the most lucid of flying dreams… cause you can!  

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Two Weddings, A Baby, A Gaggle of Racial Predators & Hadrian’s frightful ghost.

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The recent wedding of the Duke of Huescar to his handsome bride was a stunning bit of theatre. He is, of course, the future Duke of Alba, grandson of one of the grandest nobles of the last century, the inimitable Duchess of Alba.

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The cut and design of the bridge’s dress is truly elegant; apparently, it was designed by her creatively gifted mother herself. They make a truly handsome couple.

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At this juncture, I have not yet found any video of their nuptials on the Internet; perhaps, it will surface at a later date. The sublime elegance of her dress deftly reflects the undeniable harmony between this couple. So good it is to see a couple of souls who after having suffered lost through death in recent times, return to find each other anew, to further explore their loving bond.

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Whilst awaiting the second royal wedding, I passed much time reviewing the coverage of the royal wedding of TRH Duke & Duchess of Sussex last May. I was ever intrigued at the notion of an even larger guest list for the marriage of Jack Brooksbank and HRH Princess Eugenie of York.

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A simple wedding, I was moved by how vastly different it was to that of TRH Duke & Duchess of Sussex’s months earlier. The most obvious difference in both ceremonies being the latter’s carriage ride; a rather simple affair. This, of course, was an affair filled with aristocrats – some of whom had attended the earlier wedding last May.

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Along with Tom & Lara Inskip and Guy Pelly with a wife more noticeably pregnant, there was the ever stylish Sofia Wellesley, this time equally stunning in a Dolce & Gabbana dress.

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Tom & Lara Inskip processing towards the Lower Ward and St. George’s Chapel.

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Guy Pelly attending the second royal wedding of the year.

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Guy’s expectant wife, Elizabeth Pelly accompanied by Astrid Harbord.

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Also, attending their second royal wedding for the year, Zoe & Jake Warren.

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Back for more, Pippa Matthews with her younger brother James Middleton with that Tsar Nicholas thing going on with his look. For me, a woman is most beautiful when expectant – fecund, voluptuous, primal she is then most powerful; she is then truly the creator of life. How beautiful is that Kelly green?

Chelsy Davy

Perennial favourite Chelsy Davy with Melissa Percy, who wasted little time in saying, this mum don’t babysit and there went Tom van Straubenzee. Gorgeous periwinkle dress.

Cressida Bonas

Cressida Bonas radiating the light magical essence of artisan souls everywhere.

Franz Albrecht & Cleopatra zu Oettingen-Spielberg, young Bavarian royals attending their second royal wedding at Windsor Chapel this year.

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Holly Candy – hands down, the best dressed lady at this royal wedding. Those matching pink bow gloves took her outfit stratospherically to the next level of |über soignée. I really did not think that Amal Clooney deserved that honour at the royal wedding of TRH Duke & Duchess; for one thing, her hat was worn on the wrong side of the head – always on the right side!

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Coming on strong in second place, like Secretariat was phenomenon, Naomi Campbell. Readily, so many people were carping on about what is she doing at the royal wedding; hello, how many times has Sarah, Duchess of York not been a guest of Ms. Campbell’s whilst holidaying on some yacht or other in the Mediterranean. I love the way that Ms. Campbell feigned disbelief when asked by an attendant to leave the seat in the front row of the royals’ side of the quire where she sat speaking with Crown Prince Pavlos of Greece and his family.

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Made in Chelsea star, Oliver Proudlock and his fiancée Emma proved among a couple of the best-dressed men.

Tracey Emin & Alexnder Gilkes

Admittedly, though, not the best photograph, the urbane Alexander Gilkes, Paddle8 CEO, arrived in the company of artist Tracey Emin.

Cara Delevigne & Derek Blasberg

Cara Delevigne – another dead-ringer for magical artisan soul with the planet’s most ubiquitous plus-one, Derek Blasberg.

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Kate & Lila Moss bringing the glamour.

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Poppy Delevigne sporting one of the best fascinators at the royal wedding of Jack Brooksbank and HRH Princess Eugenie of York.

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Other notable royals in attendance, Princess Marie-Chantal, Crown Prince Pavlos and their daughter, Princess Maria-Olympia of Greece. Also, the Crown Prince’s younger brother, Prince Philippos of Greece attended.

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Lady Gabriella Windsor and her fiancé Timothy Kingston; yet another royal wedding is on the horizon. By far, the most statuesque of the Windsor ladies.

Lady Helen & Timothy Taylor

Lady Helen & Timothy Taylor; the minor royals whom we never see enough of. Love her dress.

Jwan Yosef & Ricky Martin

Ricky Martin and his artist husband.

Stephen Fry & Elliott Smith

The always witty thespian, Stephen Fry and his husband, Elliott Smith.

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Holly Branson coming through.

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And her brother Sam Branson

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The irrepressible mother of the bride, Sarah, Duchess of York and her firstborn who seems resigned to the fact that there is always an opening for spinster lady-in-waiting. Back in the 80s when Merlin was then incarnate, I shared with him a dream had that night of ‘Fergie’. Set somewhere in east Africa, she was riding atop the roof of a Land-Rover with several others… it was a dusty, tree-lined road and they were loud, happy persons all – her husband, Lord Porchester’s offspring was not present in the dream. As the vehicle hit a bump in the road, Fergie went flying from atop the vehicle’s roof and landed on her head; it was the most startling affair – we all screamed.

There was deathly silence as her khaki-clad body remained motionless for what seemed an eternity. Suddenly, as though jolted by lightning, much as a ginger cat with a few lives yet, Fergie shot to her feet, ramrod straight then began rushing about from one side to the other of the parked Land-Rover, mugging and waving to the perfectly immobile and non-human trees. I awoke from the dream laughing, the image was so bizarre. Seated across the Cabbagetown breakfast table from me, Merlin casually declared whilst remaining focussed on the Globe and Mail in hand, “So that’s how she became unhinged…” Yet again, I was reminded of that dream as Sarah, Duchess of York bounded from the Rolls Royce and made a mad dash, mouth ajar, mugging and waving to god-only-knows whom at the foot of St. George’s Chapel’s west door the day her daughter took possession of her man. This eccentric behaviour, much as in that dream, was on display as she entered the quire at St. George Chapel at the wedding of TRH Duke & Duchess of Sussex on seeing Misha Nonoo and her date, oil heir Michael Hess. These days, she always seems only too happy that she has not ended up like Diana, Princess of Wales.

Another soul who seemed spooked to be at the ball was the groom’s gin-blossomed father whose daft expression throughout was more than a tad distracting. One was reminded of how odd Thomas Markle would have looked, had he been allowed to attend the Sussexes’ nuptials.

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Here’s to the lovely young couple; here’s to life indeed. Happy for them that they have found each other anew in this life experience. To paraphrase Prince Seeiso of Lesotho when speaking of the Sussexes, I wish them buckets and buckets of healthy, happy children.

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Even more glorious than their beautiful wedding was the recent announcement of the pregnancy of Meghan, HRH Duchess of Sussex. You cannot begin to fully fathom how excited this makes me for HRH Prince Henry, Duke of Sussex. He has always seemed so alone, so vulnerable and emotionally fragile for having suffered the tragic, violent and sudden loss of his fantastic mum at age 12. So happy to know that they will be parents, and so quickly, and am fully confident that they will make the most fantastic parents. What more than two parents truly in love does a child need on coming into this world… again.

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In all of this, what has not been cool, has been watching her racially predatory white relatives act as though she is nothing but a runaway slave. There is no doubt in my mind that were the Markles a wealthy family with a net worth of more than 200$m, would any of this acrimonious dreck be taking place. How dare she, the otiose, racially impure step-sibling, Meghan, end up doing better than them in life? Not only had this runaway slave managed to have escaped capture but she had gone and married the scion at an even more wealthy plantation.

Alas, nothing was more abhorrent than having to watch the most venal racial predator interject herself into the Sussexes/Markles’ “drama” as she opined on the ABC TV documentary, The Story of the Royals. So what if a twelve-year-old Meghan Markle wrote to you about a dish detergent ad; she also did same to then First Lady, Hillary Clinton. Straight away, the puppet-master orchestrating the Markle step-family’s media campaign of slander, grudge and none-too-succinct racial predation became fully focussed. Who else but this vile racial predator, who uses the U. S. justice system to wage personal racially predatory campaigns, against blacks with heretofore impeccably clean public personae, seated there in its invisible grand wizard Klansman’s hooded costume, could be directing this media putsch to sabotage the Sussexes’ marriage? Well near the end of the 9th decade of racially obsessing over blacks, you would think that having finished off Michael Jackson, made a joke of Tiger Woods and a jailbird of Bill Cosby would be enough; no thank you, there is bigger game to prey on. Clearly, the clown knows nothing of the BRF.

Enough about those who truly do not matter.

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Hier soir, as I live an almost exclusively nocturnal existence, I got into a compensatorily parfumé Uber, driven by a recent Dravidian arrival with rather pleasant overleaves. I was stunned by how much traffic gridlock there was at pushing six in an already dark, autumnal and cool, too, evening. The driver could not figure out why traffic was so bad in Toronto and as I have always been a most vocal backseat driver, I soon began educating him on why Hogtown is the only major North American city without exclusive one-way streets in the downtown core. Back in the 60s through 70s when streetcars were being removed from streets like Avenue Road, Bloor Street, Sherbourne, Parliament, the city’s old WASP guard decided that for nostalgia’s sake some streetcar lines ought to be maintained a little while longer.

Well in excess of 40 years, the city still only has the two subway lines, two million more citizens and what seems like the fungal viral growth of condos. Naturally, the city’s constabulary and the TTC (Toronto Transit Commmission) made an unwritten alliance to keep themselves gainfully profitable by maintaining the streetcar lines that were left. Hence, each summer, kilometres of tracks are ripped up and replaced with the necessity for TTC outdoor workers and police staff on hand to maintain traffic. Well into the 21st century, a woefully inadequate 19th century technology clanks away, holding up traffic and as recently was the case this past monsoon season – climate change is truly upon us – the new streetcars were caught in feet of flooded water with faecal matter afloat their flooded interiors. All this so we never end up with new subway lines, one way streets with the discontinuation of streetcars. At least, Montréal can be commended for having owned up to the crippling corruption at the municipal level of government.

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Finally, after directing him along streets that he didn’t even know existed, I got to the southwest corner of University and Queen Street West, hopped out, crossed the city’s widest boulevard and made it into the lobby of the Four Season’s Centre for the Performing Arts at 1831. Lucian Mann-Chomedy who happens to be a scholar in my entity and a professor emeritus at University of Toronto, who also happens to be an unrivalled Voltaire scholar glowed as I dashed inside. We hugged and kissed and it was good to see his eyes light up; he does have more than a passing resemblance to Merlin… vibrationally. Gave him his ticket to the first opera of the season that we’ll be seeing, Hadrian. Whilst he took to the amphitheatre for the pre-opera lecture, I swiftly made it west along Queen Street West and got myself some very deliciously spiced beef teriyaki washed down with a dash of prosecco.

Returned to the theatre, Lucian shared that he found the lecture rather stimulating; heaven only knows what that meant, I was though too busy creating a post of the evening for my Instagram. What then unfolded was the most god-awful unmitigated bullshit conceivable. Look this was nothing more than effete poseurs of Toronto’s gay mafia, throwing government money around to keep their friends afloat. Watching this bit of bold-faced arts larceny was at times cruelly embarrassing. Of course, it was staged by consummate professionals, thus there were truly sublime moments when the production was marvellously realised. However, I was reminded of all those downright dogfests at Toronto Dance Theatre in the 80s – do they even exist anymore – where god-awful retro-Neanderthal movement was set to, of all things, J. S. Bach.

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Act I opened with vaguely lissom dancers upstage posing overlong as Roman statuary. Naturally, they were lit such that when they finally began moving downstage on the diagonal, in movement that had been first realised by Vaslav Nijinsky (he is a mature sage, in my entity and currently reincarnated and an actor on the Portuguese stage) a century earlier, you really had to squint and try to make out if they were truly nude. Naturally, there was no such luck. That was just as lame as the opening of Act III after an intermission where there was much cruel laughter at what a dog’s breakfast we were having to slug our way through. There was the none-too-fey/verile or lissom-looking Antinous cavorting on a bed that was reminiscent of a couch I frequented in the late 70s where the city’s only queer psychiatrist and I had an ongoing affair. This bit of uninspired staging in the post-AIDS paradigm was as lame as having to watch two bored manatees going at it. Goddamn, where is the frottage! They seemed to be sleepy hobos, trying to make out which side of the bed they wanted to sleep on rather than obsessed lovers engaging in the gay world’s paedophiliacal obsession – let’s not go there just now.

Well, if you can’t hack a pop career in these parts, the next best thing is, go compose an opera. Lord Jesus… why? I am only too grateful that he didn’t set his sights on appropriating black high art and opting for a Jazz career. Last evening, Tuesday, October 23, 2018 proved without doubt that the kinder of minor Canadian celebrity should never be indulged when they elect to pursue whatever line of work mama or papa pursued. I am reminded of “Bathhouse Pierrette” as he is charitably dismissed, playing party leader in these parts and forever looking gripped by stage fright. I was much humoured this past summer as he followed the future Duke of Sussex about Buckingham Palace at the Commonwealth banquet desperately trying to score an invite to the royal wedding and being clearly snubbed by HRH Prince Henry of Wales who was gruffly dismissive of his attempts to score a pair of tickets – in the 11th hour – for him and his insufferable fag hag wife.

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There were points where persons in back of Lucian and me were laughing at how embarrassingly bad the opera was. Small-time, one guy to my rear readily dismissed. Goodness, if there was one more unpleasant reference to “the Jews” in this horrid farce, I was ready to get up and walk out. The opera was frankly a reflection of the archly conservative and frankly sphinctered worldview of Toronto’s incestuous gay elites – many of whom I went through in the 70s through early 80s and who then were just as smegmaed as a can of freshly opened corned beef – those, indeed, were the pre-plague years.

Getting on the elevator to make it to the basement where I collected my pea coat, I remarked, to one woman who asked my verdict, “You know, it would truly have been great theatre if that strobe light in Act IV had suddenly flashed brighter and erased this entire madness from memory. Trust me, dreams are never this bad!” You can fool those of your tightly incestuous social crowd all of the time but never those too shrewd to give a damn about you and your BS.

As ever my darlings, dream like you’ve never dreamt before and by all means, push off and start flying for at least there, you can readily escape the madness that’s got this paradigm saturated to the gills with BS. Thanks so much for your ongoing support, I love you more!  

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Crawl the Fuck In Your Casket!

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Goodness, it has been a long time since I have posted a dream herein.  I have been busy putting the finishing touches on the memoir for which many of the dreams shared herein will be featured.  The subtitle for the memoir will be: Human Civilisation’s First Dream Memoir. 

More recently, I was having a leisurely ride home in the morning up Yonge Street.  I had just ascended the last incline on Yonge before it cruises down to a level grade, then it is hang a right and cruise along Wellesley Street East and home.  Just as I crossed Carlton Street and begun the real steeply graded portion of the ride, a cab pulled up and immediately out popped a female in suit at the start of her business day; she was headed for the 24hrs Shoppers Drug Mart. 

Immediately, I opted to change course and rode around to the driver’s side of the cab and cruised along the little bit of leeway afforded as yet another condominium construction – Yonge & Grenville meant that the two lanes in each direction were reduced to only one.  As I cruised past ringing my bell, the cab driver suddenly began opening his door; I could not believe his audacity.  I shouted him down and insisted that he let me pass, to which the dirty-looking mid-aged Dravidian shot back, “Oh shut up as if you matter!” 

My heart was already pumping beyond the norm after the fright of seeing his door beginning to open as I rode alongside.  Indeed, who are we to think that Black lives matter?  As I was too exhausted to fight just then, I continued peddling hard then started back to the right and towards the curb where I always ride.  No sooner than had I made it round the front of the cab that the hairy back and arsed southern Mediterranean construction worker on the east side of Yonge Street holding up a stop sign, on having witnessed the near miss, shouted, “Kill him!  Kill him!” 

My heart only pumped even more deafeningly as his face became contorted with racially predatory hatred his ilk own so well but are forever careful to claim not to have any awareness of.  Exhausted and feeling like I was going to keel over, I soldiered on too proud to have to stop and deal with the ubiquitous ugliness that is racism.  Yes indeed, Canada is a racist hellhole and they are so stratospherically sophisticated at being venal racists that unlike their tormented neighbours to the south, they do not need the ubiquity of guns when they have quite effectively rendered Blacks as negligible as a weevil-infested bag of flour in the corner. 

Edging less gingerly up Yonge Street than normally I would, I was met two blocks north by more lane closure; yet another block long condo complex was breaking ground – east side of Yonge Street from Maitland Street south.  Riding past, I made eye contact with a mid-aged member of the local constabulary who on making eye contact smiled and nodded in kind; I have always found Toronto’s officers to be worlds removed from their counterparts in Montréal.  Getting to Wellesley Street, I realised that the store to which I would normally drop in to get my cache of lottery tickets and ice cream did not have my choice flavours. 

Thus, I hung right and began homeward east along Wellesley Street East.  Riding past, opposite the subway entrance to Wellesley Subway Station, I noticed three large 5 tonne trucks lined up along the south side of Wellesley’s eastbound lane; they actually were obstructing the bike lane.  Again, I grew understandably cautious and began ringing my bell on approaching the first of three trucks waiting to service the condo complex under construction on the north side of Wellesley where the three hundred pound-plus Dr. Edward Kamski with a drifting eye serviced one of Toronto’s largest group of AIDS patients back in the 1990s in an office low-rise tower that no longer exists.  

As I rung my bell and cruised along, I heard a male voice to my rear impatiently yelling for me to get the hell out of the way.  Finally, when I cleared the third 5 tonne truck, the White male pulled alongside on his bike to start shouting at me.  I was called a fucking stupid arsehole and a moron and called crazy for wearing a helmet with lights on at just past 0700 when the Sun had not yet fully risen.  Of course, White male bigot number 1 million and two wore no helmet and fixed me with hostile looks that were full of rage that had nothing to do with my having been in his way.  Naturally, his whiteness is his helmet and were he to have fallen, he could never possibly suffer brain injury of any kind. 

I am always so happy when the weather turns icy and snowy because all these casual cyclists who never wear a helmet and are forever speeding and illegally dashing through red lights are not a nuisance for a good six months.  Naturally, he let a green light turn red at Church Street so that he could wait for me to catch up to him after he had initially sped off owing to cowardice.  Now he had to return to get his fix of being hateful and seeking someone Black to blame all that was wrong and blameworthy in the world. 

Again, he started with the racially predatory yelling as though this was some moment in Apartheid South Africa and I was his bitch.  Because life is too short to suffer the White tribe and its fucked up psyche, I simply began singing aloud whilst drowning out his dreck – with a little change of lyrics, “Ooooh wooo wooo wooooooo, what a little sunshine wouldn’t do-ooooooo!”  Thereafter, I followed with loud merry scatting as though having to drive off another bothersome neighbourhood yapping stray dog.  You will never fucking-goddamn-arse snuff out the spirit of the people who invented Jazz!  Know that! 

Finally, I got to the store along Wellesley Street East where I have visited since it opened a few years back.  In the last couple of years, I have stridently avoided frequenting said store in daytime as there is a White female clerk there who from the first time that I entered the store, she was rude and has remained rude on the odd occasion that I would pop in. 

Last June close to the end of the school year, I dropped in the store to get a couple of lottery tickets in the afternoon whilst en route to work.  Naturally, there was a gaggle of giggly, bubbly youths from Jarvis Collegiate Institute, the city’s oldest high school.  As I patiently waited, I admiringly observed three Black males who were negotiating with their Filipino and Somali female friends.  They were giving them cash and a list of what they wanted. 

Said one youth, when asked by one of the scarfed Somali why don’t they just get their stuff themselves, “She’s a bitch!  I’m not going in there to be yelled at.”  Another of three out rightly dismissed her as a racist bigot who was always targeting them for being Black.  Straight away, I knew to whom they were referring.  Finally, I made it into the store where as I got my tickets again, the cigarette-smoking, mouth-breather whose idea of post-secondary education will amount to how to successfully cock-suck and breed more ignorant offal just had to be rude, snicker and fight-pick. 

I ignored her because again, life is way too short to have to suffer shit that just does not count.  Previously, I had walked out the store to avoid having to operatically scream at her sleepwalking hateful arse.  Of course, on that occasion, I got home only to realise that my lottery tickets had not made it from the store with me.  I then returned hours later when she was already concluded her shift to pick up my tickets. 

So there I was, after having been met by three rounds of racial animus all within five minutes of each other and mere hours of these persons having awakened; at least I was near the end of my day.  All I wanted was my blasted ice cream, my lottery tickets and go home, turn up my ever turned-on BOSE to JazzFM and have Garvia Bailey lay some culture on me.  For the brief time that I was in the store, as ever, the racist White boor kept up the usual sotto voce remarks and insisted that I get the hell out of the store and take my bike with me.  The bike she has always used as her crutch for dicking with me and since I have always had the manager’s permission to bring my bike into the store, long before she ever dropped out of high school, I had no intentions of being bullied by her. 

So I ignored her bullshit and had quite had enough when she said, “Are you deaf too; like don’t you hear me, just take you and your bike and get out of the store.”  Taking two steps back, I began channelling Leontyne Price after she has just stridden victorious offstage to rapturous applause in Tosca, to Nina Simone singing with stinging rebuke Mississippi Goddamn, to Diana Ross in her live 1992 show in New York City singing with callous brutality, Strange Fruit, to Betty Carter wrapping it all up breezily singing, Thou Swell – and you can always count on Heather Bambrick to drop some Betty Carter when she is on-air hosting on JazzFM. 

“Why don’t you go lay your fucking grey arse in the sun…” I lethally shot back, to which she rebutted aloud, “Excuse me!  Why would I want to lay in the sun?  Like, why would I want to look like… you?” 

“No sweetheart never mind that, the sooner you lay your hideous grey arse in the sun, the sooner you’ll get cancer and crawl the fuck in your casket.”  Of course, never before having had her daily fix of racially charged aggression challenged, her feeble comeback was another, “Excuse me?” said with the sort of lisp that likely meant that her brother and or father were devout cocksuckers as is one’s wont. 

Always having to have the last word, she then added, “Go on, get out the store, you are blocking the aisle.” 

“Shut the fuck up and get some sun, you fucking hideous lizard-lipped fraud.  Not only are a poor excuse for a human but you long ago used up your quota of oxygen.  Go on, crawl the motherfuck in your casket!” 

“Yeah whatever, get out of here!” 

Life is all about choice: you can either play Rodney King or you own your power and be a proud motherfucker like Lena Horne or Frederick ‘Mr. Hat’ Jones for that matter.  As I began leaving the store, right on cue, the morning radio show chimed in with the opening sounds of Robert Nestor Marley crying out, “Oh Yeah!” at the start of his famous anthem. 

Oh ye fucking gods, never before had Bob Marley sounded so sweet… been so empowering.  Getting to the automatic doors, I drowned out her bullshit as the White loutish effete Athenian – whose thick moustache likely stunk of phlegm and faeces – who was in the store observing what went down, got to the counter and began saying some shit about ‘them’; singing for joy, I joined Bob Marley and shouted, “Rasta-far-I” as I slipped through the door and into sunlight which suddenly seemed more crisp, indeed, more vibrant. 

In having taken the time to take this racial predatory boor to task, the universe had synergistically harmonised and lifted me higher as Bob Marley’s infectious idealism took control.  Never before had Marley sounded so beautiful, been so right.  Had I done as too many times previously I had, I would have suffered the indignity of being driven out of the store by the racist lout and missed out, most importantly, on that Bob Marley tune. 

I then got home, had Garvia Bailey’s magical energies groove me back to centre.  But enough of me kicking racially predatory arse; let’s then focus on the business in hand.  I found this wonderful dream of the most glorious eccentric who much informed my upbringing in Crab Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts.  She was the original, the real McCoy… a true eccentric.  Unlike that other Florence (Foster Jenkins) there was nothing lunatic about the eccentric Kittisian Florence (Pole). 

These marvellously uplifting dreams, which had also included a right proper astral plane fuck, were gloriously lived on Thursday, April 1, 1993 whilst the Moon then bugalooed through Cancer and my second house.  These swell uncompromisingly beautiful dreams are to found in volume XV and were audiocassette-recorded on tape one hundred and forty-seven. 

The second dream of eccentric Florence Pole was dreamt on Saturday, March 10, 1990.  At the time, it was a full Moon in Virgo and thus Luna transited my fourth house whilst being conjunct my natal Pluto and simultaneously opposing retrograde Chiron and square both natal Luna and its opposition to Mars at the ascendant.  This dream of Florence was the most lucidly awakened dream poetry imaginable. 

Go on drink from the chalice that is this rare beautiful flower; but don’t get too close and definitely do not get out of line ‘cause I’m a rapaciously carnivorous motherfucker who will hand you back your arse roughly ploughed and bloodied – beautiful flowers always have to protect themselves from being preyed on.  More than that, please know that your support these past three years have been immensely encouraging. 

I quite look forward to sharing the bounty of dreams and the story of Merlin and me in the memoir which will be dropping in coming months.  Be well and always straighten up and fly right, you cool shamanic kindred-spirited cats!  Sweet dreams whether focussed in the waking state or dreamtime; anything less is just not living. 

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Arriving at Florence Pole’s, next door to our Crab Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts house, I ventured indoors.  Naturally, in this the second dream, the entire house was boarded up.

When crossing the veranda, I had cautiously treaded; I knew that the floorboards there had a history of being broken or rotted away.  On entering the doors from the veranda, in place of a living room one immediately entered a bedroom.

This was the easterly room off the veranda which, in the waking state, had always been the living room.  A large single, metallic bed sat in the center of the room.

Seeing it brought back childhood memories that were pleasant to the touch.  Though it was fairly dark inside, I knew that Florence Pole was in the house.

At one point, she called me from across the house; with that, I went in search of her.  From the room, I made it into a large, impressive hall which seemed too large to be contained in the confines of her quaint Kittisian bungalow.

I was quite surprised that it existed and its high-ceilinged beauty was inspiring.  Though the entire house from the exterior appeared to be completely boarded up and thus shutting out any possible light of day, there was a great deal of light flooding into the hall.

Several beautiful area rugs were strategically placed on the floor of the hall; the rugs, however, never overlapped.  They were in the center and were placed in square formations.

The parquetry, down the centre of the hall, was so well polished that it shined.  To see all this splendour really blew my mind.

Seeing that she is such an eccentric, I thought that perhaps she would been some celebrated aristocrat in a past life.  She certainly is an intellectual aristocrat; Florence is so fine-tuned that she is beyond the ordinary.

This makes it impossible for her to relate on the level of the mundane.  How good it was to see her ensconced in such splendour.

She is certainly an eccentric, mature-souled, evolved creature.  A breed apart and onto herself, for that matter, I thought as I moved through the palatial hall.

On further reflection, I realised that her inner life would really look this opulent.  There would be nothing but splendour here; after all, all she gets in the waking state is social ostracism and derision.

The rugs were genuine Persian rugs and were in tiptop shape at that.  They were well preserved and of the finest quality; seemingly, they were hundreds of years old.

There were two long ones, on either side, which ran the length of the hall.  Between them and the dark, rich panelling of the walls were some two feet of empty space.

The grid, which formed the rectangle of exposed parquetry, was some five by twelve feet long.  Wanting to hear the sound of my feet when striding through such a majestic place, I kept to the parquetry as much as possible.

The sunlight flooding the hall left the space infused with the very warmth of Florence Pole’s spirit.  Eventually, I entered the room off the central hall from which she had called me.

When I entered, she greeted me grandly and was truly eccentric.  She recognised me, right away, and was warm and genuinely excited to see me.

Her energies were thoroughly theatrical.  All that I could think was how wonderful it was to see her again.

Here, in this room, there was an identical bed to the one in the guest room; this one, though, was in a far corner of the room.  This room was sparsely furnished.

Over in the far southwest corner of the room, the head of the bed was facing due south.  The door faced eastward and into the hall.

There was no disputing the fact that the interior of this house was considerably larger than her waking state house.  As a matter of fact, it was palatial in dimensions and the home of a very wealthy person.

This, of course, was a metaphor for this woman’s considerable wealth of spirit, intellect and creativity.  Florence Pole has substance and it was being borne out in this dream.

That no one in the waking state actually perceived her, for her true self, is not the issue.  They frustrated her because of their intolerance but ultimately, she was not lunatic, crazy or demented.

This dream encounter validated my suspicions, held since my childhood, of her.  Style and character were innately hers.

Florence Pole had this one particular painting which was in the far, northeast corner of the room.  The painting was on the northern wall but towards the eastern edge of it.

This painting was the most incredibly beautiful work of art.  The art was held in an ornate wooden frame that was gold filigree; the frame was about two and one half inches thick.

Bevelled, the frame graded in towards the painting.  The painting was oil on canvas and was quite rich.

There was a wonderful sense of the ‘blue’; indeed, it was an aqueous sky.  On the ocean was the most magnificent large ship.

The ship was from the age of the buccaneers.  Right then and there, it dawned on me that the painting hearkened back to a past life of Florence Pole’s.

Thus, I presumed, she perhaps had been a pirate; a European pirate who had come over on one of the galleons during the 16th or 17th centuries.  Perhaps, I further speculated, she had come to St. Kitts and had so loved the place that her soul had decided to pass a future lifetime there; of course, that future lifetime is the life that she is now living.

She would definitely have been European, perhaps, British, French or possibly Spanish.  That experience, as it were, had ended up planting a seed in her soul.

There was no mistaking that this lifetime of hers presently hearkens back to a disputatious lifetime of hers; a past life in which she was White of European descent and deeply involved in the pillage, rape and plunder of the spoils of colonialism.  She had clearly had a swashbuckling lifetime somewhere back there.

The ship was brown and black with three masts.  Two of its sails were unfurled.

The ship was the most majestic vessel imaginable.  Never before had I seen a painting that was so alive with sheer realism and creative genius.

She stood there whilst admiringly looking at me as I rather admired the painting.  I knew that Florence Pole knew that I was getting the gist of the ship’s importance.

The oils used were as if still wet and slowly, hypnotically in motion.  This painting was as captivating as when I stood before Rembrandt van Rijn’s Night Watch back in 1992.

Quite simply, I was blown away by the languorousness of the painting.  This was not static; it was as if having a window onto a past in which simultaneously said ship was on the high seas centuries across time.

To say the least, Florence Pole in that past life would have been on board that ship then and there.  Perhaps, she was even the captain of the vessel.

The colours here were so masterfully rendered.  A truly realistic reproduction of things this proved.

In that sense, it truly was magical as it simply seemed to be the seed point from which the actual vessel was created.  The blues of the sea, as contrasted to the blues of the sky, were so subtle that it was mind-blowing.

This was a very rich blue with different tonalities to it.  In its subtleties, this work of art was so sublimely magical that it was mind-expanding.

Also, in the room were two antique chests of drawers.  There was as well an antique rocking chair.

This woman was so very regal and dramatic.  I rather got off on being in her presence.

We completely connected; there was no way to get around the fact that we were not strangers to each other.  She did very much so appeal to my Sagittarian energies.

Our sense of self and style were completely harmonious; in that sense, we were kindred spirits in the true sense of the word.  So very good it was to see her that I said, “Oh, it’s so very good to see you…”

With that, I grabbed her by the hand and energetically squeezed it.  She warmly smiled and together our hands remained at our sides.

The touch of her hands relayed to me that energetic spark of her soul itself.  The feel of her vibration was readily familiar.

She was showing me around the room; together, we spent much time looking over the oil painting of the galleon.  Florence Pole then told me that it was her very favourite painting and held a special place in her heart.

This, of course, made perfect sense to me as it was clearly a pivotal lifetime of hers.  Clearly, it was a lifetime in which she commandeered on the high seas and was quite the adventurer.

There was no sense that there was something lacking in her life, in this lifetime, because she was isolated.  There was a lot of processing going on in her life at present.

I had the sense that she was in the process of transiting soul ages; as a result, she was having to take stock before making the next big leap forwards.  There was nothing wrong in her present lifetime.

She was an older soul; of that much I was, for having experienced her, certain.  I then left the room and walked about the hall more leisurely whilst exploring the various rooms off the central hall.

Meanwhile, Florence Pole could be heard very beautifully singing as though I was not even there.  This was the kind of inner musings in which she constantly engaged without as much as a thought to others’ opinions.

This was one of the most pleasurably rapturous experiences.

*To have been in this great eccentric’s presence as she was simply being herself whilst caught in a groove, I thoroughly understood.  This truly was an utterly amazing dream odyssey.

Here, it was quite nice and uplifting.  More than ever, this astral plane encounter impressed on me how very rich a life this woman is leading.

She was letting me into her innermost lair whilst following her inner voice.  This was the most beautiful and intimate of dances of souls.

I thoroughly connected with the every complex idiosyncrasy of her being.  Florence Pole, contrary to waking state misperceptions, was quite grounded and completely aware of her selfhood.

This woman has achieved a great deal in this lifetime and I am very honoured to have been witness to it; a totally admirable soul.  During childhood, this woman was the object of intense study for me.

Every time that she would fly out onto her veranda, taking to the stage, I would become as if possessed by her.  There was no way to get around the fact that this was great theatre; every time she appeared, I was captivated by her every stunning, quicksilver innuendo.

What I learnt most of all, about her self-absorption, was that it does not matter what it is you do.  You simply have to go ahead and do it because ultimately no one can either stop you but you.

When it is all said and done, Florence Pole was simply exploring her beingness.  For flying out onto her veranda, in full operatic rant, she was fulfilling herself.  END.

When I ventured into another bedroom, I found there a man.  He was mesomorphic, tall and blond.  Although his body reminded me of Storm Isbister’s, I could not make out who he was.

He called me over to join him in bed – even better than I would have scripted it myself, “Oh, my goodness!  Yes… let’s make love…”

The sheets were a quilted satin, the most luxurious touch, as I seductively slithered into bed.  Passionately, we groped each other’s hard-ons whilst groaning and hungrily looking into the other’s eyes.

We truly delighted in each other’s bodies.  All the windows to the house were of course closed; thus we were provided with ample privacy.

Climbing atop him, I rubbed my cock hard against his.  As he lay back there, into the propped up pillows, his body reminded me in its largeness of Karl Weller’s.

Nimbly, I straddled him whilst making his body familiar territory and all mine at that.  We grabbed a hold of both cocks whilst frottaging atop the other.

His cock was longer and considerably thicker than mine.  He was also uncut.

What really freaked me out about the whole experience was how wonderfully real it was.  I could smell his maleness: his balls, cock, precum, armpits, sweat and breath.

Our passionate play was profoundly grounding.  After pinching hard his nipples, with my left hand, I flipped around.

Now I straddled him with my back turned to him whilst still frottaging.  With that, he righted himself by propping his upper body with the elbows.

Grabbing a hold of my contracted scrotum, I began rubbing the ridge between it and the anus against his hard, throbbing cock.  Sweaty and on the verge of going wild, I cried out to him, “Yes, oh god, let’s fuck.”

With that, I went to get a vial of lubricant that sat across the room on a bureau.  Straight away, he drew my attention to the fact that this was the dreamtime and there was no need for lubricant.

More to the point, his referral was to the condoms which I brought back to the bed.  Irritated, he shot at me, “Come on, let’s not use them.

“Look, at you.  Look at where we are, will you?”

Yet I felt the need to use them, of habit, as in the waking state.  He did not protest any further; I then began squeezing some of the lubricant into my palm.

The feel of it was so cool and luxuriant that it made me shiver throughout.  I so wanted him that I lunged at him and began passionately kissing him.

We both hungrily struggled in the other’s arms whilst consumed with one another.  The experience was so incredibly intense.

I did take note that his eyes were very waking state in focus.  That is to say, there was nothing soulful or old-souled about them.

He was very grounded, young-souled and sexually dynamic.  I am not quite certain that this was indeed an encounter with Karl Weller.

His face was not distinctive; besides, I was too overcome with lustful desire to have paid his looks that much attention.  All the way through, I kept on groaning whilst completely enjoying myself.

Nothing else in the world existed whilst being alone with him.  I was not the least bit self-conscious about Florence Pole being close by in another room of her palatial digs.

In all honesty, it was hard for me to transcend my lust and get into him.  All I wanted was to have my size queen’s every yearning fulfilled.

Nothing about him mattered to me but his cock.  I wanted his cock inside me; I wanted the feel of his powerful body all over me.

On my knees in the bed, I faced out whilst he got well lubed and slippery.  The slippery bulbous head of him was just comfortably past the plush, relaxed rim of my butthole when we heard Florence Pole noisily rushing down the hall towards us.

From outside the door, she called out concerned and wanted to know what noise was this.  Stealthily, we both leapt from the bed whilst still engaged and onto the floor.

We threw ourselves onto the ground, on the far side of the bed – north side, away from the door.  Somehow, in our energetic manoeuvre, I had managed my way on top of him whilst he was now completely buried deep up inside me.

The feel of him was mind-altering and exquisite.  Florence Pole then entered and projected her usual feisty, argumentative waking state persona.

Right away, she demanded to know what we were doing; this, of course, was her way of feigning ignorance.  She then grandly announced that she did not want us messing around or carrying on like this in her house.

Speciously, I called out to her and let her know that we were not doing anything untoward.  My left elbow was on the bed, bracing me up, whilst he was lying behind me on the floor; at the time, he was totally hidden from view.

I sat squarely on his cock, with my back fully elongated, whilst yogically breathing.  Whilst she stood there and stayed her ground, I tried to stave off her intervention but the feel of his cock thrusting unabated and rhythmically deep into me was fast rocking me to a cerebral orgasm.

To not lose it and shriek at her to get lost, it took every fibre of my being.  Consciously, I began elevating my vibration whilst simultaneously projecting this process onto her.

The object here was to quiet her fears and elevate her life condition to a place completely removed from all fears.  Try as I might, she would have none of it and simply stayed her ground.

Florence wanted to have whatever we were up to, on the other side of ‘that’ bed in ‘her’ house, to be readily concluded.  Fussily, she told me to get up and be decent.

I was not, after all, even wearing any clothes.  At this point, we had long since ripped off all our clothing.

Florence then insisted that I get dressed and immediately get going.  Pulling up off his cock, I groaned aloud as there was a vacuum tug created in the wake of his bulbous-headed departure.

I could not have cared less that she had heard it all; there was no way to have controlled such intensity of emotions.  This was the kind of cock which on seeing it in the waking state, one had to readily sublimate one’s usual posture as top and pay homage by way of experiencing a momentary lapse and play bottom.

She came over to the bed whilst insisting that we both get up and take our leave of her house.  I then suggested to my uber-lover that we slip out the house, by way of the side doors, which would have faced Jestina Hendricks’ house to the south.

He did not like the idea of being seen together when leaving the house.  Agreeing, I offered to meet him down the street after heading out the front door.

He was mindful that no one suspect him, or us, of having been physically intimate.  I then offered him to come home with me as I had to be heading back anyway.

With that, we parted and left the house at opposite ends.  Eventually, we came together around the corner of the house; there, we pretended to have just met.

We then went walking along the street.  What was really interesting was in my haste to get dressed before Florence Pole went truly wild, I had pulled on my blue jeans and forgotten to put on the underwear first.

Funnily enough, I had only remembered the underwear when I saw it fall out the left leg of my jeans.  The underwear had slipped out ahead of my pointed foot as I hurriedly got dressed.

Quickly, I grabbed it up off the floor and tucked it into my waist.  I secured it there so that it would be held in place beneath my shirt by the belt.

All that I could think of, when we were alone outside, was the fact that we had not used condoms.  All this even though I knew pretty much so that this was a dream.

In my mind, I went through a battery of fears about him being riddled with STDs of one kind or the other.  I became quite concerned and fearful.

I then got in and on entering the house, I could feel Isha da Braga’s vibration about the interior.  Pandora da Braga was there with a brown-folded brochure for a concert or some such.

We were looking at it when she began naively asking, what I had been doing; there was so much implied about the super stud with whom she had seen me out in the street.  Deflecting her intrusion, I told her that I had merely been next door to visit with Florence Pole.

Next, I pointed out that the guy was there with her.  We met and he decided to go for a tour of the place with me.

Earlier, as we walked home, I had been urging him with the suggestion that we go get a room at a bathhouse; there, at least, we could fuck our brains out.  All I wanted to do was to be with him and fuck ‘til daylight.

I told him that there was no way that we would have any privacy at my family’s.  Looking disappointed in me, he let me know that he never went to places like that and did not like my idea of finding nothing wrong in frequenting such a place.

“That’s not my scene.  I wouldn’t want to go to a place like that, at all.

“I just wouldn’t be comfortable,” he protested.

Nonetheless, I was persistent, “Come on.  It’ll be just you and me.

“We’d be together in a room, away from being spied on by anyone.”  I could see that he wasn’t going to get into it.

Contrary to the waking state arrangement, the walk from Florence Pole’s to our house was unusually long – especially for being a next-door neighbour.  Both houses are separated, in the waking state, by the narrow earthen lane.

Outdoors, it was quite sunny and bright.  This, too, had been the case inside the sky lighted grand hall at Florence Pole’s palatial digs.

Sol’s intensity here was also a metaphor for what I was feeling, deep within, as I had literally been walking on air – after having played St. George to this veritable dragon of a schlong.  Well quelle scandalle!

He would have none of my deceptive banter.  Just like that, he put in and let Pandora da Braga know, “No, no, no.  We were over there, in bed.

“And we had a good time.  We really connected and we fucked.

“I mean, we didn’t get to fuck as much as we’d like to.  But it was really a good, good fuck nonetheless.

“It’s like we didn’t do anything.  Yet, we did everything…”

Talk about being completely mortified.  Yet, there he stood all man and no bullshit.

There was no way to get around his candour.  Obviously, he was feeling the depth of sublime connectivity as much as I was.

The passion to be sure was there as well.  Though we had not been able to go all 15 rounds, it was all around a pretty damn good fuck.

Interestingly, Florence Pole’s interruption and nonstop banter moved us onto an alternate, totally unexpected plane.  We were arrived at a groove where we were able to experience the most meaningful of orgasms: an intellectual high, communion of spirits.

What passed between us was quite incredible.  Overwhelming it was and thrilling too.

He was pleased at what we had experienced and, for that matter, he could not bear to have the beauty of it marred by my being in denial of what had had transpired between us.  Finally, I felt embarrassed before both.

Pandora meanwhile, to say the least, did not much care to hear about any such thing.  Adroitly, before being possibly late for some appointment or other, she declared that she had to get going.

With that, I took my leave of them both.

*Back to Florence Pole, she was channelled by Sarah J. Chambers as being a mid-cycle mature sage.  Previously, Florence had been the daughter of the Maharajah of Jaipur in the 15th century.

Too, she has had many celebrated lifetimes on the stage; furthermore, she had had an illustrious past life in Rome.  There, she had been a celebrated sculptor some of whose works still exist.

More than that, as is obvious, she was no stranger to either Merlin or I.  Of course, Florence never did meet Merlin.  END.

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I was on the veranda of 20 Amelia Street and this old White couple who live here in Cabbagetown were present.  They live on Metcalfe Street right at the corner of Amelia Street across the street from Mark Stuartson’s.

*This same august-souled couple also worked at Canada Post Corporation.  They worked there until long years after their official retirements.  END.

They were going home from Parliament Street across Amelia Street.  They stopped because this man was coming towards them; he stopped and they took the time to talk with him.

He was telling them, “Oh yes man.  Yup, Florence Pole died.”

I immediately ran down towards them.  I was truly stunned and called out, “Ou true!”

I ran all the way down and around onto Parliament Street.  On entering Cabbagetown’s Parliament Street, it immediately became the main road in Crab Hill, Sandy Point, St. Kitts.

You could see all the people in Crab Hill.  They were hanging out around Florence Pole’s house.

They had her corpse lain out on the veranda.  I went up filled with love and paid my respects.

I was really pleased to see her because she did look good.  Florence was the picture of ethereal serenity.

Laying there, truly in state, she was truly at peace with her ruggedly eccentric, accomplished life.  Though she obviously was not breathing, there was no getting around the fact that she was aglow.

Everybody was laughing and basking in storytelling tributes to the dear old soul.  Then somebody had us all howling when they said, “Is all dem cussing why you see ‘e live so long ‘o know.”

Truly, it was a testament to her marvellous spirit that it seemed as though all of Crab Hill, if not Sandy Point, had turned out to pay their respects.  Rightly so, Florence was being deferred to.

She lay in a vivid purple casket which sat on three sturdy-looking typical dining room chairs as those popular in West Indian homes.  Her head was facing due south towards Brimstone Hill Fortress and her feet towards the north, the main exit from the veranda and our home.

Florence wore a rich multitoned blue dress which was muted by a thin film of white diaphanous linen.  All about her body were a rich array of local flowers and that green vine whose leaves looked like miniature Christmas trees.

Though it had never been used when she was widowed, the official stairs from the main road up to the veranda was opened.  Persons would arrive to pay their respects by mounting the official, though never used, stairs from the main road.

They would then move about the casket with some speaking lovingly of her.  On the side of the casket closest to the house stood a group of women – they were actually fairly androgynous-looking persons.

Their sole purpose, it seemed, was to fulfill their role as astral guides.  Perhaps, they were astral plane habitués with an obvious soul connection to Florence.

Truly impressed, I had taken my time and stood beside her coffin.  With head cocked to the side, I lovingly looked on at a truly remarkable life in full which had been lived with the greatest panache.

Whilst admiring the collapsed lips of her supremely serene face, my already enthralled lids slid shut.  They did so more for being hypnotised by Florence’s regal beauty than for being intentionally slid shut.

Just like that, my lids reopened.  The moving dream vista before me, however, was totally gone.

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Art:  The Mary Rose and Fleet

Artist: Jean Walker

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©2013-2025 Arvin da Brgha.  All Rights Reserved

Madonna and Child.

Madonna and child

Black and red chalk, pen and brown ink on brownish paper

541 x 396 mm

© 1522-25 Michelangelo Buonarotti

Provenance: Casa Buonarotti, Firenze, Italia.

Today as the gallery is closed tomorrow, I biked to the AGO – Art Gallery of Ontario to see the Michelangelo Drawings show.  I had been really looking forward to this show as the video by Hugo Chapman of the British Museum was informative and engaging.  Perhaps, it was the setting – I really don’t see the point of having had Auguste Rodin works combined with the show.  Seriously, less is always more.

Frankly, I think that the works should have been contained in one salon with lots of seating and darker, more soulful colours for décor.  White walls are so dense-energied and negative…  The only salon that worked was the final one where there were dark soulful walls; however, that look was marred by the garish lighting and imposing Rodins which truthfully I paid little heed to.  Frankly, I was underwhelmed by the show; one needed to be able to sit and truly savor the works of art.  Going from salon to salon with the frenetic colour schemata was disruptive and precluded one being able to have a great time.  For an artisan mood is everything.

Too, as these were sketches, there were times that they were unimpressive.  I am certain that there are truly masterful Michelangelo drawings in private collections; those on exhibit at the AGO aren’t among them.  The only one that moved me is the final piece in the exhibit which for me saved the experience, Michelangelo’s Madonna and child.  After having been decidedly underwhelmed, I came downstairs and went past the galleries of objets d’art to the private salon, took a seat and soulfully drank of Sir Peter Paul Rubens’ Massacre of the Innocents.  I always go there because the décor of the salon is just right.  The mood is set by the soulful tone of the walls and the just-so lighting.  Both work to enhance the power and richness of tones in the painting which is worth every penny of the 117.5$m that Kenneth Thomson, 2nd Baron of Fleet paid in 2002 at Sotheby’s auction.

Of course, I also take the time to give thanks when visiting the salon – it is akin to going to church for me… a think that I last did at my father’s funeral in August 2008.  Today, I sat there for about 45 minutes enjoying the Rubens masterpiece and was ever mindful that this creative genius is in entity two of my cadre – one of greater cadre 7, pod 414.

Merlin and I as task companions are in entity six of said cadre whilst in entity one of same cadre is Jim Henson who has since reincarnated and is female, London-born and plans a life on the London stage.  Too, that entity, 1, is host to Sir Anthony van Dyck who is currently incarnate my oldest friend and resident in British Columbia though Dutch-born.

Don’t know his casting as such things were not shared in the Chelsea Quinn Yabro book, Messages from Michael, but Michelangelo Buonarotti’s Overleaves are as follows:

A fourth level mature artisan in the passion mode with a goal of growth, an idealist in the emotional part of intellectual centre with a chief feature of arrogance.  

Happy New Year and the best in 2015.  I am grateful for your continued support and patronage.  Spread the word far and wide – this right here is the most inspiring, uplifting ode to shamanic realism of a joint on WordPress.  Sweet dreams you, you are more magical and beautiful than you know.  I love you more.

Interestingly enough, when I first began this blog, back in February 2013, I knew that there were dreams like those of Won’t Take the A Train and Cicada Principle that I wanted to share… that I have actually remained focussed this long and have had as many interesting dreams to share herein with you has served to make me realise how awesome this man Merlin was.

Merlin it was who said one night as he cuddled in bed at 20 Amelia Street in tony Cabbagetown,

“My darling, you are quite talented and this is quite the gift you’ve got… don’t ever forget that.”

At the time, we were speaking on the cusp of his final hospitalisation of his intention of doing whatever possible to send me dreams from beyond after his passing as he wanted me to write of him and me.  This coming year, I plan on spending less time on this blog as I put the finishing touches to said work; the story of shamanic Merlin and me interspersed with dreams aplenty many of which have not been shared in this blog.

Too, I plan on being very detailed on this blog in my recounting of my experiences with a former employer because falling prey to the racial predator is not something that one should be ashamed of or live in denial of.  This has been the one empowering takeaway from the Jian Ghomeshi scandal – I always thought him an absolute fraud.

http://www.casabuonarroti.it/it/

http://www.ago.net/

http://www.rodinmuseum.org/collections/collectiontheme/6.html

http://www.britishmuseum.org/

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Horowitz: Live in Vienna (1987)

A Good Photo Vladimir_Horowitz

A week prior to his passing, Merlin was allowed out of Wellesley Hospital to wind down his ennobled incarnation.  That first evening, Friday, November 10, 1989, we sat in our 20 Amelia Street living room and listened to Vladimir Horowitz as he had requested.

Earlier that week, on Sunday, November 5, 1989, Vladimir Horowitz had passed.  Enveloped in our waxing love, our souls were embalmed by Horowitz’s stellar artistry.

Shaman.  Genius.  Guru.  For both Merlin and me, there was no greater combo of these qualities than embodied in Vladimir Horowitz.

The following day, actor, Joe Morton would fly in from Los Angeles for 24 hours to say farewell to Merlin.  Though Merlin had not eaten in long weeks, his Candida precluded being able to ingest solids, he pulled up a chair and joined Joe and me as we dined on Chinese take-out.

This one act of Joe’s allowed Merlin to heal from the rejection of having been abandoned by his god-fugly Toronto so-called friends and leave this world void the bile of having been rejected – they chose to act as they did because, at the end of the day, a dog can always be counted on to lick itself and eat its vomit.  

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A good Vladimir and Wanda

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Photo: Vladimir Horowitz.  Vladimir Horowitz and Wanda Toscanini.

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Happy Birthday!

Arvin 1989 Birthday

My birthday, August 2, 1989.

Last birthday celebration with Merlin before his passing 3 months later.  I am wearing the presents afforded me by one of Merlin’s friends – a disturbed woman whose perception of me was just that… hers.  So as she took my picture – which I later learnt, so that she could show it to Merlin’s mother, Sybil, and claim, “See, who said pigs don’t wear lipstick?” – I, possessed of the most well-endowed pineal gland, looked straight through her and her insignificance to Merlin who stood in back of her beaming his pride, love and joy at having found me and as he said later at dinner in Yorkville, he wouldn’t miss being here for the most happening moment in the universe.

Silly woman; so sad, parading through life without so much as a clue that the better bitches on this planet wear their sex between the ears.  Well, as Merlin’s friend, the actor, Joe Morton – he of the John Sayles film, ‘Brother From Another Planet’ and who currently stars in TV’s Scandal; so I am told because I never look at television – passionately intoned, “Don’t you ever forget this, if you were White and a woman, you would never be treated this way.”

When it came to friends, Merlin’s choices could have been more discriminating; however, when it came to lovers, he never set a foot wrong.  All the lovers who preceded me were stellar, spiritually evolved human beings and I am proud to have been included in their company; prouder still am I to have been enraptured for seven glorious years with the one, the man, the shaman, the dream shaman, Merlin and my task companion no less.  For me, there can be no greater gift each birthday than celebrating the love we shared.

Birthdays are a time for giving thanks and for your support and loyalty I am immensely grateful.

Sweet dreams, if I have inspired just one person to look inward and embrace their spiritual journey through becoming more self-aware when dreaming, I will have accomplished much indeed.  I love you more!

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Remembering Merlin.

Merlin passed 24 years ago on November 18, 1989.

As a celebration of Merlin’s inordinately ennobled life, I have created a new category entitled: Dreams of Merlin. The dreams in that category centrally feature Merlin – a most magical elfin fellow.

Merlin and I met, four years after I first dreamt of him, on Friday, October 1, 1982 in New York City.

Merlin was the godson of the actor, Lorne Greene, he loved: parrots, Glenn Gould, J. S. Bach, bandannas, musicals, magic, patchouli, reading several books simultaneously; one of which he concluded each night at bedtime at which point, he would share the book’s contents. Merlin was a great raconteur, a devastatingly funny mimic which most persons who knew him did not know as he only ever engaged this aspect of his persona at bedtime, after reading, he loved cats, wore a cowl whilst smoking weed and conceptualising how to direct a new play and pacing about our home at 20 Amelia Street, Toronto – which alas you can now see on Google street view – incidentally the black wrought iron fencing in the photo was begun by the neighbour at 18 Amelia Street – a fashion designer of note who was a snob and bore who took to sending us registered letters complaining about our ‘wild’ cats using his maple tree as a scratching post. Though Merlin’s registered responses were wickedly funny and penned by Julio, the only male of our four cats, as my bullshit threshold is readily engaged, I went one better and instead of mailing off the fourth registered response from Julio – hysterical though it was – got a five-pound bag of catnip from the Menagerie Pet Store around the Corner on Parliament Street – it is still there – and proceeded to sprinkle it on said snobbish bore’s lawn over several days… as intended, our then three cats and several in the neighbourhood fast-descended on his lawn wigging out, however, sure enough, they began pooping in the garden and on the lawn… soon the sprinkler system of said snobbish bore’s lawn and garden was kept on all hours of the day to ward off this sudden descent of cats to the prized lawn… alas, the sod was eventually replaced and a silly little fence erected, as though that could ever deter cats… of course, over time, the neighbours along the block would get matching black wrought iron fencing because, well, that’s what genteel burghers will do.

Merlin died on his mother’s birthday and she, in turn, would die on the anniversary of the day we met – 22 years after his passing.

Merlin was/is a seven level mature scholar soul; and the life when we were lovers for seven years in fin-de-siècle New York City and Toronto was his sixth life at 7 level mature and our 43rd life together.  That high incidence of lives passed together was because Merlin and I were/are Task Companions; it also explains why the dreams shared herein of Merlin and me are possessed of such heightened telepathy, love, communion and lucid realism.

Of course, our disparate races meant that some persons in Merlin’s life thought it unacceptable that Merlin should be with me; indeed, one such person – nothing more than a lost village idiot and a clown to boot – as Merlin privately referred to her – made it her campaign to evict me from Merlin’s life…  indeed, those who know nothing of love can act no better and they certainly know nothing of dreams; for dreams are the fruits that a great love affair bears, which is readily validated by the dreams of Merlin and me herein, long after his passing.

Of course, as disparate as Merlin and I may have seemed we were more bonded than was readily discernible.  Apart from the essence bond of being task companions – à la Michael Teachings – Merlin and I were also bonded in a way which he had hinted at.  It was a year prior to his passing and I had been to my father, Isadore’s, for dinner.  On my return home that evening, I brought a copy of a famous family portrait of my mother, Harella, and her family.  Merlin was quite taken by my maternal grandfather’s bushy browed, moustachioed handsomeness and declared, “Are you sure about that Portuguese blood?  He looks just like a darker version of Yitzhak Shamir.”

Long years after Merlin’s passing and just after Isadore’s, in 2008, I would learn that the Portuguese blood to which my family is connected is by way of both Harella’s paternal grandparents having been of Sephardi heritage, along with her maternal grandmother.  Nevis, on which I was born, grew one staple, cotton, during colonial times.  That cotton was prized and the Sephardi were a small colony from not Portugal but Brazil.  Harella’s paternal grandmother was a Levine though it was mispronounced over time as Lavigne, after all, St. Kitts next-door was both French and English with some French families still present, and the tiny Sephardi community were referred to as the Portuguese.  Harella’s paternal grandfather, Claude Sr., was of mixed blood his paternal grandfather having been Sephardi who parented children with a freed slave of African descent… one peculiarity of Nevis – which Canadians are wont to mispronounce as nay-vis or névis it is more appropriately knee-vis – is that it is the only Island in the Caribbean where slaves were allowed to own land and will it to their descendants thus making them freed slaves – odd peculiarity that – and it was a condition of the ‘Portuguese’ electing to relocate there and trade the prized Nevis cotton to both London and New York City.  So, Merlin’s suspicions and intuition, as ever, proved spot-on.

Here’s to life.  Here’s to lovers.  Here’s to Merlin, a lover like no other: magical, charming, witty, sexy as all hell with the largest most hypnotically beautiful eyes, dream shaman, dream companion, über-sapiosexual…

**Since this post was created on the eve of Merlin’s passing’s anniversary in 2013, I have learnt that Merlin’s reincarnated.  He was reborn female in a Northern European city on December 2, 2006.  Merlin also is living the first lifetime as a first level old soul.

Clearly, Merlin was able to grow from 7th level mature to 1st level old thanks to the spiritual work we undertook as task companions after his passing through the conduit of the dreamtime.  All of this is, of course, readily validated by many of the dreams shared in this blog of Merlin and me after his passing.

2/12/2006 = 2.3.2 = 7.  Great numerology for the reincarnated Merlin and that twoness – like my current incarnation assures her a life of being creatively focussed and a definite intellectual.  Marvellous.

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Photo: Merlin in the 1970s.

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